To Forgive Myself is Harder Still...

An Upsetting Loss to Buffalo Bills in a 1993 AFC Play-off game...after the Oilers had pretty much clinched the game at 1/2 time...has made a lasting impression in Houston Sports...and NFL History reels...that has been a hard thing to forget!
An Upsetting Loss to Buffalo Bills in a 1993 AFC Play-off game...after the Oilers had pretty much clinched the game at 1/2 time...has made a lasting impression in Houston Sports...and NFL History reels...that has been a hard thing to forget!

"OOOH-OOOO!"

"GLOOM, DESPAIR AND AGONY ON ME...OOOH-OOOO...DEEP, DARK DEPRESSION...EXCESSIVE MISERY...OOOH-OOOO!"  From the TV Show "Hee-Haw" (1969 -1992) What a Great "Country-themed" Variety Show!
"GLOOM, DESPAIR AND AGONY ON ME...OOOH-OOOO...DEEP, DARK DEPRESSION...EXCESSIVE MISERY...OOOH-OOOO!" From the TV Show "Hee-Haw" (1969 -1992) What a Great "Country-themed" Variety Show!

A testament...to my stubborn will...

To Forgive myself...is harder still.

For all the dumb things I have done...

When I should've stood my ground...instead of being on the run.

As if forgetting about things...makes them go away...

Often...when they return to me...I find they're there to stay.

Forgiving ain't easy...but it can be liberating...if done with proper intentions...

I don't know the true meaning of Forgiveness...it defies all dictionary definitions.

I find the hardest one to forgive at all...

Is the one staring back at me...From the Mirror on the Wall.

Of all the dumb things I've done...and after all the stupid mistakes I made...

You think I would slice down to the meat of the issue...like a sharp blade.

But I sit and grumble out loud...while my brain spins 'round and 'round...

And search within myself for forgiveness...which is nowhere to be found.

The things I recall for long ago...that always start with a "should'a"...

Won't change a thing about today...No matter how much that I wish...they "could'a".

Yet here I sit...with an angry heart...for all the decisions to which I thought of...

"Choices"...and the pathway they went ...will have to be corrected from the One above.

It is too much for me...to look at all I hold myself accounted for...

When unleashed upon me...they knock my spirit down...to the floor.

Those "Choices" surround me...and dance around...and haunt me so...

To learn to Forgive myself...takes more out of me...then I'll ever know.

It can be done...However...It takes more strength to forgive me from the inside...

Then I've ever known...So I'll just carry my stubborn attitude along...further on the ride.

And wait till change is made...at a higher price...of that...to which... I can ever give...

And finally be free...from that heartache within...that holds me back...so that I can truly live.


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Billy Jack's Movie Quote About Mistakes:


"Martin, do you know what mental toughness is? Well, mental toughness is the ability to accept the fact that you're human and that you're going to make mistakes - lots of 'em - all your life. And some of them are gonna hurt people that you love very badly. But you have the guts to accept the fact that you ain't perfect. And you don't let your mistakes crush you and keep you from doing the very best that you can."

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