Tortured by Your Memory

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Tortured Memory

My heart bleed,
The love in me....
I see your face,
In front of me,
Except your not there,
Just a memory.

The pain of missing you,
Damaging my veins,
Twisted Gut,
I'm in a rut....

Walls up against me,
No where to turn,
No voice,
No guidance,
My heart starts to yern....

I bleed at your touch,
I love you so much,
I wish I could tell you,
But I anger against you....

The pain....
The photographic memories,
Stay by my side,
The times we had together,
Still on my mind.

Everything here reminds me of you,
I can't escape it,
I need a new view,
Why can't I,
Just let me be...
Why must I be my own enemy.

Time is passing,
I must move on,
No since in holding on...
To someone that's not there anymore,
Time to look for a new door.

The pain of your absence,
Is skin deep....
No one can feel it,
Except for me....

It hurts so badly,
Stabbing at me,
I can't breathe,
I'm in pain,
My life without you,
Feels plain....

It's something that I need,
To work on,
Inside of me,
Since I'm my worst enemy....

Off in the distance,
The memories of us,
Turns into dust....

My internal battle,
Is now over,
My tortured love,
Is done,
New days had just begun.

But the memories of us,
Will flow in the wind,
Welcomed to visit,
When they do.

My heart will always,
Belong to you.......


Written by : JLono

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ROMANCER OF LIFE 6 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii Author

@ Pachuca213,

We broke up. It was the best relationship I've ever had. A story book romance and I fell deeply inlove, but the situation wasn't a perfect situation for me. So we had to part. But he still has my heart. We both moved on, but the memories of that relationship still haunt me. But I am grateful to that experience.


Pachuca213 6 years ago

very beautiful. Did you lose your loved one in death or did you break up?


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Judy Schmoetzer 6 years ago from Indiana

When you've had intense feelings for someone, you never forget them even after the relationship is over. Love your writing!


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nighthag 6 years ago from Australia

beautifully heartbreaking...


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Georgie98 6 years ago from UK

This is oddly beautiful! It's very painful to let go and move on, but you have written it so well that beauty is exposed in the language.

I also disagree with the first comment, I could clearly see this person moving on. And by the last two lines they know that they'll never forget the lost love, and will always love them deep down.

Thank you for sharing! BIG vote up! :)


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SIJO1 6 years ago

Breaking up is hard and moving foward is even harder and makes you question yourself. Really well written .Hub up!!!


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ROMANCER OF LIFE 6 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii Author

Thank you saleheensblog for reading. Accepting that you have to let go of someone you cherish with your heart, is very heart wrenching, but it helps you to grow as a person. It most definitely is over whelming and painful. I'm glad you liked my poem and thank you for being a dedicated reader. I'm glad I got your vote!

Romancer


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ROMANCER OF LIFE 6 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii Author

Thanks Richlove for reading again... Awww your such a loyal reader. Thank you! I appreciate you for that.

Yes... letting go of someone who captivated you in every way and went beyond skin deep into your soul, is a hard person to let go. But...life has it's reasons and for every reason there's a lesson learned. Thank you sweetie.

Romancer


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Richlove 6 years ago from Denver,CO

accepting to let go of someone is hard... nice poem


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ROMANCER OF LIFE 6 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii Author

No... the last two lines simply express, that although she's moved on after the torture of accepting to let him go, she will always hold him in her heart. The poem here states nothing about her changing her mind, it states her fight to move forward after accepting the fact that they are no more. But she still will always cherish him.

Thanks for reading =-) Glad you liked it.

Romancer.


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minso 6 years ago

Nice poem showing the internal conflict well

I liked the following lines:

It's something that I need,

To work on,

Inside of me,

Since I'm my worst enemy....

However last two lines seem to be not inline with the changed mind? Overall very good poem, very expressive.

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