Trapped By Your Memories - A poem

Enjoy the Melody--Courtesy of julioelgenio

Inspiration...inspiration let the sensation cover her tribulations...

This is the story of Kim, a 34 years old woman, who just have divorced her husband of 15 years. Her first love and probably her last. Unless a door opens her heart to a new life..

Trapped by your memories...



Gave my heart and life to you

knowing that this was going to last for sure

First emotions and encounters by your side

running together to your house late at night


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A young girl that just wanted to love

smiling with whatever you could think of

listening to this girl that became a woman in your arms

fixing two cups of coffee late at night, thinking you might...

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getting used to live by myself and nobody else

losing the sense and the meaning of this life

that fragrance of you, always made that announcement

the clue of your might and full of premeditated romancing


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some women might say I don't need to look down on me

but they don't understand that he was the only one I knew

the one that made a woman of me after meeting my eyes

I bite my own lips thinking about, how, where...and why?


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Yeah! Made two cappuccinos as I always did

fed the birds that we bought in Tennessee

made my bed leaving his side untouched

wiped some tears, 'cause the pain was way too much...


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Three in the morning and I cannot fall sleep

his rants and jokes were the food of the day

three in the morning and I wonder if he feels what I feel

turning around half asleep to meet my mate in distress


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Looking myself half naked

feeling that he might come back

feeling myself frustrated

throat running dry, my bad, so sad


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won't be able to explain it all in here

women have a sense fo what is near

damn night that we broke up

folish egos that never gave up


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what's the purpose of feeling myself pretty

there is no more reasons for Victoria's secret

holding on to the jersey he accidentally left

swallowing my pride that can't connect


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intimate memories that can kill my joy

smiling with no reason and then silently cry

shutting the window that used to show my body at nights..

wishing you were here..could you, would you? Oh my..!

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no words can really measure up this pain unable to trust

the melody of this song tries to capture a load heavy enough

my heart needs some real answers, if you know what I mean.

better go to sleep and see what tomorrow will dearly bring.

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A woman was not supposed to be this open

but on this day I feel like breaking from this omen

expressing my feelings against unfinished walls

for me being loved for once was enough... that's all!




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picklesandrufus 4 years ago from Virginia Beach, Va

Your well written words will resonate with many people for many of us have been in her shoes. Really enjoyed this hub!

Vote up!


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JT Walters 4 years ago from Florida

You make me so glad I don't believe in love well except for the love a Mom has for her child!! :)

Nothing is permenant. We all have temporal existences. Even love is temporary except the love a parent has for a child. And Adolescents might just cure me of that love.

JT


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

Hi Pickles&rufus,

Thanks for the compliment. This piece is dedicated to those women that dared to love once and are on that limbo. Is hard to understand them since they have a world of their own. We cannot judge someone, who for 15 years have spent her life with the one she chose. Thanks for stopping by!

LORD


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

JT, you are an special case. You might as well might marry a Senator...if they are available(joking).

I know your kid is your support and your only love, besides mom's. This piece is just dedicated to those women that cannot find themselves in a new world without a partner, that for almost a lifetime shared so many vivid experiences. Some might realate, others might not.

LORD


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JT Walters 4 years ago from Florida

Lord,

I can't marry a senator. I plan on over throwing Congress one of these Fridays.

Besides I am writing a curriculum specifically geared towards children with Autism. I am doing the research on it with my business partner now. It is going really well.

I know these women who can't define themselves without a man. I just was never one of them. Although I do love being a Mom. I wear that title proudly.

I am back in court in 20+ days anyways. I reopened the child support case especially since I am not getting any and it is counting as income.

Some of us have always been too wise for love. But not foolish enough to marry senators. I appreciate our comment though. I think I would rather be a senator then marry one. The billionaires club you know.

Take care you romantic leading man.

JT


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

Thanks JT,

No more comments..Anderson Cooper..!


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JT Walters 4 years ago from Florida

:):)


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. I tore myself away from someone once for all the wrong reasons - the scars still remain...


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Marcy Goodfleisch 4 years ago from Planet Earth

This touches so many memories - well written, and it captures the torment. Voted up and awesome.


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

Thanks to you Marcy!! This story can be so devastating and surely will bring back memories. I felt like watching this woman and...felt like her heart was dictating the words with pain in her heart.

LORD


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

WOW.. all I can say is WOW!!! You touched something..

I voted way up

it is WOW

DEBBIE


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

Hi Debbie,

Nice to have you here my friend! glad you enjoy this piece. Take care!

LORD


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FloraBreenRobison 4 years ago

I've never been married, but I certainly am familiar with the idea of being trapped by memories of what my life used to be. I have had to teach myself to focus on the present.

Beautiful poem.


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

Hi Flora!

Thanks for being such a good friend. I understand your view, coming from a single 'Dame.' Memories from the past can act and influence on our behavior; just think of the Christmas Fiasco with the mothers, or the stealing of your biography format...just lately the rant from Pinterest, huh? We all have different experiences that define our own self. Well, I don't about Amy: Does she focus on the present too? or is trapped by the memory of a nice dinner.

LORD


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FloraBreenRobison 4 years ago

Amy focuses on the present, yes. Dinner and fresh water are a big focus. She seems mainly concerned with getting all the room on the futon and not wanting me to sleep past a certain hour, no matter when I got to bed.


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

Interesting view,

She is quite a character as I see. Have a nice week my friend.

LORD


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

I just had to visit again...this poem is so special...it touched some deep feelings...thank you for writing this masterpiece...debbie


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

Thanks Debbie,

A woman is an especial creation. Can be a pain at times..like those 5 hours walking with us through the Mall...but they take our SuperBowl rants...Thanks!

LORD

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