UNWRAPPING THE WONDER

LXXVII.



"Today is a gift.

That is why they call it the present."


-Eleanor Roosevelt



Susan Enan - Bring On The Wonder


Can charms

Disarm

The scenic gaze,

To let the day's

Delight

Ignite the rays

Of hope and wonder

Once again, ~

Begin to breathe

Those breaths which peel

The film from off

The wonderment once known,

But torn asunder

In long past storms -

Too long, too past, too gone?

Of course!

It's NOW we're making!

And here is wonderment

Unpeeled,

Revealed

For just the taking.


___© Nellieanna H. Hay





Isn’t that the wonderment of it?


___© Nellieanna H. Hay


The circle

Comes full circle

Upon its other face.

Its race

Is infinite

But never quite

The same each time

It seems to move around

And settles on the commonplace.




Pilgrimage -

Envisioning eternity,

Absurd.

No where else to be but now.

No future time to come.

But pilgrim sails away,

Circumnavigating his soul,

As Earth around its axis,

Remaining where he is

Blindly oblivious.


However far he goes

However long he sails

Looking for himself, his soul ~

As though it hid

Somewhere else

Preparing for another better time,

Absurd!


The wonder of it all,

The life, the soul, the way,

Is here and now, no doubt, ~

Unhidden,

Awaiting simply

To be bidden out

Into the light of day.


___© Nellieanna H. Hay


Wonderment ~

Like pearls on strings

Dewdrops on a spiderweb

Around my head

Accompany me.

I seek and find

The things of life,

The life of things,

Which brings

Answers, tentative;

Peace, serene.

My heart swings

Into greater heights

With you.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


I know

Your glow

And you know

Mine.

What we shared

Was wondrous life

Right then.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay



Freedom never felt so near

Unseen as yet

Though it is

Felt within.

Is freedom

So "far out"

or is it, so far, - in?


♥♥♥♥♥♥

A way ~

Away.

♥♥♥♥♥♥


______© Nellieanna H. Hay

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Sunnie Day 5 years ago

Beautiful poems Nellie..you sure know how to get to the heart of things..I loved all but this line stood out to me..

Pilgrimage -

Envisioning eternity,

Absurd.

No where else to be but now.

No future time to come.

Live for the moment..now..stop looking too far into the future.

I love the video too..I have never heard of this singer and her voice is soothing..Thank you for writing once more a wonderful hub for all to share.

Sunnie


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SilentReed 5 years ago from Philippines

Like sunshine I bask in it's warm. What a wonderful present to read your poetry while sipping my coffee this early morning,in anticipation of the wonderment life this day will bring... and to be the first to comment :)


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

DEAR Silent Reed - it is such a pleasure to see you here! Now I'm envisioning you sipping your morning coffee, probably Saturday morning, and anticipating your day! It's still light here on Friday evening when I've just published this hub and I'm enjoying what George and I used to call "Fridley night". It seems like a lovely time of unwinding from any of the week's pressures (thought they're not too many these days!) I'm looking forward to a pleasant weekend and enjoying every moment of it, too!

Thank you for the delightful visit!


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Sunnie - thank you, my friend!

I guess if you read much of my stuff - including comments on others' hubs - you can guess that I'm rabid about living in the present! If we recall the past and probe the future, we are simply using our present in those ways. It's fine, if we choose to spend our 'now' thinking of those things, so long as we remember which is "real". While it's happening is when it's real. The past will never again qualify as reality and if the future arrives - wherever it may be - it will simply be the "now". Meantime, it's only conjecture and not real.

Somewhere along the line I came across the concept of "The Eternal Now". Isn't that magnificent? If everyone's projection of a heaven someplace and sometime is so - it WILL be now. My theory is that if we haven't learned to appreciate the NOWS now - and to live them fully, - - well - when? We wouldn't know heaven if it hit us in the head! :-) So it is good to just BE. It's such a release.

I heard this singer and her beautiful song on "Bones"! It was evidently written for a particularly stirring episode. I had to find it and I'd been thinking of a theme about WONDER, so it just fit right in. Sarah McLaughlin sings it, but it's not widely publicized. I just love it, words and music both.


Sunnie Day 5 years ago

Oh Nellie,

I so agree about living in the present and savoring the time now...so much wasted time looking back and who knows what tomorrow will bring..I agree...”to just be" is the way to live...I hope you are managing this Texas heat...I think to myself surly relief must come soon...Thank you again for sharing your gift that is alway up lifting and sweet. Have a wonderful weekend.

Sunnie


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Oh yes! While it's valuable to glean the lessons from the past and wise to be as well prepared for likely future as we can, still, it's always a sacrifice of the moment - the dynamic NOW in progress - to be focused on those other times. When really into the moment, one is so keenly aware and alert to things, - sensitive to nuances that would otherwise be missed!

But I'm not into a bunch of fierce efforts about any of that: I just find that really being aware of what IS which one can have a real effect upon and which really has an actual effect upon oneself. And of course - that is the now. If we allow the past to haunt us & determine our choices and our course, - well, actually, that is all only in our minds and meantime, we inevitably are missing things we hadn't even thought about which are actually GOING ON in that passel of time. Maybe it isn't all desirable going on, but we can choose it or not, and make it more what we want and need by participating in it. We can't participate in any other "time". We can only fret and fume or dream and fiddle. So much misery "lives" only in those vague and unreal "times and places". Whew!

I'm doing ok with the heat but I won't mind when fall comes! :-) After August, the utility bill should slack off a bit, too. I'm enjoying figuring out ways to beat the heat, really. A worthy challenge! ;-) Growing up, I had no A/C and Texas has never been cool in the summertime! It's good for me to find some tricks up my sleeve. hehe


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SilentReed 5 years ago from Philippines

Oops! Sunnie Day beat me to it :) It's hard to live in the "Eternal Now" and keep a positive attitude with the daily problems one must face.So it is nice to have a place to go to seek refuge and recharge out batteries. Like Thoreau's immigrant tottering under life's burden (some of which are self-inflicted :)we make pilgrimage to your Walden to experience if only for brief moments the sublime and transcendence of life that your poetry evoke. To be able to unwind on "Fridley nights" Life's simple pleasures....Your George and you must have been quite a medley of beautiful music :) Thank you for sharing.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Silent Reed, there was no way you could tell who was first, since I hadn't yet checked the comments and approved them. You saw none posted, so it was logical to think there were none before you! I answered yours first, by the way. :-) I saw them simultaneously.

Actually, by being IN the now, one is best able to deal with the real stuff going on, and to avoid being ensnared by stuff that's largely imaginary! It's when we get swamped in fretting about what might happen (and might not, at least not as we imagine it) or which has happened & can't be undone, that we become burdened & overwhelmed by the sheer impossibility of all that. If we prepare for an imaginary future, when it becomes "now", it will surely be different than imagined. And if our habit is to avoid the now, it may never really get resolved! And if we dredge up past problems, they're unfixable and our best "might haves" don't change a thing, except to leave us feeling ineffective, while we're missing stuff that we could either prevent or fix in the present!

Whether or not we contribute to our own burdens, (and I believe we often do!) those, like the others, are actually limited to their now-time. It's amazing how many seemingly insurmountable burdens vanish overnight if we allow them to. But often we feel obligated to hang on to them, as though we're being irresponsible if not. It's a mindset we are taught.

What's amazing is that historical transcendentalism is surely the diametrical opposite of living in the now since it was endeavoring to escape or ignore it.

George and I did enjoy our times in a beautiful way for the 30 years. It was FUN! I miss him.


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Enlydia Listener 5 years ago from trailer in the country

I love the first picture...do you know who the artist is?


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Yes, Enlydia - The artist's name is posted with the painting on the hub. It's Edward Atkinson Hornel. The title he gave it was "Wonderment" but I added the written word to it and made it oval.

It is lovely, isn't it? Thank you for dropping by!


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Enlydia Listener 5 years ago from trailer in the country

The painting is awesome...I would love a copy of that hanging in my office. The colors are perfect with their browns with a touch of pink and aqua...just lovely.

I think your poetry and pictures go well together.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Oh, yes - it is just awesome and I adore those colors, too. Soft, but not mushy. Assertive, but not harsh. I always love to mix earth tones with pastels - or even with many of the brights. They seem to modify either.

For a long while here on HP, I illustrated my poetry hubs with my own paintings and sketches, but I have a lot more poetry than art! hehe. So now I look for other compatible art & create the graphics I use myself, so to blend and coordinate. I guess it's a bit like setting a table to serve one's cooking efforts. :-)

But I get so involved in the writing now, I don't get around to my easel!

Thank you for revisiting, Enlydia!


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poetvix 5 years ago from Gone from Texas but still in the south. Surrounded by God's country.

This has a quality of the timeless, the classic. It's so true, and yet so beautifully poetic at the same time. The images and music all fit so seamlessly with your words. I think you outdid yourself here and that really is saying something. Thank you for the wonderful words you share.


rmjudkins 5 years ago

Nellieanna, Each moment is precious. Life is a circular treadmill, but the scenery changes with each revolution. Does the flower maintain its fragrance, or has in wilted in its staleness? Let us not miss life because we are seeking it. I confess, I may have played the pilgrim. Useful, awesome, thumbs up!!! Regards, Robert


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Poetvix! How lovely it is to be perceived and you're so kind! What a pleasure to have great friends with whom to share! Hugs.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Robert - what lovely thoughts. Yes, I fully sense that life's a circular belt, though whether it's felt as a treadmill or a wonderful journey may be given to our own perception to feel and measure its confines. I rather doubt that too much in nature has such ratings as we assign things, which suggests we have choice in that part of our experience here.

Flowers do wilt but then another spring brings new ones to be experienced when one has time to notice (even though we may have only recently begun to!) .

We've all played pilgrims in some way or the other. I suspect that's part of our lesson-plan here on earth, else how would we get past that??

I'm pleased you came by and found it good!


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drbj 5 years ago from south Florida

I have seen the "Today is a gift; that's why it's called the present" quote many times, Nellieanna. It's one of my favorites. But I have read it usually preceded by: "Yesterday is history; tomorrow is mystery."

Beautiful poetry and unforgettable images here, my friend.


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Dolores Monet 5 years ago from East Coast, United States

Hi, Nellieanna - it's been way too long since I've read any of your beautiful and inspirational poetry. "it's NOW we're making" is just wonderful.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hello, DRBJ! As always, it's just so pleasant to see you visited!

As you quoted it IS its entirety. I see others have claimed its authorship, but it's listed in several anthologies as Eleanor Roosevelt's. I love its meaning and it fits my theme here so well, especially the last part of it.

Thank you for the visit and comments!


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dolores - I know! I've missed seeing you! I hope you won't be such a stranger! And I hope you're making great NOWs!

Thank you for coming by!


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

So true:

“The wonderment of life

Is all that happens

In between attempts”

Nellieanne, I’m out of praise-words for you. I’ve drained my entire vocabulary for you – (see the road to your destiny as most famous poet/artist of the 21st century paved with my words, like rose petals of all colours.)

Now I’ve got to create a dictionary with words especially coined to describe your amazing, exotic and sibylline poems. You take my breath away, every time I enter your corner.

So when will your anthologies be available in amazon?


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breakfastpop 5 years ago

Your talent knows no limits. Your poetry is beyond beautiful. Up and beautiful and awesome.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Martie, dear cyber daughter! Ah - you know how visual I am. I'm seeing the scene you've painted with words and I happen to have a "thing" for rose petals! Many of my fantasies involve them. hehe

Hug you and love you so much!

I dunno when. Guess I need to get onto it while I'm still able - haha. (so far, so good!)

Thank you for your wonderful support all along. You're the best!


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Breakfastpop- - And you -- your kindness knows no limits! Thank you so much. Hugs.


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christopheranton 5 years ago from Gillingham Kent. United Kingdom

Beautiful words. Beautiful Pictures.

Thank you Nellieanna.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Christopher, my friend! It's a pleasure to see you! Thank YOU!


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SilentReed 5 years ago from Philippines

I continue to grapple with the meaning of "transcendental". Having been turned off by religious and quasi religious cult figures wearing expensive Rolex watches,espousing their brand of "transcendentalism". Asking their followers to deny the "illusionary" world or await the coming of a "heavenly paradise". A panacea for all our ills and discomfort :). I think the word does not mean denial,resignation nor the indifference of a stoic. For how can we not be affected by the beauty or sweetness of a rose,even though like life it has thorns :) or the feelings of joy and exultation that cascade through the words of a lovely poem yet do we not shed a tear when we hear the lament of a mother who has loss her child?

What is the path? the Zen Master Nan-sen was asked. Everyday life is the path, he answered

Your poetry manage to put into words the experience of the eternal NOW that transcends all and that is what draws me to it :)


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

I like Martie am out of Praise words for you until I see the next hub appear with yet another wealth of beautifully weaved verse. You take us to heights that only eagles can reach and then swoop down and leave us breathless.

I am ever transfixed to each poem, your shear eloquence with each chosen poem you place here captures my attention. This was a wonderful video you included, I simply loved her voice and the song.

Listened to it twice while I read. Thank you for keeping us on the path of the journey you have us on with your magic. You are most definitely worthy of being called the Poetry Queen of the HubPages hands down. Loved every word. Hugs from me to you.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

SilentReed, what you say is similar to what led me away from formal religions and 'beliefs'. What is more presumptuous than to claim that one's "belief that. . ." means it's the infinitely, eternal truth, and because one believes it means that it automatically supersedes and cancels out some other human being's equally strong "belief that. . ." something else - and both beliefs denying that the things we CAN see in everyday life are illusions? No wonder we're set up to fall for the propaganda of politicians and commercials! We've been trained to "believe in. . ." absurdity and to turn our backs on our own observation and common sense!

Thanks for the huge compliment to my poetry and what it means to you personally.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

My dear Ken! You do me too much honor, dear friend. I suspect that the heights are already there within yourself and maybe my poetry stirs them up!

My poetry just speaks of impressions and experiences we all have in some measure at some times, perhaps forgotten or buried; - reading it is a bit of a reminder. It's gratifying to think of that!

Isn't that music wonderful!? I am so glad you listened while reading the poetry; - that's what I hoped would happen! I love hearing music that fits while reading poetry! When I heard it, I knew it would!

Thank you for the abundant compliments. Coming from you, they mean so much!


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Hello, hello, 5 years ago from London, UK

You have such a wonderful personality and it always comes right through your poems. Thank you for giving so much pleasure


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hello, hello - dear friend. Thank you for those gracious words. I appreciate them more than I can say!


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Pamela99 5 years ago from United States

"The wonderment of life" is such a marvelous topic and your poetry is so beautiful. I just had to read it twice. I think this is one of my favorite hubs that you've written. Of course, rated beautiful.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Pamela - thank you for such a lovely vote of confidence and support! I agree wholeheartedly that wonderment of life - and IN life - is a great topic and experience, too! Thank you for the good rating!


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Sally's Trove 5 years ago from Southeastern Pennsylvania

Your poetry is a breath of fresh air for whatever kind of ether the soul is in need of. When I read a Hub, I scan to get what information I'm after quickly. But your first few words in any of your poetry Hubs stop me dead in my tracks. There is no scanning involved.

So time stands still for me while I read and reflect on what you write. You have the gift that lets us see what's inside ourselves, if only we take the time to stand still.

Of this collection, the circle entrances and enchants me. It's just another day in my life, a day that seems so ordinary, but did I look at its other face to see how it is different while yet being the same?

Thank you for that.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Sally, what a wonderful comment. It means much to me to share a sense of the wonder of life in its many manifestations. I know from my own experience how easily we get swept up in 'activities' and somehow blindsided to life in progress around - and within - us. Each of these poems was written as my own personal reminder to stay close to that 'real life', even in the midst of the much activity and distraction. "The circle" is among my favorites, too.

Thank you so much for a heartfelt and beautiful comment. Hugs.


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snakeslane 4 years ago from Canada

Hi Nellieanna, I just left a comment, but forgot to post. Let's see if I can remember, it was so much fun to write it.

"What precious pretty words you string in your wondering." There!

A girl I know (about your age) always says, of Mrs Busy who never takes the time to enjoy the moment:

"She takes all the life out of joy!" And so it goes.

Thank you for the lift I was feeling a little weary, but all better now! Regards, snakeslane


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Oh, yes, snakes - those are delightful words you wrote! I'm so pleased you were able to remember them. And the quote from the "girl….about my age' is excellent too. Sadly, too many folks do 'take the life out of joy'. Sadly, too, it's recorded on their faces in many cases, not to mention - on their hearts.

Thank you, my friend.


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epigramman 3 years ago

What an awesome title my first lady of the Hubs - I will be thinking about that one for a long time to come and it may also inspire me to exploit my own sense of wonder in which I often think comes from within the child in us.

I just posted a nice little surprise card on your FB wall and our Canada day national holiday was on this past Monday - my how the time flies though - it's already half way through summer and on Monday it felt more like Labor day, yikes, because of the cooler weather but the last two days have certainly made up for it because the sun and the heat are both back in a very big way.

You always put so much love and precious thought , my first lady, into each of your hub presentations. The writing is peerless and has that special touch of yours and the images and the design is simply sublime.

Thank you for being you and if there is anyone else like you , lol, well I haven't found her yet, lol.

Sending three big Canadian hugs from Colin, Little Miss Tiffy and Mister Gabriel at lake erie time ontario canada 6:22pm and the cats have been outside all day and I will join them now with my dinner as well

p.s. - I will post and link your beautiful work on my FB page for all to see and read


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Colin, what a delightful comment! Oh, yes it is the child within each of us which gives every day a whole new wondrous thrill!

I am sure each person's original writing or self-expression in any media has that unique quality which is special and peerless. It's what each of us 'does'. We 'do' ourselves! :-) When we realize what a special think it is to BE oneself, it is quite wonderful. Each person IS wonderful!

My hugs and kisses to the three of you! The 4th of July fireworks will be going on soon, as it nears dusk. I'm not going to drive anywhere to see, though. I'll hear it and perhaps watch some on TV.

Thank you for your comments and sharing. Hugs!

ps - I should have linked this hub to the one on Rachel Carson: http://hubpages.com/politics/Remembering-Rachel-Ca...


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pstraubie48 3 years ago from sunny Florida

What a lovely way to begin my evening reading your words. Living in the present and grabbing all of the moments that are so precious is one of my mantras. I so enjoyed this.

thank you for sharing such loveliness.

Angels are on the way ps


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Patricia! I'm not surprised to find we share the respect for living in the present and treasuring its moments! There really are no other times in which to live! Hugs.


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas

I love rereading your poetry as much as reading new poems you've written. It's an adventure, a treasured discovery every time! I wish sometimes that we were related. What a thrill it would be to be an heir of yours. Think of all that poetry you have stashed away that the rest of the world may never be lucky enough to read! A secret treasure better than riches! Now there is a legacy of the most personal kind.


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Shan, for such lovely words of appreciation.

Why do you suppose I'm determined to live to be at least 100? I must take care of the poetry in my own way! I do think of it as my real legacy, as you've also noticed it is. It won't be lost.

This following poem, in a way, says that, though it was speaking of my 'being' - it was no accident that it did so in poetic form:

_______________

Being me is my

Only strength.

If it is more fragile,

More vulnerable,

More blind at times,

Then it is also

Tougher,

More flexible

And perceptive,

Being less distorted.

If it were to be relinquished,

There’s nothing to defend,

Since its essence can be destroyed

ONLY

From within.

And I have tried enough to know

That my essence

IS

My strength,

My only real

Possession.

__© Nellieanna H. Hay

7-5-72

______________

A little earlier, this one proclaimed this inner certainty, also, and also poetically:

______________

BEING IS A NOUN AND VERB

Prototype?

Not I!

I catalyze,

I prophesy,

I speak,

I write,

I laugh,

I cry;

And try

To light another's fire,

Excite,

Suggest,

Delight,

Inquire,

Inspire a flame

With sparks of life,

To salve the pain,

To solve the strife.

To be

A being, -

Being.

__© Nellieanna H. Hay

fall, 1971

________________

Thank you, Shan.


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas

Ah, Nellieanna, you are welcome. I really hadn't intended to say that to you. It just poured out to night anyway. Haha

Everything you do is in your own way! But when it comes to a legacy, that is as it should be.

I've seen the first poem before, but I don't recall the second. They do indeed proclaim both wisdom and your own inner strength


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

You probably saw the first poem on the hub, "I Gotta Be Me". There's a lot of commenting back and forth between us - and Cat - about the hub. The other one is on the hub titled, "Life Is Energy", which I don't believe you've visited. Perhaps I'll put it up on the featured hubs under my profile. It's in a much older one, too (Dimensions), and I usually remove a poem before re-using it, but that one was published when HP allowed one to arrange the lines as one pleased and so they're staggered much as the way I had hand-written them originally. So I left it on there. Once one of those arrangements is even edited, it reverts to the blocky form now allowed, with only an indent of 5 spaces an option.


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas

That is a frustrating aspect of HP. I've tried a few times to sort of arrange some of mine, but it is so limited it takes some fussing with. I haven't really got the time to fuss too much when I do a hub, but the layout of yours and the graphics of yours only add to the work of art that is your poetry.

I will gladly read your other hub, and probably will do so later today. :)


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I understand, Shan. I can email you some information if you’d like. But of course, one must choose what one wants to do, and how, -and what one has the time and means to do; and then, how to maintain that standard.

My dear friend Ian (TwilightLawns on HP) recently wrote a rather passionate comment on one of his hubs about his feeling that writing needs to focus on writing, not on settings for it. (He went on to compliment mine, hehe) I suspect his hubs may have been criticized by the powers that be for varying from their recommended standards. though I’ve always found his work quite well-balanced and wonderful. But he hasn’t published in several months on here and doesn’t see a hub in sight: though I’m not the only one who thinks he’s one of the best and most entertaining hubbers we know and encourages him. I just adore him.


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas

HP standards aren't created for creative writers as much as for the search engines and generalized web surfers. It's more about functionality that will hold the short attention span of those seeking information. But, I suppose they can't really be faulted for that because, after all, they would not have a website if they did not have an income. And those actually making a good bit of money here would not be either.

You can email me the information if you want to. When I had my poems online before, I as free to create the layout an each poem had its own page with varied layouts that were by no means blocky, at least not in the same way it is here. But, few people ever saw that site, and purposefully so. It was just something fun an creative for me to do. It's hard to do that with any site these days, though, because the tools available are limited and overlapping elements are generally not allowed. It's easy to see why you your graphics with another program.

By the way, if it makes a difference or matters - urging you to publish elsewhere wasn't even on my mind. I was referring to publishing on HP. Haha


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

OK. I've no quarrels with any of that, nor any with HP or those who use its commercial opportunity & value to their financial benefit. Why wouldn't they? Obviously, it must be set up to that purpose if it's to survive and thrive. Fine with me.

I've never been one of the critics of and complainers about this setup and prefer to not participate in the furore which sometimes seems to erupt. I am here by choice to just do my thing and am happy for the opportunity to do it among compatible writers.

Of course, I feel badly for those who feel limitations as a personal pinch. If they happen to be in my sphere of influence, I prefer to & try to encourage them as persons and what they do creatively, rather than to sympathize with or encourage their gripes, which seem to me to distract from the main purpose of even being here at all. But I can care and I do, because I know they are good people and good writers.

If you thought I thought you might be urging me to publish anywhere, not to worry. I didn't/don't.


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas

Well, yeah, I sort of wondered if it seemed that. If it did, it would be easy to see why. But - published or not, here or elsewhere - the originals will hopefully be treasured by your family. I don't mean only in the sense of having an original copy potentially literally worth something, but more in the sense of the legacy of your very being. But, maybe you realized that, given the poems you chose to share in response. I was a little not there last night, remember? haha It's a wonder anything halfway logical came out of my mind.


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

haha - well, perhaps I'm sometimes mistaken for a critic when I simply aim that kind of spotlight on myself and try to measure up. I figure that's pretty much what others do about their own peccadillos, so I try to allow leeway. Too much time and effort goes to trying to undo things that really never happened or were never intended. Not necessary with me. That's where giving the other person benefit of the doubt can help avert the possible flare-ups that beset even the best intended of us. And, as valuable as that is to others, it saves oneself a lot of anxiety and wasted effort.


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas

Probably not pronounced that way in English, but I always read peccadillo as if I were speaking it in Spanish. But maybe it only has one 'c' in the Spanish version. Perhaps it is not even of Spanish origins. Hmm. . .might look that up. And, according to the English-Spanish dictionary, it is a masculine noun with only one 'c' in Spanish. So, that was my random fact search for the day. Curiosity satisfied, for now. haha

And you're right. . .more critiquing myself than you. Sometimes something presumptuous is voiced on purpose. That was not. Nor was it meant to presume in any way, as you know, but it felt that way! Anyway. . .that's that and it's done now. Haha.


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

You're right. The Spanish pronunciation would surely have the double 'll' as a long 'e' sound. Here's what my computer dictionary says:

peccadillo ˌpekəˈdilō

noun (pl. peccadilloes or peccadillos)

a small, relatively unimportant offense or sin.

ORIGIN late 16th cent.: from Spanish pecadillo, diminutive of pecado ‘sin,’ from Latin peccare ‘to sin.’


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas

Long 'e' and 'y' - very different than the English version. But, in my mind, anything that looks like a Spanish word is pronounced that way as I read. It's sort of habitual for some reason - maybe all the years of learning Spanish. But then I often correct myself, too. LOL.

I wish I were fluently bilingual, but I can read Spanish better than I speak it and write it. Actually, I could probably even write it better than figure out what someone is saying in Spanish. I only 'hear' parts of what is being said. I can imagine you probably know many Spanish words and phrases, assuming you don't actually speak it yourself, though.

I remember installing a DirecTV system with James for a family that didn't speak any English. She kept asking questions I would answer the best I could, but at one point, I made her repeat herself about half a dozen times. I couldn't for the life of me figure out why 'playboy' and 'babies' would be used in the same sentence! I finally realized she was asking how to block the Playboy channel her husband ordered with the parental controls so that her babies couldn't see it. At that point, all I could really do was tell her someone would be on the phone that spoke better Spanish. Getting that far was mentally exhausting. haha


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

Interesting experience with the Playboy channel challenge. haha.

I, too, have a strong educational background in Spanish, having excelled at all the courses all through elementary school into college - except conversational! Add to that that I was born & grew up right on the border, associating with Spanish-speaking folks all during my childhood (many of whom didn't speak English!) and still I didn't become fluent in speaking it. I've forgotten so much now, not having used it, though I know some vocabulary, technical pronunciation and am a whiz at conjugating verbs.

Contrast my experience with Daddy's, who spoke German as a child and then English and learned Spanish like a native when they came to Texas. Oh well.

I've said it wasn't surprising I didn't speak Spanish, though, considering that I barely 'spoke' English, having been virtually ignored during family discussions as a kid! ;-)


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Harishprasad 2 years ago from India

" Unwrapping the wonder " is such a great write. Nellie, I liked the parts about pilgrim, a way away and wonder is between our attempts to think about it. Wonder is that what we claim to know -we don't know that and what we know that we don't know- we know that. And that we don't claim to know -we know that but we don't know that we know that. So we can't be ever sure of either knowing or not knowing. Wonder is really very exciting and poetry picks up such beautiful threads out of this great illusive web thrown at us. You'll find my comments somewhat bizarre but I have expressed my real feelings that arose in me while reading wonderful words of your beautiful poems. Thanks and all peace.


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

No, your comments aren’t bizarre, Harish, at least not for me. I find them perceptive and keenly aware of what is, but which lies below the surface. I fear that the ‘surfaces’ are the real illusions and the reality is what’s below them. That we know that we don’t know is great wisdom. Socrates said it: “All I know is that I know nothing.” That is knowing in the most aware sense.

I guess it sometimes feels as though the illusive web is thrown at us, as you mention, but I suspect that it is, rather, our own illusive web which confuses, confounds and sometimes can intimidate us and seem ‘other’ until we acknowledge that our own subjectivity is our main contact and interaction with all else.

I’m pleased that my poetry stirs your feelings and thoughts. I’m honored. Thank you.


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

Hi Nellieanna. I've got a song for you:http://youtu.be/m4Wqhr9PWdc. An Oldie, but a Goodie. Like Us!


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you but - oh, shucks. It said "Not Found" when I tried the link. Could you check it and see if you can open it? Maybe just a character out of place. In fact, I'm going to try it by copying and pasting it and be sure it doesn't try to include the period after it. Sometimes that will mess up a link. I'd love to hear it!

How are you? Haven't seen much of you lately. Miss you!


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

Oh no! Sorry...Shucks. It's the second to last song in my music forum thread. Now sending you on a wild goose chase, hope it's worth it. (Think piano).http://hubpages.com//forum/topic/115436?page=3


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

That was the problem! I opened it - Lovely! I've learned to leave a space before adding a period or any other punctuation before or after a link. Once I got the period off the link, it worked fine! I'm saving the music. I hadn't heard it before. I love it! Thank you!

A perfect song for getting ready to go to bed.


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

Third to last. Click Jump to last post, and go up to Crystal Silence, but feel free to listen or add.


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

Great!


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

I just added it to my collection from the u-tube itself. Thank you for supplying another way to get to it, if I hadn't been able to with the link. Tonight I'm not sure which is the flakiest, I or my electronics. haha.


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

Good night Ms Nellieanna, sweet dreams...


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

Goodnight, Snakes. I may dream about Olympics. haha.

If you should want to share it with anyone else just do it without the period next to it, like this: http://youtu.be/m4Wqhr9PWdc


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

I did not know that! Thanks.


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

Oh you are so clever, and talented, and, and, and...


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

Oops - I thought it didn't post so I tried it again and it posted twice. haha,

Not so clever!

I'd clicked the link in he comment box before I posted the comment and it took me to the song. When I came back and didn't see the message, I thought I'd goofed; so then I did goof. aieeeee - haha Like I said, flakey!

Duh


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

Thank you very much.


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you for being patient with my blunders! Hugs.

Now to bed before any more of 'em. Night!


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

Hi Nellieanna, I saw a bit of the Sochi Olympics. Watched the Gold Medal Figure skater from Korea lose her title to Russia. The Korean skater's dance was flawless. I don't know why she lost, but didn't see the winning skater. Sorry don't remember their names.


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

I was puzzled by the scores, too, Snakes. I've heard a lot of the discussion about it among the experts and several of them said that the winner, 17 year old Russian, Adelina Sotnikova was the best athletically, and since it is an athletic sport in an athletic contest, that was a major factor. She did complete more flawless leaps and jumps than others who delivered flawless technical requirements plus stunningly beautiful performances. There were several falls among the top contenders but those didn't seem to be as big a factor as other things. As one of the discussers said, judging is basically a subjective business. It was South Korea's Yuna Kim’s great performance defending her title that lost the gold but got the silver. They’re saying that the next Olympics being held in her country may produce a different bias!

It was also the first time ever, I think, that no US figure skaters won even a single medal. The differences between points/scores among the final contenders were actually very slight. So there are some disappointed, if not disgruntled skaters, though they all made brave showings of being happy to have placed as well as they did, being in the top of the top 10. Gracie Gold was 4th and Ashley Wagner was 7th. Some of the others who were really good, too, seemed to get short shrift. I am just amazed at all of their incredible showings.


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

Oh wow! Thanks for the full report...Canada was way down the list, 13 and 17, again no names. I saw our women's hockey take the Gold though, that was pretty exciting! Although I'm not a hockey fan. The other snippets I saw were in the snow boarding events, death defying! Says I with my feet slip sliding over frozen ground the past couple of weeks as winter makes a last little flurry here.


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Snakes, for the follow-up. Well, hockey’s not my passion, either. After all, growing up in South Texas, I’d barely heard of it, much less being involved. But Dallas has had a team for quite a few years. Even so, it didn’t catch my attention. Football is the biggie here and loomed over my college exposure. When I lived in Indiana, basketball was THE sport. My ex was a good athlete at a lot of sports, though he was too short and small to get into big-time. But it was his thing and he was poetry in motion on the basketball court. My George loved golf, but we watched football. I had it pushed at me as being the best, if not the only real criteria for guys I dated during college - by my domineering sister and her husband. So I didn’t date a lot. There were seldom any mutual vibes between me and football players and no one else was ‘approved’ for me to date. It left me more time for my own interests, especially pursuing, studying & doing my fashion design which was what made it al worth it to me. I ‘went through the motions’ to please my ‘keepers’, expecting to literally graduate out of that. As the tragic story worked out, though, I had to literally escape it, forging a wedge between us which culminated with their tragic deaths only 6 months later, with me unforgiven, but having missed being with them for that horrible accident. Life is usually unexpected, isn’t it?

I have to get involved in spectator sports and feel some connection with the players before I really care one way or the other. Hockey is a little too violent for my tastes, as well, though I have to admire their being able to ice-skate while doing it! So — bottom line, I’d have liked for the US to win, but really was glad for Canada to win it. It really IS the main Canadian sport, I think, along with other winter sports.

I also got into watching the snowboarding events. That is some kind of exciting and it seems more like my kind of competing - to ‘best’ one’s own past performances among others doing the same. Some of the skiing events grabbed my interest, too. I actually left the coverage on most of the time, mainly so I didn’t miss any of the figure skating. But it led to being more of a fan than I’d otherwise have been! haha. Too bad all the skaters can’t win or at least be more recognized for all those years of training. But, then, they probably wouldn’t have done that if not to WIN. Not being much of a competitor type, that goes over my head a bit, except that if there are to be judging and winners, one hopes it’s done fairly so we can all understand the results a bit. I must confess that I don’t prefer being a judge of contests much, either, and not much more, being a contestant or a winner. I am honestly only in competition with myself, liking to see improvement in myself but not wanting it to be compared with or at the expense of someone else. It’s an attitude, however, that has always classified me as sort of a sissy, though that’s not its motivation. haha.


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

Wow Nellieanna, you are a true writer! I was never very good at playing competitive sports. I was too small (a lightweight). I played softball a little until I got a front tooth chipped, basketball a little, then lost interest. But I loved playing silly girl games, skipping rope, hop scotch, throwing a ball against a wall and catching it a million times, and I loved rowing (grew up on the water). With three brothers around I was a spectator more than not, and they were tuned in to hockey which I didn't 'get' because I needed glasses so couldn't actually see the puck on our little black and white TV. We danced in school, some square dancing, ballroom, and all the rock and roll stuff, but that was it. Lots of climbing trees and scrambling through the bush picking berries, very active, but not in sports.


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

Aw, thank you. I'm not sure how good I am as a sports writer, though. hehehe.

Your sports history seems similar to mine. My sports participation was always limited by several things. One, I was 2 years younger than my class mates, having started school at a little over 4 years old; two, I had very fragile bones which broke at the slightest thing. And then, having sight out of only one eye, so no depth perception. So in sports involving catching balls, which were the usual ones at school, my survival instinct was to run AWAY from the projective coming toward me somewhere 'out there' at unknown distance and speed! So I wasn't fought-over to be on the other kids' teams. When it was finally arbitrated by a teacher, I was usually posted way out in left field, out of danger and where I couldn't do much damage to the scores! Even jumping a rope wielded by others was too much challenge. I could jump my own rope, but couldn't judge when to 'run in' to a rope already in circulation. Once in it, I was still rather limited, in case they changed the speed and I couldn't judge it. I climbed trees only if they had easy, low branches. I always loved to swing, though. Not slides - same distance judging or awareness problem, though I've always been able to compensate for lack of depth perception if my own familiarity with the scenario and my own judgement can be applied. But the things most people take for granted provided by their 3D view ahead are missing for me. There are a few things in which having 2D eyesight is a little advantage. It's great for painting because the scene before me is already 2D as it will be on the canvas! haha.

For awhile I was fairly good at tennis till my eyes crossed trying to 'keep my eye on the ball'. I loved swimming, walking powerfully, dancing (by myself, since my dad didn't really believe in it, though later he relented and let me take a ballroom dance Arthur Murray class - when I was a junior in college!). In college I took swimming and Modern Dance in lieu of other Phys Ed class choices. I grew up in a semi-desert town with an enormous natural spring which turned the town into an oasis. There were many swimming holes and a spectacular municipal swimming pool with fresh water flowing in one end and out the other to fill the network of irrigations ditches that wove through the town. But no large bodies of water. Now, though, near that town, Del Rio, there's an enormous very deep lake which spans the International border between Texas & Mexico. But I haven't lived there since I was 10 years old. I've lived around lakes but never near any sea or ocean. I'm a bit intimidated by them, in fact. I did start trying to learn to water-ski in college (during the summer) at our 1000 acre lake here in Dallas not far from my house now. I was 19. I finally got upright on some at age 45! haha. I had tried off and on all those years except when I was married & in Indiana 18 years. I loved boating during a lengthy period in my 40s, both sailing and deck-boating.


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada

Sounds like you have done very well compensating for the eyesight limitation, wow! Yes, swimming, I forgot, dog paddling in the favorite swimming hole at the river (surrounded by rivers in this rainy climate). Never got far with that (literally). Just kept afloat long enough to make it to the sunny rock...probably only a few feet :) Didn't swim in the ocean much, it was too cold.


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thanks. It’s just how it is from birth till now 82 years later, having learned to see the everyday setups & situations in such ways as to be sufficient to constantly automatically choose a best way to judge & pick or to clear the path so as to avoid disaster. For instance, I have no idea how & when I realized a need to shut drawers & cabinet doors which I’d otherwise run into, to anticipate or to figure a safe path among potential obstacles or to analyze my position relating to the road when driving (which, of course, isn’t automatic with depth perception, I’d imagine), but fact is, somehow I did.

Subjectively there is nothing else experienced & known with awareness, through which to see it as any kind of contrast or accomplishment because one must be able to experience both ways to see a contrast. But there is none. It’s merely how it is, not unlike, I suppose, it has to be if one has no lack of depth depression and no awareness that it could be different and otherwise than it is, when having depth perception. haha It’s just how each of us is, subjectively according to our faculties. I find that rather fascinating to try to contemplate, once it occurred to me. But I can’t really know that contrasting ability or lack of it. I just know I have the lack of it but have managed to live with how it is - or should I say, how it isn’t.

Yes! I’ll bet it is chilly swimming in the ocean at your latitude. Br-r-r-r. wow is right! I’ve never even waded in the ocean or in the gulf and very little in any river.

But I always loved to swim underwater, as near the bottom as I could get, even to almost skinning my nose on the bottom. haha! I also loved to stay afloat on my back on top or to stay under water as long as possible. But in that phys-ed class, we had to learn the various strokes on top the water. Of those, I liked the backstroke and frog stroke best. Brings back fun memories! It’s funny to so love the water yet be such a landlubber. ;-)


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DREAM ON 2 years ago

Once again your words cover the page like a fresh falling snow. So different and new. Some say the brightest sight they have ever seen. I am just so happy to walk in the snow not knowing every word or every meaning. Learning to appreciate your softness and how delicate you are to the touch. You are there for all to see. Bringing new joys in the winter and wishing your return after a long summers fun. Thank you for your work, time and effort in everything you do. Have a good morning and a wonderful day.


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Dream On. . . Thank you so much. Your comments and praises made me feel good. Being likened to fresh falling snow is really quite lovely!

It’s been our winter here in Dallas, at least off and on. We get 70s and 80s one day and freezing the next. Quite hard to get used to that. So I’m looking forward to some good warm weather staying around! I may regret that when summer really gets going full-speed! haha.

Thank you for the lovely wishes for a good morning and day. I hope yours was today and will be tomorrow! Hugs!

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