I fear the unknown,
what will happen to me,
what will happen to us.
I pretend I dont care what people think,
but I guess its true that I do.
I care how I look,
how I sound,
how I dress.
I care how I am percieved.
and most of all how I see myself.
I'm scared that this will be all there is.
I'm scared that I wont amount to anything.
and I'm scared that I will.
I've been stuck in this routine life for so long,
how do I get out?
And I'm scared that I don't really want to.
I'm scared to leave everyone behind.
I'm scared to meet anyone new.
I'm scared I won't be as well off as I am here.
And I'm scared we won't last.
This risk bigger than I dare to take,
yet, you took it for me.
And what have I given you?
I'm scared that we're too young.
I'm scared that we aren't.
I'm scared that you'll leave.
I'm scared I'll drive you away.
I fear I'm the reason they all have.
Even so, I fear you will stay.
I'm scared that this isn't what I want.
I'm scared I won't want it anymore.
and I'm scared that I'll never find it again.
I'm scared that, what if I would?
I fear the unknown.
And the future is always unknown.
© Copyright NMJ 2011
More by this Author
Cell phones and technology have come a long way and mostly for the better, but it kills our social nature. We become texters rather than talkers. We become anti-social and shy. Lazy, and rather hide behind our...
photobucket.com Amidst a darkened night, lay a horrid sight. Inside a pumpkin, fresh, she made her home, a nest. Adandoned by her family. An orphan to society. A regular, Raggedy Ann, named Bella, whom, we like to call...