WHAT GODDESS SHALL I BE? - Inspirational
Shall I Be Me?
I thought of a friends love for a Doctor Seuss book and then for some reason this came to mind this morning. I thought to myself, "What Goddess Shall I Be, Maybe I Shall Just Be Me." You see when I was growing up in the entertainment business and it was intruding in all aspects of my life, I used to get compared to many film goddesses "just because." This seemed to be a sort of "old timers" conversation from my fathers generation. He was sixty when I was born and was once a contract player with Warner Brothers Pictures and also a wellknown composer and he dated Katherine Hepburn at one time, so you get the idea. He was always around beautiful women in the industry.
It would always come from my fathers good friends the "old timers," the Frank Sinatras and whoever hung with him, Jose Ferrer who was sort of related in an old type of way (still have not figured out; I think they were sort of half brothers), Mel Ferrer and whoever else would look at me and proclaim to my father... "Hey Henry, your daughter looks like HER. These are some of the old time film goddesses that I was compared to as a young woman.
Sophia Loren, Ava Gardner, Rita Hayworth, Dorothy Lamore and Gina Lollobrigida who was good friends with my father and I was supposedly named after. A boyfriend once compared me to Raquel Welch, but I do not see the resemblance at all except maybe our figure or shape, our spirit and our "do it my way" attitude. I can see myself looking more like her as I age, but not when she was younger. There may have been others, but I just do not remember them. Looking back to these wonderful memories, I guess it isn't bad to be compared to these beautiful women even though I used to roll my eyes every time the discussion ensued.
Now, don't get me wrong I did enjoy the attention but in the back of my mind I was being compared to women who were groomed by the industry and were in the public eye 24/7. Just like many women today who do not have studios buying you clothes and the best haircuts by the best Hollywood hairdressers. Although I was in a place like them where I could look my best, buy nice clothes and pay trainers and also get nice haircuts ($200 and something one's, not $800.00 one's), it makes you think of the "reality" of it all. How can a young girl be compared to such an amazing image or photo's of Hollywoods biggest glamour girls without judging themselves?
I see the comments all of the time in the media from normal women that say "if I had the money to order the best trainers and buy the best clothes every day, I would look like that too." Now with HD cameras, it is harder for celebrities to hide their flaws when they are not being made up by a makeup artist or stylist. It is getting harder and harder for people to keep up appearances and frankly it has to be a big pain in the @#$!
Infact I always hate that thing they do on aol when they show a film star looking like they just ate a bug with no make up on and wearing comfortable clothes that most normal people wear. Sad really that people have to be judged because they are famous. Especially after they die. The media always gets worse when a celebrity dies. Sad really because nothing is sacred in Hollywood.
Weight was always an issue and still is for young women who look at these very thin film stars and compare themselves to them. When I was auditioning for many roles when I was younger, I was always tough on myself about my weight and I still am. Comes with the fact that I grew up in LA, was a model at one time, acted on television in my 20's and I still do appearances sometimes when I feel like it for my music career. The stress of competing against so many thin women that never ate anything at many auditions when I was younger sort of left its toll on my psyche as a young girl who was trying to be her best and make a living in a highly competitive industry. Sometimes out of nowhere, I suddenly WAKE UP and say to myself "For What?" or "For Who?" And then I get mad for even thinking that way! I'm still in great shape and have my sexy curves, but I would say that I do look more like an old fashioned movie star in the 40's with lovely full breasts and a nice shapely bum and long legs (my best asset) instead of a modern one (still not sure how much airbrushing is actually going on ; no one will really knows) which I'm fine with. See? I'm even comparing myself to an IMAGE again! ha It just never stops! The reason why I'm writing this article today is to make women look at themselves and say just ONCE...
"I AM AWESOME!"
I look like what most people would call "normal," not anorexic. That is the main reason why I moved my daughter out of Los Angeles. I wanted her to love herself for who she was and never compare herself to anyone else including false images. Hopefully the media doesn't alter her brain one day. She will have a much happier life I am sure. She has never owned or been given a Barbie doll because they are forbidden! Actually her self esteem is right where it should be and I'm really thankful for this.
So, the point of this article is to look at yourself and ask "What Goddess Am I?" Are you the "Goddess Of Love," "The Goddess Of Motherhood," "The Goddess Of Travel," "The Artist Goddess," " The Gourmet Goddess," or "The Everything Goddess." Look in the mirror today and state your claim! Hell, we aren't getting any younger....might as well SPREAD THE WORD and claim our label now! Seriously, SELF LOVE is important. Dress yourself up and go for a walk! Embrace your love for good food and friendship, pick a flower and name it after you! Daisies are MEEZIES!! And rejoice in who you really are because there is no one on this planet like you! You are the "Goddess Of YOU!!!!!!" Amen!
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