Will I Have The Courage Tomorrow? A Poem in Women's Eyes


Seems like it was yesterday

when I made that choice

of joining my life

to a partner with so much rejoice


been actually too long

to remember

things that i did on that

night of November


I married the man of my life

that's what mom told me

I gave my life to him

in yearly or monthly installments


but lately love has been dying

from time to time

my life has past me flying

night after night

day after day...



our only daughter is old enough

to stop any crying

she was actually the reason for me to stay quiet

and kept myself from leaving

This insane way of living

I wonder where went that sex appealing



have to confess that he abused me all along

either with words or tight fists

my love for him is actually gone, how wrong!

my respect for him took a flight

honestly I'd rather be alone


I always think of tomorrow

but without time I cry in my own sorrow

I think I will have to say....(deep breath)

I don't need to stay

with him like this anymore



I have learned to love myself

to tell him this is it!!!

I redeemed myself from our ill fated past

and also, want so bad to let it out

leave me the chuck alone! (louder)

what about this and that?

what the hell, no more WAITING doormat

anymore.


tomorrow will be the day

that I will end this pain

tomorrow will be the day

that I will tell him

won't ever wanna see you again!


tomorrow will be the day that I will break those chains

waiting for my daughter to grow was not in vain

tomorrow will cut my ties

free from him and ready to love myself again!


If you need help and a shelter call now!

TOLL FREE: 800-932-4632. TTY:800-533-2508. Fax: 717-671-5542. National Resourse Center s for domestic violence


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kerlynb 5 years ago from Philippines, Southeast Asia, Earth ^_^

"I HAVE LEARNT TO LOVE MYSELF" - Just the most important thing in any relationships - to continue to be happy even on one's own. What an uplifting hub, Lord :) Beautiful!


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satice_j 5 years ago from via the Bronx, NY

Your poem touches home. I have known too many women, as an Advocate against DV, that have been the victims of abuse. Continue to share your words in hopes it speaks to someone.

Poems like yours make me recommit myself to helping women find a better way. Thanks for sharing!


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Terishere 5 years ago

Awesome!!! So many women put up with abuse until their children are grown...

Your poem speaks to the heart of many women. It's a sad reality.

Terri


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

KERLYN, SATICE, TERRI;

You might wonder how come a man can write about this with a touching feeling? Is simple, Is based on a true story...is based on a reality that is happening as we write these lines. Economy has struck home and thousands, maybe millions are trapped in a relationship because they(women)would rather suffer seeing their children take that school bus and be somebody and not being able to move on and leave the abuser...who left for work and most likely will come back home infuriated after dealing with coworkers that are also having their own problems. My advice to them is to call that toll free number and pack up a leave. Couselors, shelters and police are waiting for your call. Domestic violence means jail...and seems that women need to make that extra effort to love themselves again and take action!

LORD


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AEvans 5 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

I am speechless on this one. What I can say is, perfectly written! The words are real and true. :)


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

AEvans, your comments are appreciateda whole bunch! Women should realize that there is a light at the end of that tunnel. Thanks a lot!

LORD


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland

Domestic violence is never condoned, but many of us forget that this applies to men also. Physical scars can be seen, but what abut the emotional ones that are kept quietly under cover? ~The world would be a much nicer place if we all debated with our mouth and not our fists.


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

THEBLUESTAR,

Is a debate that will never end like the wars on the Middle East. You are very right! The emotional scars stay forever on the victim, regardless of sex. Thanks so much for stopping by.

LORD


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justateacher 5 years ago from Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Near Oz...

Awesome writing as usual. This could have been written about me, except I had two children. Great resources, too.


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

JUSTATEACHER,

I appreciate your comments and welcome your praise. Actually this is written based on true stories..that have been condensed for HP. When inspiration comes..I open the door and I let it in. Have a good day/night

LORD


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Momma Mia 5 years ago from North Carolina

Touching piece here! I fully understand every word !

Thank you for sharing and using writing to be a teaching tool and inspiration to and for others. Loving Ourself certainly paves the way for most certain happiness!

wishingUwell

Mia


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

May God Bless you Momma mia!

Hope your condition gets better even though got you closer to our Creator.


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2besure 5 years ago from Charlotte, North Carolina

What a profound piece! It is a warning call to all women in abusive situations. Great hub!


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Thanks 2BESURE! Hopefully will reach lots of women and men... who need a last push to make a move that could change their lives.

LORD


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carriethomson 5 years ago from United Kingdom

You might wonder how come a man can write about this with a touching feeling?

oh yes i am!! very well written and absolutely heartfelt and touching!!


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

hi Carrie,

You might still wonder huh? A writer has his resources and his mind...the rest just comes as natural. Thanks again for stopping by. You certainly are a good writer in your own field...Hope to read another hub of yours too.

LORD


femmeflashpoint 5 years ago

LDC - You did some nerve-hopping here.

Even if fear and pain drive them out of a situation like this, if they fail to recognize their own worth ... they'll end up right back in the pit, and often a deeper one.

It's a hard battle, to convince oneself of a new and positive thing, when the negative is so much easier to believe. But, with practice, prayer, determination, and hopefully people who care to cheer them on and lend their own courage and confidence to the cause ... it can happen and it's a beautiful thing when it does.


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Femme flash,

Sorry for the lateness..had to do some groceries.LOL!

You know? you are making some important points here. Actually some a reading you and me..and wondering should I do it? Should I leave? Am I worth the try? Is God on my side??...We can say that yes!!! Just by starting to roll the ball for a change, half of the chains are falling apart... Half of a life time is about to start...

Thanks femme, will be checking your work also!

LORD


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Victoria Lynn 5 years ago from Arkansas, USA

Very powerful.So sad that there's so much domestic violence out there and that so much goes unreported. Thanks for putting this hub together to raise awareness. Both the poem and the video are very effective.


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Hear Me 5 years ago from Somewhere in Florida

Whoa...this is such a powerful piece. Direct and to the point and beautifully written.


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Victoria,

Yea..is really sad how society still is mostly a male ruled environment from sallaries to whipping in Iran... and how can we change this? Maybe a Woman in the white house? Thanks fro jioning the awareness thread

lord


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Victoria Lynn 5 years ago from Arkansas, USA

Ooh...a woman in the White House....I think that would be marvelous. Truly.


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Hi HEAR ME!

NICE HEAR from you again..you are so right! I appreciate your comments..right on too!

LORD


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tammyswallow 4 years ago from North Carolina

Wow.. I could never imagine that you could write with such power from a female's perspective. Well done and vital. I am going to link this to my "Dirty Dishes" if it is ok with you. Powerful!


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

Yes Tammy you can link to it! Like you can imagine, my mind just get and capture the moment..and I just try to put it together right here on HP.Shh! Working on another victim!

LORD


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rahul0324 4 years ago from Gurgaon, India

Lord... how wonderfully surprised we are to hear such a heart-felt perspective of a woman from you!

Very powerful poetry indeed! A message of hope, faith and help to all those out there!


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mary615 4 years ago from Florida

I missed this when it was first published, I guess. Sorry. I can't imagine being in an abusive relationship. I feel bad for any woman who is in this situation.


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

Morning Rahul, catching up with your comment. This inspiration is based on facts and crude realities. We have been exposed to that pain, and as a social media communicators, felt the need to write on the matter. Thanks for stopping by friend.


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

Hi Mary615,

We cannot imagine this abuse. We denounce these bullies that are out there causing harm on women that have not much financial independence and self steem. Thanks for taking your time and read us.

LORD


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treevas1 4 years ago

oh my Good!!!!??

horrible moment ...


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

I know Treevas1,

This is an horrifying experience for any woman.Thanks for stopping by! Have a good one.


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SkeetyD 4 years ago from Barbados

I want to thank you for having the courage to write this poem and then publish it. It looks at a horrible reality of society and makes the reader stare at those words and feel the pain and sorrow. Truly hard hitting.


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago Author

SkeetyD, thanks for checking on this oldie. We wrote it as felt by women around our lives: Mothers, cousins, sisters and even lives around us. At this moment things have not changed a bit. Much appreciated for your visit.

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