Wake Me up When Autumn Ends

Autumn ....do you remember the last chance
for love in your lone youth
Could you see beyond that to
the promise of the spring
No ....it was all blinded by hunger
by lustful dreams and indian summers
I ached for touch ....any touch
driven to desparations
But the only caress...
that of the realities of
a life....just of life

And you ......you sang long into the nights
you wore party dresses and danced
with all of the guys.......
Your dark hair laying on shoulders
and sheets long into boredom
while I waited........
you ran
And wrung your hands over
possibilities
so many choices.......

Now though .......Now you wonder
of the quiet boy down on the edge
of the dance floor........his ache
though ......morphed into a
hardness
an atrophy of the heart......
No one knew the medical terms then
only the instant relief
of nights ....long nights.
You the worldly woman
and me .......
I love the turning of the leaves

Comments 16 comments

ichibanarky 5 years ago

A heartfelt and inspiring, yet heartbreaking, piece of work...well done


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Well thank you ichibanarky , Such was life , and its all ok now.


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CheyenneAutumn 5 years ago

Some are lucky enough to have found the key to hardening of the heart, I guess I never have. Though I have walked away a time or two and moved my life on - within I still hold the spark of what was once burning there. Part of becoming wise I guess - accepting reality over desire?

Great poem my friend - Hope she knows now what she failed to see them - and incredible man with much to say within that quiet heart!

Hugs my friend

Laurie


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tlpoague 5 years ago from USA

What a wonderful yet heartbreaking poem. I felt the sadness as I read your words...great job


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LaurieDawn 5 years ago

Ooooo Ahorseback! What a sad poem, but beautiful at the same time. The heart-breaking lost love, but yet felt in the memories. And I hope you have traveled on in your journey and found the love that could melt that heart Dear Man that has so much to give.

Blessings and hugs,

Laurie


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Expressive longing from a tender young heart...you coming from within your own experience. She coming from whirling chaos...a longing, too, for what she didn't know. I wonder, if she read this now, would she would even recognize herself? If she has regrets? I suppose we all do. Beautiful


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Hi Cheyenne Autumn ,Laurie I Unfortunately [my own fault] was owned for years by that one loss, But never again , ahh the trials of youth. Thank you for humbling me again. Hugs to you my friend.


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Tipoague, Thanks so much , to be young again ! We age so quickly and that part of life is gone.


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Laurie Dawn , yes mam , life is pretty good.!:~] And thank you . your too nice. Hugs back.....


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Hi Amy I still wonder though , Id love to know what she thinks now. But We're lucky to have lost you know? We wouldnt be who we are! Stay well dear girl.


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VioletSun 5 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

Sad, beautiful and heartfelt poem. Your last comment, about becoming who we are after losing in love, was my thought as I finished reading your poem and read the comments. If it wasn't because of loss, heartache in the past, I wouldn't be in the wonderful relationship I am in now; there is a daily, deep appreciation and love for both my s/o and I.


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Violet sun, perhaps our journey's all take the same pathway, And only the selfishness of our hearts tell us somehow our situation is unique. I think I did that , and now sharing with others about life, love , a child and our souls even, let us know .... we are never alone in this universe. Never alone. Thank you and I AM happy for you. We deserve to heal and know within that love is also about loving ourselves. Take care of you , you have a wonderful soul.


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H P Roychoudhury 5 years ago from Guwahati, India

A Wonderfully lovely poem it is!


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

H P. Greetings , Thank you sir, I am humbled by all of you.


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

I remember vividly those moments of broken heart of years gone by, how I pined each day we were apart and then the loss of her into another's arms. Yet time stood still then, and then continued on to better things ahead. Lovely poem, great reflection of sadness...


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Saddlerider , how's my friend ? Ahh , the scale of One to ten! Some are just worse than others ! Always to better things , you are right.

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