What Could It Be ?

A Small Little Mountain ?

Where did it come from ?

You have to be kidding ?

I think we all have had a time

That we would like to forget

A personal struggle

When we feel helpless and uncomfortable

We ask questions there are no answers to

How long will it last ?

When will it be gone ?

Not soon enough

I am looking for a little snow on top of the mountain

That would make me happy

It's an odd thing to talk about

Many people just put it out of their mind

Males or females it doesn't matter

When we were young it happened too often

Parents try to convince us it wasn't that bad

But we knew better

Slick advertisers made a fortune

Selling products that may or may not have worked

Not sure where else to turn

We bought them sometimes by the advice of our friends

In secret we hid

So our friends and family cannot see

Many times it was in a place

Every angle it was in full view

What were we supposed to do ?

Luckily in time

It disappeared without notice just like when it surfaced

Embarrassing as it may be

At age 51 it happened to me



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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

Not quite sure how to interpret this one, but God knows we've all been the one to do something that embarrasses us later. As for snow on mountains, turning a negative into a positive is always a good thing!


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Gypsy Rose Lee 5 months ago from Riga, Latvia

I am still getting hit with many surprises, different revelations and a completely new understanding of me - still crazy after all these years and that is what makes like such fun.


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

shanmarie I love your answer. My answer is more physical but it definitely affects many mental aspects as well. I will give the answer later. I just want to see if anyone can guess. The word mountain is used for something small that feels so enormous. Gypsy Rose Lee Our bodies are always changing and just when we think we have it figured out we don't. Thank you both for your wonderful comments. (SHELLS)


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

See, I'm a little stumped. People turn mole hills into mountains, but is that physical? Possibly. . . Hmmmm. LOL


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie I hope your not disappointed. Maybe I should just keep it unknown and let people believe what they want. Your answers are awesome. Thank you for playing along. So many problems get bigger and bigger if we don't fix them in the beginning. Have a great day.


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

No, not disappointed at all. In light of your revealing the secret, I Am amused. Besides, poetry speaks differently to different people at different times. Perhaps my thoughts were still connected to some of your previous poem messages.Or maybe my own general outlook on life influenced me interpreting. Whatever it is, it's all good, so the saying goes.

It reminds me of the responses I got to the "You, You, and Me" hub I did. I Just wanted to try something different and see what came of it. Great amusement came to me from it just because of the wide array of interpretations. That's the beauty of writing, and especially poetry


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie I find each day new and exciting. If you ask most people they say things like boring, the same old routine, nothing new they view each day like a hamster going round and round on a treadmill. I think it is more like a plane trip to a destination we have been before there are a million different ways and I want to try them all. Thanks so much. ( SHELLS)


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

It's only a hamster wheel if you're stuck in a cage! What is shells?


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Nellieanna 5 months ago from TEXAS

Maybe a pimple? (wink) So annoying, if so. . . .


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie Most people create their own cage even if there isn't one. They are influenced to stop long before they reach their goals. I am not sure why they can't see the big picture. Maybe too long of a wait. Society puts emphasis on having everything now. Vacations, cell phones, money, house or anything else you want. Not really telling you it's a lot of hard work either mental or physical or both. I want the thank all my readers for commenting. So I thought of a acronym SHELLS Sincere, Honest, Energetic, Loving, Lifesavers and Sensational to best describe them. So when I leave a comment and try to explain how appreciative I am the word (SHELLS) helps me explain. Many times in life I forget to thank the people who help me the most. Maybe because I am busy learning and focused on what they are saying I get so thrilled I simply forget. Thank you for reading and sharing.


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Nellieanna You guessed it. Pimples are little pains in the butt. They have a way to drive us crazy. Mine is still here three days now. It definitely was on my mind and I hit it every time I shave. Have a great day.(SHELLS)


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

Oh, I know. Maybe I should have put a wink after that? LOL Have a good day. I'm off to work and maybe today I won't be accused of being racist for doing my job.

Nice acronym and SHELLS right back at ya.


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie I want to go up and beyond. It takes patience and constant up beat positive attitude topped off with a loving touch of creativity. Thanks.(SHELLS)


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

I have a friend that often tells me it's exhausting to be so cheerful all of the time. LOL.


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Nellieanna 5 months ago from TEXAS

Your clues were so good! Yes, they do drive a person crazy. I can imagine that it's extra-tough for a guy to have one of those annoying things, because of shaving.

Holding a washcloth soaked in very warm water over it frequently might help bring it out. But don't squeeze it. Calamine lotion will help dry it up and also covers it a bit. Hope it clears up quickly.

SHELLS. I love it! Hugs.


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Nellieanna 5 months ago from TEXAS

ps ~ Relax a little. Being YOU and letting it flow out is all you need to do. Your appreciation for life and friends is a part of being you and it is communicated. No anxiety needed!


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie If you force yourself I am sure it becomes a chore and an effort. If you want to like breathing and know it contributes to better health and a longer life you might do it naturally or even automatically. Ask your friend how much effort it is to feel miserable and cranky and make other people feel the same way. Then what are the long term effects? You can feel like that every day. Then your friends can make you feel worse. If you focus on your emotions and look at why your feeling sad. Think of small ways that take you out of that mood to one better. You will have real joy instead of a fake face. We all have highs and lows. I want my highs to be off the scale and my lows to be just a little lower. Now that is something I can sink my teeth into like a fifty dollar steak and it won't even hurt my wallet. Nellieanna Yes I have tried your remedies. It reminds me of a story you don't know how good you have it until it's gone. Well this is kind of the opposite I don't know how awful it is when it"s here. Thanks for the reminders. Off to work soon. Having fun sharing. Do you miss working a full time job? My mother told me it's hard to see everyone go off to work and you are kind of out of the loop. Meeting people and having a schedule from day to day. She use to say each day was little different than the next. I would go to work and wonder sometimes it wouldn't be the best thing to be home all the time. My mother had no hobbies. She spent her time help raising her children and grandchildren. When they got older she was like a parent without children. Because she didn't drive and her eye sight was giving her trouble more things to make matters worse. I spent time talking when I could but then I had to go to work. My other family members were busy working too. I thought there was a better way but I never figured it out. Thanks again for your wonderful responses. It's Friday. The weekend is almost here.


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

She's naturally cheerful, actually. When she's sad, we all know. It's just how it is. I actually understand what she means by it, which is why I laugh. It comes with the territory in customer service. No one smiles all of the time even when content, but we are expected to be almost over the top sometimes. And sometimes people interpret us wrong. Just the way it goes. But she's just bubbly on her own. And she knows when I have something on my mind because I get quiet. And that is when it gets exhausting because then it becomes an act.


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Nellieanna 5 months ago from TEXAS

Well, the thing may take time to clear up. Hope it’s soon.

About your question: I have a very full and productive life now, actually. It is a full-time job, taking care of everything myself, including taking care of myself. (I’m a care-giver for an elderly person - me. haha. I got practice taking care of my George). Now, whatever needs done - is mine to do. “If it is to be, it is up to me.” is my motto. It requires having a kind of self-regulated schedule and major self-starting. But it’s who I am and I love it.

I have a number of active hobbies which I now have all the more time and freedom to enjoy and pursue. I’m never bored. I’ve never been bored in this long life, in fact. Was always able to ‘entertain myself’, even as a kid. The days were (and still are) never long enough, in fact. They’re always different in many ways. The things that are the same are quite comforting because they’re good things I’ve chosen to cultivate and keep.

My kids are grandparents themselves and they all live thousands of miles away, in Indiana and Ohio. There are 7 grandchildren, all girls but one, though my eldest grandchild died at age 38 almost 2 years ago. Only one of my grandchildren is unmarried. She lives at home with her parents and is 15. She’s younger than a niece and nephew of her own! Two of my granddaughters are pursuing becoming doctors, as well as raising families.

I have 13 great-grandchildren, 2 of them fully grown (18 and 20) and some others growing up fast and entering their teens. It’s very likely that I’ll have great-great grandchildren while I’m still alive and well. Those two older great-grands are in serious relationships.

I get to keep up with them all online, with occasional calls and visits. But it’s been many years since my life rotated around my kids and their kids. I’m their “Granny Annie” and enjoy them, so the connections we enjoy are all ‘polone’ or bonus,. If fills me with joy but I’m not dependent on it, nor are they.

Some of my (also older) nieces and nephews live closer, and some of my George’s family live closer, as well. I get to see them occasionally. I have some nice neighbors and ‘real-life’ friends. But I am fine when alone, which is the majority of the time. I’m good with people or without them around me.

So the answer to your question is that I don’t miss a ‘full time job’ - or anything. I have a full, busy life. Being self-reliant has its advantages.

I didn’t drive till I was 40, by the way. I was born with sight in only one eye & it couldn’t be corrected. So I understand having limitations.

I so wish that your mother had been able to have more pleasure in her later years. She sounds like a lovely woman. She’d given herself fully to her family but didn’t reserve enough for herself, it seems. Of course you and the other family members couldn’t supply all that was missing in her later years, when you had responsibilities for your own families. You did what you could, but her need was full-time. It’s a lesson for younger folks to be sure to reserve some independence and things for yourselves as you go along, plus taking care of your health. It’s probably the most unselfish thing a person can do for their kids. And it teaches the kids to develop good independence.

I’m ready for a good weekend! Enjoy yours!


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie I am familiar with customers and their and their attitudes. Sometimes there is no pleasing them. I understand. Nellieanna I love the way you keep busy and do all you can to stay active both physically and mentally. Thank you both for your wonderful comments. (SHELLS)


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Nellieanna 5 months ago from TEXAS

SHELLS!


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Nellieanna That's like seeing a cloudy night. Then the next night you see every star in sight. What a wonderful life. We may not see the stars but we know in our hearts they are there. I feel the same way about my future. I can't put my finger on it but I can smell the roses and the the fresh cut grass. I love to see the transformation. Where so many other people see mud and a mess. Thanks so much.


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

Nothing surprises me hardly anymore. . .not even a zit! Hahahaha


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Shanmarie Then what is your greatest desire? For me it is to understand how to take my thoughts and bring them to life. I feel so many strong feelings that I get a sample of what I want and as I follow my scent like a bloodhound on a trail I go into a park where people are everywhere. Having fun and going in all different directions. I can only go one way at a time and each step I take is more exciting than the next. Now the journey is so amazing I have to record it or I will lose it. As tomorrow takes me in a different direction and activity. Thank you for reading and sharing.


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

You like those probing questions, I see. I suppose I am no different than many people, if not most of them. I desire to impact the lives of others for the better with love. Love isn't just a feeling and one can love others without knowing them. To really know someone well and for that person to know me well is just a gift of the most precious kind. The feeling can ebb and flow. Communication can do the same, but when it's real, it's just always there.

Wow. . .you asked a loaded question and might not have meant to. LOL. It's so simple, yet still hard for me to articulate in one example or concisely. In dealing witht he public. . .someone asked me the other day if they caught the guy and I replied by asking which one. The customer was surprised because she was talkign about the guy that hijacked a car from the parking lot on Easter Sunday. I assumed she meant a shoplifter, which is not that uncommon. A cashier got mace sprayed in her face a month or two ago just for checking inside a big box, which was filled with stolen goodies. Now, most don't go to that extreme but it doesn't surprise me much when things like that happen. And I do believe that most people are not intentionally hiding things from cashiers. We're just trained to notice things left in the buggy. Most people are grateful and some have even come back to the store because something got missed. Restores my faith in humanity when that happens. Still, I've been yelled at, cussed at, and the like by over the top angry customers. Sometimes I can calm them and explain. Sometimes it just goes up the chain of command. I can handle the being yelled at if I have to. It doesn't upset me as much when a total stranger unleashes anger on me as it used to when someone I love does. Now. . .what does bother me is customers like the one that accused me of being racist for doing what I was told. Why? Well, because she doesn't know me or my heart and something about it is just sad and it is hard to hide emotion like that. I can explain the policies and procedures all I want and what was so different about the customer in front of her, but I can't outright tell her what my managers were warning me about her before she got to me in line. Besides, she was actually a pretty sweet woman and I don't think she meant any harm by her actions. She just didn't understand, at least not at first. She did seem more at ease by the time she left though. So maybe she changed her mind. But my point to that random story is just that society is so busy assuming and communicating is secondary.

Like the guy who wanted me to use the gift card receipt, which had the card number on it, after I had already used the actual card. He swore up an down that the card was not the same as the recipt and that he had that card for a long time and the receipt was just obtained from a return. I explained to him that it was the exact same, but he didn't believe me so I tried to placate him by typing the numbers in anyway. Of course, no additional money on the bill came off. I showed him it was the same and he still said error on our part. I asked if he was mistaken and that the person at the return desk did give him a card andnot just a receipt. Perhaps he had another card in his wallet he overlooked. So then he started becoming angry. I just got a customer service manager, who of course said the same thing and it escalated twice more before going to the loss prevention manager, who said to give him a $20 gift card just to calm him. You'd think he'd be happy, but he was too concerned with being right. He called the manager an ass and said it several more times after the manager just had enough and walked off. So his irrate yelling fit...so not worth it and no amount of communication was going to help when he wasn't receptive to it.

Someone told me the other day that it is clear to her I have a sensitivity to manners of speaking. Yes, I suppose that I do. Part of that is my training from college courses I particularly enjoyed, which fed my interest in psychology, human behavior, and human interaction/relationships. Perhaps my greatest desire is totally irrational, but I think that it would be that people communicated on levels of understanding. That requires two, however, and not just explaining and talking at someone, but really listening to one another and understanding. Talk TO one another. It's how diplomacy works when it is most successful. Compromise is made. Relationships last. Etc. For me, to understand someone else's perspectives and intentions behind something that hurt me or offended me or just needed to be understood for some reason. . . .it changes my reaction. Not long ago, I clashed with a good friend because her words were harsh and they cut deep. She touched on a nerve and she knew it. But after I told her it hurt, she explained how she said it in love and asked me a very persoanl question if I was willing to answer. I gave it and she said again that she'd overreacted with reasons why. Turns out, I too had touched a nerve I didn't mean to.

Anyway, communication is important. Misunderstandings like the one with the fear she was racially targeted are resolved. Otherwise relationships end and customers walk off looking like gigantic ass hats to everyone else, like the gift card guy. And friendships or family relations are better for it too.

And then the love thing. . .likek you, I see the little things and I am better at noticing the little things people do for me. The mean a lot. I'm more aware of the love languages of those around me and that helps. And even when I don't know it, the little things do matter. A mother struggling with screaming kids. . .a kind word from a stranger makes a difference. I've been known to give chocolate bars to coworkers just because. Or I gave one a gift cards so she could eat lunch. Not a big deal. People have done these things for me too. But when you see the appreciation in their response, then it's worth it all and its' a big deal to my heart because it is content too. A laugh, a touch, a gift, listening to someone talk, a compliment or expression of appreciation, little acts of assistance. . .all of those things are meaningful.Some speak louder than others to certain individuals, but they all matter.

All a person can do is try. I learned many years ago that sometimes we never know when we've done something profound for someone else. It may seem so important to us yet make all the difference in the world to someoen else. I used to invite a friend to Bible study or a prayer and praise session often. She'd usually have an excuse not to go. I never really dwelled on it. I didn't know her all that well and I wasn't pushy about it. Well. . .a year or so later, I got a call out of the blue and she was thanking me for that. The reason she didn't go was an overwhelming sense of guilt she was trying to bury. My asking without judgment made it so that she could not forget but had to face it. She proceeded to tell me about a dream she had, which ultimately resolved her guilt over what she had done. And I never would have known of her confession or that I played a part in helping her resolve it. I really don't talk to her these days but she and her husband are both heavily involved in both music in the church.

Sometimes people are just there in our lives at the right time. They help us through things so overwhelming just by being who they are. And that is my other desire. Even if I never know how, I pray that God use me even in the smallest of ways to make a difference to others. All I can do is be me and reach out, but I do believe He sometimes allows paths to cross. I've been blessed by both strangers and friends alike so many times throughout my life. Pay it forward is a good motto.

And you, my friend, just keep paying it forward with your sunny outlook. There's a positive in every negative situation. ALWAYS. I firmly believe that. And it helps in those times when human emotion is not keeping up with rational thought.


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

Now. . . I haven't re-read that or tried to organize it like an essay so it may not all make sense or flow very well. But you got my initial thoughts just as they were in that moment. Hahahaha. Ask me questions at your own risk! I'll admit that I am more of an open book than I used to be - but that does not mean it translates well to others. heeheehee


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

Darn these 5 minute edit windows. I just thought of something and was going to add it to my last comment. Do you by chance follow hubber Eric Dierker? You two are a lot alike, I think, in your outlook on life. One of his most recent hubs that is particularly touching and inspirational is his Sunday Sermon on the Beauty of Love. If you haven't read it, I recommend it. Powerful thoughts packed into that one.


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie You write in great detail I think you should write novels. I know in life we make many choices. I often look back at the choices I have made and think with all the information that I knew at that time in my life could I have done more if I found someone who had the same energy and desires. I constantly run out of time in the day and go to work listening to employees who have a total opposite attitudes and desires. They are a constant influence like it or not. I could spend all my time reading people's hubs and their comments. Each time I read a hub my mind goes faster than the action on a Star Wars movie. Then I combine what happens in the news, at work, and in my family. When I pick up a book that I find of interest and see a world so different than what I feel and experience. Thank you for your comments.


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

Actually, I am working on a couple of them. I'm excited for one because I am going next month to experience a virtual dementia tour. I heard about them and just had to find out more, so I called a nursing home that does them. It will enable me to possibly tell parts of the story from a different perspective than I originally planned.

But I do tend to write in detail. Perhaps both a blessing and a curse. It just comes out sometimes.

I don't often look at what I would do different. Fact is, it happened. Here I am and there I was. There got me to here. What a rocky road sometimes, but we don't know joy without the pain.

I know all too well how negative attitudes can make everyone else respond in kind, but sometimes you just need to let it be. As the cliche, like water off a buck's back.

Thank you for your kindness and appreciation.


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie I will check out Eric Dierker and his hubs. Thank you for suggesting him. I am happy for you in both writing and your virtual dementia tour. Please let me know how everything goes. I like it when people go after their dreams.


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

You can be there's a hub coming about that tour. Everything else will just have to fall into place as it does. Thanks again.


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

shanmarie I would appreciate that. If you get a chance I think you would like the movie Ask Alice very sad and emotional. A real look into Alzheimer's patient's view of life changing and disappearing around her . Have a good Sunday.


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

I want to see that, but it's not on Netflix yet. Haven't been to a movie theater in over a decade. So I wait for them to go to DVD or Netflix. LOL. I think it comes.from.a book. I should probably read it first anyway.

But at the same time, I hesitate to read or watch too much fiction related to my topic until after I finish at least the first draft. I want to be sure my work is original. I hope I can bring a unique approach to my story.


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Nellieanna 5 months ago from TEXAS

Yes, Dream On. We can always know the stars are there! They're there even at noontime, when our own star, the Sun hides them. They're all out there!

I love your feelings about your future, too,- and that being able to smell the roses & fresh-cut grass reminds you that it's 'out there', too. The transformation you see and experience is in progress!

Meantime, as you say, - it's a wonderful life! Thumbs up!

It's a lovely Sunday so far. A bit overcast and a little drizzle, but, after all - it's April and that brings 'April Showers'! Remember that good old song?


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie If you ever need a test monkey I would love to read your rough draft.I have a few ideas of my own I would love to share if you would be interested in cowriting something. I have spent over ten years with the elderly and appreciating the lessons they have taught me. Sometimes you need a male and a females view to capture the essence of the real life emotions. Thanx for caring. Nellieanna I have so many good feelings I have to put some in a jar and put the cover on tight. Just to let other smaller feelings blossom. Then I open the jar up and watch how the new feelings mix with my old ones. There is no end to positivity. That's another story. Once you let the power of good take over there is never a time goodness doesn't shine. It's like having a sip of wine. It puts me in the right frame of mind all the time. Thanx for giving me a chance to express myself. I am like toast in a toaster I can't wait to pop up.


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

I will definitely keep you in mind for a test reader. I honestly don't think I will use a copywriter on this one, however. I have already paid a self publishing company so all I have to do at this point is finish. Well, that and work with an editor.

Although. . .There might be something else you can collaborate with me on if you wish. I'll email you. Thanks


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie It's always good to have a second opinion. Wishing you great success.I would will share an idea I also had that I have been tossing around for sometime. Thanks.


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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

Ten years? Mind if I ask what you do?


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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie I am a fast order cook at a local seafood restaurant. It was suppose to be my job for a few years until I decided what I wanted to do. Thirty two years later I still haven't decided.yet. I am a Toys R kid who never grew up. Thank you for your comments and suggestions.


Breath in Peace 5 months ago

Thank you for the snow on top of the mountain introduction!


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Breath in Peace I try to find unique ways to share unusual situations and common every day routines that we experience every day. Thank you for reading and commenting. Have an awesome night.

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