What I Ought To Be

Green Thought Bubbles
Green Thought Bubbles | Source

Finally decided to take it seriously.

After a not-so eventful life.

It was necessary .


Though my work had to plan.

In my life I had no plan.

I was not necessary.


Reality had set in

Idealism started crumbling.

A docile entity I became


Constantly transformed

As the circumstances allowed.

It was safer that way

Than circumstances would allow.


Transitions were hard to bear.

Unprepared most of the time.

Incoherent

No self improvement.


Finally decided to take it seriously.

When dumbstruck with a question in a party

Young professionals in a foreign country.


“What type of books are you reading?”.

“Pretty much, anything anybody lends me”.

That was the truth, irrevocably.


As subtle as it may seem,

Life was summarized

Outlook defined.


I let circumstances drive

Anticipating a phenomenal force.

Yet layer by layer, encrusted the robe


Anticipating. Waiting.

No, it was not outstanding.


Female, Working, Single

Not looking

Not in a relationship

Live with friends? Live alone?

It is like an equation.

Likes dogs? Love books?

The variables identified

A? Vegetarian?

The relationships determined

Liberal? Conservative?

It works. Cause and effects are established.


Just myself.

Unable to describe myself.

More by this Author


Comments 10 comments

newday98033 5 years ago

Thank you for writing! I read whatever came up, too. I don't read much anymore but what comes up still seems a good idea.

An interesting movie from the same perspective as above but with a different attitude is Happy-Go-Lucky.


anjperez profile image

anjperez 5 years ago Author

thanks newday98033! Happy-Go-Lucky was on HBO many years ago but i missed it. I never thought it would be this kind of movie. I have to watch this. thanks for this tip. glad you dropped by and left your comment.


anjperez profile image

anjperez 5 years ago Author

thanks newday98033! Happy-Go-Lucky was on HBO many years ago but i missed it. I never thought it would be this kind of movie. I have to watch this. thanks for this tip. glad you dropped by and left your comment.


newday98033 5 years ago

Okay, not to mislead you Happy is about a woman who deals with life as it comes, but with joy and equanimity. I don't know if you will like it, but it seems you, as I, have dealt with life as a puzzle to watch rather than a moose to shoot. I understand you. The movie is a good shove in another direction.

I got a lot out of it.


anjperez profile image

anjperez 5 years ago Author

okay, glad you put that note. thanks for the info! (,")


Denise Handlon profile image

Denise Handlon 5 years ago from North Carolina

Beautifully revealing poem. Thanks for sharing. You seem to have a special sensitivity. Many Blessings.


anjperez profile image

anjperez 5 years ago Author

thanks denise! i am not so sure if I have a special sensitivity. maybe i am just thinking too much. i am not sure. but whatever it is, glad that i am able to use them for things like this. Many Blessings to you too!


PDXKaraokeGuy profile image

PDXKaraokeGuy 5 years ago from Portland, Oregon

wow, anj. very impressed with this. very good work!


anjperez profile image

anjperez 5 years ago Author

thanks PDXKaraokeGuy. glad that you liked it. (,")


PDXKaraokeGuy profile image

PDXKaraokeGuy 5 years ago from Portland, Oregon

me too;-) you're welcome!

    Sign in or sign up and post using a HubPages Network account.

    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment

    No HTML is allowed in comments, but URLs will be hyperlinked. Comments are not for promoting your articles or other sites.


    Click to Rate This Article
    working