What I don't Admit

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What I Don't Admit

By Tony DeLorger © 2012



Enraptured by my words of steel,

on solid ground when senses real,

when hearts do ache from truth withheld,

denial bent with lies to sell.



And me all sound within my head,

spurt forth the drone of relics dead,

unlearned in veiled pretentious right,

grasping for illusive light.



Pretence a coat I ware quite well,

its warmth a foolish acrid smell,

from rotting thoughts and lazy mind,

aloof and petty quandary rhyme.



Worse still the fact that I recant,

this knowledge worn in all I am,

and still I play my silly game,

my human plight a world to tame.



What works in life is often trite,

and I my illusive butterfly,

push hard to see what can I break,

and left what I can handle, take.



Illusions grow from seeds that glow,

and in their radiant beams I go,

envisaged worlds where love does reign,

and all my shit a sweet refrain.


Madness for all its departure makes,

sanity seem so loathed to take,

the front seat of my conscious will,

to drive me to my destined ill.



For life is hard and struggle fair,

and we the victims of despair,

that fall from grace and happy life,

by denying a smile when pain is rife.



And pretending pain is less than real,

is a fools game in fear reveal,

acceptance always the open door,

where light in waiting can bathe, restore.



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Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Glad you enjoy it Aubrey. Nice to hear from you.


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CrazedNovelist 4 years ago from Hampton, GA

Awesome work, Tony! :) Always a pleasure reading your work.


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Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

You are always kind Leslie. I do appreciate your comments.


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Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Thanks Joy. thanks for dropping by.


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ImKarn23 4 years ago

oh, how we deceive ourselves - and others. ego and fear are 2 very strong motivators that battle each other constantly for supremacy! A life well learned and well lived becomes more concerned with...acceptance and gratitude! You are an amazingly wise and brave man, Tony - that becomes more and more evident to me..tweeting, voting..


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Joy56 4 years ago

Nicely said......


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Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Thank you tobusiness, glad you appreciated it.


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tobusiness 4 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

This is beautifully done, profoundly sad. Voting up.


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Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Thanks LaThing, so glad you connected. Nice to hear from you.


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LaThing 4 years ago from From a World Within, USA

Stunning! Very touching, describing the inner soul and the barriers outside..... Smiling, while your heart weeps! Voting up and ++


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Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Thanks Neny, glad enjoyed it. Thanks for dropping by.


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nenytridiana 4 years ago from Probolinggo - Jawa Timur - Indonesia

Love, despair and hope were strung beautifully. And the pictures are matched the content.

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