What I Wanted, and What I Became. A Sonnet, Dedicated to Frank Atanacio For His Love of Poetry and Flash Fiction

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I wanted to become a weaver of words,

But the Beloved made me an ant,

Slipping through His delicately woven tapestry of diction.

I wanted to have a way with speech,

But the eloquence of Rumi sealed my honeyed tongue;

Became a sweet-scented flower, to inebriate my Soul.

I wanted to become a Bard of Solace,

But Shakespeare whispered into my bouquet of lipped flowers.

I became a Lantern Carrier;

My Soul was pierced by the rays of the sun,

Burning my words with the Fire of Calligraphy.

I wanted to become a servant of His Majesty.

The Beloved entered the very portal of my Life’s breath,

And said: “Take me … for I am yours.”


-Manatita, The Lantern Carrier. ©Copyrighted 19th December, 2015.

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Surabhi Kaura 9 months ago from Toronto, Canada

What an incredible poem, Manatita! Sheer power in your words, and that’s very important. A remarkable one indeed! Bang on! Bang on!

I thought of it as a tear, but it came out as a pearl.

I thought of it as a coal, but it came out as a diamond.

I thought of it as a crimson petal, but it came out as a poetic Heart!

Very nice musical video. Beautiful lyrics by Bulleh Shah The Great! She is reciting his song in classic Punjabi. That’s not from the Indian side though… perhaps from Pakistan. So her Punjabi was a bit difficult to understand, but the subtitles underneath helped in bringing a ray of Light. Awesome. Jai Lord!


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billybuc 9 months ago from Olympia, WA

As always, a fine dedication to a fine writer. You do choose some good ones to showcase, Manatita. Bravo!


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

My Sweet Surabhi,

I had to look again. I thought that it was a man. Haha.

You're mimicking me in your awesome stanza. he he. All good. Love you! Jai Lord indeed!

Bill, I thank you much, as I know you have a lot to do. Thank you for gracing my page here so often as you do. Gratitude...much


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swalia 9 months ago

"I wanted to become a servant of His Majesty."

You are an incredible servant of your master...a true disciple! You are a masterpiece...Your master's piece!!!


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Well, hi Hello there, my Sweet. Somehow I thought that you had already been here. All's good. Great to have you grace my page again.

Such a sweet thing to say! Your words touch me inside. I try, my Dear, I try. Nimmita matram bhava, savvyasachin. I am a mere instrument of the Supreme.

Hope that all's good for you and have a great Christmas or seasonal time and much love to all your dear ones. Glory be!


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bravewarrior 9 months ago from Central Florida

Another beauty. You truly are the Lantern Carrier, dedicating yourself to others and bringing out their inner Light.


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Jodah 9 months ago from Queensland Australia

Another masterful tribute poem, Manatita. Frank is a very worthy recipient.


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Shauna, a truly sweet thing to say; a sentiment to treasure. Thank you, thank you ...

Jodah,

Yes, Bro. A great writer, he is. Thank you so much for a fine contribution. Higher blessings.


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Reynold Jay 9 months ago from Saginaw, Michigan

Loved this one once again. Well done Manatita!!!


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Thank you, thank you Reynold. Truly appreciated. Much Love this Christmas and the New Year!


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emge 9 months ago from Abu Dhabi

Another lovely poem. You realy express so well that it overwhelms me.God will always be with you.


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Surabhi Kaura 9 months ago from Toronto, Canada

Ha ha ha - Manatita, even I thought so! But then I noticed her nail-paint and the lipstick that she wore... and then I realized... Ohhh... so it's a woman who is singing. LOL!


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Emge, this sentiment is like a blessing for me. I treasure this so much! Truly appreciated! Om Shanti!

Funny Surabhi.

My respects to her. I did take in the essentials on my second visit. Hehe. Good to see you. Much Love.


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Surabhi Kaura 9 months ago from Toronto, Canada

They say, laugh with others, but not at others. All in good faith :)


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MsDora 9 months ago from The Caribbean

Not sure if you explained it and I missed it, but I'd like to question you about that title. I have my own ideas as to why it is appropriate, and I think you do justice to it, but I'd like to hear from you sometime.


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Venkatachari M 9 months ago from Hyderabad, India

Beautiful poem as always dedicated to another great writer here.

The video is incredible. A great message in it beautifully sung by Parveen Abida. I wonder how you know Hindi language to choose so much wonderful videos in all your hubs. It's great skill in you.


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Thanks Dee.

I am heavily influenced by my Spiritual Teacher, and sat at his feet for 33 years. His words just come to me, as I have not only listened to his talks but read nearly all his 1600 books. The title just came to me, but it is also influenced by his poem. I am putting here and hope that you get to it before it is removed as there are quite a few words from him. It is much more powerful than my poem:

“I wanted to become just a poet,

But You have made me a Seer-Poet.

I wanted to become a Yogi,

But You have made me an Avatar.

I wanted to become Your lamb,

But You have made me Your lion-king.

I desired the dust of Your Feet,

But You gave me Your Victory-Garland,

Your Crown and Your Throne.”2

This song I wrote at eight o’clock last night on the way from Kuala Lumpur to Penang, Malaysia, on Malaysian Airlines Flight 2683. This song is immortal. It is extremely, extremely, extremely important to me. I would like everybody to sing it very, very soulfully.

This song is about what I wanted and what the Supreme gave to me. I wanted oneness with God, but God not only made me one with Him, He also made me His representative. In your case also, if you pray to the Supreme for a drop of His Compassion, He will come to you with an Ocean of Compassion.

If you want something divine from God and if you make a sincere effort, then God will give you much more than you ever asked for. But you have to go step by step. You need patience, and you must cheerfully wait for God’s choice Hour."- Sri Chinmoy.

Thank you so much for asking. Much Love.


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Venkatachari M, achaa. Sukriya.

I have studied Vedic literature for many years at the feet of a Bengali Realised Soul. So I'm heavily influenced there. Again, when one enters the spiritual life proper, and depending on one's inner cry, many worlds open up before him/her.

Thank you so much. You're very kind.


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Venkatachari M 9 months ago from Hyderabad, India

You mean Swami Chinmoy. He has been a very great enlightened soul. You are lucky to have been with him for so many years.

Wish you Merry Christmas. God bless you.

Om namo narayana.


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Thank you, my Dear brother. Sri Chinmoy is not a Swami.

With your kind permission, let me explain a Swami briefly.

With a few notable exceptions, Swami's are good and noble Souls pursuing the spiritual life. The Realized Master is radically different and embodies God ceaselessly 24-hrs a day. Sri Chinmoy himself told us that he is not a Swami.

Asia and India are full of Swami's wearing ochre coloured clothes. They are essentially monks or good people who love God or Nibbana. The God-man lives in Infinity and is an embodiment of the Absolute. Hope this helps. Sai Ram!


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Venkatachari M 9 months ago from Hyderabad, India

A great explanation. Thanks for the enlightenment.

But, personally, I do not regard all saffron coloured monks or personalities as Swami. So, for me, a Swami is an enlightened soul who is an embodiment of God. Who has arrived on earth with a special purpose of showing light and righteous path to people to emancipate their lives. Jai Sri Ram!


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

True, your explanation is sound, and perhaps you and I are more inspired and elevated than some of them. It is my understanding, that some of us, will realize God before some of those in Habits. The Buddha teased them; Christ teased them and Sultan Bahu, Kabir and others teased them. All the more reason, perhaps, that we should be careful.

The Vedic system is very precise and has a hierachy of Souls, if you like: Yogi's, Seers, Rishis ..the Satguru, which is really the one who lives in the infinite. Avatars, partial and full Avatars ...endless.

One sometimes have to scrutinize them to see their importance. For example, ask the God-realised Soul his religion, and he will immediately give a wise answer. He knows the effect of words and their connotations. Religion is such a beautiful thing! yet we turn away from it, because what we hear is war, politics, blood, bigotry, fundamentalism ...

If I say that I am a God-lover; a spiritual beginner or seeker of Truth, I may confuse some, but I do not get the same kind of vibe.

Whew! A lot here! The word Guru or even Yoga and 'Sri' can sometimes be used loosely. But Sri is really Lord as in Lord Rama, Lord Krishna, Lord Christ ... and the Guru is a Dispeller of Darkness ...

As the meditation deepens, it teaches us all these things. Hari Om!

Note: There was a recent Swami Chinmayanada. Sri Chinmoy Kumar Ghose is different.


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MsDora 9 months ago from The Caribbean

Thanks, Manatita. You've been very helpful.


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

My appreciations, Dee. Much Love.


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word55 9 months ago from Chicago

I love the depth in this sonnet to Frank. He deserve's the honor. He's an incredible writer and commenter. Frank? Come take your Grand Stand! Kudos...


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Yes, Bro. A very deep one, this. Hope that all's good. Much Love and have a wonderful season and blessings from our Lord. Peace.


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always exploring 9 months ago from Southern Illinois

A weaver of words, very beautiful! You are a lantern carrier my poet friend. Merry Christmas.


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Thanks Ruby. Much Love.


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Frank Atanacio 9 months ago from Shelton

Thank you manatita for recognizing my love of the written word.. bless you my virtual friend and Happy Christmas :)


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Thank you, thank you. I appreciate your visit and kind words, my Friend. Much Love to love and all you hold dear this Christmas and beyond ... joy and Higher blessings.


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Missy Smith 9 months ago from Florida

Frank is one of my favorites here on Hubpages, and this is a great dedication to him. Bravo! It's Beautiful!


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Thank you, Missy. A very nice man. Good to see you up and about. Extend my hugs to the children and your immediate family. Have a great weekend.


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aviannovice 9 months ago from Stillwater, OK

Eloquent, yet accurate with the rights of simplicity. I really like this one.


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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Me too, my Dear. One of my really touching ones. So glad you appreciate it. I like the way that you never forget me; that you work through them systematically, but surely. Gratitude ...much

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