Widow - A Poem

I am widow
I am widow

Poetry in Pictures

Ocean Wall
Ocean Wall | Source
Clothed in my darkness
Clothed in my darkness | Source
My light shines in the dark
My light shines in the dark | Source
Bend as winds threaten
Bend as winds threaten | Source
The Ruins
The Ruins | Source
Mother
Mother | Source

I am a widow
I am strong & weak
I am broken & functional
I can withstand defeat


Like the Ocean wall
I will keep my form
I will hide the erosion
Caused by this awful storm


I'm clothed in my own darkness
My dark wings give me flight
With a sword in my hand
I will defend my light


As small as this light is
it still shines in the dark
Thru the hurt & the pain
It stands firm in my heart


My roots are still strong
Like those of the palm tree
I bend as these painful winds
Come to threaten me



Like the ruins
I can be a beautiful sight
& tell stores that will exist
Longer than my life



I'm a Mother
Despite the pain I will stand up tall
I will raise her in love
& step up to the call


& as painful as this life
Without you can be

I get to decide
The widow's life I will lead



& I choose to live in simplicity
With faith, love, & hope for our family


& I will share this widow's tale
So others can use it to help them get well



I would never have chosen the day that you left
But I get to decide what to do with the rest



& tho this life without you is a hard pill to swallow
I still have good things to offer this world tomorrow


& until the day that you and I reunite
I will honor you & honor God with the rest of my life


Written 11/18/11


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prettynutjob30 4 years ago from From the land of Chocolate Chips,and all other things sweet.

Such a sorrowful,and beautiful poem.


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State

stunning and beautiful...thanks for the share!


Poetic Fool 4 years ago

Beautiful and bittersweet but revealing the strength that lies within. Wonderful job! Voted up and beautiful.


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Moms-Secret 4 years ago from Central Florida Author

PrettyNutJob30 - Thank you so much for reading and appreciating the poem. It represents my life now, on a strong day anyway. H.C. Porter thanked for the share. Did you share me? This is only the second time I have ever had that if you did and I wanted to thank you for it. I find it to be a unique honor. I hope to see more of you soon.

Thanks again...


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Moms-Secret 4 years ago from Central Florida Author

H.C Porter - it is very nice to meet you. Thank you for visiting my work and commenting. I appreciate the wonderful compliment you shared. I hope to see more of you.


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Moms-Secret 4 years ago from Central Florida Author

Poetic Fool - I love your name. Very nice to meet you. Your comment made me smile. Thank you for voting, commenting, and reading. Strength is like the tides. It comes in and is affected by the world around it. I hope to keep as much of it with me as I need.


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Movie Master 4 years ago from United Kingdom

You are such a talented writer, this is one of the most beautiful poems I have read on HubPages.

Your words are full of hope and strength, you are an inspiration to many, well done.


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Moms-Secret 4 years ago from Central Florida Author

Thank you MovieMaster. Wow, what a compliment! I am so grateful. To inspire one is blessing enough. You are an amazing support and I really can't thank you enough.


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Springboard 4 years ago from Wisconsin

As I said before, I just can't imagine. But I am encouraged by your strength through it all.


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Moms-Secret 4 years ago from Central Florida Author

Thank you for commenting Springboard. Nice to see you again. Choices become very black and white as a widow. Strength is a commodity that is not always available. The writings help me to remember what I chose despite how I feel on any particular day.

Ironically, you and others like you build my strength thru comments so I always make sure to say thank you.


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Charlotte B Plum 4 years ago

I am so sorry that you loss your husband. You are a very strong lady, and I really admire your desire to honor the Lord through this. Blessings to you!


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Moms-Secret 4 years ago from Central Florida Author

Thank you for reading and commenting. I am not sure that I am strong yet. It is more of a goal that I am trying to achieve. It is more of a daily battle. Finding strength would help me to stay and be a better mom to my daughter. Thank you for the blessings.


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

so sad and simply beautiful.. I really liked the last line until the day that you and I reunite

I will honor you & honor God with the rest of my life.. simply wonderful.. and the pictures are so beautiful.

I voted up and beautiful and awesome...

Debbie


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Moms-Secret 4 years ago from Central Florida Author

Nice to see you again Deborah. Thank you for the beautiful comment and all of the voting. I loved the pictures when I found them too.


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Springboard 4 years ago from Wisconsin

Glad to meet you as well. I find encouragement in your strength, and I wonder if I could be so strong. When you find that person who changes your life, the last thing you ever want is to have that person suddenly leave you. Like I said, life is short, and we have only so much time. Experiences like yours remind those of us who sometimes take these special things for granted to be more vigilant in our pursuit of all that makes life great. Some time ago I commented on a similar hub that we should cherish every moment with the people who are dear to us as though each moment is our last.


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Moms-Secret 4 years ago from Central Florida Author

strength and stubborn are very closely related. The event is not something that I want others to experience. It is... hard to say the least. My strength... Honestly, I think the battles that I face almost daily since losing my prince, while the hurt and caused the 2 recent angry and frustrated hubs, are like a training for renewed strength. I am a fighter. I am an adversary bloom. I really think it is stubborn more than strength.

Your comment is beautiful. I hope that it remains true for you always.


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James-wolve 4 years ago from Morocco

Beautiful and pregnant with meanings,I voted up.

as you know so well, the passage of time never really heals the tragic memory of such a great loss, but we carry on, because we have to, because our loved one would want us to, and because there is still light to guide us in the world from the love they gave us


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Moms-Secret 4 years ago from Central Florida Author

No time does not erase but it does give us time to learn how to carry on gracefully.


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James-wolve 4 years ago from Morocco

You right,we have to.life doesn't stop for anybody.


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epigramman 4 years ago

.....this took my breath away and has left me speechless. (which is saying a lot for the epi-man) .....actually I saw this title right away and I knew of your personal circumstances so I hesitated to read it .....until now ......please carry on with your writing - you are a miracle with words and expressing yourself - it's a gift you have so please try to continue ....... sending you warm wishes and good energy from the cool morning air of lake erie time 6:39am - must check on my cats who are both outside


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Moms-Secret 4 years ago from Central Florida Author

Lol...I am very happy that you enjoyed it Epi. Wow, to call me a miracle... takes my breath away. Amazing compliment. Eternally grateful. I really appreciate you!


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Laurinzo Scott 3 years ago from Phoenix, Az.

Wow... moms-Secret this is an incredibly beautiful poem, and I was moved by the hearfelt emotions of this one... even from pain that you shared so with us all; some beauty was drawn from it. I am certain of the angels all around such a moving bit of creation.


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Pearldiver 3 years ago from Tomorrow - In Words & NZ Time.

Nice positive affirmations of attacking the seemingly endless issues that go with a loss of a loved one... most don't, much to their detriment, take this perspective, which requires such a declaration to achieve a greater space... Sorry for your loss, I hope that one year onwards you have defeated those things that would hold you back and from what I have read so far, it seems winning has already been set firmly and bravely... good for you... all the best for 2013... PD


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Laurinzo - Thank you for such a beautiful comment. This piece is very special to me. At the time, I was fighting against the stigma surrounding my new role. It was a self declaration. It still helps me breath. :)


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Pearldiver, you see very clearly. Loss is one of those things that strip you to the core. Whatever manages to stay there, in your core, is the reason to rise or fall. It is scary.

Best to you in 2013 and evermore.


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Pearldiver 3 years ago from Tomorrow - In Words & NZ Time.

Cheers, I appreciate your words and of course, the obvious clarity in your choice and taste... thank you.. take care.


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Lakshmi Murukesh 3 years ago from Kollam

"Clothed in my own darkness" a very powerful line. I love the poem


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Very nice to meet you Lakshmi. I am happy that you found this. It is special to me. This is a favorite of mine and was a defining moment for me... I appreciate your comment.


newenglandsun 3 years ago

Do you draw these pictures or find them on the internet? They are beautiful.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hello Daniel. Long time. No, I don't draw. I do spend a lot of time searching for and pairing the photos. It's a thing for me.


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Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton

wow how did I miss this one.. I thought I read every piece you posted.. hey Happy Holidays Moms..:)


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lifegate 2 years ago from Pleasant Gap, PA

Moms-Secret,

Glad to meet you via Faith reaper's Hug of the Day. This is such a powerful piece on many levels, and the pictures help so much to strengthen the already powerful words. Thanks for this post.


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Nell Rose 2 years ago from England

Hi, I came over from Faiths hub too. I am so sorry for your loss, and your poem was so powerful, wonderful.


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Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

You are such a gifted poet and your words are profound and beautiful. You have suffered a great loss of your Prince.

Up and more and sharing

Hugs and love,

Faith Reaper


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Ruby H Rose 2 years ago from Northwest Washington on an Island

I admire your writing style. A wonderful expression of emotion. Poems are such healers. I am sorry for your loss.


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jhamann 2 years ago from Reno NV

Powerful words written with skill. Thank you for sharing. jamie


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Moms-Secret 2 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hello Frank! I went on Hiatus for the Holiday's. Came back to a very unexpected surprise. Many comments. I don't really understand where they came from yet but I will find this illusive hug today. It is wonderful that you missed some... it makes for surprises. I like surprises. I am glad that you enjoyed it.


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Moms-Secret 2 years ago from Central Florida Author

Very nice to meet you Lifegate. Today, I am on the road to learning what this hug of the day is. It seems like a gift to me and I am overly flattered and excited about opening it.

I am happy to hear that you enjoyed it. It would be a dream to have it help others. Thank you so much for visiting me and leaving clues to who I should thank for the visit.


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Moms-Secret 2 years ago from Central Florida Author

Wonderful to meet you Nell Rose. I appreciate your sentiments. Loss is a part of everyone's life on some level.


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Moms-Secret 2 years ago from Central Florida Author

FAITH! :)... I have yet to look into the gift they say is called a hug but I will today. I have so many wonderful comments to catch up on and they all seem to stem from you. What a huge gift... The love is felt and is sent back ten fold.


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Moms-Secret 2 years ago from Central Florida Author

So nice to see you Ruby Rose... I love the kind words you have sent to me. You are right. I regularly use poetry for self reflection and healing. Its a way to document so many stories from my life and the lives of those around me.


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Moms-Secret 2 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hello Jamie. Nice to meet you! The profound power of words that stir the heart of another is the only power that I desire.


newenglandsun 20 months ago

you should like turn your blogs on tyw into a book. get another famous well-known widow (like natascha mcelhone) to write a forward for it.


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Moms-Secret 20 months ago from Central Florida Author

An idea that has been brewing, tho I am not sure that I can put the rawness into it that it would deserve. That has left me.


newenglandsun 20 months ago

you were gone so long. i thought you were dead.


newenglandsun 20 months ago

so do you still identify as a widow?


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Moms-Secret 19 months ago from Central Florida Author

I made a goal list for this year to tie up loose ends. Just scratching the surface takes an enormous amount of time and effort from me. I am left too exhausted to write or think. I am afraid this path will keep me sparse.


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Moms-Secret 19 months ago from Central Florida Author

I find that I have never been able to confine myself to one label or another. I walked this path of a widow and relate to others who have lost but I never really identified as a widow.


newenglandsun 19 months ago

i feel your pain...he was my cousin...

http://abc11.com/news/paratrooper-killed-in-airbor...


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Moms-Secret 18 months ago from Central Florida Author

Sorry to hear...


newenglandsun 10 months ago

Lady Lissette,

We are both Christians so we shall take Christ as our husband. True, your earthly husband is dead but understand that you are no widow if you are wed to Christ.

Jesus bless you!

Daniel


newenglandsun 9 months ago

I think we are what we are in relation to others. You say you merely walk the path of a widow but you walk the path of one because Robert, your husband died. You'll always be a widow to Robert and I think to say that you merely walked the path of a widow is to deny the role that Robert played in your life.

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