Winter's Passing

Gaia

The Lady is mourning the seasons’ passing.

Or is it something else?

Rain is falling, and falling

Sun has not shown His face today on this muddied earth

Drenched in tears

Flooded streams running over with grief

Fallen trees lie in a humble salute to those souls taken with the pregnant moons and lost to the new.

And soon, yes, Spring will offer a new beginning.

But first, give proper due to the heart that yearns to mourn; heavy with tears that fall today.

Walk silently and softly as she breathes and rests; it is only the Lady’s respite.

As she wakes from her restless nap still covered in these cold clouds, gray sticks and wet stones,

She remembers; and the wailing winds start again.

She cannot be comforted.

Her tears, the driving rains; and in torrents they fall

The images She sees in her mind, voices She hears this day, tear wide open the deep ache in her heart no one can console.

Darkness falls on what no light can comfort.

We all stand circling

Witness to what we in our hearts almost understand

For today, we too cannot escape torrential rains

We are pulled along on the waves of intense grief and the calm before another storm.

Bound helplessly in the dark listening to the growling winds

Anguish tearing our hearts and souls

Reminding us that we too have death somewhere knocking

And we must feel the weight of it as surely as we will feel the warmth and beauty of spring.

Landslide - Stevie Nicks

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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

A very emotional, profound and heartfelt poem Erin. How wonderful that Spring is almost here. What a great poem to celebrate and what a fab choice of songs to accompany it too!


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prasetio30 5 years ago from malang-indonesia

Well done, Erin. I am curious how you made this poem. I have to learn from you. Good bye winter... I always miss you! Thank you very much. Rated up. God bless you.

Prasetio


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Acaetnna, thanks so much for visiting and commenting. I felt I could not face spring for some reason without honoring winter's passing but now im ready for daffodils and sunshine and warmer weather :)Stevie Nicks, I have to admit, has always been my favorite. Love and peace to you my friend.

Prasetio, how wonderful to see you again, my friend. I'm so glad you liked it. Well, with this one, I was feeling sad and it was raining, just like in the poem. It just felt like the day was becoming sadder and sadder and I felt so in tune with the bursts of rain. In between in just felt so empty and quiet. I just tried to write about this connection I felt with nature. I am really honored by what you wrote. Thanks so much, blessings to you my friend.


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CMCastro 5 years ago from Baltimore,MD USA

Very well done. The change of seasons have an effect on me. The best mentally healthy aspect of today was, after the rain finished and the sun came out, at the preschool I work in, the teacher allowed the children to play on the playground. Those children were so happy and really enjoyed the fresh air. So as they say, Tears fall in the night, but joy comes in the Morning!


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Thanks Christina, I think the seasons are reaching out and having more and more of an impact on everyone. The planet is reaching out and telling us something - I watched all that devastation yesterday with the earthquakes and tsunami in Japan and it just broke my heart. Gaia seems to be changing the face of the Earth. It only makes sense we should feel it all so strongly. After the rain the other day, the sun today did feel so nice until the clouds moved in again dropping the temperatures. Clouds but no more rain! I like your saying, I felt better this morning too :) Love and Peace my friend.


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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

Only one word here Erin.

Beautiful.

Thanks for sharing your words with us,it's work like this that make HP the great community that it is today.

Take care

Eiddwen.


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Genna East 5 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

Beautifully done, Erin. With each passing season, we remember what we lost in that which passed before. It gives us pause to lament, and to hopefully find some renewal in what lies ahead.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS

Erin - such heartfelt words. i can just almost see the scenario out of your eyes, though I'm relieved to read in comments that you're now ready for and looking forward to brighter scenes of Spring! As you may have discovered, I'm not much for dwelling in lamentations, though I know we must feel all our feelings as they occur.

I haven't really followed Stevie Nicks, though she's someone I've heard of all along. She's about the age of my niece who was involved around the same time with Jefferson Airplane - for a time. I decided to look up more about Stevie and this song and this I found in Wikipedia is rather interesting background for it, so I thought I'd share it with you:

"Nicks has said that she wrote this song while she was contemplating going back to school or continuing on with guitarist Lindsey Buckingham. Buckingham and Nicks had been dropped by Polydor Records and she and Buckingham were not getting along. She wrote the song while visiting Aspen, Colorado sitting in someone's living room 'looking out at the Rocky Mountains pondering the avalanche of everything that had come crashing down on us...at that moment, my life truly felt like a landslide in many ways.' "


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Beautiful Erin, I hope your sadness is replaced with the anticipation of a glorious spring with chirping birds, flowers and renewed hope for a better tomorrow. Smiles My Friend


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Eiddwen, thank you so much for reading and for such a great compliment. I am so blessed to be a part of this community. In many ways this community is my soul family and in many ways it saves me. I thank you all for sharing yourselves with me and allowing me to express myself to someone other than my journal. Namaste and brightest blessings.

Genna, your words are exactly what an author wants to hear, that the most basic message underlying all the drama and trauma of her tears and pain, did in fact make it through the intensity of that scene after all :) Right before I wrote it I had the scene in my head of Gothika, when he throws the glass of water on the mirror in the beginning - trying to explain what the psychiatrist and the patient see. One sees themselves reflected in a mirror, and the other sees a distorted image of themselves looking back. Thanks for being my mirror. :)


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Nellieanna, I do so love reading your poetry for that reason, I love that you don't dwell in your lamentations and you do deal with all of your feelings as they occur and give them their proper due. You move through them gracefully and with such style, I learn so much.

In some of my earlier hubs, I disclosed that I also have bipolar disorder. If my medication is off for any reason, my feelings can take a beating. For me, its all internal - I tend to dive into a feeling, such as this, and it will become my home for a day or two. It becomes my reality, place to explore, my private sanctum. I do a lot of writing and usually not a lot of publishing...

On the reverse side of things I can be outgoing in the sunshine and productive the other way...experiencing the day like its the first time I've seen spring. I'm in awe of it and I'll write about it when I've come home from a weekend of camping or the beach or if I'm lucky enough, to have vacationed somewhere wonderful.

I love life in all its facets, but I'm one who does get lost in all the intricacies, I want to know how it all works, the lost civilizations, the spirituality of it all, and how its all connected. I get lost.

I've always been that way.

This time, my doctors made a mistake in my meds last month, and I know that this is partly my body trying to level out the chemicals and it was partly that two days of drenching rains - my mother showed me that her rose bush has buds on it though and her daffodils' leaves are starting to poke through the soil...so I know spring is indeed on its way!

I want to thank you so much for the background on Stevie Nicks. I'm not old enough to have followed her forever, and she was solo just about the time I was a true fan. I used to spend hours in my basement singing all the tracks on her "Belladonna" album. (noticed they were still albums back then!) Though we've never met - Stevie and I, (lol) a few of her songs since going solo have described my feelings so much that I could have written them with my own heart. Not talent, but heart. "Landslide" is one that resonates with me so much, and until you told me the background I did not know that - Thank You so much! I lived in Colorado for seven years, it tore my heart out to have to leave the last time in 2007, of course I believe that everything happens for a reason and I will be back there one day.

Maybe that was my Landslide.

I don't know.

Thank you so much for all of your words, I am looking to spring - a new set of challenges, a whole new season in a whole new year. Let's see what adventure's await!

I always send you many blessings and thoughts. You're an inspiration.


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Ruby, Wild Child, and my fellow flower child, It's spring again, and I am so looking forward to it. I wish you were here to join me at the end of April/beginning of May for the Fairie Festival at Spoutwood PA - not as many participants as woodstock, but they have lots of food, great vendors, and lots of vegetarians! And everyone, well almost everyone is dressed like a fairy and out on the mountain celebrating spring. There are great drum circles and no shortage of food - I say we round up Epi and the girls and go there next. Is the bug still running?


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Erin, That sounds like the best idea. We could have a ball there and Epi's bug is still 'rock'in and 'roll'in and the girls are 'hanker'in to hit the road. Are you going to take us on this adventure? Woopie!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hugs


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epigramman 5 years ago

..lovely writer you are Erin - you are definitely bringing out the softer side of the epi-man .....and you also move and touch him with your poetic eloquence ......

..and as a sincere footnote Erin - how are you feeling - how is your health? Please let me know .......


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Ruby that Bug would fit right in! We'd wear long flowy dresses with fairy wings and we could dress Epi as the GreenMan! Nell and Fossi would dance and dance. I'd love to lead it but I think in a few months perhaps. Peace and Love!

Epi, I love that side of you! Thank you for all the kind compliments. I love that I can bring forth emotions that I'm feeling with words. But you know that.

I'll email you, love. Peace and love


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS

I believe bipolar is the more current name for manic-depressive, with which my middle sister, Ruth, was diagnosed. She was brilliant, but the mood swings were usually off-the-wall. She was naturally dramatic with a strong desire to be an actress (which was discouraged by our dad), so the evidence of her moods was always quite crystal clear. She didn't just step into a room - she invaded it! :-) Before one had a moment to adjust to her, she would have presented a rose with a flourish, quoted some obscure writer and asked if you know him & the quotation, (implying you were uneducated otherwise) and she proceeded to sweep on into the situation, positioned herself in a good chair from which to reign. When she was "down", there were no depths deep enough for her. She is still alive, 91 and in assisted living. I'm sure she's a handful for them.

She was a great & creative special education teacher, when she finally settled on her specialty. She knew how to excite and bring out those children. But she was always fighting the school board by deviating from the prescribed curricula. She had taught math, English, Spanish, History - she was expert in all the fields. She was always going to school, and nearly had her PhD. But after her husband passed away, her lack of everyday practical organization & the tendency to either eat too much or too little, etc. - caused her health to deteriorate rapidly. Her children were quick to place her in the care facility. She was always rather misunderstood. In those days, the treatments for her condition were not much help. I believe she endured shock treatments at one time. She was an impressive charismatic presence and force to be reckoned with. She was 2 years younger than my eldest sibling, the gorgeous and "always perfect" Harriet and 2 years older than our brother, Harold. So one has to consider the way it must have been for my three elder siblings growing up - so long before I came along. Ruth is the only one still living.

Anyway - I tend to be obsessive-compulsive, though my moods are not so extreme. I've had to develop balance in order to be true to myself and to be productive. It is not that I'm less probing or intense, but I've learned to stay afloat. It's no less exciting, and much more workable. If I had a disadvantage growing up, it may have been a kind of invisibility. None of them ever had the slightest idea who I was. :-) May have been a bit of a blessing in ways! I had a lot of time alone to think and create.

Anyway - your talent is wonderful and you share so much with all of us, Erin. I'm truly impressed.


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Nellieanna, thank you so much for listening and really taking everything in. Yes, manic-depressive and bipolar are the same but there is so much more known about it, thanks to advances in medicine and study - I've studied so much about it to understand others and myself better, and to understand more about the stigma attatched to mental illness. I do understand it, but its partially why I keep writing about it. I've heard both sides about it getting easier and harder with age, I guess that's still a matter of genetics.

My little sister has OCD, we have family history in common! I have a theory that it does have to do with birth order too. There is also a gap between us, ten years, but we are so close.

The mind is an amazing and fragile thing. From it springs all of our wonderful ideas, images, creativity and then also our neuroses and disorders.

Unfortuantely, there are so many facets of the disorder, no two people or symptoms are the same. But people in general are butterflies, not two are the same.

Thank you for coming back, and thank you for sharing so much with me and all of us - your hubs are truly a work of art which I love to get lost in :)

Hugs,

Erin


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS

Ah! Yes, I suspect that most people have some kind of mental aberration with which to come to terms, whether it's slight or really serious. Lots of masks in use, though.

I also suspect that the only "normal" is on bell-curve charts which analyze the "averages". On the + end of the bell curve where there are fully actualized persons, theirs are the results of learning themselves, understanding their own needs & appropriateness for themselves & then outgrowing self-consciousness so they can better handle life's peccadillos and uncertainties.

Thank you for the lovely compliment, dear Erin. Hugs.


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Nellieanna, I have the same philosophy! But I do so love the parade of masks.

I once had a qigong instructor who told me that we are constantly seeking balance, but in truth, there is no balance.

Hugs.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS

Of course there is nothing certain, including balance. That is why it is a constant quest. Everything is choices - we choose according to our actual desires. If we want balance, our choices reflect that. If we either prefer chaos or don't care, so go our choices. But your instructor could not have been more correct. There is nothing fixed, even fixity. Learning that helps one stay flexible. It's the essence of making it.

We may as well enjoy the parade of masks. They are unlikely to cease! :-) What is tragic is when they take themselves too seriously. Hugs!


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Nellieanna, I just love you!


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vietnamvet68 5 years ago from New York State

another beautiful and creative write Erin, enjoyed it very much

God Bless


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Erin, When you're ready for the adventure, we'll be here. So pick us up when the vibe hits.

Smiles(>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>((((((((


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erthfrend 5 years ago from Florida

I so very much enjoyed this and it held such a deep meaning. The wording was so beautiful and I loved how you ended it with that feeling of hope.


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tnderhrt23 5 years ago

Your words just embrace and sing of your photo! Nicely done, Erin! I truly believe in honoring each season for its beauty and purpose, and in so doing we honor the Creator of all!


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

VV68, thank you so much, I'm so glad you liked it. Love and Peace my friend.

Ruby, :)

erthfrend, it was deep, I thought perhaps too sorrowful to publish. How I hate to publish things that make me cry to write them. But somehow that feeling of hope does pop up in the end of all my writing. All of it. I'm glad it stood out far enough to make its lasting presence. :) Love and peace to you.

tnderhrt23, The top photo is one of my favorite Gaia representations, I don't own this one yet but one day I will. I just love how she sits and IS the earth. It says it all, the earth and sky. I honor each season too from beginnning to end and the between times, that's when they strike me the most. In fact, like a fairy, I'm drawn to all the in-between times, dusk, dawn, spring, fall, and the beginning or ending of a cycle. Or the changing of something. I don't know why, but that's when it hits me hardest. Brightest Blessings my friend.


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aware 5 years ago from West Palm Beach Florida.

Very nice . Painting with words.

Ray


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Thanks so much Ray. For commenting and for coming by. Blessings my friend.

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