Writer's Withdrawal

What are you addicted to?

After realizing all the withdrawal symptoms associated with giving up an addiction... maybe writing isn't so bad after all!
After realizing all the withdrawal symptoms associated with giving up an addiction... maybe writing isn't so bad after all! | Source

Symptoms of withdrawal

Cold sweats.

Hot Flashes.

Laying in the fetal position.

Shaking all night.

Random outbursts.

Pain traveling down my arms into my fingers.

Anxiety.

Insomnia.

Tremors.

Nausea to the point of almost vomiting.

Pain in my head, as I hold everything back.

I tried not to break. I wanted to succeed. Yet, after experiencing all of those withdrawal symptoms, it is obvious to me I have experienced an withdrawal symptoms only a true writer will experience. I am addicted to writing, and giving it up has pushed me to extremes. So I give up. Not on writing, but on giving up on not writing. These withdrawal symptoms and pain are not worth the lack of writing. I have found I can not live without it. I must have my pen and paper. My laptop must be within arm’s reach. Even for a short time, I can not imagine life any longer without the written word.

The Bet

As I sat there on Friday night getting my feet massaged, I was presented with a mission. A bet - if you must. I was talking about how I couldn’t help the random thoughts that kept pressing me for attention. Yet, these thoughts were so uncontrollable and so loud I could not sit down and concentrate on any one of them. I had to do something. It seemed I was experiencing burnout. My addiction was overwhelming. Yet, I couldn’t admit it. I took a stand and said I was not addicted. How could one person possibly be addicted to writing. It was nonsense! It was impossible! And I was willing to prove a point. I could go without writing for a period of time without any effect.

As part of the bet, I was not allowed to write from Friday evening until Sunday night. The other part of the bet belongs to my mother-in-law, who is addicted to the online game Zumba. If I couldn’t write, she couldn’t play her online game for the same amount of time. With a pinky swear setting it up, the bet was in place, and the road taken would be rocky! Who would break first!

As a part of the bet, I tried to stay away from Hubpages and from Facebook. Or at least participate minimally. Being on the computer would make it way to easy for me to open up a word document and jot down a few catchy phrases entering my mind. It was better off to just stay away, and stay away as far as I could.

Now I still had my phone in hand. I could post status updates from my phone, however it was a pain in the butt to go any further. I could still see the hubs I followed and the comments being made. But on my phone, it is too difficult to respond. The inconvenience of using my phone kept me connected, but didn’t allow me to fully participate. The lack of Hubpages and Facebook taught me a very important lesson. I was addicted! I was 110% addicted to writing.

A lesson learned

After taking the whole weekend off from writing, my husband finally begged me to go back. He couldn’t take my outburst and my cranky stature. He knew writing was my release, and tearing me away from this dangerous addiction could be the death of me and possibly of him.

So here I am - living proof that attempting to get over a writing addiction is dangerous to the writer and every person around them. It wasn’t worth the headaches. It wasn’t worth the suffering.

The withdrawal symptoms are starting to ease up some. I am starting to feel a little better. The sweat release of my fingers typing on the laptop has calmed me down a bit and I have almost forgot the horrible weekend without writing. I even won the bet. Yet, I also know I am a survivor! However, I will continue with this horrible addiction.


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Ruchira 5 years ago from United States

Good one BBG28 and I can so relate to it. Being the long weekend, I was wanting to sit down and pen but with so much of hustle and bustle...I landed up staying awake late last night until I finish something since my head was whirling in those thoughts...lol

From one addict to another...glad to be back to a routine..LOL

loved your experience and hub!! Voted up!!


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Ruchira 5 years ago from United States

Good one BBG28 and I can so relate to it. Being the long weekend, I was wanting to sit down and pen but with so much of hustle and bustle...I landed up staying awake late last night until I finish something since my head was whirling in those thoughts...lol

From one addict to another...glad to be back to a routine..LOL

loved your experience and hub!! Voted up!!


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Fiddleman 5 years ago from Zirconia, North Carolina

Great hub writing is addicting. You're good at it, so keep em coming!


Motown2Chitown 5 years ago

It's true, it's true! Even if the addiction isn't to writing per se, we get addicted to the community - to the back and forth in the comments...it's awful. Did you try to HALT - well, did you?!?! ;-) I just say this. There are far worse addictions. Glad to have you back, BBG!


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Hyphenbird 5 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

This is so very true. I hear a word or phrase and think I can make a story or Hub or poem about that. This addiction is so sweet though. I would never want to be free.

Thanks for this great read.


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smcopywrite 5 years ago from all over the web

this is definitely true to form. its hard to stay away once you have been bitten.

thanks for sharing


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Ruchira - the only thing I am greatful for was because the weekend was so busy, it made it relatively easy to not break my end of the deal! I was able to stay away... and even though the bet ended Sunday night, Monday was too busy to do anything... so today the thoughts are tumbling out and I am just trying to get it all down and hope it makes sense... lol

@Fiddleman - Thank you very much... hopefully the outpouring of information from my head doesn't cause an internet shut down! But I can guarantee... I won't be taking a break off of another bet anytime soon. :)

@Mo - I wasn't very good at it... I ate a whole package of Brownie Bites.. the homemade from the bakery kind... they were even doused with powdered sugar. Fail. I yelled at my husband... because I wasn't getting the release of my writing (which forced him to take me on a date night), so at least I wasn't lonely or tired... cause I also went to bed early trying to stop thinking of writing. I need practice ;)

@Hyphenbird - I have to agree. This is one addiction that I will never ever give up. I told my husband he has to live with it now cause it was too dangerous going without!

@smcopywrite - Staying away was difficult for me. Even though that wasn't part of the bet, being around hubpages really sparks my creative side. Then again - I can't bear losing a bet - so it was worth the suffering for a little while for bragging rights! :)


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mythicalstorm273 5 years ago

I wish I was addicted to writing! I tell myself I need to sit down and do at least a half hour of writing and somehow I never even make it to the computer. lol. Oh well.


Motown2Chitown 5 years ago

mythicalstorm - you can walk straight to addiction by writing for 15 minutes a day, and it doesn't even have to be anything that makes sense! TRUST ME!


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Movie Master 5 years ago from United Kingdom

Thank goodness you don't intend on giving this addiction up, we all love reading your hubs, your writing is amazing!


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kallini2010 5 years ago from Toronto, Canada

Yes, I would agree, writing is addictive. I have no tremors yet ..., no, wait, let me check ..

But the good thing is that a true writer MUST write everyday. Not publish "a hub" every day, I think it is excessive, but to work every day is a must if one is serious about it.

When it comes to hubbing as in writing or reading or commenting ... I don't know ... maybe something missing in our lives otherwise.

A true writer must read every day, too, preferably the high quality material, I doubt that every obsessive hubber does that. But it is what it is...

Most activities are addictive ... we find a solace in our habits.

"A habit is given from above

It is substitution for happiness." (A. Pushkin)


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Mythical - you should set it as one of your goals for the month... even if it is just sitting down to write for 15 minutes. I became really addicted when I started using writing prompts and free writing. Some of the stuff turned out awesome and some I would be afraid for it to get out it was so bad. However, when you come up with something brilliant - that is when it comes addicting. You have to surpase the last brilliant piece and work to make something even better. It is kind of competitive with yourself.

@MO - you are 110% correct. If I don't write for at least 15 minutes a day (even if it is just commenting back and forth) I go nuts. When I went on a trip and we were driving for 32 hours straight the worst part was not being able to sit back and write... especially since when I wasn't driving that would make me car sick.

@Movie Master - Thank you so much for the wonderful comment. I will be around for awhile. I have found this place to be truly a godsend. In fact, I dont' know what I did before this! :)

@Kallini - you are very correct. I don't think it is necessary to publish a hub everyday, but to at least write a little is very therapeautic. And that is a great quote - I swear I live by it!

I really need to however get into reading more though. It is very difficult to sit down and get into a good book with way too many distractions around. I guess all the reading I do online is good enough - although not all of it is quality! :)


Motown2Chitown 5 years ago

I totally understand what you're saying, kiddo! I need to read at least a couple hubs and comment on a few EVERY day, even if it's just for fifteen minutes. But, a great writer on this site said something very wise. He's written two novels, and I've had the pleasure of reading some of his short stories. He said, even if it's crap, write for fifteen minutes every day. It will help when you're ready to put out something great.


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neeleshkulkarni 5 years ago from new delhi

listen bbg . do not be so selfish by thinking only of your withdrawal symptoms.what about USSSS who read and love what you write. if you stopped writing what happens to our withdrawal symptoms?do you want to be responsible for all the strange suicides all over the world? don't even try something like this ever again. you write so well keep at it gal.


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Mo- I got my 15 minutes plus in today... then I got distracted and started reading a book. Hopeing after all the kids get in bed I will get more writing time in! :) I need to produce more crap!

@Neel - I was very selfish... I can't believe I didn't think of the reprecussions of others who follow me. I will never ever do that again. It was crazy and I hope it didn't cause to much world turmoil ;)


marellen 5 years ago

Glad everyone decided it was worth coming back too. I don't think you will do that again. Your hub was fun and serious at the sametime. I'm just having trouble on what topics to write about. I have to many other issues blocking me at the moment. I hope on my side it will end soon.


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cheerfulnuts 5 years ago from Manila, Philippines

LOL! Congrats barbergirl for winning the bet! I feel that little by little, I am starting to get addicted to writing too! Anyway, I think its not a bad thing. People enjoy reading your hubs, so don't try to stop writing. :)


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Oh it is addicting! Terrible habit! If you weren't writing BBG then what would you do? It could be worse and you are so entertaining. It would be a wasted talent!

Up and all That!


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neeleshkulkarni 5 years ago from new delhi

do not for sure know about the world but it is said that across continents many people felt a sudden pain in the chest and had to be rushed to hospital and administered oxygen.i myself was treated for acute respiratory problems.

now we all know who to blame. but it's okk we forgive you since we cannot do wihtout you. but please rememebr never againnnnn.


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TheWhisper 5 years ago from Macomb,MI

I am also an addict. When you are feeling down it is always good to go on a walk and speak what you see. Write in the air what would usually go on paper.

Follow Me?


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Marellen - sometimes I have that same problem... you would probably laugh at how many hubs that I have started and that haven't tweaked up and finished yet... a whole folder on my desktop - thank goodness it is virtual. Good luck on getting back into your groove!

@cheerfulnuts - what can I say, I like to win... at all costs... especially bets! LOL In all seriousness though, I will probably never take another bet against writing again. Although it was nice to have a bit of a break and clear my head. Shhhhh - we were too busy over the holiday weekend to really have won the bet fairly. :)

@RealHousewife - I don't know what I would do if I wasn't writing... although today I read a book. Couldn't put the stupid thing down. But it is done and now I am catching up and getting back on the bandwagon! ha ha - damn those addicing words!

@Neel - I am so sorry... I really hope you are feeling better. Don't worry, for your health and the health of others, I will never attempt another feat like this again! ;)

@TheWhisper - that is a beautiful way to put it. I love writing in my head, so to speak, it really helps me organize my thoughts. I do have a tendency to pace a bit when I am doing it, but it is somewhat calming!


Louis 5 years ago

Keep on writing. Your hubs are great.


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Louis - Thank you very much. Glad to here you enjoy them!


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

What book were you reading? I can't imagine:)


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

It was Water for Elephants.... we saw the movie a few weeks back - wanted to check out the book. My grandmother from my husband's side has a kindle and downloaded it. She let me borrow her kindle so I could read it. Very interesting - a few spots that would make a person blush ;)


marellen 5 years ago

Was the movie as good as the book?


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

I thought the movie was excellent... it kind of reminded me a little of Big Fish... adventure, romance and a good plot!


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

I'll have to see it. I've heard the book was a huge hit. Now I'm so curious!

I actually blush very easily. I mean like even if I'm reading a book or watching a movie by myself! Lol


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

Ha ha - I think the main reason I was blushing was because I knew my husband's grandma read it before me.... ok... so I know it is naive to think that your parents and grandparents didn't do that stuff or talk the way younger people do... but it doesn't mean I have to accept it. There were some vulgar (and not horrible - they used the correct terms... lol) parts that knowing she read that was like watching a graphic movie with your parents... lol - maybe I am just weird like that. :)


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

No no - I feel that way too! Ha! Glad really it's not just me:) it feels a bit juvenile when I'm with my husband and feel like turning my head:)! Omg! He was brought up in a really religious house hold so he Just laughs at me - like he would laugh at his mom. I like to joke with Dave and sometimes well be like driving down the road say, and I'll just say something really vulgar (like cursing at another car) and it always floors him and we will both be Rolf! I do it just because he reacts that way:)


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

That is just too funny... I just can't imagine my parents or grandparents reading that kind of stuff... lol... but it is ok for others the same age... they just can't be in my family lineage I guess! LOL

I blush easily - Eli takes advantage of it! LOL


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Dave blushes real easy too - 'specially when I tell him he's perty:) lmao!


Motown2Chitown 5 years ago

Real and BBG, that is funny as hell...I do that to Michael every now and then. I'll say something dirty completely out of the blue and he'll blush red as a cherry! Then he'll usually laugh like a loon!


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

I was telling Dave that I was writing about how I do that and he laughed like a loon knowing exactly what I mean:) haha! Mo you're such a rule breaker:).

I bet it does set Michael off laughing sister:)! Haha!

I just told David a few minutes ago that I think he's just using me!


Motown2Chitown 5 years ago

LMAO, Real...using you for home cooked meals, right? ;-) And, hey, there is NO rule against making your husband laugh (and turning him on in the process!) :-O Say hi to Dave!


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Lol! He's a hoot! When we first started dating I would sometimes comment on another female - you know like I might say, oh she is so cute isn't she? And he would get so uncomfortable. Finally he told me that he was unsure of how to react because he had been trained not to look at women - his former GF has trained him to look at his feet;) LOL! So silly! I mean I didn't mean it in a sexual way - just like a friend who thought another woman was pretty, you know? There are lots of differences between us like that. Like I was raised like a savage and he went to church like 4 times a week;) haha! Keeps life really interesting!


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

My husband doesn't blush... booo.... it would be much more fun if I could get him to - lol

Although Real - you hardly seem like a savage! I mean - you made Meatloaf and there is nothing savage about that! LOL


Motown2Chitown 5 years ago

Agreed, BBG...lol Once you've even meatloaf, you've become pretty civilized.

I hate the whole thing about GF who TRAIN their BF. Makes me wanna gag. You want a man or a puppet?!?! AND, my husband is a great lover of women. If he acknowledges that one is beautiful, I don't find that offensive, I find it reassuring. Know why? As beautiful as he may think another woman is, he married ME and is coming home with/to ME! Real, you got the right idea. No wonder it's eighteen (right?) years and counting!


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

BBG - oh it is funny! I can make Dave blush but remember - I was raised with outlaw poker players - he went to church. Life is interesting:). The first time Dave met The Major - it was because there was a poker game that particular night. One player cancelled - and ya just gotta have 7! So dad called and said, doesn't that new BF of yours play poker? We need an extra player.

Dave nervously agreed to play and I was worried. Those old timers would take all Daves money and send him home with a smack on the arse. Dave wanted to play. So I shook my head and watched him go. (I didn't live home anymore) turns out when Dave walked in - 2 of his friends were sitting at the table! Lol!

The games were secret because it's illegal and they got raided before. The cops keep any money that is on the table so even the pizza boy wasn't allowed to see in the house if a game was going on;) haha! Good times! Dave didn't lose much but he lost a little that night.


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

I hate when GF try to train BF - but that usually results in a relationship that really doesn't go anywhere - hence why I live with the philosophy - if you can't beat them - join them.... So if your husband likes looking at beauty - you might as well enjoy yourself and participate! LOL

OMG Real - that is hilarious - although I admit I thought maybe you would have said he took them for all they got because he is like a professional poker player and knows the game like the back of his hand. BTW - what makes some poker games illegal and others not?


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

State law:) here gambling is illegal and now it's not so much a big deal. We do live in the bible belt though - many religious people forbid gambling and actively participate in criminalizing it. We have lots of casinos here now - but it was tough to pass the law to let them in Missouri. We live just over the Illinois border where gambling is legal - they have horse races and everything. You used to have to go over there. As kids we did often. Card games are still illegal here though - I believe it has to be regulated.


Motown2Chitown 5 years ago

How crazy! Real, I can't imagine a household poker game could be illegal anywhere anymore in 2011, but then I was raised in Michigan....they have horse racing and casinos too! Wow...Missouri's in the bible belt, hey? You might have just talked me out of moving there! ;-)


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Shucks Mo! Part of it is:) I tell you - I have JW's knocking on my door every other day. (They pray for the likes of me!) I just feel so bad that they are looking so hot in those white dress shirts - riding bikes around - sweet people though. Used to drive me crazy when I worked nights - they always backed up and looked at me funny when I answered the door at 2 o'clock in pajamas;). I used to have the urge to say, " co gradulations youre my thousandth customer come on it you're gettin' a free bee!" lol!


Motown2Chitown 5 years ago

LMAO, Real...OMG That's too frickin' funny! JW, btw, pray for everyone not of their ilk, including us Catholics...lol But, yanno, I'm good with that. I need all the prayer I can get, I figure...hehehe


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

That is interesting... I guess in Wisconsin card games are ok... we never hid them and I think every single one of my grandparents had one of those poker chip wheels. We used to play with those - it saves on spending the money. I am horrible at poker - therefore I always lose.. and no - I won't play with you then :) LOL

As for the JW's - I had one come and knock on my door once. It was right after I had Max and I was bleaching the kitchen floor - well - I didn't want to get my clothes all bleach spotted - especially since I was still working off the baby weight and didn't have many to choose from - so I scrubbed the floor in a pair of shorts and my nursing bra... I had just finished and put a shirt on when they knocked on the door. The funny part was the door had a big fancy glass window - so you could see through it - but it wasn't the kind you would put a curtain over... 5 minutes earlier - they might have gotten a show! LOL

Real - you should have said that too them - they would have probably ran away making the sign of the cross... lol

Mo - I have to agree - I don't think I would want to live in the bible belt... I don't like religion being pushed in my face too much! LOL - I don't mind it - but I am too nice to turn them away - I have collected so many books from them trying to convert me!


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

That is a good think about JW's - I think I need all the prayer I can get too! LOL


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Lol you two! We do have lots of religion here. People stand in the streets in the city collecting and preaching the word. I've gotten little Bible pamphlets in lieu of money tips! Haha! It always cracked me up - when I go to their work place, I'm certainly expected to leave a monetary tip;) you know? Oh well - I could use the prayers I suppose - be damned and all:)! Lol


Motown2Chitown 5 years ago

I wouldn't worry about being damned just yet, Real. God likes honest folks. :-) And, BBG, start reading all those books - that way when one comes in telling you one thing, you counter them with what the other books say. :-)


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barbergirl28 5 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

Ha ha - I can't bring myself to throw them away - after all, it seems sacreligious! Maybe I am wrong! But I feel funny doing it. Maybe I will convince the relatives to do an white elephant Christmas gift exchange and give them away that way... lol


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Levertis Steele 4 years ago from Southern Clime

Writer's Withdrawal! Fantastic writing idea. You have something here. If you could think of a way to bottle a writing "disease" that causes that kind of withdrawal when not writing, and get schools to infect students, you would only become a million-, no, billionaire! It would sell all over the world.

What a great hub! I thank you for sharing.


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barbergirl28 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca Author

@Levertis Steele - Brilliant... now how in the world do I get that into a bottle. I guess I will just have to work for pennies until I figure it out! :)

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