You Swallowed the Stars
Everything is dark now, as I stand beneath your gaze
Tears carve out their watery paths down my face
As though to flee from me… but I know where they go
To that city from which I am forbidden
My need for it is deeper than my need for light.
My body shakes beneath this empty sky
The stars are gone, and so I am lost…
I try to remember the sun, the moon,
The warmth of rays that sought my skin
But something is grasping at my throat
I cannot breathe, and I cannot see, fettered by your thoughts...
You swallowed the stars with your dark eyes, your dark heart
You make my soul cry to feel no more.
Silently I fall to me knees, beg for this to end,
For the sun and stars to reemerge and grace me with their hope.
Perhaps then I too would sail down those swift waterways
Awake to find myself in that city that is forbidden to me.
Could I pretend the darkness was peace?
Could I embrace the silence as being found?
There nothing would be unclear, no need to stumble and cut myself…
My body would praise this place formed from my tears.
Would welcome its solid knowing, so unlike the fragile parchment of my days
The city’s silence is its treasure, sought by me when all chances of joy were lost.
Now I look for it to welcome me... if only for a brief reprieve.