Being´There¨ for Someone.

For so many years , l was there for you.

All those years , l was there for you,

Why, Oh! Why Does this happen now?.

Now that l am so far away,

Hard as l tried l just could not stay,

After all those years l was there for you.


All those nights that l talked you through,

You cried and cried , but it got you through.

Till the next time.


l cried while mopping up your blood,

You smiled with relief that it gave to you,

OH Now Why now? Why now?

After all those years l was there for you.


l can still talk you through, our phones are at hand´

You know day or night l´m still here for you,

But it´s not the same, l do understand,


You say ´Never Again¨ you promise,

Till next time.

After all those years l was there for you,

Now l´m too far away to mop up your blood,

to cry while holding you tight in my arms,

to tell you you´re worth more than blood on the floor,

Yes all those years l was there for you.


Oh! Why can´t l be there now for you?

Now you´re so ill you can barely talk.

Phones not much use as you struggle to slur

a few words of love, a sentence not formed.

l guess what you´re saying or trying to say,

Then leave you to sleep, Try another day.

After all those years l was there for you,

A visit, l tried, but you hardly knew me,

A sombre flight home, my heart it was breaking,

remembering times when we´d both hug , while aching.


Aching with pain of the state of your mind.

Wishing that others could at least be kind

Then you could have hope, even though l´m afar..

After all those years l was there for you.


None of us know how our own story ends.

But l beg you to not give up hope.

Fighting is hard, you´re tired, l know,

But who says you can´t make it through, My Friend.?


After all those years l was there for you,

It sickens me thinking of NOW........

Why did this not happen before,?

When l was there , so swift to your door..


You´d cry..´l´m so sorry´...l´d say ´Don´t you worry´

and better you´d get........

until next time.


But this is now different , can´t walk or talk

Doctors just tell us to wait.

They cannot be sure if better you´ll get

Or if your life will be Hell.


It´s so hard to grasp that this happens Now!

Now that you´re so alone,

l pray for an answer for God knows l tried

During those years , so many years,

All those years l was there for you.





A Long Lonely Road
A Long Lonely Road

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jenubouka 5 years ago

So heart retching, full of raw emotion, beautifully written.


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you so much. ´Raw´ is the perfect word for how l feel now.


Lady_Tenaz 5 years ago

This was so sad and touching, but Raw is exactly what it is. You speak such powerful truth in this poem, I can feel the pain as I read it. I can sense the sadness and that frustration you felt wishing you could have been there for this person. I am sorry for your loss of such a good friend. HUGS to you


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

Great to hear from you. l appreciate your comment. Thank you.


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mckbirdbks 5 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

Even angels need friends. very powerful


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Movie Master 5 years ago from United Kingdom

Hello Dim, this is desperately sad, and I feel your frustration.

Beautifully written, my best wishes to you.


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AUPADHYAY 5 years ago from INDIA, UTTAR PRADESH STATE, KANPUR CITY

Nice effort. So beautifully expressed your feelings. really a beautiful poem.


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

´´Even angels need friends´´. What a sweet expression.

Thank you mcknbrds


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you Movie Master. It is a very sad story indeed. l´m desperatley trying to believe all the people who are telling me l did what l could.

nothing was enough, though.


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

Hello AUDADHYAY, l´m glad you liked the poem.

Thank you for reading and commenting.


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epigramman 5 years ago

.....well you have always been there for me my dear friend - and this is one key aspect of my time here at the Hub which has been so rewarding - this time spent with you - and as I always say to any writer - young or old - new or experienced - always write from the heart and the mind will follow and you have certainly done that here and so brilliantly in all of its intensity and honesty.

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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Oh, this is so terribly aching and hurting for your friend..your long time friend. I hope this works out and that there is healing and no more deep deep pain and repeating hurt. Loss...I don't really know what to say...this is so deeply palpable and compelling. Dim..I just hope all will be ok.


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you so much, Lucky Cats. l hoped that writing how l felt would help, but the anger doesn´t come through. All the years l helped a dear friend through depression and self harm . Now l live far away from her and she has had 4 strokes at age 41. And l´m not there.

it´s killing me, because iWAS there only 3 weeks ago and could get no answer at her home, or phone or any sense from anyone that knew her,. Only now do l find that she was already in the hospital at the time. l want to kick something.


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

Dear Mr. Epigramman. the master of verse......

Thank you for your kind commens. You are always encouraging.

Take care, Dim x


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Awesomely beautiful dear Dim. Wonderful! I love you dear heart.


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

Dim I feel your pain, anxiety and stress not being there for your friend. Distance is such a spoiler of time and it prevents us from doing so many things. You express your hurt so profoundly here, I pray that your friend got better and that your soul is at peace with hers.


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thanks Micky. Good to see you here.

Love you too,man, as always


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

dear Saddlerider.. l can´t help crying while reading the comments-. It´s hard to explain how angry l feel .... at who or what? Life, l suppose.

l helped her through so many times after the razorblades had beeen out, or she´d crashed her car and had a narrow escape., Or the drugs didn´t work, you know from your own life, but now this , to have a stroke at 41 followed by 3 more and l´m not there for her after all those years that l was.

Doctors say we have to wait, she may get better.

Thank you for your continous support, my friend.


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Alastar Packer 5 years ago from North Carolina

There's a movie where Dustin Hoffman is a therapist or something trying to help Matt Damon get over feelings of guilt in a situation perhaps like yours. "DH-'Its not your fault.' MD in a low faux bravado voice: 'Yeah, I know.'DH- "You don't understand, its not your fault." MD in a slightly higher pitched voice,"We talked about that before, yeah, I know." DH continues in a louder but still gentle voice, "Its not your fault." MD is now raising his voice in increasing desperation, "I know!" DH- "Its not your fault." MD, "I KNOW!" Eventually Matt falls into Dustin's arms and they hug with Matt's tears falling like raindrops. A healing breakthrough has happened.~ This is what your poem inspired me to write Dim. Bless you.


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

l don´t know the movie, but you painted a beautiful word picture for me.

Thank you so much.

Today l heard from the hospital that my friend is improving in speech and walking a little. There is hope for some recovery , though not fully.

Thank you again. l was feeling perhaps this hub was maybe ´´too much information...´´´too personal, but the feedback l´ve had is most encouraging.

Take care.


DoorMattnomore 5 years ago

Hey DF ..... I wish I could hug you


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Teylina 5 years ago

Anguish of this kind can never be taken away; you "just got to ride it out," as someone told me. I think everyone who reads this wants to be there for you through our thoughts/prayers/whatevers. Take care. Powerful pen! Poem beautiful and awesome. So sorry for your pain.


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

BIG HUGS to you Doormattnomore.


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you, Teylina for such a beautiful comment.

l need to practise more the.....Accept the things you cannot change....


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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

This is such a compelling read and so completely heartfelt. The whole situation is a complete tragedy, you have done your best; you can do more. My thoughts and prayers are with you Dim. Voting up of course and pressing those buttons too.


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you so much.

l always appreciate your comments.


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wannabwestern 5 years ago from The Land of Tractors

Dim, you are clearly in a deep winter season of your life right now. The pain and the hurt and the compassion for your friend are all written so well in this beautiful poem. I think your encouragement will be felt by so many others who are also going through similar things...perhaps that will be a small comfort. I am awestruck.


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

How lovely to hear from you.

This is a beautiful comment, thank you so much.

It´s nice of you to mention encouraging someone else. l hadn´t thought of this poem as being useful to someone else, but you never know.

Take care, Dim xx

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