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A few words about a broken heart.
A few words about a broken heart. | Source

I feel so alone,like nobody cares

the end seems near, there is only despair

I have given up hope, lost the will to live

if only someone will call, I have so much to give

but my cell never rings,i just stare at the screen

thinking how worthless I must be,cause no-one ever calls me

unless they need something,like money or a favor

that makes it even worse knowing I'm only good for labor.

How did I get here,what have I done

I'm not a bad person,I just wonder alone

as the darkness crawls closer,I feel so nauseous and panic strict.

if i die this second, it wouldn't be too quick

but Its never that easy for me,i am abandoned and alone

so my heart turns to cancer as hard as a stone

down a never endind spiral my mood is falling down

will I hit the bottom? If I do will there be a sound?

I wish someone would rescue me, a loved one or my family or friends

but it seems I have lost them too, on them I cannot depend.

I can't even acknowledge that I am alive, when I feel so brokenhearted,full of hate,rage I despise.

maybe I'm in hell and I have already passed,not knowing what happened how long will this last?

it seems like a second takes an hour to pass,and even the slightest noise sounds like shattering glass.

If you think I am exaggerating, I assure you I'm not

I feel like I lost it all,everything I've got

so I have decided to humble myself and ask God to save me

I asked him to forgive me for my sins and waited.

Slowly but surely I am feeling better as I type

do not mistake me,this is true and not hype.

I feel an inner peace calming me from the inside out

I'm feeling better now and there is no doubt.

I was surprised when my cell rang and I hear those three words

I love you son,how are you? it was dad I had heard

but how was this even possible when he died over 5 years ago,

I know with God all things are possible and I guess this goes to show.

If you will put your faith in him, he will not fail you.

Your blessing will be many, it will amaze you

because with him in your life,happiness will be found

and all the bad things in the past can be buried underground.

I know satan will come after you,because he is the great deceiver.

he wants you to suffer and be sad all the time,he wants misery and death for you,isn't that so unkind

but with God in you life you are safe just because you are a believer.

So take these words to heart,and ask him if you'd like and you to can have everlasting happiness,with no suffering or strife

I would like to thank him now, for giving his only son, so we can have everlasting life and peace for everyone.

Thanks & may God be with you always and whatever you do today #makeitcount.

Mark

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Sueswan 4 years ago

Heartfelt and inspirational. With God we are never alone.

Voted up and away

Take care


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ChristyWrites 4 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

You offer hope at the end, though the start of the poem has so much sadness. I am glad it ended on a positive note!


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picklesandrufus 4 years ago from Virginia Beach, Va

For such a dark start, you ended it with love and hope-as only God can do! Beautiful.


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Oppeakra 4 years ago from Min, USA

I have indeed felt that way before. Thank a look at my poems, u might have felt like that before.


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

My how this lifted my spirit. We can get down but with the love of God we can rise again, We all have been there, you are not alone. Beautiful poetry..Thank you..


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tobusiness 4 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

Make it count indeed, this is deep, powerful and so emotive. the depression and darkness here is so real, it's almost palpable. love the ending, even in the darkest hour there is hope.


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teaches12345 4 years ago

A sad beginning, but the ending was inspiring. Life is worth living, trust in God and he will bring it all into purpose for you. Lovely share.


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manthy 4 years ago from Alabama,USA Author

Thank you Deborah - I appreciate you sharing that maybe it will help inspire someone.

Have a blessed weekend


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manthy 4 years ago from Alabama,USA Author

That is so true Thank you Curiad


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

Mark oh my word how beautifully done .. I love it.. makes me so hopeful for the future.. and I know the Lord is looking down and saying well done son. God bless you and I am sharing on Facebook prayer page.

Debbie


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Curiad 4 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

An awesome turn of spirit mark. It is true that if we open our eyes to God the answers will appear.


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manthy 4 years ago from Alabama,USA Author

@janshares - Thank you Jan - I appreciate your kind words and hope you have a blessed weekend and whatever you do #makeitcount.

God-Bless


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janshares 4 years ago from Washington, DC

Powerful, Mark. So much despair, very real. I like the upturn of mood and tone by God's grace. Inspiring and hopeful for those who are depressed and faithful.

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