Sorry i dont want your problems.

Because this is all to laughable to take seriously anymore. Seriously, i am f'ing laughing at this shit.

sometimes you have to let someone go

even though

they don't understand.

and that person's reality

isn't sinking in

and they think that you are unfair.

But you know in your soul that were you to hang

they would dump their bull shi* on you

and would show you their fangs.

It wouldn't be as rosy

as their colored glasses are

and sooner or later

the'd go too fuckin far

and youd have to leave anyway

or live with their shit

and that's not something you want

is it.

so you go with your gut

even though you feel guilty

and leave them in the dust

soiled and filthy

but its better than getting

their filth all over you

because what they see is illusion

while you are clear and can see the truth.

promises and begging

telling you it'd be fine

as you try to explain

they don't give a fuck why

just tell you you lied to them

and make you need to explain

trying desperately to get them to see

you weren't trying the feign

but after careful consideration

and recent red flags

there's no way your putting yourself in this shit again

your done taking on other's bags

so in conclusion

I'm not sorry to say

that Mr. johnny love

is not coming my way

I'm tired of lies

and manipulation

and yes i realize

that I'm completely outing him

be careful girls, I'm sure its not just me

that hes trying to latch on to

pretending to be

someone who's clean

well clearly he's not

and i cant believe i believed

that he's just had a bad lot.

whats really amazing

is that he believes it himself

and accused me of putting

him back on the shelf

well he is the one

who got kicked out

of his friends for stealing

now hes riding around

in a car that he's sold

I'm sure for wrong reasons

and telling me lies

about his feelings

trying to leach

has no where to go

what makes him think

i actually believe his woe

its all his own fault

i don't need anyone's problems

my job is to work out my own

and how can i solve them

if he dumps his on me

im done

worrying about money

and having to hide my own.

nah, i think ill love the man that loves me

and stop trying to help

people who aren't honest

with how their hurting themselves




Seriously, get some help or leave people alone. Be your own mess.

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Jlava73 4 years ago from Cyberspace and My Own World

Good for you! You have to respect and take care of yourself first.


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

jlava73- thanx babe. im sure some might have a prob w this but you know what... im kind of sick of everyone pretending certain people dont have addiction problems. im over it, so over it. and its like, you cant say anything to protect their identity...well F that, maybe if he gets embarassed enough he might change that identity. seriously. he says hes fine and then i get 1000 excuses and denials well ya know what, i call BULLSHIT.


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Jlava73 4 years ago from Cyberspace and My Own World

and you know he actually may be forced to make a change because you outed him ~ you never know. Just continue to take care of yourself, sometimes people get dangerous when they are exposed.


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

he lives on the other side of the country. and you know what, my man is foot five 260 pounds. im worried about nothing. besides, im sure hes going to spenc money on "more important things" than comming all the way here to show me a lesson lol. by the way, i dont get high, but i think this song is hilarious!!


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BeyondMax 4 years ago from Sydney, Australia

And he is so incredibly talented, just beyond imagination... You are a true friend, such a deep emotional poem, took my breath away!


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

tell me about it, hes wasting himself.


over it 4 years ago

You are so right totally ended this w/him told him I am getting off his amusement ride everything is a lie'I am not here for his amusement any longer.He plays people very well.Hope everyone see it.If you ever need to talk or compare notes just reply here and I will get in touch with you...He is a player of people good at it but is on his down fall....Thank you for seeing it just like I do''''


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

i would definateyl love to compare notes. email me. pastel.umbrella@gmail.com


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

id be curious to know how recent your experience with him was, as i was told of his undying love for me. might make me feel even better about unloading his shit from my life. fuckin user dude, fucking user.


over it 4 years ago

Emailed you my friend.Thank you!


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

i replied w sort of a long email. man, it must be us pretty girls that he cant stand not to try using. wow.


over it 4 years ago

yes it was just a week ago he was going to kill his self if I said it was over.He recently wrote something using my picture Koshka.Also it there are many more in this hope they see it so glad one of your friend is going into the same things hope he sees this.I added Ardie on my fb and he had a fit and deleted her after that and begged me to and I am sorry I did.Thank you maybe we could connect on FB!!!!


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Nikkij504gurl 4 years ago from Louisiana

woah... interesting.


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Angelme566 4 years ago

Pinks..hope you're find..pour it all here and all we'll be fine ! Have a great Sunday !


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epigramman 4 years ago

...well Miss Steph, astute owner of the world's greatest BS detector you never ever mince your poetic words - ever - and that is what I admire most about you and the fact that you really are a wonderful writer whom I admire and respect very much ..... lake erie time 11:13pm - sending warm wishes and good energy to you and the little general ....who is loved and adored by the world's greatest mom


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

lol, didnt feel like the worlds greatest mom today. had to give him his first real "time out" i think those 3 minutes were longer for me than they were for him

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