This is not what I wanted
My hands are crossed
I'm holding onto my heart.
It feels like If I let go I will die for sure.
I'm caught in the middle of a war against myself.
I'm learning so much more.
I've became someone else.
I can't sleep for the fear of waking up.
My nightmare is reality.
Life would be so much easier if it was like my dreams.
I know what I want and I am willing to seize it.
I am stuck in an ordinary forest when I wanted to find wonderland.
I am realizing that this isn't what I wanted.
I wish this would all just end.
I want to find a safe place to rest my head.
I want to wake up and realize my dreams again.