fairy tale whirl
fairy tale whirl
in a fairy tale world
nothing seems as harsh
as it did months ago
everything is jeans
and dimples
and dreams
now that its him.
i cant even describe
the looks that i gave
just the danger of looking
being caught...was grave
and the feelings behind the looks
well, do i have to explain?
they were exciting and real for me
so much to gain
had i knew it would turn out
the way that it did
would have pulled him aside
and said...
"listen, i like you, and i think it could be
something that could maybe
turn onto something...
i know this is going
to change both our worlds
so come to the closet...
and give me a whirl...."
looked forward to him
when i knew he'd be there
the stares, my god
you wouldn't believe the stares.
he says he caught all of them,
but i know there's no way
it's way more than he knew
that my eyes seemed to stray
up and down his torso
his eyes
his smile
or what of it there was
the way he touched the small of her back....shudder and pause
to feel this was nothing
just a little girl crush
and then rush
rush
rush
fast forward
to the rush of his touch
in the back of his car
a new world of whirl
a fairy tale whirl
in a fairy tale world
he calls me his starlit princess
and though the name doesn't suit me
my ears rush any name
that he chooses to call me
because hes that god damn good
just amazing to me
the way he melts all my nightmares
and magnifies all my dreams
sooths me and fills me
in EVERY way
Ive had men fall in love with me
but its never this way...
both ways
and here is this boyish wonder
this manly vision
making me bleed through
making my walls so submissive
did i mention there gone?
my walls built up so tight
Ive tired if keeping them
theres no more reason to fight
the way that i feel
like cool breeze through my hair
and never i knew
would it be him
that would take me there.
star crossed...forbidden...
whatever it is
its completely for me
but then again...Ive always loved sin
forever damned
by certain ill persons
then drive me to hell
but first open the curtains
i want all of them to see
the love they've created
unintentionally
from the lives that they've gated
with there "suggestions" and slander
Ive grown all the better
with a love that falls around me
like a comfy old sweater.
what becomes of the broken hearted?
when they fall into each other
and get restarted?
fire and fire
passion, permission
volcanic collision.
and then there's the dirty dirty submission
over and under
and through
all around me
whirling like smoke
lover surround me
take me again
and again
and again
and when all is quiet
he speaks gently
like a friend
holding my hand
like he would a small child's
laughing and smiling
driving me wild
trusting his touch
and that it will take me there
so when i look back now
to all of those stares...
and how they've been fulfilled
in every possible way
i wonder why I'm so lucky
to have been given this play
the hands Ive been dealt
year after year
broken hearts
and bruised decisions
cracked knuckles and soul collisions
i thought i was too broken
for anything but pain
it was all i knew how to handle
and that i was to blame
for what befell my decisions
thought it would be pain to the grave
sobbing and suffering
forcing myself to stay
i approached him that night
...that night in the dark
i looked up at him
and he kissed me
and i knew just then how far..
id go
to be near him always.
all the white horses rushed
and i felt it to my core
all the fighting... the war...
to be never more
and this touch that was gentle
from a made to be monster...to a said to be whore...
made my body fall weak
and i only wanted more
things changing so fast
that i can barely breathe
but him being there
makes it come to pass...so easily.
baby i so much more than love you
there are no other words
to express my core feeling
you make my sheer essence purr
the way you kiss me
the way you stroke my hair
the way you laugh
the way that wherever we are...
you'll take me, right there
insatiable and fulfilled
funny and rough
soft and unspoken
rush
after
rush
fairy tale whirl
in a fairy tale world
it is you
that i must thank
in advance
for how amazingly wonderful
you have made the rest of my life.
and yes, i loved you
on the very first night.