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Drink in hand...making a stand...then I fell...lost it all

  1. quietnessandtrust profile image60
    quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago

    "When I am drinking"

    I am all alone in this house of pain
    everything I ever do brings me to shame
    in this house of pain
    I surely must surrender
    or stand nothing to gain
    in this house of pain

    and in this house of pain
    I cry out to be delivered
    for God to bring His rain
    let it fall on this lonely man
    give me strength to rise again
    and to conquer this house of pain


    Anyone who knows the struggle may comment. big_smile
    Those who knew someone can too. smile

    Or anyone really.

    1. lorlie6 profile image83
      lorlie6posted 7 years ago in reply to this

      I stopped living in that house in 2008, I had to surrender to my HP and start living.  It's not easy, but there's nothing like sobriety.

      1. quietnessandtrust profile image60
        quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago in reply to this

        Great to hear this.
        So, have you recovered ? big_smile

    2. Cynthia_Jones profile image60
      Cynthia_Jonesposted 7 years ago in reply to this

      What a fantastic write. Well done. smile Keep up with the great work. Keep on penning. Thank you so very much for sharing your wonderful and creative talents with us.

      *S* Cynthia

      1. quietnessandtrust profile image60
        quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago in reply to this

        Thanks for reading and commenting.
        Transparency is the best thing for all people.
        Some struggle with this and that, but all struggle with something and cannot seem to admit they are powerless over whatever it might be in their lives.

        Until this happens, they are locked up and in a state of self denial. sad

        It just so happens that my struggle was

  2. aware profile image70
    awareposted 7 years ago

    drink in hand i reply . you are not alone. i to  am in need of regaining my footing. but where to stand? i think its up.

    1. quietnessandtrust profile image60
      quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago in reply to this

      UP is good....still struggling a bit eh? big_smile

  3. pioneer_writer5 profile image59
    pioneer_writer5posted 7 years ago

    I know someone who is living in that house, but cannot find his way out. The pain reverberates through out the family causing pain to everyone who has to live with, experience,and watch the prison that this person cannot seem to get paroled from. He serves the sentence that is handed down to him from the bottle.

    1. quietnessandtrust profile image60
      quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago in reply to this

      I can totally understand this. I was at a place for a long time where I was drinking morning, noon and night and then waking up at night to drink so I could go back to sleep.

      Got up to a 5th (750mil) a day plus beer!!! sad

      Then one night I got a visit and the next day the desire was gone completely!!! big_smile big_smile big_smile

      The "way out" is to SURRENDER!!!...just like in a war...you have to realize you are conquered and defeated totally.

      Nobody can convince you of this though. sad

  4. tantrum profile image61
    tantrumposted 7 years ago

    Quietness said :

    'The "way out" is to SURRENDER!!!...just like in a war...you have to realize you are conquered and defeated totally.'

    1. quietnessandtrust profile image60
      quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago in reply to this

      Yeah and so hard to do, nobody likes to SURRENDER at all. big_smile

      1. tantrum profile image61
        tantrumposted 7 years ago in reply to this

        But you did
        SURRENDER wasn't that bad after all big_smile

        1. quietnessandtrust profile image60
          quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago in reply to this

          Sometimes to surrender is to be free. big_smile

          1. tantrum profile image61
            tantrumposted 7 years ago in reply to this

            Not when you surrender to a man/ woman ! lol

  5. aware profile image70
    awareposted 7 years ago

    as a addict i think a lot about the why. i tend to think we are in search of something. not just a high or a escape .but for something beyond this lifes reach.

    1. quietnessandtrust profile image60
      quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago in reply to this

      Everyone tries to fill the void with something that costs them everything eventually.

      For some it is food, some is is money, some it is sex, some it is alcohol and drugs, some it is wanting to be a star, some it is control, some it is greed, some gossip, some anger, some pretending, some living an illusion, some minding someone else's business and on and on and on it goes until the come to the end of themselves and...yep!!!

      SURRENDER!!!

      You cannot live until you live outside of yourself and become transparent. big_smile

  6. quietnessandtrust profile image60
    quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago

    Well I know what you mean.

    If someone has better way of doing things or better ideas, I can willingly admit that and "surrender to them"...so to speak. Esp. if they can help me in my life or work.

    But I am free to leave at anytime too....you must be careful.

    1. tantrum profile image61
      tantrumposted 7 years ago in reply to this

      R U talking 2 me ? hmm

      1. quietnessandtrust profile image60
        quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago in reply to this

        Just saying in general that if you surrender to someone else's ideas because it is better and then you choose to leave them behind, just be careful as to why you go away.

        1. tantrum profile image61
          tantrumposted 7 years ago in reply to this

          Sometimes you have to, even if you don't want to do it

          1. quietnessandtrust profile image60
            quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago in reply to this

            Yeah I know I did, and if I came to the conclusion that someone had a better idea about drinking (or insert your struggle) and I followed that advice from them and then later left that advice, I had better be careful big_smile

  7. Juliet Christie profile image58
    Juliet Christieposted 7 years ago

    Battle of bottles

    I do not suffer this personal pain,
    But watched my friend suffer this shame,
    Years in years out he endured this pain,
    But knew not how to shake this shame.

    I believed the best thing is to make up the mind,
    And seek to get professional help of some kind,
    It's hard to travel the road alone,
    But there is help in numbers in the battle of bottles

    My friend lost his battle for he fought alone,
    His liver was damaged and in his heart a hole,
    There is nothing but death in the field of bottles
    Get the help of others in fighting the battle of bottles.

    1. quietnessandtrust profile image60
      quietnessandtrustposted 7 years ago in reply to this

      Did you just write this ? big_smile

      Thanks for sharing it with us, very kind of you big_smile

      Sounds like it came from deep personal experience to.

 
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