Painful memories of he that marred me....
He ensnared the marrow of my soul and ate it....
Slathering over the last bits of emotion I had left
Sopping up my blood with his needs
He took everything from me
Left me for dead
If I tried to break free
He did it again
Made me feel like I was worthless
He loves me still
I am plunging in the abyss of my own condemnation
I will never be worthy of happiness and fulfillment...
I will be alone for no one will have me
I have been marked
Scarred with the stigmata of men
Today I give my life back
To whomever had given it to me
I hope it will be better put to use elsewhere
I renounce my privilege to breathe
No longer allow me to squander time
that someone else could use....
Let me fade away....
As if I never even existed
This is dark but well done. I hope this piece provides some catharsis.
Disturbing, but true. Life can be brutal, for many women and men. I hope you find solace in your writing. I think most of us do. Thanks for sharing:)
This would make a wonderful hub. We are not alone either when it comes to falling into despair. It will pass and the sun will shine again.
michelelavell That is very poignant, But life doesn't end there, It is yours to make it what you want it to be. Rise up now to convert your pain to art . Go on make a hub; that others will read and applaud. You may be thinking what do you know? I know one thing , if you decide to make something of your life today you can... there is no stopping you!! My Heart goes out to you, My best wishes for a happier more fulfilled life!! God bless!
Michelelavell my heart bleeds for you. You have suffered a horrible violation of so much more than the pysical. However, Dame and Sofs make good points. Nothing is over, your life is not over. You can and will go on. This is in no way your fault. You are a survivor. You are strong though you may not feel that way. The fact that you could write this proves your strength as I have no doubt you had to relive it.
Rise and hold your head high. Become a glowing example that you can not only survive but become stronger and grow. Know that you are not alone. One in three girls, mind you girls, not women are sexually assaulted before reaching adulthood. Many feel shame but feelings are not logical. You have nothing to be ashamed of. The monster you wrote of does.
May peace come to you. God bless you and thank you for having the courage to write this.
Something that has always enraged me as a man,is in the violence and control a woman will endure ,some in one night and some for a life sentence , all of it unnessesary! Why? because hearts have something to prove? Martyrs something to suffer? Men of this breed , do not deserve life. Give your soul to your writing ......
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