It's so hard not to call you, not to text you, not to hold you.
Knowing it's my fault leads only to more hurt too.
Not seeing you won't make this aching go away.
However, thoughts of seeing you make me want you to stay.
Do I lean in to kiss you, NO but why do I feel like I should?
Do I call to see how you are doing, NO but what if I could?
I kick myself for thinking of you all the time,
Because I ruined my chance to make you mine.