I Am a Conundrum

I very much relate to the second verse especially.


I am a conundrum, a puzzle that I can't even solve

How can I when the pieces stay the same, yet they ever evolve?

I know who I am at my very core,

My deepest values and the things that I stand for

Not a person on Earth can take that away from me

Nor do those things ever stray from me

Though there are times I don't know why I do the things I do

But by looking back and thinking it all through

Sometimes I like the things that I have learned,

The things I gained along the way as the pages turned

Other times, I wish some things could be undone

Never, though, the experience itself - not one

It's all a part of me

And it's all a part of who I'll be

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bigj1969 2 years ago from glasgow

Beautiful hub,really moving.

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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Thank you, bigj!

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Venkatachari M 2 years ago from Hyderabad, India

Beautiful and meaningful lines with good albums.

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MartieCoetser 2 years ago from South Africa

Looking back and thinking it all through, we realize that the good as well as the bad were necessary for us to be who we are today. The most important is to not get stuck in the mud. Move forward is the golden rule.

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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks so much, Venkatachari! Glad you find them to be meaningful.

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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Excellent point, Martie! Very true. Thanks for pointing it out.

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Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

You are a deep thinker and analyze yourself deeply, dear Shan, as is obvious through your revealing poetry. It is good to do so and learn from our past so that we may grow into who we are meant to be in this present day, a culmination of all of our past mistakes and the wisdom that comes from such, including heartaches and regrets. The hardest thing in life is to forgive ourselves it seems, but once we realize we are all just human and so much alike, it is so important that we give ourselves a break to be human and not get stuck.

Hugs and peace

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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks, sweet Faith Reaper. I analyze yoo much and sometimes not enough. LOL. But, yes, we are all human, but I find beauty in that.

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MsDora 2 years ago from The Caribbean

Seems you have expressed some of my thoughts exactly, only better than I would. Touching!

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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks, MsDora! I love it when someone is moved by something I wrote. It's humbling, too, though.

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Ericdierker 2 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

Beautifully done. You really make your poems come alive.

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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks, Eric! I am so grateful for your continued support and encouragement.

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Gypsy Rose Lee 2 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Wonderfully done.

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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks, Rasma! I appreciate your visits.

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Jo_Goldsmith11 24 months ago

This was so profound to read! Life is so difficult, which I have no doubt you already know. I can so relate to your words. As it is a combination of learning to feel okay with who I am. It can be a long road from point A- when you want to be so many things for so many people. Then to finally reach point B, where all you are concerned with is being true to self.

And ensuring that your journey is on the right path, leading you to the place you are destined to be. :-)

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shanmarie 24 months ago from Texas Author

Once again, thanks so much for your kind words, Jo. I think being true to self is what allows us to be so many things to others. At that point, either others allow us to be a part of their lives or not.

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Vellur 18 months ago from Dubai

Great write, you have expressed so well. Deep and pulled at my heartstrings.

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shanmarie 18 months ago from Texas Author

Thank you so much, Vellur!!

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