Leaving Friends (prose)

most difficult friend to leave

   Princess
Princess

Leaving Home or Moving On?



..Shadows are falling and I've been here all day,It's too hot to sleep, Time is running away.

Feel like my soul has turned into steel. I've still got the scars that the sun didn't heal.

There's not even room enough to be anywhere., It's not dark yet, but it's getting there

I've been to the bottom or a world full of lies. I ain't looking for nothing in anyone's eyes.

Sometimes my burden seems more than I can bear, It's not dark yet, but it's getting there.

(Not Dark Yet.,,, Bob Dylan)


Why oh why do I feel like the name of our dear friend and fellow hubber RUN DOWN BATTERY??

Shock, I suppose. Things happen unexpectedly.

It seems my time here has come to an end. I thought this never would happen,

My life on this beautiful island, what's gone wrong?

Well, 20 years in this wonderful place, 20 years I've tried to keep pace,

With all of the people who've needed my help, Children , the teens, the elderly too.

I should count my blessings. I've loved all this work.

Memories-----My young African girl unable to read, although in her 20s

Then her mum died. She leaned on me heavily.

I taught her to read and Oh! the joy on her face.

Now she's happy and married. I can leave. She's OK, but it's breaking my heart.

I think of the children , little ones all from India. 30 pairs of big brown eyes

looking at me and listening intently. Then UP! with their hands

when I'd thrown out a question..."Pick me, Aunt!".."Pick my hand, Aunt!"

How I love them.

Tired at night, I'd often go home, and sit, just relax in my own little dome,

Watching the palm trees sway in the breeze, Sunset lowering over shimmering seas.

How can I leave?

Oh! Dim !! Get a grip.! Move on.----Don't look back

Be an adult. No-one died. You haven't gone blind. Grow-up. Think ahead

New start. Different country. Now there's a thought. Are you trying to be funny?

Oh! Yes .. Go away from blue skies and sun. I'm not getting younger, but HERE I feel young.

Yes. I'll move on shall I? To Wales, to the rain? Or live near my daughter and suffer the pain

of arthritis that's worse where the weather is colder. She lives where it's cold.......

Ok . It's not Iceland.........But England far North...say no more just Brrrrrrrr......

Ah! My fabulous island, I don't want to leave. The cactus, the flowers,

Blue and green seas.. Volcanic island Mount Teide atop

Fantastic sights each day of volcanic rock.

Ah Well, Such is life. I can always re-visit. Fly over...see friends..feel jealous..HEY! a minute.

Dim , You are silly. are you forgetting something? Hubfriends all over..computer's the same.

Wherever you live. You can still play the game. Talk to Micky, the cyclist,

or Poetlorraine. Think of Justine or Wannabwestern. Tonymac lifts you up

and so does James Watkins. Come on ,now Dim . You can't name them all

Such is the list of new friends you've made. Just read Seasonings' poems and write more yourself.

Yes, I've truly been blessed with 20 years here.,The people I love I'll be sorry to leave,

but for goodness sake, Dim-------Are you lying in rubble? Are you starved or too thirsty?

Have you nothing to wear? . Well actually.....not needed a coat for so long.....

Maybe Frogdropping can help or, Ten Blogger for fashion. I'll need a new wardrobe!!

Yikes! Things looking brighter.....Shopping, yes shopping I've the perfect excuse...!

I've nothing for Britain in my wardrobe that suits.

The cold weather , the wind, snow and rain. I'd better get busy. Go shopping again.

Sorry BOB, It's not dark yet and it's NOT getting there........


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singlmomat52 6 years ago

Dim, I know the feeling of having to move on, leaving behindfamily, old and new friends. You will do well. Such a beautiful piece you have written about your feelings. I know you will do well wherever you go. Your heart is in the right place. And you are right, no matter where you go you can carry us with you. I ook forward to more of your heartfelt hubs. Thanks for sharing. May God bless you in whatever you do.


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you so much for that encouragement. I know once I get there , it will hurt for a while. I love this island so much. ..But going to live close to my daughter and 3 growing sons. I won't have too much time to think of 'me'.

So glad you took time to read and commemt. Take care.x


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Micky Dee 6 years ago

Aww, dang it. I want the Island too. I bet the cycling isn't that great though huh? Cold England? Good cycling though? Too cold? Oh I do hate the cold. Much snow there? You'll be near your loved ones. I do hope you're happy. Or happy enough!

"..Shadows are falling and I've been here all day,It's too hot to sleep, Time is running away."

Thank you for your beautiful thoughts and thinking of me too in your poem.

Thank you Dim Flaxenwick. You be happy and be at peace in whatever comes your way.


Justine76 6 years ago

I hope you know I love you. Im honestly crying right now...


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

Oh ! Justine., sorry for making you cry, but reading your comment started me off , now I'm crying too.

It's amazing how you can get to know someone from their writings. I feel ypu are my friend even though we've never met.

I'm trying to be positive./ I will be near my daughter and 3 growing boys. (Oh no, teenagers again)

But, my son and my grandaughter will still be over here and this is where I'd rather be,. The Bob Dylan song is gorgeous and would make anyone cry.

Thanks so much for your support. Keep in touch through hubpages. Take care. x Dim xx


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

Micky Dee..... Thank you for your comment. Believe it or not....this island has some most peculiar customs and one of them is the cycle race once a year. It goes all around the island ,. They close off part of the motorway,.If a driver is not aware of this he is pulled over by the police who seem to have reproduced in vast numbers overnight, and the driver is sent in an extremely annoying direction up and over the mountain or he can stay at the side of the road, twiddling his thumbs until all the cyclists are safely far enough away. We always say. it could only happen in Tenerife.! Thanks for your support. We don't move till end of April so if I disappear from hubpages for a few weeks you'll know why. I'll be trying to thaw my fingers out.!!!!


Justine76 6 years ago

I will. xo


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Moulik Mistry 6 years ago from Burdwan, West Bengal, India

Loved the passionate flow of words from the deep depth of your heart which though seems to be in the dark, yet seeks solace of light...


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Run Down Battery 6 years ago from UK

Dim... why do you always have a pull on my heart? I came back to the UK about 18 months ago from my own island paradise, with all its imperfections and pettiness, I still loved it. My advice... don't come back... there's only... well whatever it is I haven't found it? Have you ever read Love in the Time of Cholera by Marquez... Page 106 and 7 will prophecy exactly how you feel... well that's at least hour I felt.... Here, the solar panels of your soul will be redundant... going off for a good old cry now!! Ha........


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you for that wonderful comment.At the moment my situation means I have no choice other than go to Britain, but it quite feasable that in a years' time I may be able to come back to my lovely island, but as with all things in life, there's no guarantee (only death and taxes)

I don't know the book you've mentioned. Do you think it stands any chance of being in a British library? I'd like to read how it is procably going to feel, because, quite frankly, I am a bit scared of what's ahead.

Sorry yuo had a cry. love and peace x


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you Moulik Mistry for such a huge compliment,.

I' sure I'not worthy of it but I will keep on trying. Writing is such a passion.

See you over at you page later.

Thanks again love and peace, Dim x


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Run Down Battery 6 years ago from UK

I'll try and post the passage in a hub... The Writer is Gabriel Garcia Marquez... a nobel prize winner in fact... and one of my favourite authors, ie, I steal a lot from him!! And by the ..Good luck Dim... Jeff x


seasoning 6 years ago

thinking of you..... hope all goes well


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you Seasoning. I used to take every new unexpected event as an adventure but it's not so easy now thatI'm pushing 60 yrs and our main reason for moving is because of something very sad. However., I have heaps to be grateful for including my husband of 40 yrs, (though he's grumpy 'cos he doesn't want to leave, either) C'est la vie.

It's so kind of you to wish me well. I will keep in touch.

HEY! I haven't gone yet. xx


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

OH! Jeff., That would be great if you can put some passages in a hub. Meanwhile I will still look out for the book, well not here, Ha Ha . Culture hasn't reached my little island of banana plantaions and tomatoes..

Thank you for being so thoughtful, Dim xx


sophs 6 years ago

Wow, this is brilliant so thoughtful, moving and heartfelt. The words flow beautifully, I loved it. Great work Dim :)


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tonymac04 6 years ago from South Africa

Moving on is very hard, I know. I have had to do it quite a few times. The funny thing, though, is that each time I have moved on there have been wonderful new things that have opened up for me. I hope it is the same for you.

Love and peace

Tony


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you for stopping by my page, Sophs, and for the compliment. Cheers !!


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

Hi Tony,

Thanks for the encouragement. When I'm grumpy I think of turning 60 this year, therfore 20 yrs on this island is one third of my life and where I have been the happiest,, but when my brain is in gear I try to dwell on new things ahead. I'm not dead yet.! Love and peace as always.


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James A Watkins 6 years ago from Chicago

Moving on can be bittersweet. I have moved on many times. I stay in touch with friends I have met in the places I have left. I make new ones wherever I go. Still, it is a mixture of excitement for new experiences to come, and sadness to no longer be in the presence of those you have come to love.


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you James. I think you sum it up in the word bittersweet.

The area Im going to is called the Lake District for obvious reasons and when Britain actually gets summer weather(never guranteed) tourists visit from all over because it's so beautiful..... But the people Ive grown close to on this island over the past 20 yrs seem to have got into my blood.

i know there are new joys before me. Life is always a mixture of sadness and joy.

I really appreciate your comment. Thank you. x


SilverGenes 6 years ago

I'm coming late to this hub but it moved me very much - leaving is always so difficult yet. as James said, there is always an element of excitement that comes with change. I hope all is well now :)


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you and pleased to meet you on hubpages.

Beginning to settle here, I think but it will never be ¨home¨.

Will get myself over to your page as soon as poss.


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saddlerider1 6 years ago

Look at it's positive side. You spent 20 years in a beautiful location, made many friends and been a friend to many. They all love you and will still keep in touch no matter where you live on this planet. I wish you well back in England, I know what the cold and snow feels like, living here in Canada. Keep on doing what you do best, loving and helping people they are everywhere to be found. Peace and hugs, now go out and buy that winter coat:0)


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

Dear saddlerider1, That really is a very kind comment and l thank you for it.

Yes buying a coat for the 1st time in 20 years could be fun. Thank you again. Peace and love to you and yours.


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epigramman 6 years ago

....I could sit at your feet (like a happy man/child) and listen to you talk all day .....and much love from my cat community = Little Miss Tiffy and Mister Gabriel.


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain Author

thank you and love to the cats.


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

I just wanted to stop by to say I love this Dim that is the Gem! God bless Dim!


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

, Oh Micky, thamk you so much. I´m not having a good day today, so you have cheered me up . You always do. God bless you too.xx


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Very touching and beautiful, sweetly melancholy, wistful, full of what if's and hmmmmmmms! and what lies ahead? You have really made this move something your readers can fully relate to and empathize with. Such sweet sorror at the impending move...very very human words these are. Very much so! I sure hope you get to see the friend it's hardest to leave, again..I know how all of this feels having moved across the country, left areas, "never look back." Can't do that, though...I Always look back....Just love this one! UP AWESOME BEAUTIFUL

PS....James A Watkins really had said it well..I believe he speaks for me, that's for sure!


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you for that lovely comment. Pleased to meet you on hubpages

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