Mom of Three: Snippet

How had this happened? Where had the time gone? She was 46 before she knew it. Three kids, 2 husbands. Why had her life been so complicated? Who falls in love 2 times? She felt alone in this world. How was she supposed to make ends meet this month? The deadbeat dads she hoped would sweep her off her feet couldn’t be bothered with her bills or their children’s needs. How did things work themselves out so badly in her life? Her sweat soaked pajama top had to come off now. She hated not running the air at night but how can she run the air? The considerable difference in her electric bill spoke volumes to her. There were other bills to pay and the cut back this week was the air. She hoped the Texas heat hadn’t gotten to her kids as much as to her. How lucky was she to be engulfed by the wrath of a hot flash. Damned Mother Nature and her incessant menopausal curse placed so swiftly on women above the age of 45. She’ll make it though. She just had to.

She rolled over to look at the clock. Why did she always wake up too soon? 4 o’clock was what the neon green numbers said back to her. Ugh! 3 hours to go. She knew she’d never fall back to sleep. I can either lay here and try to go back to sleep or start getting ready for the first 8 hrs of the day, she thought to herself. Luckily her second job as a waitress wasn’t so bad. Tips were good, customers were great. Time went by fast. But everyday working in that office answering those damned phones worked her nerves. That gig was supposed to last 2 yrs. until she got her degree but with money being short she had to sit out a year. A few more shifts at the bar and she would be back in the classroom. Thank God her boss, Carl, was flexible enough to work with her and let her come and work when she was able to. She knew he had a liking toward her. But dare she try love a third time? She couldn’t waste her thoughts on it. How could she? Every time she dove into a relationship lust evaporated quickly and both parties were left with nothing between them. These get married quick schemes were not working out how she daydreamed them to, she sarcastically thought to herself. So now staying clear of any relationship is best at this time until she can get her head screwed on tight and her nose pointed in the right direction. He did seem like a good guy though. In fact the conversations they had made him seem downright perfect. Aah! She thought to herself. Head screwed on and nose in the right direction. Worry about love, whatever that was, later.

She decided neither to get ready for work nor to try to go back to sleep. She changed tops and quietly tip toed to the three reasons she decided life over letting herself fall by the waste side. William lay with his arm stretched out over Zaciah looking as though he is protecting his 2 years younger, 3 year old brother in the night. And further down the hall was princess Tawnya. Her 15 year old mind couldn’t be bothered with her knuckle headed brothers. Thankfully there was an affordable 3 bedroom house available on the market but as times go on even her $535 monthly mortgage seemed too steep. She knew she’d get through it. Her patience at times got the best of her. Once she got her physical therapy certification she’d be fine. At least she hoped so. As long as her kids were happy she knew she’d be okay. Maybe now she could get some sleep. She wandered back to her room. A brief thought of Carl entered her mind. He did seem like he had himself together. She quickly brushed the thought away as she entered the threshold of her room facing the neon green again. 1 hr. 30 min. Why does time go by so damned fast? She gave a "might as well" shrug, turned on the light and started her routine of getting ready for the day.

These little snippets are not complete stories but an interjection into another's world. Just enough of something to take you someplace else for a brief moment. Feel free to let me know how you think the story should end if it is left open. Let me know if you enjoy these. Thanks for reading. Enjoy!

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anupma 5 years ago from India

Sometimes we stand where we donot know where to go? It is horrible. There is a great pain in your story. Heart-touching. Voted up.

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NiaG 5 years ago from Louisville, KY Author

Thank you anupma. Unfortunately, it's alot of women's real life story. But you do what you have to do to keep going. Thanks for dropping in a comment. Have a wonderful day!

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mary615 5 years ago from Florida

I personally have known women just like this one. It is sad. I'd say she made poor choices, but now she has to try and make the best of it. Very good Hub.

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NiaG 5 years ago from Louisville, KY Author

Thanks mary615. I can't imagine it. My mother was a single mom and I was an only child, I can't imagine having 3 to look after with no help. It has to be hard but like you said, they have to make the best of it and keep moving forward. Thanks for dropping in a comment. Have an awesome day!

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clara kish@yahoo. 5 years ago from Mt. Perry. Ohio

I just finished reading your hub, when will there be more of it? I'm the kind of person when I would read I had to stay with the book to finish it all,that was why I quit reading books , just short stories ,lost too much sleep otherwise,Good hub, talk to you later clara

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NiaG 5 years ago from Louisville, KY Author

Thanks clara! At the end is where you have to kind of create your own ending. :-) My little snippets pop into my head and I go as far as I can with it until I feel like I can't hold the readers interest any longer. Then I try to round it off with a bit of a cliff hanger where you can come up with your own conclusions. Thanks for enjoying it!

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Carlon Michelle 5 years ago from USA

This was real good Nia. I was lost in her world and understood her challenges. You did well putting us in her mind. Smile!

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NiaG 5 years ago from Louisville, KY Author

Thank you so very much Carlon. :-)

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Domiam 5 years ago from Seattle

I felt the circulation of the unconditional love energy, when she visited her children rooms. She gained a sense of hope. Thanks for the snippets.

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NiaG 5 years ago from Louisville, KY Author

You're most welcome Domiam! Thanks for dropping in a comment. Have a properous day!

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itops 5 years ago from the sea

I read this hub while I was signed out and can't help but sign in to comment. This snippet captures what goes on in the mind of a struggling mother who cares a lot for her children. Very nicely put! Voted awesome and beautiful! :)

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NiaG 5 years ago from Louisville, KY Author

Awww, sorry to make you sign back in but I appreciate it. :-) Thanks so much for the vote. Have a good day!

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