Here I am at the crossroads once again,

Somedays I am happy, the others I pretend.

I didn't wish for it to be this way,

What else can I do, but take it day by day.

I've been so many places, seen and done so many things,

I've seen birth, death and miracles,

I've exchanged vows and wedding rings.

I thought we'de be forever, when we said I do.

But I will never regret the day, when I told you that we were through.

I had to let go, I had to say goodbye.

I had to let go, So I could spread my wings and fly.

I'm so unsure of so many things.

But this I know is true,

I would rather be alone forever,

Than be unhappily married to you.

© Sunshyne Ellen Dickerson

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WannaB Writer 5 years ago from Templeton, CA

I'm glad you are able to write what you are feeling. It helps. Thanks for sharing your journey.

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Mentalist acer 6 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

Try not to forget the miracals in your life..

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Dink96 6 years ago from Phoenix, AZ

Very nice. Keep writing!

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MFB III 6 years ago from United States

"Run and dont look back.



When love withers

and no nurturing can

allow regrowth.

When evenings are

completly spent

before night even falls.

When snoring replaces

pillow talk

and a warm bath

starts to look really good.

When the televion

takes priority

and interruptions

of any show

draws wrath.

When small mistakes

became monumental,

when kisses are

a tight lipped

turning away too soon,

when all approaches

are detoured,

when sighs are

like a voice choir

in the rafters of your house,

when panties are just laundry,

when "I love you's"

are spoken and the silence

remains unbroken,

when tears are dried up

and no more can be coaxed,

when your heart

is a raisin

in the glare of

his or her

heated glances ,

when sex becomes only

the first part

of sex-tuplets,

and seven has been

four for far too long,

and not ever long enough,

when hard means attitude,

and cuddling is some

time with your puppy,

when kind words are only heard

on the telephone

directe to someone else,

when loneliness sits on you

and the wieght of it

crushes all hope,

when you ask, plead

beg, curse

rant and scream

yet the stone face of the

latest edition

to Mt. Rushmore

simply gazes into space.

When you realize it

has evaporated like

the perfume she used

to wear for you.

When life is one long

dreary event that rears

it's ugly head daily....

Run ...beat feet....

hit the bricks

give it up...take only

what you can carry

and don't look back.

No documentation of

love's death

no long sad goodbyes

love leaves just as harshly,

and those that stay around

get ground up in the

details of why??

Run ...don't ponder

get as far away as you can,

start over,

start anew,

it never happened.

She/he never was

there's a whole world

of people who ran

out there

looking for someone to run with,

believe me you won't be alone for long.

Excellent hub, Sunshyne~~~MFB III

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Enigmatic Me 6 years ago from East Coast Canada

The cleansing that takes place when the truth is told and one embraces the next chapter of their lives. I wish you a golden road to your future and appreciate the sharing you have done!

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Krazy_Teaney 6 years ago

I really like this one mommy

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Sunshyne1975 6 years ago from California, US Author

Moulik Mistry- Thank you so much. I really appreciate it. I have been writing since I was 12, but have never done anything with it. I am beginning to think that hubpages is the right place for me to express myself. Thank you again!

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Moulik Mistry 6 years ago from Burdwan, West Bengal, India

This is very evocative, you are so good with your words...

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