Miserable Beautiful Creature -- The shadow domain of the Inner Child and possible healing

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Miserable Beautiful Creature -- A Poem


The series of rejection in my life was a mere reflection of my self-rejection. I had to learn to see myself exactly as I am and LOVE everything that I see, much like a loving mother. I remembered being guided to tune in to see my inner child and I was horrified to see the little girl so utterly neglected, covered in black soot from head to toe. All she got to play with was one black crayon and she had painted everything black, including herself. That inner vision shamed me to my core and I vowed to love that little child that was me with all I've got. That's how my healing began.

This is a poem about the same said inner child at that time....


Miserable Beautiful Creature


the lies we tell ourselves

spinning our spider's web to keep us

sane


oh what a prey!

may the truth's be tightly wrapped,

fiercely guarded,

rendered unconscious,

and swallowed in unrecognizable pieces if necessary

what our mind does not know could not hurt us,

"look!

everything is perfect as it is!"


the humpback that lives, hidden in the catacomb of our

beautiful, righteous cathedrals

lurking in the dark causing nervous little catastrophes,

once caught and is shown in the torch light,

alas,

is but a child!

grotesquely grown from years of negligence,

with features familiar yet unrecognizable,

that same human child you once were,

who survived from being buried alive!

what's that hump on his back?

that years of untruth told on his behalf.


you think you are safely perched

around your spider's web

gorging down corpses

of your past...

let the wind not come

plead with the mind to please please stop groping around with a stick!


the beautiful lies that keep you

safe,

is but as fragile as

the spider's web in an inner storm

once it collapses

oh you miserable beautiful creature!

might have to start weaving all over again,

Make sure it's the same lies!

just different in design!



by Violet Flame

Heal Your Inner Child

The first step to embark on a happier life is the healing of your Inner Child who has suffered so much abuse and suppression. Ho'oponopono is a very simple but powerful traditional Hawaiian meditation. According to Dr. Hew Len, all our problems and sufferings come from our unconscious memory data being played out by the Inner Child. He asks us to become a mother to our own Inner Child, and to do our uttermost to release the Inner Child from suffering by constant conscious "cleaning" of the old memory data. It is as simple as saying "I'm Sorry," "Please Forgive Me", "Thank You" and "I Love You." For example, when something comes up that causes you to be upset in any way, acknowledge that fact by saying to your Inner Child: " I am sorry, please forgive me for whatever data that's going on in me that I need to make amend for (cleaning)." and to the cause of your upset saying: Thank You for giving me one more chance to let you go so that I can be free. I love You."

The following small youtube clip is an excellent short meditation to heal the Inner Child. It has little technical cliches but nothing to serious and does not take away from this powerful healing. Enjoy and I wish you all Happiness xoxo

Blessings,

Vera Lin

Dr Hew Len, Inner Child healing through Ho'oponopono

A Happy Inner Child Is A Happy Life

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epigramman 6 years ago

I was a 'miserable creature' from Mars (yes the planet) until I met someone as 'beautiful' as you and your writing.

Are all earthlings this full of grace and eloquence?

If so I will take these findings with you as a shining example and let my martian race reap the benefits of reading exciting poetry!


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singlmomat52 6 years ago

Beautiful Poem Violet Flame!!! I mentioned that little girl in my Hub ' the Repercussions of Being Molested' and you have brought new light to how i feel about her. How can I reach you off of Hub pages. I would very much like to discuss further this insightfulness, I am still learning and am in search of guidance. So unsure of myself at times. I hate that feeling. Great Hub!! Thank you my sister!! xoxo


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Violet Flame 6 years ago from Auckland, NZ Author

Hi epigramman, thanks for dropping in from your round disc/ship, or did you get beamed down by the light? ^_^ In any case I am very grateful for your kind and generous comment. I must say you Martians have a very keen and sophisticated observation and appreciation of things of beauty; or are you one of a few exceptions?

With this kind of encouragement, one might have to lick the end of the quill pen and pull out another piece of fine parchment and start writing more....poetry!


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Violet Flame 6 years ago from Auckland, NZ Author

Hi singlmomat52 xo thank you for reading and commenting honey xo the inner child stuff just bubbled out all by itself as I was writing the comment the other day. So glad it helps to shed some more light on things. The human experience is universal and one's learning is often relevant for another. That's why it is so great to have a community like hubpages that unite people from everywhere to share their experience and views. We might not all agree on everything but a few golden nuggets are certainly there which might just fit the missing piece of our puzzle. Then if one thing I learned through my trial could benefit another, it makes the whole experience worthwhile, I think. We are all sisters and brothers on this path of suffering, learning and enlightenment.

Please feel free to email me any time singlmomat52 xo all questions are good questions!!!! And I thank you for asking them. Without your questions no answers will be forthcoming, no insight could be shared. So ask away dear one!

Many blessing xoxo


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bladesofgrass 6 years ago from The Fields of Iowa

The mind is absolutely amazing, isn't it? Protecting us when it deems necessary and allowing us time to dicipher our suffering and confusion. Soul-less eventually turns into Soul-free. A great Hub that I'm sure will touch many. :)


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epigramman 6 years ago

yes I am an exception to the Martian rule but of course you made me that way. You see I am stranded here on earth and I will never be able to return home so I will return home to your hubs and hopefully some more fine fine poetry - please!


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MojoJojo49 6 years ago

Poignant and heartfelt. Two vital ingredients in a good poem. The best poems bubble up from within. I awoke one night at 3am for no particular reason with words racing through my head. I quickly found a pen and wrote down a poem called 'Beholder' which I haven't posted up here yet. I don't know where it came from and I even struggle to understand what it means but it came from deep within, as great things often do. Keep up the good work.

:)

P.s. I think I may add my 'Beholder' poem to my page although it has been published and would therefore be a duplicate. I'm all about the new, original material on here.


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Violet Flame 6 years ago from Auckland, NZ Author

Dear bladesofgrass,

yes absolutely! The Mind is an amazing thing. Sometimes it is very much like a labyrinth, it knows so much more it's not telling you, just curiously and patiently waiting for you to make your way in the maze. Sometimes I find myself repeatedly turning into dead ends and smacking my head on the brick wall as if to determine which is more stubborn: my thick head or the thick wall? Sometimes I surprise myself with a right turn and is presented with the gift of clarity, even if only for a brief moment.

And it was in that brief moment of priceless clarity that inner child was presented to me. A lost soul, a lost/suppressed part of the self. And I must say, ever since that day, that child has come a long way.

The deformed, unloved, dirty soot-covered child is busy in her becoming. Soon she will be queen and I will be her humble servant.

There's nothing more worth-while than to serve soul's true purpose. And I tremble delightfully in anticipation.


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Violet Flame 6 years ago from Auckland, NZ Author

Hi MojoJojo49,

You must be psychic or something, lol. First of all, thank you so much for your kind words! Much appreciated! And yes you are absolutely right about "The best poem bubble up from within." This poem wrote itself, I didn't do it, lol. And even when I read it now, I get shiver up and down my spine.

Also, this poem is taken from my old msn space where no one ever goes to. I just delete it on that site. It's only fair for the poem to actually see some "sunlight", also as known as "readers".

So I am really looking forward to reading your "Beholder" when it's posted!


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Fraser Soul 5 years ago from Bloomfield, CT

Beautiful! God has a plan to make us over as He puts us on the potter's wheel and heals our inner child. I thank God for healing my little hurt child. Thank you for sharing so beautifully done.


Jahzz 4 years ago

Living together with the inner child...surely makes it easier to delight the universe with many more 'new' rich rainbow joys in creation. ...pure Total Empowerment :)


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Violet Flame 4 years ago from Auckland, NZ Author

Thank you Fraser Soul, yes I also believe that we experience everything in our life for very good reasons. It can be so hard when you are young. Things, people and events we hardly understand could put such a dent in our heart and our personality, and we grow all twisted, not knowing how we got to be that way. That's why I believe a healthy amount of soul searching and self-love is vitally important to help nurturing that injured child. A happy inner child makes a happy adult. :-D


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Violet Flame 4 years ago from Auckland, NZ Author

Thank you Jahzz!!! Amen to personal empowerment!!!


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ahorseback 4 years ago

Oh my God ! Is that me you're writing about ? As even a young boy and man I went through life smiling for everyone else and seeing only the misery in the mirror !......This is awesome my friend ! Awesome .


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Violet Flame 4 years ago from Auckland, NZ Author

Dear ahorseback,

Thank you so much for coming by and for your lovely comment.

It is true that most of the cruel things that are done to us are done by our selves. I have since realized that I am my own worst critic. That abhorrent inner tyrant normally lies dormant until an outer event somehow triggers it, and out she comes dealing out non-stop cruelest personal attacks. I have to learn to be kind to myself, especially inside my own head, in the things I tell myself. The mirror as you mentioned, could sometimes serves as a clear indication of our self regard, self reflection. Be kind to that person staring at you in the mirror, cut him some slack, give him some over-dued praise or at times forgiveness. Be his friend, especially if he is already having a hard time with the other people in his life......and the world will be a very difference place. Hugs and Blessings xoxo


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EsmeSanBona 4 years ago from Macon

Thank you so much for this hub! What an amazing job you did of capturing not only the wounded Inner Child, but the Shadow archetype as well. I particularly love the realization you make about how we hide all we perceive as imperfect in order to live in our beautiful cathedrals. Your intro also resonated with me--I as well spent years actually actively blaming my child self for things there is not way she could be responsible for. I think that one of the mistake we make is viewing our child selves as though they were some sort of adult trapped in a child's body--as if we think we had the knowledge, wisdom, and experience we have as adults when we were children. I think readers will find this hub evocative and healing.


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Violet Flame 4 years ago from Auckland, NZ Author

Thank you Esme for such a beautiful and insightful comment xo

This is one of those poem that writes itself through me, word perfect at first go. It is at times like this, you wonder "who is doing the writing?" And even now, years later, every time I read it it gives me thrill and shivers all over my body. Even today. Yes it is making so much sense now, especially with the new understanding of the Jungian Shadow archetype that you so brilliantly articulated in your hub. I wonder if you would mind if I link that article to the bottom of this one? That way, it will be easier for the readers who are also seeking understanding of their own inner shadowy figure/child. The more we heal and love that child, the more we become integrated and whole. Depression and anxiety fall away when there is finally understanding and acceptance, love and peace. xo


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ahorseback 4 years ago

Violet , your's is the most beautiful response I've ever read here !........Thank you for that !.....Ed


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Violet Flame 4 years ago from Auckland, NZ Author

Thank you ahorseback xoxo I have actually leave you some information about "memory muscle for depression" in the comment of my other hub "Ego Drops dead at my feet", because i think you might be interested. Have a beautiful day my friend xo


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Monis Mas 3 years ago

I hope I can heal my inner child someday...


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Violet Flame 3 years ago from Auckland, NZ Author

Hi Monis Mas xo now is always a good time! It is like re-establishing contact with a long lost best friend. A hello, a hug, some good listening skills, then go out and play like the best buddies!


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ahorseback 3 years ago

My dear , we need this kind of healing so badly in our circles ! I have just reread this and am wondering why YOU are not my doctor !lol....Ed


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Violet Flame 3 years ago from Auckland, NZ Author

Hi Ed, it is a wonderful healing and quite easy to do. I used the H0'0ponpono every day and every time I come into a difficult situation or uneasy emotion, and it works like a charm! There are a lot of youtube clips on Dr. Hew Len's talk if you are interested. The happier your Inner Child, the better you feel, so it's definitely a win-win situation. I had quite a bit of assignment to hand in today and tomorrow but the child in me is weaving a wonderful little love story saga in my head that had me smiling like an idiot, even when I was driving, lol. Hugs xoxo


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ahorseback 3 years ago

This all sounds so cool , and for it to leave you in such good spirit for writing is awesome ! Unfortunately perhaps , that inner child is very important to the true happiness we need ! That reconnecting is such a difficult thing at times . I am glad for that beautiful child in you ! To match the beautiful woman that you are now ........:-}

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