Confessions of a Recovering Twilight Addict

In the beginning...

I remember hearing about Twilight in the early part of 2008. I kept reading these random posts about Twilight on Facebook here and there. At first, some of them did not even make sense. What was Team Jacob? Where was this place called Forks? Who is this chick named Bella? What is going on? I looked it up online and found out it was a book about a girl falling in love with a vampire. Of course, when first reading this, I thought, "Well, that sounds like crap. What is wrong with people?" I did decide to read it though. It was available at the library when I went in one day and I figured I would give it a shot.

... And then it happened...

I started reading the book that night. I fell in love. I promptly determined it was the greatest book I'd ever read. Something about the entire story captured me. Maybe it was the obsessiveness of it; Bella obsesses over Edward and Edward obsesses over Bella. Perhaps that is the reason why so many readers then obsess over the series. I don't know. I don't have all the answers and I will honestly never understand why everyone else loves it. I just know it spoke to me.

So that is when it all began. I had to read the next books, but they were checked out at the library. That was not good enough. I bought New Moon and Eclipse at Barnes & Noble. I could not be stopped. After that, I bought Twilight so I could read it again and then bought another copy to give to friend for her birthday. I was on a mission.

Of course, then there was the wait. Breaking Dawn wasn't out yet. It was a difficult time for me. I obsessed over how the series would end. I counted down the minutes. I planned for the midnight opening. I reserved my copy of Breaking Dawn. I lost sleep. I read Twilight over and over again. When Breaking Dawn was released, I stood in line with about a hundred teenage girls. I was, well, quite a bit older than the teens, but I will leave it at that. I was one of the first people with the book and I stayed in all weekend reading it.

Once the entire book series was over, there was a sense of relief but, yet, emptiness. I had to fill the void somehow. So then there are the other teen supernatural series: Blue Bloods, Mortal Instruments, Harry Potter, etc. Not the same but it was helpful. I still needed something more!

The big screen, baby!

At long last, after much debate and excitement, Twilight the Movie was released! It was better than I expected, but not the same as the book. By this time, everyone knew I was in love with the series. So everyone I knew was going to see the movie. At first, I was elated to share something I loved so much with other people. It was so easy to strike up a conversation anywhere with anyone about Team Edward vs. Team Jacob.

I think this is probably when the obsession started hitting all new levels. I could buy Twilight merchandise everywhere, even Walmart! What a great life I was living for a while. I had all the books, an extra copy of Twilight since I wanted a "pocket size" version for my purse, the DVD, the t-shirts, the magnets, the Scene It game, the buttons, the keychains, the candy... I mean, GEEZ, did I even need the candy? It was wonderful, yet sick all at the same time. I was an addict and I had a problem. And admitting you have a problem is the first step, right?

Luckily, time is a great healer. Believe it or not, I got tired of hearing if Kristen and Rob were a couple. I mean, really! He never looked like the Edward I pictured in my head anyway. They were a couple of normal kids, not vampires. I started to get overloaded. More than anything, Twilight had been my joy! Now everyone was on the Twilight bandwagon. I will tell you one thing for sure... the bandwagon was starting the get crowded and weighted down with fans. Not to mention the supposed Twilight fans that have not even read the books. Don't talk to me about Twilight unless you've read the books! I may not be an addict anymore, but I still have my standards.

One day at a time.

So now, here I am. It is safe to say the Twilight addiction has died off for me. I still love the book. I will always love the book. Did I need all the merchandise? Probably not. Am I getting rid of it? Of course not! Are you nuts? I still love the book. I'm a recovering addict, not a hater. So for now, I can walk past Hot Topic and my heart does not race wondering if they just got new Twilight merchandise. I am good.

After all, there is always Blue Bloods!

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Les Trois Chenes 5 years ago from Videix, Limousin, South West France

I loved the Vampire Diaries and am looking forward to Twilight. Many thanks for this hub from a fellow fanatic.


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Jeannieinabottle 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

Thank you for the comment. You should try Blue Bloods. The series is really good.


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Les Trois Chenes 5 years ago from Videix, Limousin, South West France

Jeannieinabottle, thanks for the tip, I'll look out for it.


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Vishaaa 5 years ago from Somewhere on this earth..

Hey I was a bit worried when I read the first para of your hub as usual you also going to why these people are so crazy to be obsessed over the twilight saga. But you too fell for it. I loved it anyway. Waiting for breaking down.


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Jeannieinabottle 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

Thank you for the comment, Vishaaa. I can't wait for Breaking Dawn, too. Although I think it will be hard to create a movie based on that book.


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DIYweddingplanner 5 years ago from South Carolina, USA

I was prepared to hate them until i read them and I got sucked in as well. I've now done two book clubs with the kids I work with and they loved it. I'm not a nut case over it, but...I do think Edward is very easy to look at...:)


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Jeannieinabottle 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

I know what you mean. I really did not think I would like the book that much, or even if I did like it, I did not think it could ever take over my life like that. It was a strange period in my life. For now, I am pretty much over it. I enjoy the book, but the movies don't interest me that much anymore. Thank you for reading my hub and commenting!


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duffsmom 5 years ago from Pacific Northwest, USA

What a relief to know I am not alone. For me, time has done its work. The last movie sort of put me on the road to recovery. I spent the entire movie telling my husband what happened in the book and how the movie failed. He's a good sport except he likes Bella with Jacob and I am for Edward. I will watch the final movie but there is no way it can do the book justice. Maybe we need a Twilight recover group--fun hub, keep writing!!


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Jeannieinabottle 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

Thank you for the comment. I thought Eclipse was pretty decent as far as the movie goes, but I did not care for New Moon. I am happy to finally recover and I am glad you are, too. :)


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ThatFatGuy 5 years ago from Here and there

I hate the Twilight series!! >:I I read Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles before all this nonsense began and fell in love with her style of vampires. So my younger brother bought me Twilight thinking I would like it and boy was he wrong. The "author" of these poisonous books nearly copied everything from Rice's timeless characters! Pssh! What made it worse during this savage craze was that I worked with all girls who obsessed manically over every aspect of Twilight. Jacob this and Edward blah blah blah!! I read the first few chapters and got bored, had to skip a dozen chapters every now and then to get to the "interesting" parts. In all I read about 9 chapters unsatisfied. However, I did like the ancestral story of Jacobs family, that was very good. But yea, I"m a young guy, so i'm genetically immune to this nonsense :) I use to tell the girls that in the 6th book( I had no clue how many book there were) Edward ends up blowing himself to bits from a welding accident, the end >:) If you do like vampire stories check out Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles, you'll love them very much.


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Jeannieinabottle 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

Thanks for the comment. It is nice to have a guy's opinion on here. I think all guys hate Twilight. Well, at least straight guys hate Twilight. It is OK. I know it is a little too sappy. It is funny since I always like guy movies and hate chick flicks. My love of Twilight goes against everything that is me!


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NateSean 5 years ago from Salem, MA

I'm with you on Team Charlie. He's a doting father who gets left in the lurch quite a few times during the series.

I'm not a Twilight hater. I actually love the books. I just hate the impression young teenage girls get that the relationship between Bella and Edward is a healthy one. In terms of couples, I think Buffy and Angel are better role models, but I won't et into that.

I'm working on a vampire series called Retail Vampires. (No, of course I am not plugging my book here.) Maybe that will fill help to fill the void when it's ready to publish. ;)


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Jeannieinabottle 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

Yes, I have become Team Charlie lately. I am not a big fan of his moustache though. You are right about Bella and Edward's relationship being unhealthy. In a weird way, I think that is why the books appeal to me so much. Perhaps I am crying out for help. : )

Your book sounds really interesting. I like anything that has retail and vampires in the title. Good luck!

Thanks for reading and thanks for the comment!


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Pamela Kinnaird W 5 years ago from Maui and Arizona

I haven't seen the Twilight movies nor read the Twilight books, but I found your article really interesting and fun to read.


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Jeannieinabottle 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

Thank you! You should give the books a try. I was surprised I liked them so much.


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RandomThoughts... 5 years ago from Washington

That was me!!! I saw the movie first and decided the books would be ten times better...and they were. I spent a summer watching Twilight everyday after I separated from my husband. What a fantasy world to live in. I decided I would want to be a vampire, but in the end, I really liked Jacob. Thanks for putting my feelings down in writing.


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Jeannieinabottle 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

Thank you for the comment. I miss that feeling I used to have when I first read Twilight. I loved it so much. Now Twilight is everywhere and just not as much fun. I will always be an Edward fan though. :-)


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cjcarter 5 years ago

Ohmygoodness this was great. I, too, could probably classify myself as a closet Twilight addict as well haha. I absolutely fell in love with the books too. And, I'll find myself sitting in the movie theater at midnight again for the opening night of Breaking Dawn (surrounded by preteens, no doubt). :)


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Jeannieinabottle 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

Thanks so much! Good to meet another addict, even if you are in the closet about it. I have totally gone back to "normal" (whatever that is) and rarely think about Twilight anymore. I am not even sure if I will go see Breaking Dawn now; I am kind of done with the whole thing. I will always love the book, but the movies just aren't doing it for me anymore. Oh well.


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smcopywrite 5 years ago from all over the web

i got hooked from another addict for twilight. my neighbor had the book and she just couldn't seem to put it down. i figured whatever has her so obsessed i have got to take a peek and wham. i jones about it for a while after finishing the last book, but after that i moved on. great hub.


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Jeannieinabottle 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

I understand what you mean. I feel like I have been moving on lately, too. I am not too worried about the last movies. It is not as if I don't know how they are going to end or anything. Thanks for reading and for the comment!


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bamuscarella 4 years ago from Buffalo, NY

I think part of the reason that Meyer's books are so appealing is that they speak to the part of most girls that yearns for a love story. However, I hope that some of the novels' fans will realize that this is a misogynistic, racist series of horribly composed sputum that simply reinforces low self-esteem in women and contributes to the patriarchy that underpins chivalry.


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Jeannieinabottle 4 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

My own personal theory is that everyone experiences some type of obsessive love at some point in their lives. This book captures all of those feelings perfectly. Or at least, that is why it appealed to me.

Bella is not really the best role model ever, especially in the movies. At least I feel like she had more personality in the books. In the movies, she just sat around being disgruntled and somber. Sure, there was some of that in the books, but I thought she had more personality. I don't know... maybe that was just me. My major issue was the last book and the weird mutant baby. I don't feel a woman needs to have a baby to feel complete. This would especially be the case if the father is a vampire. I wish that last book did not exist, but oh well.

Thanks for the comment!


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Lil Miss Reader 4 years ago from Somerset New Jersey

I was never obsessed per se with Twilight. I have read the series several times over and I read Breaking Dawn in less than 24 hours. I feel like the movies are crap compared to the books but still can't wait to see Breaking Dawn part II and I too refuse to speak with anyone about Twilight unless they've read the books.

Great Hub. Really loved it!

P.S. The way you were about Twilight is how I was about Buffy the Vampire Slayer and I still have my BtVS stuff too.


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Jeannieinabottle 4 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

I understand what you mean about the movies. For sentimental reasons, I do love the movie Twilight, but it is not as good as the book. I can still read the book whenever I am down and it makes me happy. I like Bella so much better in the book, too. She was pretty contrary in movie. Thanks for the comment!

P.S. I used to like Buffy, too, but I was never too obsessed with it. I did dress like Drusilla for Halloween one year though.


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keelymahaffey 3 years ago from Maine

I didn't jump on the Twilight bandwagon until after I read Stephenie Meyer's The Host, and it was then that I realized I needed to read everything Stephenie had to offer. Personally, I was a little hesitant about Twilight ~ I don't know why... I guess I saw it as a middle school movement, and I wasn't sure I'd like it, but like you, I soon became an obsessive addict and got everyone I knew to read the books (including my husband).

P.S. Just saw Breaking Dawn ~ BEST movie of them all :)


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Jeannieinabottle 3 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

I hate to say this, but I still haven't seen Breaking Dawn yet! I read the book the day it came out, but I really did not like the direction it went in too much. I just lost interest in seeing the movies. I still love the first Twilight book and I enjoy the movie for sentimental reasons. For now, that is all I need. :-) Thanks for your comment!

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