stranger-a person who is not a member of the family, group, community, or the like, as a visitor or guest

together for years

broken "house"

fallen cards

almost a stranger to me.

wrapped my dreams around you

"knew" that you'd pull through

all i got was run around

and instead...you FELL through

so many times

so many cries

i thought id die without you

gone so long

not that long, really

and i had to see myself

again

Ive caught up with me

fallen cards

house goes down

around my feet

crumbled, scattered

my dreams

my hopes

with you gone...

realizations

i don't HAVE to do this

anymore

guilt

obligation gnawing at my back

feeling sorrow

for you

when i leave

truly leave

where will you be

what will you do

selfish?

to think you'll die alone and be miserable...

ego?

no

genuine concern

for you

even though

your pretty self centered

never could get you to understand

never tried

to see it

any way

other than your own

deep feelings for you

but...the old you

before the shatter

you hung on the edge for so long

table tilt

and fell

for a moment pulled so tight

it seemed like a tiny eternity

watching that fall

anticipation

frustration

**************SHATTER*****************

anger sorrow and rage

clung to me like static

i cant live this way

lying to myself

no matter how miserable

it will make you

I'm not perfect

but fuck...

your horrible

so angry

i don't see the change you profess

i see an entirely NEW set of standards

laid out just for me

expectations and the like

a spike up my a$$

happy fu*kin birthday pinky...

stuck

caught

self

position

none of these words

when this is all said and done

will ever define me again

what you have done

who you became

the buzz in your ear

all of that

did this

i don't really care whose fault it is anymore

I'm out

as much as it feels like a death

i cant let the me i love so much

drown

inside

this relation-shit.









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stormoverdestiny 4 years ago from Deep within the heart of the storm

No matter where you get inspiration from baby your work is truly amazing. Yet as always another beautiful piece.


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

thank you lovely. its all about the way i feel. pouring out of me now.


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xstatic 4 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

It is beautiful, brutal too, and long suffering. Great poem! Painful too!


beerbacca 4 years ago from Southern California

phenominal. f'n phenominal. i know it hurts but don't ever stop.


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gmwilliams 4 years ago from the Greatest City In The World-New York City, New York

Wow- you have said quite a mouthful!


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

meaning?


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

thanks beerbacca. truly, thank you.


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the pink umbrella 4 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me. Author

imagin how the real fucking thing was. brutal.


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BeyondMax 4 years ago from Sydney, Australia

Heart-breaking, cutting open stuff... So much pain but I admire your will and passion and cool head. You have a big heart and beautiful soul, I am glad you pulled it through! Hugs!

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