Suicide: A Poem

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Suicide: A Poem

 

A glance upon yon window pane

A story is told by the streaking rain

It is one of sorrow and of pain

And a tear from my eye I can’t restrain

The flow of my thoughts I can’t refrain

From the playing of this deadly game

 

I sit alone sinking into my chair

To face this world without you, I cannot bare

Together you and I made a perfect pair

But alone in this world I wonder how I would fare

Happiness to reach again I wouldn’t dare

Because life my friends just isn’t fair

 

Upon the table the tools do sit

For lately I feel a need to quit

A knife sharp enough to make the slit

This way I’m afraid is a slow exit

The cut this makes is hard to knit

Too messy and it wouldn’t fit.

 

You my one true love was the fairest maiden

From my arms so violently taken

And to the core my soul was shaken

Slammed by steel and filled with lead my heart is laden

Once a humbled servant now I stand forsaken

Unlike Poe I have no Raven.

What Dreams May Come

 

Take my life, to heaven I won’t go

But this could end my broken hearted woe

What comes next I’ll never know

As the thunder in the sky my feelings show

The sky blackened, pierced by lightening makes it glow

Soon I shall be knocking on heaven’s door.

 

If I’m to lay my life to waste

The act must come with haste

And I must act without chaste

A life without you cannot be faced

My pulse quickens, my heart raced

Interwoven are our souls like fingers interlaced

 

The phone rings with a deafening sound

I spring from my chair, across the room I’m bound

My eyes are swollen and round

I pick up the phone from a newspaper mound

The voice on the other end I found

And the phone drops to the ground

 

“Don’t do it” comes the plea

“For an eternity without you I cannot see.”

Out of the house I quickly flee

In the grass of the yard I fall to my knee

Twas the voice of my love in the phone with need

Back in the house I put away the tools of death with glee.

 

She’s saved my life once, she’s saved it twice

She shall not have to save it thrice

I’ll continue on with this mournful life

Plainly this will have to suffice

Like a mask happiness will be my disguise

Old in my bed, I’ll be buried with these lies.

Author's Note

 In no way, shape, or form is this poem reflective of any current situations.  If you were worried I appreciate that but there is no need for worry.  I watched the movie "What Dreams May Come" and was inspired to write this.  If you have not watched this movie, watch it.  It is a great movie and will move you in one way or another.

Copyright 2009 by Wesley Cox

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Comments 57 comments

poetlorraine 7 years ago

glad you put that comment at the end., lost a sister to suicide, and don't want to be losing any friends.....

Your work is just amazing........ to think you thought you could not write poetry a few weeks ago....... keep at it please....


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Thank you so much PL. I appreciate your comment and am glad that you liked it. PS, I continue to try different poems because of your encouragement. Thank you.


poetlorraine 7 years ago

yep i am pleased with your results. I have been writing poems on and off for 30 years, and i am learning all the time....... never learned as much as i have since i have been on hub pages. I am so happy to see your journey, you are such a lovely person, and happiness will come your way. You are like me you need to believe in yourself more. How could anyone cast you aside, i don't believe it, a treasure like you needs to be held on to. I get so much joy to see your work and especially now that you have said my encouragement helps.... god bless x


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Thank you PL.


ralwus 7 years ago

You scared me anyway. LOL Great poem Wes. thanks


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shamelabboush 7 years ago

Ditto, the title attracted me to read it and thank God it's a movie inspired one :) It's very deep and painful...


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Ralwus: Thank you very much for visiting and enjoying the poem.

Shamelabboush: Thank you as well. I am glad that the title attracted you to read. Also that movie is deep about soulmates and suicide, and what one man would do for his soulmate.


poetlorraine 7 years ago

have you ever watched "dead poet@s society"


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

I saw that one a long time ago and hardly remember any of it though.


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thanglynn07 7 years ago from Long Beach, CA

Too close to home...this gave me goosebumps. I'm glad it wasn't a tragic ending. Well done Wes.


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Thank you for your kind comments and am glad that you liked it.


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Disturbia 7 years ago

This is an excellent poem. It touched me very deeply. I'm having some trouble putting into words just exactly how it made me feel, but I can really feel the dispair and the pain in the words. I know you call it Suicide, but it's a love poem. I've seen "What Dreams May Come" several times. This is very powerful stuff.


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I*n*v*i*c*t*u*s 7 years ago

A VERY intense poem, and beautifully crafted, indeed. I happened to read this straight when it came out and I was overwelmed thinking it were real... Right on to you. :)

I have missed reading many of you!!


JJ 7 years ago

That is one movie I have watched that really left a mark on me. This was beautiful, sad, dark and also enchanting. It seemed also reminiscent of Edward Allen Poe style...Which I love! As I said, this movie is very moving and I agree that everyone should at least see it once. Once again, this was awesome and I loved it!! Thank you for sharing your talent!


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maggs224 7 years ago from Sunny Spain

A very moving poem so glad it was inspired by a movie


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Disturbia: I agree that it is in essence a poem of love beyond the grave but for most of the poem it is of suicidal thoughts this person has because of the loss of his wife. I thank you very much for reading and commenting on this poem and finding its message powerful.

Invictus: It honors me that you were overwhelmed by this poem when you first read it and I assume you came back to read it again or comment so I thank you. Also welcome back from your short sabbatical from hubpages. Its good to have you back.

JJ: I have read the Raven by Poe so to be compared on a reminiscent note to him and his poetry is a great honor. Plus it is also very nice indeed to be getting such strong comments by the great poets here at hubpages. I am still working on another poem that will probably be done in the same style as this one. Inspiration strikes us at weird times though and to finish the other poem could be awhile.

Maggs: Thank you for visiting my poem and liking it.


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myownworld 7 years ago from uk

beautiful poem....that moves you deeply. I love the way you can so effortlessly pour your sadness (and joy) into your words. it's a real gift. thank you for sharing!


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Janet G. 7 years ago from Coatesville,PA

great poem I loved it!

i know you said it wasnt ur thoughts but it is in a many peoples thoughts all the time!


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

MyownWorld: Thank you so much for the appreciation. I am glad that the words upon this page has moved you. Thanks for reading.

Janet: I am glad that you liked this poem and yes I know suicidal thoughts are present in someone at any moment of any day. I hope this poem also conveys the message that suicide is not worth the act. That there is life after pain and suffering. I hope the people who do read this and are contemplating suicide receive that message and don't go through with it. Every life is worth saving and every life is beautiful in its own way. Again thanks for reading.


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Arthur Gulumian 7 years ago from Pasadena, CA

You know I rarely do like poems that rhythm; simply because most of the time the words seemed forced and the intention or meaning of the poem is subdued. However, in your case, the words went right along with your overall message =]. It's actually quite impressive that you were able to manage the flow precisely and elegantly throughout the entire work. I'm glad I had to chance to read this — Thank you for sharing your insight.


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean

Eerie! Perfect for this time of year. Glad it was fiction. My Mom went out that way. Its hard on the ones left behind. I did like that movie. :)


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Arthur: Thank you for coming by and reading my poem. I never actually thought of the rhythm that way as it does come across forced sometimes. Again thanks for the insightful comment.

Ms behavior: I'm glad you liked the poem but sorry that it has a personal touch for you.


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Ladybird33 7 years ago from Georgia USA

I truly love this poem, very creative you are Wesley! Thanks for the wonderful read.


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Thank you ladybird I am glad that you liked it.


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Mighty Mom 7 years ago from Where Left is Right, CA

Loved following the thinking process of someone in that state of mind. The Poe reference totally makes it for me!

Great job, Wesley and thanks especially for the note at the bottom. Whew! What a relief you're planning to stay around and write some more:-)! MM


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

MM, I am glad that you enjoyed this poem enough to leave me such a nice comment. I had a hard time writing this because I had to put myself into the mood. Thank you for stopping in to read this.


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Azur Moon Wolf 7 years ago

Wow! This brought tears to my eyes (I'll have to watch that movie now). I am rarely speechless, but...wow! I to read more of your work to be sure, but perhaps you are the Poe reincarnate? Your choice of words and the flow of the lines puts him in mind (not just the fact you mentioned him in the poem). Absolutely phenomenal. I am an instant fan and can't wait to read more.

Ha! How's that for speechless, huh?

I see you are in Iraq at present and I just want to say thank you for your service and loyalty. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Azur Moon Wolf: Thank you so much for the wonderful comment. I am glad that you enjoyed this poem and hopefully the underlying message of it. Again thank you for stopping by and reading.


Uncle Wayne  7 years ago

Wesley I too am glad you made the comment at the end also. I am still worried about you. You need to keep in touch. Missed you in august. Do all these people on this sight know you or are they just fellow poets? I am glad to see you have found a talent to channel your emotions, you are very good. But what do I know about poetry, please email when you can.


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Thanks for reading Uncle Wayne, I am glad that you like the poem. The people on this site kinda know me through my writing, and they are some of the best poets I've read. I'll e-mail soon.


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BevsPaper 7 years ago from Central Indiana

So glad you had the comment at the end! I lost a husband to suicide and you had me worried there for a minute.


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

BevsPaper: Thank you for leaving a comment and I am sorry of your loss. I hope you enjoyed the poem though.


Mom 7 years ago

I can' believe how clever and smart you are. You sure make your momma proud. I did not enjoy the subject of the poem, when I first began reading it,but I see there is a message there for those who want to listen. You are exceptional and I am not biased because you are my son.


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Mom: I am glad that you made it to my page, and you will also note that I never did publish that one story. It didn't sit right. I love you and the message is life is worth living.


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tmboykin13 7 years ago

this was amazing imagiry, i loved it, for you to write this deep and full of emotion like you really actually were suffering. good work


Sister 7 years ago

Brother you are amazing! I have been reading your stuff this evening and I feel blessed to have such a talented brother. I never knew how deep you were and I apologize for that I guess we haven't been that close for a long time and thats probably my fault but I hope you do know how much I love you and appreciate what you are fighting for right now. Please keep in touch because I miss you and I miss our boxing matches and big refrigerator boxes


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wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Tmboykin: Thank you very much for your kind comments.

Sis I am glad that you enjoyed reading this poem but I am not too sure about the talent thing, but if you say so I'll agree. Thank you for commenting. And I most certainly remember the time machine games we used to play.


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cherry rose 6 years ago

your write is beautifully dark and filled with so much emotions beautiful so beautiful


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wesleycox 6 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Thank you cherry rose, I'm glad you liked it.


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Gigi2 6 years ago from UK

This made my heart pound. I'm ashamed to say I have been there, and hasten to add I am very, very over it. You have written this so beautifully, it is moving without being morbid. Painful but very spiritual. I think I will return to this often, it's bookmarked! Well done.


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wesleycox 6 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Your kind words humble me and I am so happy that you learned life deserves to have you in it. Thank you again for your kind comments.


RandomSh!t 6 years ago

You write beautifully,.. I was engrossed with every word from start to finish,..this should be in a hub news letter spotlight, for sure.


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wesleycox 6 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Thank you RS for your comment, I appreciate the praise and am honored you feel as such. Thank you for reading.


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14ounce 6 years ago from Philippines

well done my friend...well done.


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wesleycox 6 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Thank you for commenting and reading.


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Granny's House 6 years ago from Older and Hopefully Wiser Time

Wow, Wesley. What a powerful poem. I was scared too. lol


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wesleycox 6 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Thank you Granny's House. This poem does elicit some emotions in reading it doesn't it. Thanks for reading.


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Georgie98 6 years ago from UK

The title attracted me to read your poem too Wesley, it was really amazing. I've attempted suicide before, so it was interesting to see that you had written it with no true story behind it, just a movie. Very clever. :)


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wesleycox 6 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

Thank you for reading and am glad that you enjoyed it. Remember the message that all life is beautiful and worth pushing through the pain. Take care and thanks again.


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cindi h 5 years ago

My friend you ARE a poet! My thanks to the person who inspired you. I look forward to more of your work.


wesleycox 5 years ago

Thank you for reading my work and enjoying the message within it. There is plenty to read.


Ms.kris 5 years ago

nice poem, it helps alot. thank you


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Tams R 4 years ago from Missouri

Great poem on a sensitive topic.


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wesleycox 4 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

thank you for reading.


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amysmom44 3 years ago from Westfield new york

My beautiful daughter comitted suicide on June 1st. I wrote about it on alspalpennyblogspot.com and here. But I am not sure it is here at the Hub because I'm not sure it worked as I have never tried it before. I read your article about life after death and I so believe all you said. I am a big Steven Hawkings fan and believe he will figure it all out before he dies. But for now I know for sure about the energy thing because I feel it when she is around me. I also had an out of body experience when I was 34. I am now 72. I remember it so vividly and I knew that is where I really belonged. Not here in this earthly body. Nice to get to know you. I like what you think. I feel what you feel. All good. A great poem even though it was so close to home.


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wesleycox 3 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012 Author

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I am glad that you enjoyed the poem though. Take care and be well.


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Joy56 3 years ago

what a creative time this was, so happy your family read your work.... we have all moved on, but we must still be poets, mustn't we.......

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