My Subtle Wish of Death
What is this thing called happiness?
If I ever had it, then everyday I feel it less and less.
I have cut myself off from the world.
While watching my loneliness and despair unfurl.
My heart aches. It feels like its on fire.
Breathing is no longer my desire.
My understanding of coping is gone.
Right now I feel so alone.
My tears constantly fall.
My emotional pain wraps around me like shawl.
When is this ever going to end?
I'm tired of facing everyone and trying to pretend.
Faking through life like everything is alright.
I'm almost ready to give up this fight.
My family needs me is what I have to tell myself.
Otherwise I would give in to my subtle wish of death.