The Sequence

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‘The Sequence’

A dark cold aura of silence appears; a very intense feeling of danger draws near. My body speaks out with sensations of fear; there’s no avoiding its presence, I know that it’s here.

Denying the impulse, reality has staged. Powerless, to fend off this murderous rage.

Yet resistance encounters, a conflicting role; of letting go and losing control. A feeling of running, escaping it all; oh God, get me out of here, I don’t want to fall!

And then as if all life’s energy was drained.  A feeling of numbness, all emotions were strained. As I lie in a state of exhausted confusion, I recall the light of total seclusion.

And like a mole in a tunnel of mazes.
I know the way out is to go through these phases.

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myownworld 6 years ago from uk

From 'murderous rage' to a 'feeling of numbness'....I love the way you take us from one emotion to another. Very powerful...


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

myownworld - Thanks so much, nice to hear from you again. Once again, thanks so much for taking the time to read and comment. Your comments are always sincere and very much appreciated!

If I recall correctly this particular poem was experienced over a course of three days. And yes, the emotions were extremely intense.

Thanks so much,

Sage


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Darlene Sabella 6 years ago from Hello, my name is Toast and Jam, I live in the forest with my dog named Sam ...

Again, I understand what you are saying, rage is like the primal scream...it is such an out of control experiance that it hard to find the way out. This is an awesome hub, I love this hub you have touched me in a very deep place. Thanks


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Pamela99 6 years ago from United States

This is a powerful emotional turmoil to survive and come out on the other side maybe knowing a bit more about yourself. Healing emotions takes times, twists and turns but you are moving forward I think. Writing as well as you do gives you a means of expression that not all possess. Thanks for bravely writing about these experiences.


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Moulik Mistry 6 years ago from Burdwan, West Bengal, India

Unique style, emotionally at its highest peak, very well done...


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Micky Dee 6 years ago

Thanks again Sage. Pretty!


 6 years ago

That's one thing with abuse of any kind. So many emotions come from one incidence. Something many think are a one time occerance, turns into a lifetime of memories and nightmares recounting the day of experiences over and over. Wondering what you could have done to have prevent the situation. You wonder what you did to deserve such a violation to your body, be it sexual abuse, a person beating you or even telling you that your nothing, stupid and so on. Aside from what people thing, words truely can hurt. Especially when it comes from from a parent that's supposed to love their child and keep them safe. You have a good talent for bringing words to some of the most painful emotions. Take care and be well.

-Stanley


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prettydarkhorse 6 years ago from US

hi Sage, this is powerful, very strong emotonal transparency of real emotions, murderous and then numbness, maybe realization next, slowly by slowly, Maita


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

Darlene - Powerful and out of control. I know you understand. Once again, thanks so much for reading and commenting.

Pamela - Thanks so much for your heartfelt comment. It has been my writing that has saved me each and every time. Writing has and will always be, a release. Thanks so much for visiting and commenting.

Moulik - Thanks so much for reading and commenting. It is greatly appreciated!

Micky Dee- You are so right, it's a life time of healing. When you least expect it, emotions, memories, nightmares etc. surface and run rampant. Thanks once again, for reading and commenting. It is always so nice to read what you have written.

Prettydarkhorse- Thanks for reading and commenting. Realizations follow without a doubt.

Many thanks to all of you for your heartfelt comments and support. It mean so very much.

Take care to all,

Sage


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akirchner 6 years ago from Central Oregon

Powerful and you describe all the stages of dealing with abuse very well. It is a tough thing to come out on the other side but it is possible, as you are showing. Great stuff, Sage.


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

akirchner - Thanks so much for reading your comment is genuinely heartfelt. Thank you,

Sage


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tonymac04 6 years ago from South Africa

Your description of emotional turmoil is very moving. I was touched by it. Thank you so much for sharing so eloquently.

Love and peace

Tony


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Hokey 6 years ago from In the energy.

I LOVE THIS!!!! Truly awesome Sage! Your good......


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

Hokey-Thanks so much Hokey. Your comment is greatly appreciated!

Sage


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Robert Kernodle 6 years ago

On the other side of rage is ecstasy. On the other side of ecstasy is rage. Some people are so dead in the middle that they never feel either.

You do, so you are alive.

Robert


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

Robert- Interesting comment. I never knew this. Thanks for taking the time to read and comment. Your comment is greatly appreciated!

Sage


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Coolmon2009 6 years ago from Texas, USA

I enjoyed reading this article; so powerful and full of emotion; I look forward to reading the next one :)


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

coolmon-thanks for stopping by, reading this poem and commenting. Your comment is greatly appreciated!

Sage


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kea 6 years ago

Great poem. I really like you ending line: "I know the way out is to go through these phases." Keep up the great work!


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

kea - Thanks so much for reading and commenting. Your comment is greatly appreciated!

Sage


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Dolores Monet 6 years ago from East Coast, United States

Those dark feelings can be just terrible, yet we must experience the darkness to get to the light. Very well put.


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

dolores - So good to see you, thanks for reading and commenting. Your comments are greatly appreciated!

Sage


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prettydarkhorse 6 years ago from US

Hey Sage, I saw your response to one of my hub, thank you, I just want to drop by here, I check your hubs everyday and I want you to write some more, hehe, Night, Maita


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

Maita - Thanks for checking back with me. I would love to write more soon. Just need some time to do so.

till next time,

Sage


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MFB III 6 years ago from United States

You color this emotion well, in drab grays and back of the eyeball scarlet reds, the heart pounding like a jackhammer, but nothing concrete is shattering except your own beliefs in sanity which has fled. the pain of knowing you are lesser in another's eyes than a gnat smacking a windshield and becoming something only worthy of wiping away like

some unwanted body fluids. What can a soul do to defend against such a situation, it has a shell to crawl into or

an adrenaline burst of murderous angst, that could wound in any way possible one's attacker. It is a tough decision, I say go for the eyes, they are easily removed with two pounds of thumb or finger pressure hooked into the corners of the eyes, It's fixable with surgery,they simply dangle by the optic nerves and incapacitiate your abuser. but then I am a bit more barbaric in my reactions to fear. Superb write.~~~MFB III


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

MFB - Wow, such an interesting comment; it took me awhile to decipher the beginning of your comment. You have an uncanny way of expressing.

As for the ending, feeling the murderous rage alone is exhausting not to mention, controlling the impulses that are snapping off of ones body read to engage at any given moment.

The rest as you said it was a little barbaric, but not to far from what I had envisioned.

Thanks so much for stopping by reading and commenting. Your comment is greatly appreciated!

Sage


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prettydarkhorse 6 years ago from US

Night Sage, I cant sleep, Maita


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

Maita-I was just heading to bed myself, it's 3AM. Talk to you soon.

Sage


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Coolmon2009 6 years ago from Texas, USA

Nice poem enjoyed reading it :)


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

Coolmon - Thanks for stopping by and commenting.

Sage


kimberlyslyrics 6 years ago

Sage

this was so incredible, I was very moved by these words;

And then as if all life’s energy was drained. A feeling of numbness, all emotions were strained. As I lie in a state of exhausted confusion, I recall the light of total seclusion.

Thank you for delivering such an important message in such a poetic, beautiful way

Kimberly


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

lyrics, So nice to see you, thanks so much for stopping by and leaving such a beautiful comment. It makes me happy to know that others can relate. It's always nice to see your presence on my hub pages.

Hugs,

Sage


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habee 6 years ago from Georgia

Great poem with powerful images!


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

Habee, Nice to see you thanks so much for taking the time to read and comment. Glad you liked the poem and artwork. My artwork is not always the greatest.

Sage


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Mystique1957 6 years ago from Caracas-Venezuela

My dearest Sage...

There´s also beauty in the way we describe despair and helplessness. It is a powerful way of releasing the pain and imprint it in the words that so poetically bleed through a parchment of literary hopelessness... Rated up and beautiful!

Warmest hugs and infinite heavenly blessings,

Al


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Sage Williams 6 years ago Author

Mystique - Thanks so much for stopping by and commenting. Your comment as always is greatly appreciated. You have such a way with words.

Many thanks,

Sage

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