To Our Lord The Father, And Maker Of All Our Souls ..

I love my wife Joann, and Becky, and all my dear friends , and our father in Heaven. Joann was suffering from pain in her hip, right leg, and back.

Becky is very beautiful, and is happy around us, with Sweet Pea on her lap. The cat follows Becky. and rides with Becky, on Becky's wheelchairs .

While Joann was sleeping, I used my new found strength too bring Becky in our living room which is near our kitchen.

I maneuvered Becky's motorized wheelchair too a close position near Becky. I positioned Becky's manual wheelchair which had Becky sitting in it, close to her motorized wheelchair.

After detaching Becky's safety strap I asked Becky to raise her arms if she could. Her right arm was a little difficult for her to raise, so I carefully raised it myself. I lifted Becky by placing my arms in a secure fashion under her arms in order to carefully raise her body up to a standing position. In my words I asked our Lord to give me strength to move, and too pivot Becky's body , and legs properly , and her feet around in her standing position, in order to lift her safely onto her motorized wheelchair.

That one lift to her seat is my hardest lift, and a push of her body to a proper sitting position are my most challenging efforts that were accomplished.

Joann has lifted Becky many times more than I. We use to carry Becky down our hall, actually with Joann having most of the strength. I can tell you now that Joann has a will that can not be broken. A nearly four hundred pound man with large muscles once lifted, and carried Becky up to a second floor camp house for us. When the man sat Becky down, he was breathing hard for oxygen. We thanked him for his good work.

This is not a joke. Joann has worked as hard as a battalion of marines. Not one man on our planet could ever do what Joann has done , for Becky. It is simply because women, and mothers can do what lions do, and because of their protective instincts ingrained in them since God's creation of humanity.

All I can do as a man is too do my very best in order to try to help Joann a little. I could never do what she has done , but I never give up either. Becky, and Joann have always inspired me to try to be better than I am. Inspiration is what it takes to do what is necessary in life. Love, and God are a big help too.

My lower back is in pain, but I am happy that Joann is sleeping in her bed, and resting well. As a father, and husband it is my duty to do my best too comfort my wife, and child, or daughter to the best of my ability. It is not simply a duty, but my determination because of my love for them.

I do not eat unless I know that my wife, and daughter have first choices to whatever is on our table, because of the glory of God, the father of Heaven, and Earth, and creator of our universe.

I always pray for everyone with all my heart. I have become closer to our all mighty Lord in Heaven. I have seen Heaven, and Hell. Heaven is a beautiful white place that is made of endless love that makes you feel like a loved child in a mother's arms.

God's love for humanity exists because I felt it in my heart when he came to help me, when my mother was deceased in my arms. I pleaded for our Lord's help, and for him to bring her back to life, and he did . My CPR worked because of our Lord. He saved my mother's life. I saw Heaven, and I cried over it's magnificence, and for all souls that need it. There was enough love in God, and in all surroundings around him, to fill the universe a trillion times. I could feel God's love for me, and because of that, I was in wonderful peace I realized that he was very intelligent. God has patience in what God does. I feel that he is about love, and of course many other intellectual matters.

I know that our Lord loves us all very much . We are all his children no matter what we do. Talk to your Lord, and thank him when he helps you.

I use the word "he' in reference to our Lord, but I truly do not know what God looks like. I have not seen his physical presence in my mind. If God is eternal I can only wonder what our Lord would look like. I do not need to see our Lord because of my faith, and love for his entity.

I believe I saw hell. I saw it when I nearly died. There was darkness, and smoke turning like infinite barrels in black darkness . I saw myself dead, face down in a coffin because of some foolish, meaningless God forbidden action, or war. There was nothing to feel in hell's void. There was no love, and endless emptiness . Death was meaningless, and meant nothing in hell. It was like I saw it from and entrance door . I feared what it could have done to me.

For the first time in my life I begged our Lord for my life. I believe I died, and I was going straight to hell. . I said it in my mind, in and ICU, with heart machines, and with paddles to shock my dying heart , In my mind,, and in my silent body, I yelled, " Dear God please help me to live. Please help me Dear Christ in Heaven ."

Shortly after, I opened my eyes, and It was obvious that God wanted me to be a better man, so now I try even harder to do what our Lord wants from me."

Joann, and Becky are by the kitchen table. I think I will go , and see what their doing. Maybe I will cook some food for them .God Bless You, and all souls on our earth.

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WillStarr 2 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

May you have peace.

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stars439 2 years ago from Louisiana, The Magnolia and Pelican State. Author

Dear WillStar: Thank you, and God bless you, and all that you cherish.

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Jackie Lynnley 2 years ago from The Beautiful South

You have heaven to look forward to but also heaven with your girl here on earth with all your love for them. God bless you in this heaven until you reach the next.

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Phyllis Doyle 2 years ago from High desert of Nevada.

You have a great love for God, your wife, and daughter. I can see you also have love for your self and this is wonderful. May you always be in peace and harmony on Earth and in the everafter realms of God's Heaven.

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Barbara Kay 2 years ago from USA

God bless you for the sacrifices you are making.

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DreamerMeg 2 years ago from Northern Ireland

Providing loving service to others willingly, without resentment or without feeling that you are making a sacrifice is a way to happiness, inner peacefulness and calm.

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stars439 2 years ago from Louisiana, The Magnolia and Pelican State. Author

Dear Jackie : You are my heart , and always have been because you are sincere with a beautiful personality, and because you are a young lady of courage, and bravery to defend what is decent for our country, America, and all it's wonderful glory of patriots, and good souls. It is, and honor to have you as my friend. God Bless You, and you're precious loved ones.

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stars439 2 years ago from Louisiana, The Magnolia and Pelican State. Author

Dear Phyllis Doyle : Thank you precious heart for you're kind words. God Bless You, and all that you cherish.

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stars439 2 years ago from Louisiana, The Magnolia and Pelican State. Author

Dear Barbara Kay : Thank you dear heart for visiting, and God Bless You, and you're family.

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stars439 2 years ago from Louisiana, The Magnolia and Pelican State. Author

Dear DreamerMeg : Thank you dear heart, and God Bless You.

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Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

God bless you and your precious family. You will see heaven and know of no more pain, tears or heartache. Cherish this time with your family and continue to persevere.

Hugs and many blessings to you and yours

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stars439 2 years ago from Louisiana, The Magnolia and Pelican State. Author

Dear Faith Reaper : Thank you ,for visiting my dear, and precious friend, and wishing you, and you're wonderful family happiness and joy always in our Lord's loving arms. GBY.

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DeBorrah K. Ogans 2 years ago

Stars, Your testimony is heartfelt! It makes us appreciate life that much more. We never know what life will present to us. How Marvelous that the Lord has given you more time on this side of Heaven. You also have interesting memories & images to motivate & encourage you to continue to creative a lovely home environment for you Joann & Becky. Lord Bless All of You!

All that you do does not go unnoticed by the LORD! His Holy Spirit The Comforter is there with you!

In HIS Love, Grace, Joy, Peace & Blessing! May our Heavenly Father continue to strengthen and keep you!

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