Another One of Those People

Louise

The first I'd seen her, she was
walking around as if she was
alone in the world,

Despite the group, the fact she
was well known to everyone,
she had this aura of 'me'.

I did the usual smile and hi,
but didn't go further as I had
picked up the the vibe which said stay back.

Sharon, however, who couldn't read people, invited her to sit with us.
After all, Louise was totally alone, and there was space in our section.

Louise sat there with an attitude. It was as if she felt she was honouring us with her presence.

The next time Sharon invited Louise to sit with us she replied "I'm sitting over there"
in the voice of a vegetarian offered a ham sandwich.

I was not surprised by her decline, I was only taken aback by her tone. I thought she might have developed the hypocrisy to smile and say something kind, instead of that door slam.

Sharon was repelled by it, but didn't say anything and Louise no longer existed in
her purview. I maintained my smile and nod, making serious efforts to never to have
to talk to her.

Stalking??

A few months later I was surprised to see Louise suddenly taking a greater role.
She had been an 'in and out' who didn't hang around or participate.

Over time I found myself leaving groups, ceasing to speak to people when she was around for she had a habit in inserting herself into any conversation I was having, and begin talking as if I didn't exist..

She seemed to 'track' me, although I might be making too much of her presence. Maybe she was interested in that topic. Maybe she did have something to say to Richard. I don't know. I just know I prefer not to be where she is.

Seeing Thru the Bull

When you can read people it isn't pretty. Most people aren't nice. Most people see that you have use and use you. If you have no use (or can send out the vibes that you are a flake),these people will leave you alone.

I knew that Sharon, for example, was using me as a 'bulwark' against Vickie, (who was her ex-friend). I wasn't surprised when they relinked and I became third armpit. I knew it was inevitable from our first smile.

Louise seemed to note that I was friendly with about 80% of the people and seemed to want to take my place. I didn't much care. She could try.

The Plot Sickens

At the luncheon, when she sat next to Rivka and started one of those leading conversations, I felt uncomfortable. In a short time Rivka was spilling her guts, and Louise wasn't listening.

Rivka was my friend. Not a transient like Sharon, but someone I would talk to about all sorts of topics. If there was someway I could shut Rivka up, I would, but there wasn't, and I turned to Vivian and ignored Rivka's soliloquy.

The next week, when Steve picked me up, Louise was in the car. I hadn't seen her as I went to the front door, and she said; "You have to sit in the back."

If it was anyone else I'd expect a clever smile, a joking tone, but Louise said it with viciousness.

Taking Set On Me

As I got into Steve's car, I noticed Louise's seat was pushed back as far as
it could go. I had to slip behind Steve.

To push back a seat like that is rather annoying, but I didn't say a word.
She Did.

As we drove, Louise kept up the "I - I - I" chant.

This chant occurs when a person wants to display their knowledge and ability
and doesn't say anything to which one can add a word. Steve tried to bring
me in, but Louise kept slamming the door.

I don't know why she needed me to know where she'd been, how long, and
what it was like, as I didn't care but I suppose she thought she was impressing me.

When we reached the destination she was still doing her "I - I -I" so I left
the car, went in.

At the end of the meeting, as I stood by the eat's table Louise was behind
me. Every step I took she was near, and I made circles just to see if she would
follow, which she did.

I kept circling, noticing that anyone I spoke to, she jumped to buy out the conversation.

Shaking her off I found Elliot and asked him to drop me home when he was
ready, then, quickly moved to Viv, just in case Louise would learn the 'secret' information.

After about thirty minutes, Elliot gestured, and I went to him, telling Steve what I was doing.

Why she had taken 'set' on me I don't know.

Why Me?

I tried to figure out why she was stalking me.
I couldn't pin it down.
I just decided to be a bit flakey, missing meetings, coming and going

I started sitting way over in Siberia so that no one might even know if I
was there or not.

After a few weeks she seemed to lose interest in me.

Sandra, who I hadn't thought noticed the drama said, with a smile,
"Louise wants to be You."

Oh.


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Jellybird 4 years ago

Complicated. Are you in fifth grade- or over 50.? I don't mean that in an offensive way - just wonder if a change of thinking should come from your side - stop being a victim. Nicely written.

Be cool

peace +

J


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qeyler 4 years ago Author

I guess I failed to convey the essence of the Louise character. What I was trying to draw was the person who has no approach, who doesn't know how to engage. The person who shares words but nothing of themselves and who Doesn't know the very basics of how to be.


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Jellybird 4 years ago

Gotcha. I feel silly. Thanks. J


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qeyler 4 years ago Author

No, it's not your fault. I wasn't clear enough

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