Life is just existing; or is it something else?

Working on the farm.
Working on the farm. | Source

When I was a child:

When I was growing up, I had a lot of chores and responsibilities. I played some, but mostly I worked in the garden, taking care of the animals, mowing the large lawn, raking leaves, etc. I worked so hard that before I knew it I was becoming a teenager and didn’t even know the first thing about life. I struggled through those years, working, trying to learn, and trying to figure out who and what I was. Before I knew it I was an adult and expected to go to work to earn my keep.

Everything melts together like a storm in the air.
Everything melts together like a storm in the air. | Source

Today, looking back:

Now, as a mother and grandmother, I sit and try to recall my life as a child. There isn’t much to recall. Everything just kind of melts into everything else and I find that the time just flew because I had so much to do. Now, I raised my children, managed to buy a house, and now have financial issues. Time is flying and each year brings more things to attend to and the time flies even faster.

I sit at my computer....
I sit at my computer.... | Source

Today, I sit at my computer and wonder. Did the time go so fast because I was just existing? Or did it go that fast because I was busy? Or is it because I was occupied? Or is it because I was just ‘living’?

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I wonder:

I wonder what the definition of living is compared to existing, being, doing, knowing, etc. I don’t mean the exact definition. I can get that from a dictionary. I mean the definition based on experience and life. Do they determine if you have lived or not? Do they make a difference to how you existed? Did they define your future before you were even grown up? Or were you already meant to be what you are and do what you’ve done? How can we know?

Philosophically, I suppose we could say that we have been and done what we were meant to do and what we do in the future has already been determined. Or we could say that our choices and decisions make a difference in our future. But which is correct? And how do we know?

Are we or aren't we?
Are we or aren't we? | Source

Tough Choices:

I have been faced with some tough choices throughout my life. Choices that meant changes to a lot of people’s lives, not just my own. Did I make the choices that I was supposed to make? If so, then why was it so hard to make the decisions in the first place? If the choices were already decided for me, then why did I struggle so hard with choosing the ‘right’ path? Why didn’t the choice just become obvious and apparent? Why wasn’t the choice already made for me?

Devil vs Angel?
Devil vs Angel? | Source

Think about this:

Ok, now that I have made you think about the choices you have made in the past, I would like to bring your attention to something else you might want to think about. Everyone, churches, religious groups, government officials, educators, even your neighbor, tells you that you need to live a certain way during this life in order to be a better person and move on to a better life. WHY? Does how I behave in this life actually affect what I will be or do when I die? How can we know? How can we be sure? And if this fact is so, then why are there so many criminals present in our society? Why are there so many innocent people (including children) made to suffer at the hands of others? And why are some people rich and others poor?

IF...

IF, that one word can bring out so many uncertainties. IF you chose differently; IF you went in a different direction; IF you married someone else: IF you were rich: IF you had bought this or that; IF, IF, IF, IF, the possibilities are endless!

How can we know the answers?

Life moves so fast, it is hard to answer any of those questions I have posed. But I can’t help but wonder about them. If, and I say that word strongly, IF we are already living a life that we were meant to live then why do we have the right to choose. IF we are already meant to do the things we have done, then why are there so many out there telling us we have to do things a certain way in order to have a better life after we die. IF we are already doing what we are supposed to do, then why do we have so many questions?

Ranting, raving, possibilities:

So, after ranting about the possibilities, I have come to the conclusion that IF I did things differently, my life MAY have been different.However, IF I listen to all those around me, my decisions will be identical to theirs.And, IF I don’t make a choice about something, the choice will eventually be made for me and I will have to live with the consequences.And, IF I simply watch the years pass me by, I will find myself sitting in an old rocking chair looking out a window with tears running down my cheeks as I watch the world pass me by.

My mind is clouded with possibilities...
My mind is clouded with possibilities... | Source

I think...

I think I will still attempt to make my own choices and try to make the world slow down a bit, just for me, so I can enjoy some of it before I die.IF that works for me, it might just make my little corner of the world a bit better for me and mine. If it doesn't work, my mind will continue to be clouded with possibilities; and questions.

What do you think?

Do you think we are predestined? Or are we truly free to make choices?

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That's life, I liked the dancing and the music...

© 2012 Cheryl Simonds

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Renee 4 years ago

Really like this one!! Great job Ma!


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cherylone 4 years ago from Connecticut Author

Thank you Renee, for reading, liking and commenting.


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gmwilliams 4 years ago from the Greatest City In The World-New York City, New York

What is life really? How do we define the essence of life? Life is full of intricacies and mysteries to which we really know the answer after our physical form has vanished and our true soul essence is revealed!


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cherylone 4 years ago from Connecticut Author

I agree. How do we define the essence of lift? I wasn't trying, I was just trying to get people to think about it. Thanks for stopping by and commenting, gmwilliams. I appreciate your thougts.


KatrineDalMonte 4 years ago

Hi. It's a great hub. Questions are endless really, as are the answers. To be very honest, now being in my 30's I would simply say that my teens were 'grey', my 20's were 'blue', looking back yes, I was just 'existing'. My 30's are pink - I now feel that I'm living my life by my own terms. And it's only because I have learnt that it was all down to me, that actually I did have choices and options, only I could do something about it. So I embarked onto a journey of 'self-discovery' and a journey of understanding how life and world works. Now I know that we all have power within us to achieve anything we want to, with the right attitude and mindset, with dedication and determination. Our life can be anything we want it to be. I have also written a few hubs on these topics.


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cherylone 4 years ago from Connecticut Author

Katrine, thank you for sharing, I know what you mean, only we can make things better.


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven

Hi Cheryl love this hub. A lot of good questions here. I think that life is what we make of it. I question myself a lot about am I just existing, living etc.? Then when I start just thinking that everything happened for a reason and that I am here to learn, experience, and to make the best of things. I relax and let go. Thank you for sharing.


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cherylone 4 years ago from Connecticut Author

You are welcome, carolinemd21, I get so frustrated sometimes, but this hub helped me sort a few things out. Thanks for stopping by and commenting.


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carter06 4 years ago from Cronulla NSW

Very though provoking. I think it's important to live life the best that we possibly can. It is short and we only get one run through and being the best person we can be to ourselves, family friends and others is all we can ask, really. Good hub Cheryl, voted up :)


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cherylone 4 years ago from Connecticut Author

Thank you so much, carter06, not only for stopping by and commenting but for also voting and giving me your kind words. I spent a great deal of my life wondering about those questions and I thought I would put them out there and see who else was wondering.


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kittythedreamer 4 years ago from the Ether

Wonderful thoughts, cherylone. I understand what you mean in all of this. I have come to believe through my spiritual experiences in this life that living is more than just existing. Sometimes the world moves so fast because of the "duties" that society makes us fulfill that we don't stop and "smell the roses". I'm guilty of this. But I feel that we are all free to make our own choices. I believe that we chose to be who we were before we were born into this life. But along the way in this life, we are able to decide which path we want to go down. I don't think any one event is set in stone. Just my opinion...I believe we're all here to learn lessons...and once we're done learning those lessons we will be done on earth. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Loved it.


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cherylone 4 years ago from Connecticut Author

kittythedreamer, thank you for stopping by and commenting. I also believe we can choose for ourselves, but sometimes we need to learn that lesson again. I'm glad you enjoyed the hub.

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