Life is just existing; or is it something else?
When I was a child:
When I was growing up, I had a lot of chores and responsibilities. I played some, but mostly I worked in the garden, taking care of the animals, mowing the large lawn, raking leaves, etc. I worked so hard that before I knew it I was becoming a teenager and didn’t even know the first thing about life. I struggled through those years, working, trying to learn, and trying to figure out who and what I was. Before I knew it I was an adult and expected to go to work to earn my keep.
Today, looking back:
Now, as a mother and grandmother, I sit and try to recall my life as a child. There isn’t much to recall. Everything just kind of melts into everything else and I find that the time just flew because I had so much to do. Now, I raised my children, managed to buy a house, and now have financial issues. Time is flying and each year brings more things to attend to and the time flies even faster.
Today, I sit at my computer and wonder. Did the time go so fast because I was just existing? Or did it go that fast because I was busy? Or is it because I was occupied? Or is it because I was just ‘living’?
I wonder what the definition of living is compared to existing, being, doing, knowing, etc. I don’t mean the exact definition. I can get that from a dictionary. I mean the definition based on experience and life. Do they determine if you have lived or not? Do they make a difference to how you existed? Did they define your future before you were even grown up? Or were you already meant to be what you are and do what you’ve done? How can we know?
Philosophically, I suppose we could say that we have been and done what we were meant to do and what we do in the future has already been determined. Or we could say that our choices and decisions make a difference in our future. But which is correct? And how do we know?
I have been faced with some tough choices throughout my life. Choices that meant changes to a lot of people’s lives, not just my own. Did I make the choices that I was supposed to make? If so, then why was it so hard to make the decisions in the first place? If the choices were already decided for me, then why did I struggle so hard with choosing the ‘right’ path? Why didn’t the choice just become obvious and apparent? Why wasn’t the choice already made for me?
Think about this:
Ok, now that I have made you think about the choices you have made in the past, I would like to bring your attention to something else you might want to think about. Everyone, churches, religious groups, government officials, educators, even your neighbor, tells you that you need to live a certain way during this life in order to be a better person and move on to a better life. WHY? Does how I behave in this life actually affect what I will be or do when I die? How can we know? How can we be sure? And if this fact is so, then why are there so many criminals present in our society? Why are there so many innocent people (including children) made to suffer at the hands of others? And why are some people rich and others poor?
IF, that one word can bring out so many uncertainties. IF you chose differently; IF you went in a different direction; IF you married someone else: IF you were rich: IF you had bought this or that; IF, IF, IF, IF, the possibilities are endless!
How can we know the answers?
Life moves so fast, it is hard to answer any of those questions I have posed. But I can’t help but wonder about them. If, and I say that word strongly, IF we are already living a life that we were meant to live then why do we have the right to choose. IF we are already meant to do the things we have done, then why are there so many out there telling us we have to do things a certain way in order to have a better life after we die. IF we are already doing what we are supposed to do, then why do we have so many questions?
Ranting, raving, possibilities:
So, after ranting about the possibilities, I have come to the conclusion that IF I did things differently, my life MAY have been different.However, IF I listen to all those around me, my decisions will be identical to theirs.And, IF I don’t make a choice about something, the choice will eventually be made for me and I will have to live with the consequences.And, IF I simply watch the years pass me by, I will find myself sitting in an old rocking chair looking out a window with tears running down my cheeks as I watch the world pass me by.
I think I will still attempt to make my own choices and try to make the world slow down a bit, just for me, so I can enjoy some of it before I die.IF that works for me, it might just make my little corner of the world a bit better for me and mine. If it doesn't work, my mind will continue to be clouded with possibilities; and questions.
What do you think?
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© 2012 Cheryl Simonds
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