Maybe Someday Somehow

We're Living On The Edge

For Those Who Look Away or Blame

I admit it. I didn't even look for a job today. It's been since Feb 2009 since I've worked. Over a million people share my story. We of course, are leeches. We want to suck off society. No one wants to hear our shrill cries that the economy was busted by the corrupt in Wall Street, the corrupt in government, the lobbyists, the stock holders. No it was us. The work force. The people who go 9-5 and produce things or make money for companies. We busted our asses. Some of us for decades at one company. Then that loyalty became a liability. We'd lived too well maybe. We bought cars and houses. Not as nice as the Porsche sports cars and million dollar mansions the executive officers were buying... but still. Much nicer for us than living in a box or a tent. The home we envision in our futures now.

One has to wonder what will happen next. Congress it seems was more worried about their 4th of July celebrations than they were about millions of devastated Americans. Maybe they just hope we die or start killing ourselves? Maybe they are like Scrooge hoping we do die and thus "reduce the surplus population". Like the BP oil spill is to BP executives is this unemployment mess to Congress. Those who profited on these now unemployed souls just wish it would go away. Poor babies just want their lives back. Well, guess what - us too!

My company made a billion dollars in profit last year, yet I just heard they laid off my buddy the other day. The guy who was their work horse. A guy they sent all around the world for two years. No, his divorce had nothing to do with that I bet. Then they shit canned him. Probably because his salary was too large and benefits too great. Like me this dumb ass showed loyalty or more likely was just the kind of guy who did his job to the best of his abilities regardless of the ungrateful environment. Maybe I'll find out how he really feels now. He's been such a good tight lipped employee up until now. It be nice to hear him admit what heartless bastards they are to make these kinds of decisions. I mean, if the company was losing money - maybe... but when a company takes advantage of an economic crisis (when they aren't in one) to thin staff and drive up dividends - something has to be wrong. Is that what America is about? Maybe they don't give a damn about America as all the large American companies are "global" now. How many other companies are doing this? Getting rid of workers who are consumers seems like cutting off your own legs.

At least we aren't alone. We have the comfort that maybe just maybe we aren't the fuckups but instead got the shaft. Hard to believe it falls on us lazy unemployed, not if there are this many of us. Over 10 percent of the nation? It can't be just us is what we feel. We want to work. How many of us would go back now to the very slime that let us go without regard for our lives, families and service to them? I would now. Anything for my family. No more of this is a chance to take a new path. Give me a coal mine maybe. Give me a shovel. Let me serve fries. Certainly my BA in Comp Sci is qualification enough to serve burgers and shakes? They say they are hiring.

It's a problem greater than money. If you've never experienced being surrounded by dozens of coworkers, many of them whom you've considered friends for years, and then get yanked one day from that support group and outlet... well, consider yourself lucky. To not be welcome in the building where your old friends are is hard. Sure, you can have lunch with them. Sure, they'll laugh how lucky you are to get to go home now and not back to work. And you do feel a tad lucky to not have to rejoin that rat race. But it is confusing when you feel agitated after the lunch with the "old crew". You feel isolated. Not a part of the world. The world races around you while you stand and watch it. You have no purpose. If you were the provider you've let down your family. You question your self worth. I've gone through a lot in my life and nothing compares to the gamut of pain that exists in being let go when you can't pick up the pieces again.

For me, my time is running out. I still have some benefits to compliment the money I'd saved. It's hard to have saved for two decades so you could have a better future and nice retirement and then burn it to live. We're cashing out pensions and 401ks. How many of us will have to go live with our children instead of retire with grace to our paid off homes? How many won't be able to face that and react badly with violence to themselves or others? Then congress might crap their pants and give us some more money instead of the jobs we want. Maybe we can't expect government to help. You'd think since the people running the country ruined it, they'd help clean it up. Guess not.

For those of who understand this pain. Those of us who don't ridicule it. Those of us know we aren't to blame. Those of us who know we do want to work again and be productive and a part of society again - we need to still stand tall. Til the end. Don't lose your soul over circumstances you can't control. If you are slipping get help. Find help. Most importantly, accept the help with that head high. It shouldn't be wrong that we help each other. That at times we give the help and at times we need the help. We have to believe we will ride this out. We have to believe that maybe someday we'll work all this out.

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Paraglider 6 years ago from Kyle, Scotland

Very well written, JB. The callousness of some of the big corporations is staggering (and it's not just in America).


Rasta 6 years ago

Hell of a piece of writing. It expressed many of the feelings I have too, but couldn't put into words.


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JBeadle 6 years ago from Midwest Author

So very honored to get your quick read and thoughtful comment Paraglider! Sadly, it does seem to be more than an American failing. So many humans, the ones in power... seem to only think about themselves and fail to see the larger picture of humanity.


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JBeadle 6 years ago from Midwest Author

Thanks Rasta. I remember how hard losing your job and life of 25 years were for you. And I'm so happy you found a new life. So jealous too. You have more independence now and work for yourself and at something you love. I was so hoping that would happen for me with writing or anything. It just didn't. Now I just with I could get that IT job I hate back.


Lorna 6 years ago

Thanks, JB. I think you nailed it. The human part of corporate America (and Canada, for that matter) is virtually non-existent anymore. It's all about the bottom-line now.


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JBeadle 6 years ago from Midwest Author

Lorna! Thanks for that comment and the read. Sadly it seems at the moment humanity and compassion are in the back seat.


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Winsome 6 years ago from Southern California by way of Texas

Hey JB, well written piece. I'm sorry you and some of your friends are out of work and if I were there and in the same boat I would probably say the following:JB you have great communication and leadership skills--How about we start a job referral blog or entrepreneur incubator group and if possible get some seed money from the city or state, but we won't hold our breath for that.

We have a church here that bought a restaurant building and lets mobile or portable food businesses use the ovens etc. for free to help them be self-sufficient. Corporations and the government can only take us so far. Good old Yankee ingenuity has to take us the rest of the way.

This guy has a good list of second jobs that could be an only job idea for someone. http://www.consultantjournal.com/blog/second-jobs-...

This site has an idea for teen business that could be for anyone. http://www.groovejob.com/resources/teen-job-resour...


Distazo 6 years ago

Not bad. You might have written this a litter better, technically, but the feelings certainly show through. A little self-pity at the end, there, but I have friends who spent a year out of work, and I know how bad they felt about not providing for their family. Nice comeback at the end, very "happy-ending"-ish. Hopefully you will find a job you want soon.


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JBeadle 6 years ago from Midwest Author

Thanks Distazo... coming from a fellow IT writer on the side (and a very good one at that) that means a lot. I know you aren't big on sappy but that's just how I am. It is just how my life is and the lives of many so really it is just a flat out description of frustrations. I'm not asking anyone to feel sorry for me. Just maybe a nod and acknowledgement of the struggle. I hope I find any job soon - even one I don't want.


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JBeadle 6 years ago from Midwest Author

Sorry to skip over your comment there Winsome! Thanks for the read and advice. Definitely need to pull up the bootstraps and find another way. Can't just hope the economy gets better. I'll check out the links. For sure, my wife and I are going to start are own business. We are researching it now. Still have to get jobs first. Impossible to get a biz loan while you are a bum! :-)


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American Romance 6 years ago from America

Wow how about getting off your pity party and getting a job, All I hear on here is how the greedy corporations do everyone wrong! How about YOU starting a corporation and doing better? If you own a business no matter how large or small its YOURS! Owning a business doesn't give the owner some special commitment to taking care of the world! No one owes you anything! YOU asked to go to work there and they accepted as long as THEY thought they needed your service! Thats it! Now your on the streets, so what? are you going to open your own business? probably not because with your attitude you never saved, and lived above your means! So smart guy what you need is to find another one of those shameful business owners that could use your services! Unfortunately thanks to unions and democrats raping corporations and placing so much regulation YOU always think the big boys need on them! There are no friggin jobs left for you! Learn how capitalism helps the country and next time you go to the voters booth do a better job of it! In the meantime the democrats are sympathetic to your plight and have extended benifits again so you become a ward of the state even longer!


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JBeadle 6 years ago from Midwest Author

Hey AR erm thanks I guess for the comments. I think guys like you are where the angst is.... unless you've been following me around on my job hunting. As an unemployed person it's rather difficult to start a business but I agree that seems to be the way most of us are going to have to dig out of this. I don't want the handouts - I'd like companies to be hiring. And yes I do have a bitch about companies that make a profit yet are still laying people off. I'm going to work part time at a coffee house - the first place I walked into (since electronic is going nowhere) that offered me something - just over minimum wage but work is work and hopefully that shows I'm willing to do what I can to a fulltime employer in my field. I hear you on the pity party but I feel it is just more a frustrated guy trying to figure out what went wrong. Thanks for using my hub to further your political agenda I suppose. :-(


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billyaustindillon 6 years ago

Well written people need to get an insight that those suffering from this depression - it isn't a recession IMHO are real people and not just statistics.


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JBeadle 6 years ago from Midwest Author

Thanks for the comment and that was what I wanted to convey in this story. I appreciate you got it.


ralwus 6 years ago

Well, if banks were lending, some people might start a business. I remember little old men pushing a cart gathering up cardboard to sell to continue living in poverty. You are not alone my friend, I know many in the same situation and jobs are not there for you at this time. Frankly, I don't see them returning either. Best of luck to you.


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JBeadle 6 years ago from Midwest Author

Thanks for the comments Ralwus. I hope you are wrong on the jobs not returning soon but I fear you are right. It may be time to figure out another way.


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Tim Blackstone 6 years ago

The world used to be divided into rich and poor nations but now the rich nations are becoming ever more divided themselves. The rich are getting richer and the middle classes and below are getting poorer and getting shafted.

I hope things work out for you. Keep working on the hubs and hopefully it'll keep the wolf from the door.


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JBeadle 6 years ago from Midwest Author

Thanks for the comments Tim. Life is moving along. Wolf still not in the house! :-)

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