A Hello

old memories count

Hey guess who ? finally sat her butt down to write you a letter....Isn't this modern technology wonderful??? So easy; yet it still takes forever to get motivated anymore these days. I am thinking old age is to blame though.

Since retiring I sure have become slow and not so excited to keep this house clean all the time and cook? well I still love to do that, but my problem seems to be cooking for ONE...now that is a real challenge so I always have left-overs to deal with or eat the same thing for 2-3 days in a row...oh I know "poor me" there are mouths that never know when or where their next meal will come from. No matter how hard I try though I always cook enough for at least two, and sometimes I eat it all...sssshhhh

Also since getting into my senior years I have found it is much more difficult to do many things to help keep my weight under control (though that has always been a problem) walking is tough, biking is out of the question, swimming? not sure the public is ready to see me in a swim suit, exercise machines just aren't in my budget, though I do have a routine that I use 3 lb. weights to try and keep my heart pumping as much as I can. That counts , doesn't it?

Anymore the thought of carrying the laundry basket to the laundry room tires me out, bringing in wood to help keep me warm is exhausting, then after I do build the fire , sit in my recliner to watch a few cooking programs I just fall asleep only to wake up about the time I should be going down for the night, so I go to the computer to see if anyone else is up, if any of my Facebook games need my attention, check u-tube, look at and organize my photographs, or work on one of two novels I am believing I can finish in this lifetime.

Sometimes I even do the dishes I left for the next day and fold the clothes that have sat in the dryer all day, because I can always fold them tomorrow, what is the hurry? The only hurry is if I need one of my worn out bra's or some underwear, seems my bladder has a leak somewhere, sometimes. Maybe though it is getting as lazy as I am, but I will not go see a doctor and take anymore pills, to heck with it.

Christmas was a blast this year, a boring lonely one. No family around, just had dinner with some dear friends and it was fun, but not the same. I visited mom of course,we had our usual three hours together, then nap time and she was out, off into her world, I wonder what that is like?I am sure she is communicating with her angels and waiting for her turn to go HOME finally..."There is no place like Home"

I try very hard to make her days happy and fun, but truly ? don't feel very successful. The quality of her life seems so un-fulfilling, but then who am I to say? She receives Holy Communion, and we pray together, I read her poems and bring her up to date on the news,news about the family , her great,great grandchildren, the weather and what I am doing for the day...

Then there are the evenings I have some wine, boy does that taste good to me. A far call from the way I used to drink, smoke , or have fun in bed...ssshhh... still think about sex, Maybe because it never was what I thought it should be, or maybe I wasn't what I should have been...oh well who cares anymore about that? I do... shame on me...( this wine seems stronger then usual).

Life sure can travel many different speeds, can't it?..I remember when we fought over our first love...and argued about who kissed him first, there were so many wonderful times I just cannot at this point begin to sort them out,but I intend to write them down as I re-call them...so many years and so many heartaches we have endured, but our friendship has weathered all the storms...

We have been friends since we were in 6 th grade,I don't want to think that far back, but let's see it has been I am guessing 58 years now. So 71 minus 58 equals 13. We were 13 when we met, do correct me if I am wrong, you know how OLD minds remember things...Ha Ha :O)

Anyway I hope this finds you well, sassy and still in love with that man you married, 50 some years ago...oh yes Dick...how is he doing? One thing I want you to know "...I often think of you...and hope you feel it" God be with you...Love always and forever...your old friend...:O) Hugs Merle Ann

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Jackwms 5 years ago

A wonderful hub, so real and down to earth. Thanks for sharing.

Jack


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Jackwms...well aren't you the speedie one...Thank You ever so much I appreciate you and your comment and HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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VioletSun 5 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

G-Ma, Don't give up, you can still meet a good mate; we have a friend who wanted to grow, evolve, experience new things, but found herself in a marriage that suppressed her and was in a deppresion, but wouldn't leave her husband of 50 someting years as he was ill and she took care of him. She met a man that she become very close to, and she started seeing him, (yes, even while married, but we don't judge, LOL) and she was nearly 80! Her husband died about 4 years ago, and she leads a very busy life and is nearing 85, making up for lost time, even if her health is not perfect. So go ahead finish your novel and find your dream man. You deserve it! :)

You always write from the heart and honestly, so you are a pleasure to read.

That's my Christmas story for now. LOL. Happy New Year may love and warmth surround you in 2011!

Hugs~


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Kind Regards 5 years ago from Missouri Ozarks - Table Rock Lake

G-Ma Johnson, That was fun to read. Kind Regards


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vietnamvet68 5 years ago from New York State

G-Ma Johnson - Nice to hear from you, enjoyed our little fireside chat, hope you have a wonderful New Year. God Bless


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justom 5 years ago from 41042

Hi Merle Ann. I'm glad you had a nice Christmas. I spent the day after sick. I can't even remember the last time I was sick. Oh well, this computer does make life a bit more fun doesn't it? I'm off to check the rest of the e-mails I've missed for the past couple of days. Talk to you soon Peace and Love!! Tom


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Violet...yes my dear I shan't be giving up, but this was a real letter I wrote, minus a few things...LOL Thought it to be a bit on the jolly side...Thanks for your wonderful words and a very "HAPPY NEW YEAR" TO YOU MY DEAR...oh and I haven't given up on my writing hee hee...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Kind Regards...Thank you my dear ...am glad you saw it the way I meant it...I get so serious and is hard to write something on the lighter side...HAPPY NEW YEAR...:o) Hugs G-Ma


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

VietnamVet68...thanks for commenting , glad you enjoyed it...and a very HAPPY NEW YEARS to you...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Hi Tom, sorry to hear you were sick...ate something that didn't agree, drink too much, or just catch someone's germ??? I reckon you are better now :O)

Yes it was an OK day, not like I am used to but then nothing is like it used to be...hope at least you Christmas day was good, the day after I was a very lazy lady, didn't even get my regular clothes on, hung out in my P.J.'s/nightgown all day long...ha ha that was a great gift...

Ok go get caught up and have a good day...:O) HUGS Merle Ann


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justom 5 years ago from 41042

Not sure what it was but I wasn't drinking. Nothing is like it used to be is it? Sometimes I actually like that but sometimes it's just sad. Christmas was good. take care. Peace and Love!! Tom


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cwarden 5 years ago from USA

This was a great read. I felt Christmas was "unusual" this year as well. I really missed several people that have passed on or moved away - Oh well. I'm glad to see you enjoyed your wine - me too! Happy New Years!


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Candie V 5 years ago from Whereever there's wolves!! And Bikers!! Cummon Flash, We need an adventure!

Hey! I know you! Thank you for the wonderful visit last night! You are one of a very few I truly call my 'dear friend'! Love the part about the sex! Hahaha! You are a hoot! Heck! You're human! No.. that's wrong.. you're an angel and I adore you deeply!


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alekhouse 5 years ago from Louisville, Kentucky

Really nice letter, Merle Ann. Thanks for sharing it with us. I'm hoping you'll stop referring to yourself as old...remember age is just a frame of mind...except for the arthritis, creeky knees, and fading memory...LOL Actually, I was 80 October 9th and still have a great memory. Computer brain games help. I refuse to think of myself as old...just moving into another phase of life. Physically I may be slowing down a bit, but inside I'm still a kid.

Hope the novels are going well...I'm almost finished with my memoir. I'm trying to decide now if I want to try to publish it traditionally or self-publish. Working on your novels will keep your memory in shape, Merle, so that you can finish them. Just keep working. Don't let retirement slow you down. You've gotta "self-start" each morning. It'll become a habit. :=)


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cindizzj@yahoo.co 5 years ago from Northern California

I pray for Bert all the time. She is such a funny one and so loving. Does she read hubpages? You sound like you need to get laid mom!! oops did i say that out loud? sorry


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neeleshkulkarni 5 years ago from new delhi

deeply touched Gma is all that i can say right now.as much as we want life to be ordered and linear with all lose ends tied up it never is like that- we always think and live in tangents of unfinished tasks,unfulfilled dreams and unreachable goals.but the human condition is all about carrying on all the same and snatching unbelievable victory from certain preordained defeat.

Go for it Gma live life, beat the blues- and if you need any help there are these friends all for you.


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

CWARDEN* wine was good,better shared tho...Thanks for commenting...

CANDIE V* yes my dear lady you too are a Dear Friend and I enjoy you a lot...have a safe and HAPPY NEW YEAR..Love you Merle Ann

ALKHOUSE* well my dear lady I know age is a number and actually was trying just to make fun of it a bit...wanting the younger ones to think a bit about what happens when we get old and it is important to admit your true age, I think that is what I am doing...I feel young and do a lot more then some and I play those games also...oh we are both born in Oct. mine is Oct 19th and I just turned 71...sssshhh LOL...I am working on both novel etts? and may get them done after all, going to give it more time in 2011...HAPPY NEW YEAR MY DEAR LADY...:O) Hugs G-Ma

CINDI* yes you said that out loud!!!..Now the world knows.:O) could be a good thing maybe huh??? No she tried FB but just couldn't get into it and I gave her this url address but she is just not interested...My prayers everyday for her...and I sent the original of this letter to her...HAPPY NEW YEAR my sweet daughter...:O) Hugs Mom

NEELESHKULKARNI * yes I am thankful for all my friends here and elsewhere...really I am not as sad as it may appear I am just not very good at being funny, but I tried...You seem content enough...Thanks for commenting and HAPPY NEW YEARS to you...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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justom 5 years ago from 41042

Did somebody really say you needed to get laid? Haaaaaaaaaaaa......oh wait that's not so funny..I do too!! Peace and Love!! Tom


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

hummmm...??? you make me smile thanks !!! bad knee like me huh? :O) HUGS Merle Ann


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Feline Prophet 5 years ago from India

G-Ma, I've said it before - your heart shows in everything you write! That's why so many people love you! Hugs! :)


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Feline...well thank you sweet one, for the nice words and for commenting...seems your heart must be a good one too or you couldn't see mine...HAPPY NEW YEAR...:o) hUGS g-mA


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Shalini Kagal 5 years ago from India

Hi Merle - Here's to a New Year filled with health, hope and happiness! Hugs!


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Shalini Kagal...Hi sweetie and the very same to you HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011...:O) Hugs G-Ma

P.S. love the avatar


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Ginn Navarre 5 years ago

Hey G-Ma, yes I'm the one on the right side of the pic. I too 1.Bring in the wood (excersise) 2. Can't cook for one (chickens get the left-overs)3.wash the dishes only when I can't find a clean one. 4. until they invent a drier that will fold the cloths they might have to stay there.

Still keep in touch with ole lovers (that is the ones that are still ticking. humm-- (they sure don't make them like they use to.)

I keep my mind busy writing and self-- publishing my novels, so gal write them!!!!! (Remember we have been there and done all that.)

I'm coming up on ole #79, never take pills and eat healthy and always wash it down with a good red wine.


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Ginn...Hey too bad we don't live closer...sounds like we are a lot the same and I do like the red wine at least 3 times a week,more if I had the $ but then I could stop eating for 2 LOL...I am working on my writing just in a slump for a while...but I feel the urge returning Thank God..."HAPPY NEW YEAR" dear lady...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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BobbiRant 5 years ago from New York

I can't believe I wasn't here sooner. Great hub, you deserve every good thing this world has to offer. This is a wonderful hub, read it twice as a matter of fact.


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

BobbieRant...Well Thank You my dear,and you are also deserving of all good things, in my humble opinion...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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Happyboomernurse 5 years ago from South Carolina

Thanks for sharing some of your letter to an old friend. It made a good hub and I especially loved the last graphic- so sensual and serene. Yes, we seniors can still be sensual even if we no longer look like the girl in the graphic. (smile)


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

so true... Happyboomernurse...beauty comes from within, so I have been told...:O) thanks for commenting :O) Hugs G-Ma


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cashmere 5 years ago from India

Happy New Year G-Ma.

Christmas and New year were generally disastrous for me with everyone in the family unwell. Thankfully everyone is all recovered now.


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G-Ma Johnson 5 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

cashmere..Thank Heavens for that and HAPPY NEW YEAR to you my dear...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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prasetio30 5 years ago from malang-indonesia

Thanks for writing this. I am glad to read your comment to my latest hub. You always the best my friend. I always be your fan. Have a nice Sunday. I hope we can always keep in touch. God bless you.

Love and peace, Prasetio

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