A Love Letter

Dearest,

It's been so long. I don't know where to start. The beginning would seem the best place, but the beginning of what? We met, became friends, and then you left and were gone. Not all so sudden nor so simple, but it feels that way after all these years, time has a way to disrobe facts of all embellishments and leave reality bare.

Let me get this off my chest first thing, if I don't get it out right away I won't be able to say all the other things I want to say: I could act innocent and say I had no idea, but of course I did. I just refused to acknowledge what couldn't be, and wasn't my problem, and preferred to play along from a place that was comfortable for me. I knew then it couldn't have been comfortable for you, I knew, but I still played along because it was easier and safe. Please, forgive me for that.

There is so much I want to tell you. There are so many things that I need you to know, bleed for you to know... After all these years it's selfish of me to burden you with all of it, but at least this time I'm thinking of you, of what you'll feel when you read my letter. I can only hope you will feel something...

I need you to know I cried an ocean, I shed tears that I couldn't explain, not back then. I cried so much at the loss, but I couldn't say what had me torn, not even to myself, not really. You left and took away the light and the laughter, and I could do nothing to stop it, because you never told me how you felt. Forgive me for never allowing you to. I never gave you a cue, though I knew, I knew. But I didn't want to listen then. You were so right all those years ago. I didn't want to hear it.

Forgive me for driving you away, and then missing you, and then blaming you for leaving. What could I have done, back then? What could we have done? You loved me and I couldn't, not then.

Your leaving was an awakening of sorts –I don't know if I have to thank you for that, I know I hated you then, selfishly and absurdly, because I wasn't in a place where I could have, would have, acknowledged that I missed you, that you where the light I wanted to absorb, the sun that warmed me even when I didn't know that I was cold. It took you vanishing from my life to understand that the light had gone out.

I can't honestly say that cold overcame me, not right then, I had a good life, I had it all, really, but your leaving caused a chasm, a gulf that I didn't understand, didn't want to understand, and didn't want to navigate, it forced me to swim upstream, and I had no use for that back then. So long ago.... It still terrifies me, the notion of swimming upstream.

I'm not sorry that you loved me, I couldn't help that, but I'm sorry that I never said anything, did anything to prevent the cloak of invisibility from driving you away. Maybe that was for the best. You went away hurt but ready to move on. I never did move on, though, I feel I'm still at the bend where we parted, still missing you like the day you left. I feel I've lost so much along the way, your friendship, your laughter, your consistency. I lost all that when I lost you.

I hope beyond hope that you'll forgive me, for the pain I caused you then, and for being so selfish to burden you with all of this now. I must, I can't help it. After all these years I'm finally in a place where I can write and tell you that I miss you. I never stopped missing you.

I hope you are happy today, I hope you can forgive me. Please write, even if it's only to say goodbye again. I need to move on, too.

With all my love.

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Frieda Babbley 7 years ago from Saint Louis, MO

Have you been reading my diary?


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

I have not, honest. Plus I left a box of kleenex down there, just in case.


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Teresa McGurk 7 years ago from The Other Bangor

Gulp. I hope that whoever this is about gets the chance to read it -- it deserves to be read. What a lovely heart you have, mujer.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Hola, Teresa! This is a "response" for the writer of 'Not a Love Letter'. Now, wouldn't we ALL like to know if the writer of Not a Love Letter will read this and then respond?! :-)


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goldentoad 7 years ago from Free and running....

How come it always seems easy to walk away and then be haunted after a couple of steps?


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Yeah, makes one wonder. Sometimes the haunting after walking away is worse that the one staying, too.


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Teresa McGurk 7 years ago from The Other Bangor

So we should stay tuned for next week's episode, eh? This is better than a telenovela!


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Elena--it's BEAUTIFUL!!!


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Teresa -- I could even make it a poll!  Laugh!  SHOULD there be a response... after all these years.... what do you reckon? 

In all honesty, I do know if there was or wasn't a response ;-)  Still, worth asking oneself whether a response would make sense, after all these years.

I'm going to bed, I leave the question here to be munched on, while I dream of unicorns and rainbows :-)


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

PM -- Thank you!  As I just said in my comment to Teresa, I leave you with a question mark:  Should the writer of "Not a Love Letter" respon to this love letter?  :-)  Wish me sweet dreams!


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Sweet dreams!

That's a tough question, though. Between the two letters, volumes have been spoken. Would a response really hasten the moving on, or continue the pain? But without a response, how the reader feels about your soul being placed in the open is left only to the writer's imagination.

You are such a talented and emotional writer, that only you would be able to come up with the words that are still left unspoken between the two, because I cannot think of any......

Thanks for the tissue, by the way!


jjrubio 7 years ago

I love this hub. It is so sad though to know that you are hurting so deeply.

Do you want to know a story? My fiancé that died so many years ago told me that his first wife Jennifer was the first love of his life. He didn't know it all that much back then. He knew he loved her but he was young and stupid. He treated her bad and cheated. She loved him and put up with it for a long time until she moved on and left him.

It took him many years of suffering and sadness. Guilt and lonlieness until he met me. He said I was so much like her and a good girl. He promised me I was his second chance to be the man he should have been with her. We set out to find her and for him to apologize to her for what he did. He wanted her forgiveness. He always told me I helped him, unfortunately he died without having the chance to say almost the very words that your HUB describes.

I searched for her for many years after his death and I actually found her. I told her all he told me. And although she was sad to hear of his death she felt that her love she had for him all those years were not in vain. And I was able to finish what he wasn't able to do. Apologize. We are now good friends.......

Sometimes it takes losing the one we loved to realize how much they really mean to us.....


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas

Wow....great hub Elena and equally great addition at the end jjrubio! That was an incredible thing you did, making sure his ex knew how he felt. I really admire you for that.


jjrubio 7 years ago

thanks KCC...I felt that  it was something I HAD TO DO... through my faith in GOD I beleive I will see him again one day and how could I look him in the eye and tell him I didn't keep my promise. ( when he died he was in a coma for 6 days...I talked to him even though he couldn't hear me but I said I would do all the things he needed to do for him as a promise) He had so much left to accomplish and he wasn't able to. I am proud to say that alot I do now in my life is for him. And I think he would be proud of me.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas

That's awesome, jjrubio! You're a tough lady, and I admire you.


jjrubio 7 years ago

thanks...that means alot.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Proud Mom – Thank you so much for your very kind comment. And very thoughtful, too.  I think there are always world left unspoken between two estranged people, the question is if they are rightly left unspoken or if it'd be better to speak them, for the sake of closure.

Sometimes baring one's soul is a selfish act, sometimes it is altruistic, and sometimes it's an act of self-preservation. The tone of the original 'let-go' letter would make me think it was an act of self-preservation, and that would make me think that there won't be a response to this one. But that's me speaking, NOT these broken hearted not-lovers.  We shall see.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

JJRUBIO – That is quite a story, thanks for sharing.  I didn't know about your fiancé passing away, that's very sad.  What you did was very honorable, I don't know who else would or will feel proud about it, but you should certainly feel proud of yourself.

You are right, of course, sometimes it takes losing who we love to understand that we love them.  Sometimes the realization comes too late, though, because whoever suffers unrequited love is bound to move on.  Taking people for granted is usually a sure way to lose them. We shall see what happens between these two.

 

KCC – Thank you.  Let me tell you, it took quite an effort to publish this in the midst of last night's tampon party-a-gogo!  :-)


Ayer 7 years ago

Hey Leni! If you don't follow up I'm going to have to hate you. And THIS time I mean it! You have been warned! LOL


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JamaGenee 7 years ago from Central Oklahoma

I'm writing this through tears. Beautiful! This hub reads like something Francesca would've written to her photographer in "Bridges of Madison County". You *will* tell us how this turns out, right? Not keep us in suspense? Good or bad, I'll be laying in a supply of Kleenex.


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JamaGenee 7 years ago from Central Oklahoma

Elena, a think a poll IS in order!  Will they or won't they meet again?  Should they even try??


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

JamaGenee  -- What suspense, eh? :-)  Here's the question right back at you: Should they try?  Does it make sense, after all these years? In a Lifetime movie, maybe.  In real life?  Whaddaya say? :-)  Cast your vote, chica! :-)

Jesting aside, THANK YOU, what honor that you're reminded of "Bridges of Madison County". Isn't that the most romantic movie?  Gives me shivers to think of it, and the looks they exchange in that kitchen.  Awwww.  Now, our two letter writers have laid it out on the table.  What will happen next is known only to them.  For now ;-)


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Ayer ... See if I care, honey. Besos dulces y húmedos para ti! :-*


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Pest 7 years ago from A Couch, Lake Odessa, MI

OMG!!! I shared this at my facebook...I hope that is ok...I am so choked up!  I ahve to say NOTHING has hit so close to home as this!

** edit** i re read it...sobbing now! Thanks a lot!

**edit again** I cant read this again.


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

So you've decided, Elena. For now......


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Pest, I'm touched at your reaction. I have to say, I can't think of a most encouraging feedback (with all due respect at all previous comments, nobody go taking me the wrong way now). THANK YOU.


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Pest 7 years ago from A Couch, Lake Odessa, MI

Okay, this Hub has ripped my soul apart, put it back together...and left me feeling naked and vulnerable...OUTSTANDING!!!! ( to see me naked is outstanding of course)


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Proud Mom, I haven't decided..... the writers, lovers-to-be or not-to-be are thinking about it.... I DO know what they are thinking about, though, I admit! There's a poll now, you can cast your vote :-)


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

See, now I have to commit one way or the other. I just can't decide.

The writer will be tortured, I think if she doesn't know the reader's reaction to her apology. But it will drag things out for her, and she is obviously already hurting over her past decisions.

Dang!! I'm going to have to think about it and come back!

By the way, your email last night was so sweet. Thank you!


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Pest 7 years ago from A Couch, Lake Odessa, MI

I am a selfish SOB... I want to know the reaction right away. especially to this ... if you throw your heart out to be picked at then a response would be appropriate...My son says "that is deep man"


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

A sweet email for a sweet woman :-) Shall I add a third option to the poll? "I can't make up my mind"? Yes, I'll do that.

Hurting builds up character, it pains me to see her hurt though, but it was her decisions that put her in a place of being in pain. Life's tough, one should think about that when one thinks of staying in a place that's comfortable in the NOW but that's not really what we want so will make us uncomfortable in future. When we say "who knows what the future will bring" we are right, but sometimes we know right off the bat that we're choosing the easy option NOW that will complicate our life in future. Comfort in present may mean great discomfort in future, but we still choose that, don't we. Wow, that was a bit more philosophic that was called for maybe, 'scuse me, por favor :-)

I don't want to judge them, though. Each took the decisions that made sense at the time of taking them. The thing now is, what makes sense NOW.


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Randy Behavior 7 years ago from Near the Ocean

We Americans tend to like a happy ending. I think the unanswered love letter is sadly delicious though.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Pest, did you read the predecessor to this letter? It was written, in a lot of pain, many years ago. If the writer of "Not a Love Letter" could wait years and years to receive this, I'm sure you'll find it in your heart to wait a week to know what happens next. And "what happens next" doesn't necessarily mean another letter. Just saying... aiming not to raise false expectations :-)

AYER -- This goes for you too, babes --don't think that I'll do as you say. Besitos!


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Pest 7 years ago from A Couch, Lake Odessa, MI

Pain does build character. I have caused so much pain...Here I go... I was in Iraq...the lives i took..poets, dreamers, husbands and fathers. the pain is real, the pain... I am dead. My humor is all I have. I wonder what those families would say to me? A killer, a murderer... sigh I cry a lot


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Okay, so I'll commit to.......there should be a response. But I don't know that the reader would really want to.

See, I'm back on the fence again. Who'd have thought these hubs would have me so emotional? You are exactly right with the comfortable part in your last comment.


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Pest 7 years ago from A Couch, Lake Odessa, MI

I am off to write a hub on this...I dont want to jack this beautiful Hub here.


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Randy--ain't it the truth? I LOVE the movie "Message in a Bottle", but the ending just tears me up EVERY TIME!! I hollar at the TV everytime to not take the last bottle out. But there really wouldn't be closure otherwise, would there?

Pest--the whole Iraq thing. Check your email in a little while.


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ParadigmShift... 7 years ago from San Jose, CA

Damn we love a good soap opera now don't we? "Tune in next time..."

This was a great hub though Elena. Once again. Although I like to think this isn't necessarily a letter written to any one "person." I like to think this is someone saying goodbye to their own innocence. What a wonderfully terrible letter this would be!

"I need you to know I cried an ocean, I shed tears that I couldn't explain, not back then. I cried so much at the loss, but I couldn't say what had me torn, not even to myself, not really. You left and took away the light and the laughter, and I could do nothing to stop it..."

Oh bring back my sweet innocence!!

"Forgive me for driving you away, and then missing you, and then blaming you for leaving. What could I have done, back then?"

Damn the road to maturity is a bumpy one. An uphill battle for sure. Thanks for the Kleenex though. Always thinking about the needs of others. So nice.

"True love is when you love something more than yourself..."


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Randy, you here. First of all, let me kiss your hand. Then, after having been a true "gentleman", lt me say it's only unanswered until now ;-) Like I told Pest, the writer of the original "Not a Love Letter" waited years and years to hear back, so...

Pest – That's tough shit to live through. I'm glad you're here with us, present and account ted for now. Those families, thinking about them and having them in your heart makes you human, but thinking TOO much about them will kill you. You did what you had to do.


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Pest 7 years ago from A Couch, Lake Odessa, MI

PM...okay..My dumb Hub is posted  :rolleyes;


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

PM – Emotional is a big compliment, you know. I know you guys love a happy ending, let me tell ya that's not exclusively American :-) But we've got to think about what makes sense. Funny thing, though, is what makes sense to me might not make sense to you, never mind to our letter writers, they are their own people! :-)


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Pest 7 years ago from A Couch, Lake Odessa, MI

Dammit...I am trying to watch NASCAR! ...


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ajcor 7 years ago from NSW. Australia

Elena - maybe off target here but who is to know if the recipient will actually read the letter (unless that is a given here)- but what if after that person reads and then decides to answer in either a negative or positive manner; how will this affect the letter writers? what long term effect will this have on them? a positve or negative answer - it makes no difference if contact is made when maybe the other person has finally got over the letter writer & is settled and happy at last.

...it could possibly be another instant solution in the *now* with longterm painful effects coming back to haunt them *later* - plus if one person has never got over the other but has managed in spite of all those old feelings of unrequited love - to build a new life with a new person - and that is then screwed up again.......How would the initiator of the letters feel?

all these questions but no answers (which I guess is what this all about!) -  I go with "don't expect an answer to the letter" as the person from long ago could have changed radically and is maybe no longer the idealised person who could be loved as much today....too much water under the bridge ....take care Elena ....cheers

hope i am not pulling the tone down! i just think there are times you just cannot go back, much and all as you may want to...beautiful, passionate and thought provoking writing as always...


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Elena--I can't read the whole question for the poll. I took a guess at how you were wording it and voted likewise.


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Pulling the tone down?!?!! ajcor--you're right there with us!! You make some excellent points!

Pest--my NASCAR got changed to iCarly when the guys left for the feed store. Oh well. I'm too into this letter to really care, anyway.....


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Pest 7 years ago from A Couch, Lake Odessa, MI

dammit PM! I love you to tears! no NASCAR your way either??? well the hell with everything then! Between this Hub and the shit I just posted...I am a flippin mess! snot and tears... WTF????


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Pest, go ON for feck's sake! Go watch NASCAR, then come backand tell us about it... meantime I'll go read your hub :-*

Paradigm – Dang, thank you for bringing a whole new light to this letter! In all honesty, it was not written as a goodbye to their innocence, but as a response to another letter from years ago. Actually, it was written as a realization of what was there years ago that wasn't grasped and slipped though their fingers. Still, the way you read it is WONDERFUL and you are so very right that the road to maturity is a bumpy one! And, to be fair and square, waking up from lost love is so very much part of the road to maturity.

Our good friend Frieda Babbley made me think of "facilitating" some Kleenex here. Can't take all credit for that :-) Dang. The way you read this.... thank you!


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Did you expect all of this when you wrote it, Elena?


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Ajcor – You're asking all the RIGHT questions!! I (as in ME myself and I !!) am asking the SAME questions! Too much water under the bridge is right, I keep saying what would make sense NOW! How would the writer of "Not a Love Letter" feel after getting such a message now? I don't think you're pulling the tone down, I think you're actually pulling it UP!!! :-) Thak you for a thoughtful comment!!


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ajcor 7 years ago from NSW. Australia

thank you Elena! - I will wait for the outcome of this love lost dilemma!....cheers


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Sorry. I should have said, "Did you expect all of this when you PUBLISHED it?"!!!!


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Pest -- I'm coming and going (multitasking is a thing I have a tendency to) and I'm trying to keep up with comments here, so I still haven't read your hub --I've the feeling I'm going to love it when I do. You can go watch NASCAR while that happens, OK? Besos!

Proud Mom, I NEVER know what to expect when I write and POST anything. With hindsight, however, I think this type of emotional writing calls for this type of emotional response. But to answer your question, in a word: NO!


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ajcor 7 years ago from NSW. Australia

thank-you also to Proud Mom for your comment ....


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LadyCat 7 years ago from Somewhere in the U.S.

such a moving letter, touches the heart deeply, tears streaming down my face...memories of painful times and a deep love that lives forever in my heart...my husband who is the love of my life and still by my side. Perhaps I will write him a love letter as a demonstration of my realizations and deep love for him.

Thank you for posting this!

http://hubpages.com/@ladycat


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

On the contrary, LadyCat, thank you for voicing your feelings over it. Go on and write that love letter, so much better writing it when the love is there than when it isn't. Go on, and good luck! And you've got a box of fresh kleenex below the hub :-) Nice to meet you, by the way!


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

"So much better writing it when the love is there than when it isn't."

You should write for Hallmark.... :-))


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Well, I'll be ... ahem... PM.... I'll take that as a compliment :-)


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Well of course, Elena!! I spend quite a bit on Hallmark. I have the stuff to make my own, but I can't ever come up with the great sayings. Maybe I just need to hit you up!!


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Mr Nice 7 years ago from North America

Hola Elena,

I now know what happened, cold or no response was from your side not his. As I said in my previous comment & you realize too that life goes on.

~ Our eyes are placed in front because it is more important to look ahead than to look back. ~

Buena suerte


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Hi Mr Nice! Thanks for the kind words -- I have to say, however, that this is not about me :) It's about out little darling characters that will decide for themselves what to do to/with each other ;-) BUENA SUERTE to them indeed! :-)


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Tom Cornett 7 years ago from Ohio

You should write love songs. Great hub!


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Mr Nice 7 years ago from North America

Hola Elena,

What do you mean? This is not about me. I am lost now. Do you mean it's just your creation. Well if it is so then it feels very real.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Tom -- I don't believe I've had the pleasure until now, so nice to meet you! Love songs... hmmm... wouldn't that be "love done me wrong songs" more like? :-) Any which way: THANK YOU!

Mr Nice: That's exactly what I mean. Both the charaters of 'Not a Love Letter' and this one, 'A Love Letter', are my creations. Having said that, and for you and any subsequent readers of this hub: They took a life of their own once their letters were posted. Your imagination, from this point forward, is as good as mine. And I'll NEVER tell how much of these letters is based on fact :-)


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Benjimester 7 years ago from San Diego, California

Man, this is so beautiful. Thanks for being able to express your thoughts in such a meaningful way.


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britneydavidson 7 years ago from united kingdom

ohhh its hurting.....really amazing....its heart melting...after reading this letter anyone can come back.i dont have words to say.thanx for sharing...


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Benjimester, thank you, I'm glad you find it beautiful.

Britney, do you really think so, that anyone would come back after such a letter? We will see! For now, I'm glad your heart melted :-)


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Cris A 7 years ago from Manila, Philippines

A love lost and an unrequited love are two of the more painful things than death itself. Thanks for exposing your heart like this, nothing is more passionate.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Cris, Golden boy, you and your 50 hub got me to thinking what type of letter I ought to write when I reach 50.  50 hubs, that is! :-)

'twas my pleasure to expose these feelings here, I'm but a messenger, though, the feelings are of these two not-lovers :-*


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Cris A 7 years ago from Manila, Philippines

I know, I'm also big on catharsis! LOL Well now, a very personal and open letter to hubbers should be great. :D


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Yes, I guess it would be great - I wonder if by the 50th I'll have the gall to do it! Laugh


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Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

Elena! This is so overwhelmingly beautiful!

I haven't had a chance to read all of your comments, but in one of them you say, "...the question is if they are rightly left unspoken or if it'd be better to speak them, for the sake of closure."

My vote is SPEAK! Unfinished business, to me, is one of those things that can really weigh down a person's soul. It's the makings of sleepless nights. If there's a chance to talk through the past with someone with whom I've shared an experience that was left unfinished, I am always grateful. And I have too many of those experiences to share in a comment, but each one of those opportunities opened my eyes whether it resulted in me hearing what I wanted to hear or not. Sometimes it resulted in both of us walking away and knowing it was always never meant to be (friendship, love, etc.), but at least there were no questions about how we felt then and now.

You've really outdone yourself this time! Oh, and I've used up all of your tissues. ;)


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sixtyorso 7 years ago from South Africa

Great writing great hub. I detect some true feelings under the soap opera. When My ex left she wrote me long letter which was a catalogue of everything I ever did wrong in 34 years. Talk about remembering and harbouring every event. She either wrote it all down or never forgot. Not a word about what she did or why. Trivial things like working late or a joking comment at a party were were on the list. go figure.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Pam, you are TOO kind. Thank you for feeling it.

Personally, I agree with you that bringing closure is a good thing, it can take a big load off and help with the moving on. Then again, it may not be the closure this letter writer expects or hopes for, after so much water under the bridge (as ajcor rightly pointed out). We shall see. The poll below points to a response :-)

I'll replace the tissues right away!


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

sixtyorso, that's tough! Maybe if she'd TOLD you at the time of stuff bothering her then the outcome would have been different. Or maybe not, but my point is, what lack of joy to harbor so much dislike and never try to resolve it but instead spit it out when nothing can be done. Go figure is right!


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Tom Rubenoff 7 years ago from United States

What a lovely letter. Thanks for the Kleenex. *cry*


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

A grown man crying makes my heart go pitter patter. Thank you for that touch of tenderness :-*


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

I'm raving mad, a dangerous thing at 10 to 7 in the morning. Someone has copied this hub somewhere as now I'm being flagged as duplicate. Duplicate my ass. Appreciate if someone helps find the "real" copy. Thanks!


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sixtyorso 7 years ago from South Africa

This sort of crap seems to be happenning more and more on Hubpages!! It must come to end dammit!


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

You can say that again, sixtyorso! I'm waiting for a response from the HP team. Gotten over the initial fit, but still it makes me mad.


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

I missed it! Someone flagged your hub as a duplicate to someone else's? I'm very sorry to hear that, Elena. Did you find the duplicate? I'm going to go look....


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Elena, do you have a blog? I found this letter posted on a blog signed "Elena".


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Hi Proud Mom! Well, THANKS for finding the copy! I don't have a blog, and maybe someone borrowed this with the kindness of their heart, but then I shouldn't get flagged for duplicate. GRRRR. Can you email me and send me the link? Or update the forum I opened this morning with it, please? THANK YOU!


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

I already emailed it to you, Elena. It looks like a woman's blog, but I can't really tell for sure.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Well, I wouldn't have minded in the least -- provided that they ask, and that I don't get the heck flagged. Anyhow, many thanks PM, I hope to sort this out with the HP team. I'm still not getting any hits aside from my own. Funny that. Will update you on how the drama progresses! :-)


jjrubio 7 years ago

that is BS... I posted my poem I wrote like 6 years ago and some other people were using it on other websites...( I am guessing they saw it via my old myspace blog) but mine was flagged for duplicate too. I fought it and wrote hub pages over and over and showed them the facts and the links to the other sights and told them I wrote it back in 2002.... they removed the flag and all is better.

fight it...this is YOUR HUB and no one elses. Don't let someone have it without a fight.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Hi JJ! What a headache!! I hope the same will happen to me. I only wrote this last week, it's not like I have proof from 6 years back, but then again, whoever copied it JUST copied it too.... so.... well, we'll see how this turns out. Thanks!


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

But they signed YOUR NAME to it. That should be a hint to HP right there!


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

PM, I guess if you're going to copy something, you copy it entirely, name and all :-) But jokes aside, maybe the person is trying to give me credit, like "this was written by Elena". I don't know, you tell me, you've seen the other site. I'll check out the URL when I get your email (still hasn't arrived). Likely after a meeting that I'm heading to now. Until later!


jjrubio 7 years ago

I hope it all works out for you ( in your favor ofcourse!) Just remember, imitation is a form of flattery....so copying your hub was a way of saying the hub was a good one!!! even if it is ethically wrong to copy and it sure pisses me off...=)


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Could be. Where this one ends with, "All My Love,", they've added, "Elena" as if the letter was from you. If you don't get the email soon, let me know. I could post it on facebook.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

PM, I've reported it to HP, and filed a DMCA to the site where this is posted.  Let's see what happens.  I'm still fuming, but what can I do...  ripplemaker also send a hub on reporting duplicate comment.  May use that info if nothing else works.

Unfortunatelly, this may have brought a sudded stop to this impossible love story.  I just may not feel like being ripped off again :-(


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

AY!!!  Just as I posted my previous comment I noticed the message on the top of the hub has changed:

"CERTIFIED ORIGINAL: This Hub has been granted an exception to the HubPages duplicate content penalty"

Yabadabado!  Thanks for your help, everyone!!!


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

You're angry and hurt for what this person has done. Even if they meant it as a compliment, they didn't ask your permission or give you the proper credit. That has got to be frustrating. I am frustrated that people just can't be honest. What would it have hurt to publish the link that they got it from? Dishonesty is one of those things that will set me off like nothing else! But please don't let this be the end of your creativity in this beautiful love story! We've been drawn into it, and are pining to find out what happens next!!


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

THAT'S WONDERFUL!!!!!!

I think we should celebrate!


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

PM, I can see that you're almost as angry as I am, if not more!!  I hate to second guess myself now about posting anything else, I think it will pass in a few days (post venting, and venting aplenty)  but now I am hesitant, I guess it's a normal reaction, eh?   The fact that  my claims were listened to gives me peace of mind.  We'll see about these two not-lovers :-)


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

I think that we will celebrate on the weekend -- weekday doesn't lend itself too much to excess... not when I have to look respectable and presentable the next day! Laugh! I owe you, PM! You were the one to snatch the copy out!!


Amy G 7 years ago

Elena~ That was probably something any one of us wishes we would /could write to somebody from our past. It was beautiful! Now I'm off to read the 'not a love letter' so I can feel like I know what I'm talking about!


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Hi Amy G - Thank you! I hope you enjoy "Not a Love Letter". Personally, I think it's sadder!


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sixtyorso 7 years ago from South Africa

Elena Glad you got that sorted out. Justice is done.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Thanks, sixtyorso!  I'm not trying to get rid of the "duplicate" red flag that still appears in my account.  Also, something that grates is the message I read at the top of the hub:

"CERTIFIED ORIGINAL: This Hub has been granted an exception to the HubPages duplicate content penalty"

Has been granted an exception... geez, how about "this is an original, sorry for having flagged it"!!  GRRRRR :-)


iMindMap 7 years ago

very nice.


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SweetiePie 7 years ago from Southern California, USA

This was a very touching and beautiful letter. Honestly I do not think you should feel guilty if you pushed your ex away, or if your feelings were not as strong. In many relationships one person often feels more strongly than the other, so there is nothing wrong with that. Very beautiful letter.


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Teresa McGurk 7 years ago from The Other Bangor

Phew! Glad I was reading a "Certified Original" hub, and not a knock-off! (Seriously, though, glad you got that sorted out.)


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Hi SweetiePie! Thanks for saying it's beautiful and touching! It's not really about me though, or maybe it is... I'm not saying how much of these letters is based on fact and how much is fiction ;-) Regardless, these letters hold universal feelings, so even if they aren't about me, I'm glad (again!) that they are found touching :-)

Hey Teresa -- aren'w we all glad to find out I'm not a phony letter writer? Laugh! Still have to get rid of the annoying red "duplicate" message on my account, I hope that goes soon. I'm not posting another letter until that goes :)


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SweetiePie 7 years ago from Southern California, USA

Very creative and good of you! You are doing what the best writers do!


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Elena, the poll is showing heavy favor for a response.  Being from the microwave generation, I'm anxious to find out what happens next.  2 years would just KILL me!  So what do we do to help get your red banner removed?  :-)


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Thank you, SweetiePie!

Proud Mom, you make me laugh, and that's good, keeps me young!!! :-) I don't know what can be done, I've emailed the HP team, let's see what they say.  Maybe the red obnoxiousness just goes away in a few hours! THEN I will think about the poll results ;)


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Jerilee Wei 7 years ago from United States

Made me think about how over thirty years ago, I should just mailed that love letter I wrote and tore up. I would love again, but will never know why I let him walk away without knowing and without trying. Great hub!


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Thank you, Jerilee! I know what you mean about wondering what would have happened had you just tried back then. I don't know that there's much use in second guessing our past choices, it's just not possible to turn back the clock, but the brain still wonders, doesn't it?


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Uriel 7 years ago from Lebanon

WOW Elena this is really one outstanding piece of art! It brings some memories of my own flowing back .. LOL.. This is really great and i hope that you made up your mind concerning the reply LETTER lol. Thanks alot for sharing


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Hi Uriel!  Thanks for the enthusiastic comment :-) 

It turns out the annoying red duplicate tag still appears under the hub name and it seems there's nothing much to do about it except take it with grace and style.  I'm finding I'm really not too graceful dealing with it!  Laugh

We'll see about a response.  Patience is a virtue and all that :-)


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G-Ma Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free

I missed it all...Lovely letter, right from my heart...more kleenex please...was ill...but will catch up...ended on a good note though yesssss...G-Ma :O) Hugs & Peace


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Glad you're feeling better, G-Ma, help yourself to all kleenex you need, I keep replacing the box :-)


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AEvans 7 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

That was beautiful Elena and write that article....:)


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Thank you, AEvans! Maybe I will, too! :-)


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ripplemaker 7 years ago from Cebu, Philippines

Why is this lonely tear escaping from my eyes? I need a hug...


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Here's a hug, ripple ... maybe best if you stop reading now or you may end up very sad :-/


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ripplemaker 7 years ago from Cebu, Philippines

I'm okay Elena...thanks for the hugs. I loved reading the letters for it makes me reflect and think and allow all feelings to come. :-) And will do more reading of your hubs this weekend.


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prasetio30 7 years ago from malang-indonesia

thanks for share.I'd love too.great hub


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Thanks, Prasetio :-)


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dohn121 7 years ago from Hudson Valley, New York

One of my favorite movies of all time is "Shakespeare in Love."  If you haven't seen it yet, Elena, then I highly recommend it.  By the end of the movie, Gwyneth Paltrow's character Viola, is heartbroken and so asks Queen Elizabeth (played by Judi Dench) "How will this end?" In which Dench replies, "Like with all things, when love is denied--With tears and a journey."  Great line.


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Dohn, I've seen the movie and liked it very much but didn't remember that line. I feel rather pleased that you remembered it on account of this love letter, thank you!


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blaise25 7 years ago from close to you...

Elena..what can I say, I heart it! ;p

I wonder what happened next...


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Elena. 7 years ago from Madrid Author

Hello Blaise! If you really wonder, then go to my profile page and you'll find to the whole saga there, 4 letters in all, this is numero dos in this unlikely love story. Enjoy!


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World-Traveler 6 years ago from USA

Thank you for sharing your feelings. This is another testimony to the power of human bonding. Most all relationships start with the first hello. From that point on we cannot be sure where it will all end, either in happiness or sadness.


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Elena. 6 years ago from Madrid Author

True, World Traveler, one never knows where stuff may end, from the first hello to.... I love you, I can't live without you, or I don't want to ever see you again, I can't wait for you to make up your mind... one just never knows where stuff may end up, after that first hello.


Hopeless Lover 5 years ago

I need help writing a love letter. He is my best friend and I have so many times a can remember when he has looked in my eyes or almost held my hand. I dream about what it would be like to be his. I believe we should be together. But whenever I sit down to write it the words leave me brain.


Skrollan 2 years ago

Hi Elena,

I hope it was okay to almost write this down word for word to the man I thought I lost so many years ago. He'll read it and if you want to I'll tell you the outcome.

Thank you for this words which expressed all of what I couldn't phrase.


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Elena. 2 years ago from Madrid Author

Skrollan, hello -- I don't know if it's OK or not, you come back and tell me the outcome and we shall see :)

Jokes aside, I'm glad you enjoyed and I certainly wish you the best in your attempt to reconnect. Do come back and tell!


Skrollan 2 years ago

It's me. Just wanted to let you it worked out. We're a couple now.

I am so happy. Wow. :)


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Elena. 2 years ago from Madrid Author

Well, congrats! Guess I at least deserve to get a box of chocolates or something! :D


Skrollan 2 years ago

Well, I guess so. Would just need your address! Let me know. ;)

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