'BABY TEARS'

Every mother-to-be dreams of the day that her little one will arrive. But, then tragedy steps in and that dream is ripped away.  How many women go through this kind of abuse and don't reach their dreams of being a mother.
Every mother-to-be dreams of the day that her little one will arrive. But, then tragedy steps in and that dream is ripped away. How many women go through this kind of abuse and don't reach their dreams of being a mother.

"Baby Tears"

You who had pledged your undying love to me,
said you would protect me from harm, but you harmed me.
Marriage was a game to you, you didn't get it at all
You wanted something different, you didn't let me in.
You took me for granted, you used me as your mat,
You embarrassed me in front of our friends.
know something else, now that I think of it
you became an expert at doing that.

I could not have a life to live and to enjoy,
you watched me like a hawk couldn't talk
to anyone on my street, I felt so like a snob,
I got the chance when you went to camp, to have a little chat
with my neighbor who lives behind our house, I loved that.
You had been very aggressive lately, more bruises I have to hide,
My doctor is so worried, he said just leave the *******,
I would really like to do that, leave that is, I would.

I told my doctor, "I can't go while he is still around",
if he catches me packing a bag, he will be very angry
he will probably knock me to the ground, he's good at that."
I have to wait for the right time, I'm sick of being bashed
I feel like a big punching bag, that sits in the corner crying.
didn't seem to care at all, about the pain you caused,
when you pushed me up against the wall, I felt like I was dying.
A haemorrhage slowly starting, only to become worse.

You didn't seem to care at all, you said you make too big a fuss,
It's just a bit of blood, it will go away or even stop,
You were wrong about that fact, the bleeding didn't stop.
Instead I went to theatre, a very scared mother to be
When I came out of the theatre that night after tea

I was told that my dream was now in tatters, I cried all night through,
My little girl didn't make it, I was very sad indeed.
She was to be my daughter and I was going to be her mum.

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ShadestoShoes 6 years ago

my heart broke when i read this! did you write this? Is it a true story?


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BEAUTYBABE 6 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

Yes I did write it myself and yes again it is a true story, it is my story of what happend with my first marriage. I just was reading a lot about abuse lately, and the idea came from that. I had a difficult time dealing with it, and still do because I couldn't have children after that. I guess that is another reason why I wrote it. Hope your broken heart recovers, thanks for your comment BB.


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Hello, hello, 6 years ago from London, UK

This is absolutely super. You are a marvelous writer. I am so sorry because I just read that it was your own story and it was true. The beginning is also like mine and I am sure a lot of other women. He didn't dare hitting me, although he was itching to do it, because he knew I would call the police. Apart from that he did everything he could to get me and our son out of the house, it was psychological torture he used. I don't know which one is worse.

I am glad you are my fan and I read this marvellous piece of writing. I know you can't get over it but can to learn to live with it and that is better than having him around. All my best wishes to you.


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lorlie6 6 years ago from Bishop, Ca

Wow, Beautybabe. What a powerful and tragic story. I am so very sorry. To be treated that way is absolutely criminal and evil.


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BEAUTYBABE 6 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

Thanks laural,

I was a little hesitant about putting this story forward as I didn't know how I could handle writing it. It is such a very personal subject and because of the fact that it was domestic violence and that has been in the news lately, I thought I would give it a go. I feel better now that I have done it in a poem form, it was easier than writing as a hub.

Thank you for your comment God Bless BB


lyricsingray 6 years ago

That touched me deeply, thank you so much, kimberly


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BEAUTYBABE 6 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

Thanks Kimmy, yes it was a hard one to write, but I feel better for putting in writing now. I have been noticing more and more domestic violence and abuse, so I guess that was part of my reasons for writing it also. I feel very passionate towards women who have been in this or a similar type of abuse relationship. I guess losing the baby, was the icing on the cake so to speak. A very bitter one, rather than sweet. I have been thinking about you too you are in my prayers, as you know. God Bless Kim Beautybabe.


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cojaqmarketing 6 years ago from Carmel, Indiana

Very compelling Beauty...thanks for being brave and sharing such a tragic moment of your life with us. My prayer is that this Hub helps anyone out there that may going through the same thing. Thanks again...

Jeremy


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Tammy Lochmann 6 years ago

Very emotional. Your story should help someone. You survived a monster. I hope that you get some relief writing about this. It always helps me.

Sincerely, Tammy


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BEAUTYBABE 6 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

Thank you Jeremy,

They were very nice comments for you to make about my story.

It is my wish that it does help other women, who have been in this position as well,it seems to be something on the increase. It makes me sad to read about so much of it. BB


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BEAUTYBABE 6 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

You comments are greatly appreciated Tammy.

I'm hopeful that this will help other women, it is a horrible thing to be in this position, and then to lose a baby as well, just makes it that much worse. BB


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Sage Williams 6 years ago

Your poem, has touched me deeply. I am so sorry for the abuse that you have endured. I can't even imagine. My heart goes out to you.

I'm lost for words, you've written this beautifully. Thank you so much for trusting us all enough to share your pain.

Hugs to you,

Sage


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BEAUTYBABE 6 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

Thank you sage,

I appreciate your comments. Yes, it is sad but it is a big problem out there in our society. I hope it does the job and helps some people. Beautybabe.


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habee 6 years ago from Georgia

This is utterly heartbreaking! I'm so sorry, BB.


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BEAUTYBABE 6 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

Thanks Habee for your comments. It is heartbreaking but it is something that needs to be addressed as there is too much domestic violence and abuse in our societies. I have come to terms with it now, I hope that if nothing else it helps other women do the same thing. Beautybabe.


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Faybe Bay 6 years ago from Florida

My brother was lucky, he made it. I don't know if he knows about the abuse, as my mother told it only in a story I read. I have not written it in case he doesn't know.

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