10 lessons I've learned from having PMDD while being in a relationship

Before we begin....

If you're wondering what PMDD is, feel free to read my other hub which goes in to a lot of detail about my experience with Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder. A google search on the term will also yield some helpful information.

Also, once you start reading through what I've learned, you may think "Oh she seems to have it sorted out" hahahahaha.....NO! STOP! It's absolutely not true. Yes, I have a better handle on things than I used to and feel more aware....but I still slip up and am always learning.

Lastly, while these suggestions are aimed at women who have PMDD, a lot of this can be applied to anyone in a relationship. Be it male or female. I do hope you find my many mistakes helpful!

Here we go! Lesson 1: your partner faces their own problems too

When your'e drowning in your own anxiety and fluctuating moods, it's easy to forget that your partner may be experiencing their own inner turmoil.

If they say something like "I'm so tired" or "I feel so stressed" it's quite tempting to respond with "ME TOO!" because that's basically how you feel for half of the month (or more). Instead, let your partner know that they have been heard, by responding with something like "I'm sorry you feel *insert feels* can I help in any way?" and give them a hug. Hugs are nice.

If it's about you all the time, then there will be no room for the other person to feel like they are free to have their own ups and downs too. Get to know what they need when they're down. Do they need space? Or extra affection? See if you can find this out when they're in a good mood, because it's hard to know what you want when you're down.


Lesson 2: your partner can't always respond the way you "need"

If you're anything like me, talking about a problem or how you're feeling is part of healing and feeling better. By simply talking about a,b or c, hearing it out loud can help to make more sense of a situation or my array of emotions.

The thing is though, when we vent to our partner during PMDD times.....it really isn't JUST about us talking (who am I kidding?). We crave a supportive / understanding / comforting response to what we have just said. We want to be heard and understood, maybe even have them agree with us even if it doesn't make sense to them. And when we don't get a response that we feel we so desperately need, it can wreak havoc. Perhaps they make light of your situation by joking around, or act a little distant and distracted.

This happened to me today. I was opening up about an emotional issue (outside the relationship) which was bothering me. He kept giving me short and to the point responses. But what I needed at that moment was "Oh that must be so hard! Oh, I don't blame you for feeling that way! Blah blah blah mushy feelings blah blah" and because I didn't receive that response, I felt hurt and misunderstood. I expressed this, which then made him feel like he was responsible for making me feel better, that he had to say the exact right things. I realised that I had slipped up and apologised straight away for being so unreasonable. Now I'm giving him some space, space is also nice (more on that later).

But then there are times when he DOES respond in a supportive and comforting way, and this is wonderful.

We just have to remember that our partner can't always respond how we "need" them to. It's far too much to expect that of a person. This is where catching up with a girlfriend or socialising outside the relationship can help a great deal. Make the time for friends.

Emergency plan

If you're having one of those conversations with your partner where you feel like they don't understand or aren't responding in a way that you "need", just take a pause in the conversation. I don't mean ignore your partner, just pause. Notice how you're feeling. I often notice that my heart rate has increased and I have a hot angry feeling in my forehead.

Take a few relaxing (not dramatic!) deep breaths and tell yourself that you will have a think about this problem you were talking about, later. That you can think about this feeling or problem by yourself and work out why it means so much for you to feel comforted about this. Know that you are all the comfort you need and that no one else is responsible for how you feel.

Then you can say something to your partner along the lines of "Sorry, I don't know why this problem is getting to me so much. Thank you for listening, but I should probably just leave it for now before I get upset. So....how about that dog wearing a hat over there......"


Lesson 3: know that they can't always be there for you

Just like it's helpful to understand that your partner may not always respond in a way that you "need", it's also great to get a feeling for when your lovely is in their own rut and realise that they can't be there for you right now.

I'm still working on it, but I've gotten better at recognising when my partner just doesn't have room for all the extra emotion and anxiety I tend to throw around each month. He may become distant, or even let me know that he isn't feeling great. So during these times I know not to bring anything too heavy up with him, or expect him to be overly affectionate and comforting.

The times where I've forgotten this lesson and "dumped on" him while he isn't feeling great haven't gone so well, needless to say. But then when he is feeling "lighter" and has more room, he is incredibly open and comforting to all that my glorious hormones have to offer.

If your sweet is feeling crap, then try to be there for them as best you can. In turn, they will be there for you too in time. If it feels like they can't really ever be there for you, then that could be a problem you may need to think over at a time of the month where you feel most levelheaded.

Emergency plan

A good indication that your partner isn't in a good place to be there for you is if they seem distant or uneasy in your company. Or even worse, they may have recently told you that they aren't feeling good yet you're still opening up to them about something you're upset about (GUILTY!).

When you make either of those realisations, just take a pause in the conversation like in the suggestion in lesson 2. Take a few (quiet) deep breaths and say something like "Sorry this is probably not the best time, you might have enough on your mind as it is." and either change the topic or lovingly give them some space. By lovingly I mean not a haughty and huffy "FINE! I will leave you alone." kind of space.

Lesson 4: not everything is about you

Harsh! Sorry, but it's true. When we feel as terrible as we do, we assume that the world is out to get us. Like each little stumble walking up the stairs is a sign from the universe that it hates us very very much.

Not true! The same can be said for thinking that each grumble or bad mood from our partner is caused by us.

It used to be that any time my partner was agitated or stressed, my mind instantly went "Oh no, I've done something wrong again" and I would pester him to tell me what I had done. Occasionally I had indeed frustrated him in some way, but most of the time he was dealing with something outside the relationship. I've gotten much better at not instantly taking a bad mood personally and forcing an explanation out of him, but there are still times I slip up. I'm only human.

This saying always helps me "What someone else thinks of me is none of my business". It kind of releases me of that feeling of responsibility and enmeshment.

Emergency plan

Some great advice from my therapist: The next time they are in an obviously bad mood you can open communication with a general "I feel like you might be stressed, can I help in any way?" which lets them know that you see them. It also gives them a chance to tell you what the problem is or if you can help.

If you're with someone who has a lot of masculine energy, the most likely response will be "I'm fine" which is a sign that this is something they need to deal with on their own terms. This is when keeping busy and giving them time to breathe will benefit both of you. On the other hand they may open up about the problem, so be prepared to actively listen without thinking too much about the "right" things to say.

I can now see that by asking "What have I done?" turns the focus and attention from them to me. ME ME ME! But when you let them know that you recognise that they might be stressed, this puts the focus on them. When you ask if you can help, this lets them know that you are there for them, even when things seem bleak.

Lesson 5: Space *echo*

Just like all of my lessons learned, this can be applied to any relationship. However, with PMDD it just becomes all the more important.

Space. It's simple. Space for you and space for them. If they want to catch up with friends or do something without you, then see that as an opportunity to treat yourself. I SAID TREAT YO SELF! Try your best to not feel hurt by their desire for a little alone time. See it as a way to feel more connected when you reunite, even if the space is for only a couple of hours.

Be sure to make your own plans too. Have lunch with a pal, take yourself to an art exhibition that your partner would yawn about. Doing your own thing gives each of you room to breathe and be your own person. Because the whole "two hearts beating as one" fluff is unhealthy.

Here is another helpful quote: “You must love in such a way that the person you love feels free.” -Thich Nhat Hanh

Not really an emergency plan, just a suggestion.....

Even if you think that you're the type of person who likes to spend most of your time with your partner, think again. If you're like me, there may be times where you may feel as though you're just going along with things that they want to do. Get to know your likes and dislikes. For example, if your partner asks "Do you want to watch this movie full of cars exploding?" and your heart thinks "no thanks" but the desire to spend time with them and a sense of obligation takes over.....then try to listen to that "no thanks" and actually say it, but perhaps with a little more love: "Aw no, I don't really feel like that right now. I might go and read a book." or whatever you would prefer to be doing.

I don't mean to suddenly start saying no to every suggestion they make, it's just more so about doing your own thing sometimes. My partner doesn't seem to feel guilt for when he is honest about what he would like to do, so why should I?


Lesson 6: your idea of reality may be skewed

This can be the hardest part of having PMDD. Your feelings and emotions are of course real, however your reality may be skewed, causing you to react to situations in destructive ways.

Here is a situation I'm sure we've all experienced.

Blurred PMDD "reality": your partner is avoiding you, you can feel it. They get up and leave the room when you enter. Spending time with you just isn't something they seem to want to do lately. In fact, when was the last time you went and did something nice together? They don't love you, do they? They're losing interest fast. This needs to stop. I must bring this up with them RIGHT NOW!

Actual reality: perhaps they have been a little distant, but it's quite likely that they have something on their mind. It's really only been a day or two of them seeming a bit "out at sea", no biggie. We had spent a lot of time together last week, it was really nice actually. Maybe they just need some time alone.

The amount of times that this scenario has happened to me is kind of embarrassing really. But that's the hardest part, it all feels SO real at the time. That desperate panicked feeling kicks in and you throw yourself at your partner, telling them how isolated you feel from them, that they don't really love you, that you're worthless. And then some time passes and you realise how skewed your version of reality was. That things weren't as horrible as you felt they were. If only you had waited out that feeling......

Emergency plan

That's it, you just have to wait out that urgent and frightened feeling. Let it pass. "This too shall pass". The best thing you can do is keep a little journal handy and write down anything which is upsetting you. Anything. This can be done all month long too, even when you feel more level and not so affected by hormones.

And then if there are any issues you have with your relationship, you can open up your journal when you are feeling better and see if you still actually feel as strongly about the problem that you wrote down earlier. If you still feel like there is something to talk about with your partner, at least you are in a much better state of mind to do so. But more often than not, you will think "hmmm, glad I didn't open up that can of worms at the time....not really sure what that was about?"

Lesson 7: think before you speak

I used to have a tendency during PMDD to be a little nit picky, a bit snippy, say things I didn't really mean but were hurtful all the same. As always, this still happens sometimes, but I feel like this is where I have gained most control.

Thinking before you speak is just that. It may seem strange to censor yourself or it may feel like conversations are slower, but it works.

For example, my partner may say something like "Oh I put the garbage bins out today" and my PMDD monkey instantly wants to screech "What, was I supposed to do it or something??". (Why do I even think that way at times?) But I catch that response before I let it slip through my lips. Saying something snippy may make you feel good for one second, but I promise you it will feel terrible another second later.

So just try catching yourself before you say those (not so) little things, because they can add up. Practice makes perfect.

What also helps is trying to complain less in general. It's so easy to feel overwhelmed, that our world has gone to shit. But it can be tiresome for someone else to hear this kind of negativity every 5 minutes. This is where old friend journal comes in handy. You're still able to release the negative energy without draining someone else. By all means don't become some fake goof who never has a bad word to say, just reducing the whining can be beneficial for both of you.

Emergency plan

If you blurt something hurtful out at your partner, don't feel like it's too late, just offer a simple apology. Let them know that you're sorry for saying something so mean, that you wish you hadn't said it in the first place. You're just not feeling like your usual self.


Lesson 8: don't make any decisions about your relationship during bad PMDD days

One of PMDD's most common symptoms is a feeling of depression. Depression sucks the life and lustre out of all the things you would usually otherwise love and appreciate. This includes your partner.

Thankfully this doesn't happen much anymore, but when it did I would start to question my relationship, consider would I be better off single? Are we really that good together?

I have never let him know these moments of severe doubt, but I've come close. If you have voiced these concerns with your partner, don't beat yourself up about it. There's always next time where you can...

Emergency plan

....write it down in your journal. Just make sure it's kept in a place where they won't be tempted to flip through it. But yes, write down these doubts that you have. Be as negative and critical as you want. Ask (your journal) all the questions you need. Make a deal with yourself that you will revisit these doubts at a time of the month when you are feeling more level headed to make a proper judgement. And then wait.

Wait for these feelings to pass. Don't allow them to take over and trick you in to thinking that you have to act on them and make a decision right at that moment. Because chances are that when you get to your "normal" part of the month you will look back and feel relieved that you rode out those urky feelings.

It can also help to muster up happy memories of your partner. Think about the last time they made you laugh, or how the other night they cooked your favourite meal for dinner. It might be hard to find these positives at first, but if you search then you may find something which helps you feel a little bit lighter.

Lesson 9: seek support from outside of the relationship

Relying on one person alone for support during our PMDD times has many disadvantages. The first is obviously that it's not fair on your partner. Just as our moods and needs can be tiresome for us, it can be just as draining for them.

Another disadvantage is that you're missing out on an array of opinions, ideas and experiences from other people. And I find that you can't really beat catching up with a girlfriend for that feeling of connection and understanding between two women.

So, try your best to keep in touch with friends all month long. But I find it especially important to meet up with a friend during times when I feel like I just need to talk out my woes. It's also grounding to hear your friend talk about her own troubles too, not that I enjoy hearing about struggles. It's just comforting to share your experiences and know that you aren't alone.

There are also many online support groups for women with PMDD. If you do a search for PMDD on facebook or google you will see what I mean! There you can bitch and moan all you like, it's quite wonderful really. You will find that the women in these groups are very supportive and reassuring during crappy times. It's great that you can also be a source of comfort too.


Lesson 10: connect with yourself

Connecting with yourself is important for everyone, really. I feel that for women though, this notion is especially important due to our tendencies of being eager to please and feeling guilty all too easily.

What does this have to do with PMDD? Well, think of PMDD as a scared, tired, lonely, anxious and sad "little girl" version of yourself. I know many of our problems are hormonal, but I have found that a lot of it can be managed through practicing my suggestions above and also by connecting with yourself. When you truly know yourself and love who you are, then you are much better equipped to soothe that manic little PMDD girl who shows up unannounced.

There are actually times where I can "split" myself in to two, where the little girl expresses how upset and scared she is. Then, the grown up calm version of myself can tell her that everything will be okay. I wouldn't be able to access my grown up "voice" without first connecting with myself.

Here are many ways I have connected with myself and grown to love who I am all the more. These are just suggestions and I'm sure you can come up with ideas which suit you best.

  • See a therapist: this has helped me in so many ways. It allows me to speak my mind, no matter how "crazed" my thoughts and actions may seem. It has helped me sort through very painful issues from my past. I have gained a lot of wisdom from the different therapists I've seen.

  • Have a healthy lifestyle: eating fresh and nourishing food makes me feel much more level. When I stray too far from eating healthily, I pay for it. Exercise is just as important as it gives you that instant rush of endorphins. Feeling fit and strong can also boost your confidence and feelings of self worth.

  • Have meaningful friendships, nurture them often. Quality over quantity.
  • Spend more time by yourself: take yourself out to a cafe or restaurant, read a book in your local park, see a movie on your own. Keep doing these things until it feels natural, that you actually enjoy this time to yourself. Never feel guilty for it.

  • Treat yourself: a similar sentiment to above, but this is more to do with self care. Things like having a relaxing bath, buying tea or healthy foods you enjoy, having a massage, doing yoga or something relaxing, take lessons in something you've always wanted to learn, eating something indulgent that you may generally eat less of.

  • Listen to your body: if you're tired, have a rest. If you feel pent up anxious energy, go for a walk or jog. Feeling overwhelmed? Sit somewhere quiet and be with your thoughts. I understand there are many factors that can get in the way of this, but try to make the time, even if it's for 5 minutes.

  • Learn your likes and dislikes: I know this may seem silly that as an adult, you would think by now that you know what you do or don't like. Or similarly, what you agree or disagree with. But alas....sometimes I have gone along with an opinion because that's what a friend or someone close to me felt strongly about, but then later in life I have realised "Hang on....I actually don't believe that." The same goes for something as simple as not buying a grocery item that you like simply because your partner doesn't like. JUST BUY IT AND ENJOY IT! You are you and they are them.

  • Do more of the things you enjoy: I'm a very creative person, so I try to keep up these hobbies as much as I can. When I start to feel like I'm losing myself, I do something creative and start to feel more like my own person again.

  • Feel your emotions and feelings, don't censor them: A lot of my suggestions may seem like I'm suggesting you censor yourself. This isn't true at all, it's more so about recognising your feelings and dealing with them in a healthy way. I find that the more I allow myself to simply feel something and give it time to pass, I end up being more level headed. Enjoy laughing, appreciate the slowness of feeling down....knowing that you will feel "up" again. Sit with anger, don't allow it to take over. You don't have to act on a feeling, even when it feels immediate. Forcing a "bad" feeling to go away will only make it feel more intense, let it be and it will pass like waves on a beach.

  • Be your own cheer leader: I don't miss the nights I used to spend wallowing in self pity. Crying for hours on end about what a horrible person I am. Thinking over and over about what I had messed up recently. Thankfully, this hasn't happened for a long time because I have become much more gentle with myself. If I slip up, I may feel frustrated at first, but I don't allow myself to spiral in to darkness. I just think "Oh well, I will do it differently next time". It's also important to feel pride in the things you achieve. You couldn't have done it without you after all!

  • Learn to meditate or simply sit quietly: I haven't spent enough time on meditation just yet, so stay tuned. However, I have been making an effort to sit by a window in my house and just watch the outside scenery. I try not to think about anything in particular, it's about just observing and being. I very much enjoy this practice.

  • Know that you are all you need: It's a beautiful thing to be in love, to yearn for someone and be longed for in return. To finish each others sentences (sandwiches). But to experience true fulfillment in your life, it must come from within. That little gap inside, that wavering feeling of loss doesn't need to be filled by someone else. It's been you all along.

“Find ecstasy within yourself. It is not out there. It is in your innermost flowering. The one you are looking for is you.” - Osho


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April Garner 3 years ago from Austin, Texas

I love your point about knowing yourself - what you enjoy, likes and dislikes. You're right - it sounds very elementary, but I am well into my thirties and am just now discovering a lot of pieces of my own personality. I've recently been dealing with PMDD myself, and I appreciate knowing there are others out there who know what it's like.

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violet-femme 3 years ago from Australia Author

I'm so glad you're learning more about yourself! The more you know about yourself, the easier life becomes.

2 years ago

Both of your PMDD articles are excellent!

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violet-femme 2 years ago from Australia Author

Aw, thank you!

JRG 2 years ago

Wow! You describe and wrote EVERYTHING that goes on in my head! I too am working on getting a hold of my mind during the low times. Exercise DOES help. Great articles. Thank you for making me finally realize I'm NOT alone!

Gem Robertson 2 years ago

I love this blog and the previous one I read explaining PMDD. I am only at 'lesson 5' and you have already totally nailed me - in a good way! - I am guilty of assuming that my OH should always be there for me and when he isn't he isn't being a good partner. This has caused HUUGE problems in the past and we are currently in a stand-off due to a huge outburst on my behalf earlier *feeling ashamed right about now*. I really agree with what you're saying and feel very reflective. I will definitely be apolosing later if I get the chance. I can't wait to read more, and, I thank you for sharing :)

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LisaRee 2 years ago from Saucier, Mississippi

I've been reading for almost an hour now and everything you mentioned is who I am for about a week before my cycle. I will turn 44 in 3 days and for almost two years now I have experienced a week of being someone else. I'm a hateful, jealous (he says), judging, foul mouth, controlling bitch. I spout out the most hateful, hurtful things to anyone who makes me angry or causes me stress. It has started to affect my work almost as bad as my home life. My way of thinking during these times is, if I get rid of those in my house who cause these feelings I will be so much better off. (A 41 y/o BF and a 21 year old, which neither hold a jo). I'm almost ranting...this who I am for a week. My emotions are out of control, I cry and take everything so personal and feel almost hopeless. I'm lost

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violet-femme 2 years ago from Australia Author

Oh you're totally not alone :) It's kind of funny how common our feelings and experiences are, which is a good feeling to realise.

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violet-femme 2 years ago from Australia Author

Gah, sorry you experience that every month. It's like, you know it's happening and that it's hormonal but is still hard to get a grip of. Have you read my other article about ways for treating PMDD? It might help you to take steps and feel more in control.

sarah 2 years ago

Thank you so much for writing this. I was crying as I was reading. I have dealt with every single thing you wrote about, it was as if you were writing about me. I feel so much better knowing I'm not the only one that feels this way.

tiffanie 2 years ago

As with the other ladies, everything you write is how I feel when in the throws of pmdd. It has affected my life since I was about 19 yrs old, I am about to turn 37. I'm single, but keep sabotaging relationships because of the false emotions that occur sometimes when it's really bad. Thank you for sharing with us.

Tara 2 years ago

Thank you so much for all of your words. I left work hours early today because my PMDD and crazy thoughts were so overwhelming. I went to get food and searched the internet for answers, and found your articles. It was just what I needed, and so comforting to be reminded that the crazy thoughts I'm having are completely skewed and will pass soon enough! Thank you!

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violet-femme 2 years ago from Australia Author

So glad it provided some comfort for you :)

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violet-femme 2 years ago from Australia Author

It's not easy huh? I hope you can find love for yourself and then with someone else when the time is right :)

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violet-femme 2 years ago from Australia Author

You're welcome Tara :) and yes they will ALWAYS pass!

Hi 2 years ago

Helpful? I don't think so!

this article is ALL about how you can make your spouse feel better when they've had a long day. That is nothing at all like having PMDD. This is far more serious. It's like telling a pregnant woman to control herself and understand what her husband may be going through.

What I wouldn't give to be this man and simply have a friggin long day versus PMDD.

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Jaxafrass 2 years ago

I feel like choking someone two weeks out of the month! Good strategies here.

anonymous 2 years ago

It feels so good to know that there are other people with the exact same painful problems. I always worry that I will ruin my relationship because for 1-2 weeks, I am a completely different person. I get jealous over silly things (though, luckily, I do not act upon my feelings), I question my worth in my relationship and outside of it, I feel extremely low, and I snap like nobody's business when I feel like my significant other isn't giving my the comfort I "need." Thank you so much for writing something so useful and relateable! Much love.

Charlotte 20 months ago

I actually smiled when reading this on two accounts...first, i totally don't buy things in our weekly shop that I like but he doesn't. Second, i have always felt that I needed to just say yes if he suggested a film that I didnt like the sound of. Until now! I am seeing a counsellow and basically trying to remember all 10 of your lessons on a daily basis. Hard work isn't it?!

I loved reading this. I am wondering what sort of treatment you have for your pmdd? Do you take any medication?

Charlotte. X

Terri 19 months ago

I find myself reading this over again every month when the worst days hit. It's a reminder to me that these feelings will pass and that my perception of reality is very skewed at that moment. I feel it the most in my relationship. We could have spent the entire week together and then one day of what I perceive as him becoming distant (during pmdd times) and I'm contemplating if he even wants to be in this relationship.

Thank you for your transparency and for writing this article. It truly helps me get through the worst pmdd days.

Ann 10 months ago

Thank you so much for taking the time to write the PMDD articles. I really, really needed to read them. I am in such a dark hole but you have shined some light in here. Bless you.

Bran 5 months ago

Thank you for this post... it made everything I'm going through make sence

Natalie 12 days ago

I've read a lot of personal accounts and advice from PMDD sufferers, and although all of them have spoken to me, this article truly makes me feel like I'm not alone in this. I'm currently settling down from a terrible episode with my boyfriend, in which I too felt him become "distant" and started to question if he even loves me - the way in which the thoughts and emotions spiral out of control is really quite startling.

Practice makes perfect. I know this article will be of great help to me every single month and I can't thank you enough.


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