Follow my journey into Internet Dating
I've decided to venture into the unknown world of Internet dating. I'd like to share with you my experiences and observations both good and bad....
I'm actually feeling quite comfortable on my own at the moment. I split up from a five month relationship a couple of months ago. After two weeks of us splitting up, he started going out with a girl I used to teach! She is only 20 (he's 40) and I used to talk to her mother at parent's evenings! I could either have a midlife crisis and lament the loss of the relationship or thank my lucky stars that I got away when I did with such a shallow and vain man. I went for the latter option.
My taste and luck with men is notorious! My best friend tells me it's my 'Heathcliff' infatuation or rather my continual quest to find passion and romance with no practicality! I've always been fiercely defensive about such observations but maybe she has a point? I've always been attracted to the cliched 'Bad boy' which has always ended in tears. I have relented at times and followed the advice of well meaning friends and family. I had a couple of relationships with 'nice', 'stable' men but was bored to tears and couldn't get away fast enough.
My attempts at relationships have been disastrous so far so perhaps I need to move with the times and give internet dating a bash. My first impression has not been a dazzling one. There seems to be a huge percentage of the male population that can't spell, can't punctuate, love football and (this is the worst) love 'going the gym'. Christ, they wouldn't know what grammar was if it bit them on their gym inflated backsides! Am I too fussy? Maybe, but things like this irk me so. It's hardly the grounds for a beautiful and fulfilling relationship!
Perhaps i'm searching for someone that doesn't exist? I'm 40 but don't want children. I've always much preferred animals! It's not like my biological clock is ticking away. I know my own mind and have fabulous friends. I'm not desperate to be in a couple, but would like to share times with a like minded person that knows how I feel. I've been in relationships like this before where I felt fulfilled and content. They have sadly, gone so horribly wrong that for a number of years I thought I was destined to an eternity of singledom.
I went for the affordable option, 'Plenty of Fish' which is free. I realise that I will probably only find a few men I could get on with as everyone is going to pick that site as their first choice. There will most likely be sifting through lots of unsuitable men to find any decent ones! I am out of work at the moment and can not afford a monthly subscription. I don't even know if I want a relationship yet but I don't suppose i'll know until I meet the right person. I like the idea of going out on a date, intelligent conversation, good laughs and just enjoying being out there again.
With some trepidation, I checked my inbox this morning, three messages! The first man was quite dashing, tall and dark and didn't live too far from me but far enough if you catch my drift.
Sighing with relief, I read his profile. My sigh then became one of disappointment! I know i'm a grammar nazi but I can't help it! He said he wanted to 'meet ppl'. Not only is it a rather banal statement. Obviously, or he wouldn't be on here! I loathe text speak, it's lazy. It really doesn't take long to write 'People', shortening everything reminds me of marking endless illiterate english essays whilst losing the will to live!
His message read and I quote, "You have. Beautiful smile." Oh dear, this really didn't bode welI. I don't know why I bothered but I looked at his pictures again and horrified, noticed something even worse than his appalling use of grammar! On two of the pictiures I saw the stuff of nightmares, he was wearing crocs! Crocs should be banned in my opinion, they are hideous. If I hear one more person say 'but they're comfy', I may well explode! There are several comfortable footwear options which don't make your feet resemble storm troopers! I had to force myself to read on.
The second message read 'Hi, how r u?', I didn't bother to read on. The third was from a mature gentleman stating 'I can't believe you like people watching, I like to watch too, It'd really turn me on to watch you!' Can you believe it! My hope for meeting anyone intelligent, with decent fashion sense who isn't a pervert on here is diminishing rapidly! I know it's only been one day but looking through some of the profiles, the horizon is looking rather on the bleak side!
I realise that at the beginning of this hub, I said i'd share my experiences with you both good and bad. There doesn't seem to have been any good points so far. I suppose you get an ego boost if someone finds you attractive but so far, the bad outweighs the good. Snuggling up with my Cats with a damn good book is looking more tempting by the minute! Maybe i'm better off on my own after all......
Copyright © Tara Carbery
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