Heartbleed

When sleeping with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.

What hurts the most is talking to him on the phone like everything is okay.
But then, when you hang up, You realized he didn't say "I love you"... like he used to.

Bleeding Heart
Bleeding Heart

You took a deep breath and saw a drop of water on your hand. You look up above and saw it wasn’t raining at all. Actually, the sun is shining brightly. You look down again, another drop.

Then you realized, your heart is hurting. It’s hurting too much that it made your eyes drop the water-form of pain you’ve just saw.

Then the follow-up question will enter the scene. “Why?”

Why did your relationship fade? Is there something wrong that you did not know? Where did it start? The last thing you remember, it was just an ordinary fight – just a childish win-win thing you always done with him. No more, no less. Then you wake up one day and things change.

You stared across the wide horizon. Will I be okay without him in my life? Will I ever see him in my future standing beside me, for better or for worse? You send him a message saying “i love you” hoping he’ll respond with “i love you more”.

You just stood there, tears still flowing through your eyes on that phone call. And you wished that everything is just a dream, and when you wake up again, things will be back to normal.

Or should you say he’s back to being him – doing all the things you loved to do, whispering sweet nothings and always reminding each other that love is always there.

You remembered his hugs when you were sad, and now you feel empty and alone, as if all that matters are gone.

You feel that he’s not there anymore to block the sadness you were feeling. His laughs and smiles that melts your heart were now missing when he looked at you.

You tried hard to remember the turning point of all the things that is happening to your relationship right now. As far as you know, you always remember him every second of the day.

You always tell him you love him even if he doesn't respond anymore like he used to do. It hurts very badly but you just hide it with your fake smiles and fake laughs as if nothing’s wrong.

You wanted to let him miss you too but then, he’ll get angry again and your fight will start all over again. How you missed the real him.

You didn't realize that your tears were now overflowing. It stains your pretty dress he had bought as a gift. It hurts to think of the good ol’ days when your love is still on its fullest.

You looked at your phone to check if he replied. None. You refreshed it. None again. So you think that maybe he didn't saw it or maybe he’s busy.

You just make up reasons for you not to shed tears again. But as much as you forced your heart to be numbed, you just make it so vulnerable to pain.

So there. Wipe it now and go home. Maybe he’ll send you the “i love you” later on...like he used to do.

You slowly walked home with the big pain on your heart. You keep saying that things will be alright tomorrow. Maybe much better.

And until sleep overpowered you, there’s still no response on other side of line...


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Esther Earl 4 years ago

You're full of words some can't clearly said especially if one's heart is badly hurt! I wonder if your heart was ever broken?

Our experience always taught us some lessons that help us mold to a better us! I wish you will soon find your true and unfading love but as Alfred Lord Tennyson once wrote, "its better to have love and lost than never to have love at all". Not letting our failures hinder us from searching our happiness and success.


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rahul0324 4 years ago from Gurgaon, India

If you have felt heart-break friend then I am sorry for you! This piece is moving! I have been there, faced it all... Being a man I have wept.. hidden in my own loneliness...

Heart-break is painful.. the most painful thing some one can face... There is a literal pain in the chest when it breaks

Moving piece!


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kj force 4 years ago from Florida

Sad..BUT..True..the word of any relationship don't always

come easy, but the actions scream out. More often than naught one partner grows,moving forward, while the other is content to merely exist.We may still "love" but we are not in " love"..so they drift apart. Like anything worthwhile in life, we must put in effort..married 52 years,we still say thank you,please,sorry,pardon me, love you..and " Whatever I'm Still Here"...Great hub !


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. Painful words but lovely. It's always tough when relationships are one-sided. One love too much and one too little.


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tobusiness 4 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

It feels like you'll never be whole again, you see him every where, but no not him it's someone else. Every soppy love song, every place you used to go, every where you look there are lovers, just like you used to be.....But the pain will fade and you will love again. You've captured the pain of love lost, perfectly. Voting up and beautiful


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Vellur 4 years ago from Dubai

Heart breaking. Beautifully expressed, sad though. Voted up.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Thank you all for the comments and for the kind words. It helps me overcome my sadness. It's enough that someone cares to read what i have written and relate on the pain i am going through. The nice words you left on this hub will forever stay in my heart and I will always remember that there's still hope and there's still tomorrow for everything.Yes, i see him everywhere, everything around me reminds of the 'once upon a song'.

Blessing to all of you and thank you soooo much.

@Esther Earl, Rahul, KJ Force, Gypsy Rose, Vellur, Tobusiness


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Krowie 4 years ago from Phils.

This is sad..Unknown spy, you made me cry on your hub. This is not an easy relationship you are going through. I hope one day your broken heart will be healed.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

it's very hard though waking up, finding that things change..wow..pain is ripping your soul. but things will get better eventually.


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Rosalinem 4 years ago from Nairobi, Kenya

You Write so well that the emotions can be seen, the pain is so immense that I was a afraid for you.Voted up and awesome and beautiful


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Olde Cashmere 4 years ago from Michigan, United States

Heartbreak from a relationship can be one of the major hurdles in life in terms of its emotional impact. It usually effects the many layers of who you are and blankets everything in sadness. The fact of this situation however is that you can count on one thing being an absolute truth, time heals. As time goes on, and the months continue into years, that heartbreak transforms into a pivotal life lesson, that you move on. It proves you are capable of striving forward because that is all that life can do, and that is what we must do. I know the feeling, best wishes to you. Beautiful writing unknown spy. Voted up, beautiful, and interesting.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

@Rosaline,thank you for the kind words. yes, i can also see that the pain is so immense in this hub..just don't know how to hide the things that needed to fake :)

@James..it really affects all the things around me and covers it with pain and sadness. You know the feelign that 'you are both in love' then the next day, you wake up, you see yourself alone and love is fading away. Taht all the things you used to do and say were now gone. That each time you tried to break free and start again, it just makes your relationship more prone to slip..Then you will say, how can I fight, how can I save this love If I'm the only one fighting for it?.


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snowdrops 4 years ago from The Second Star to the Right

It's so sad...


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

yeah.. :(


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MsLofton 4 years ago from IL

Beautiful! I can definitely relate to this poem.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Hi MsLofton.. thank you for reading :)


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madmachio 4 years ago from Kansas

Sad and true. Good hub!


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Lot Rillera 4 years ago from Philippines

this is so sad unknown spy, maybe he's not the right guy,,,in the right time you might find the right one !


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Thanks Madmachio..it's reality, sad to say.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Hello Lot.. maybe we're having a hard time right now, dealing with problems but i know, tomorrow will be a much brighter day.


Guest 4 years ago

This is very sad and touching story that happens everyday.


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snowdrops 4 years ago from The Second Star to the Right

A bleeding heart... time will heal all your heartaches!


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

Oh my can i relate to this hub...the pain we go through losing someone like that we love hurts so bad..and you described it so perfectly...blessings my friend...debbie


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Thank you Debbie..hurt hurts..and its very painful.

Take care always, God bless!


Patrick Collier 3 years ago

It was like reading a page right out of my life about a love I once had.very moving


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unknown spy 3 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

most people experience this thing especially teens who got their heart broken by a wrong person.

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