He Lied... and She Believed

I know I have a heart because I feel it breaking.


I've written this poem to remember that once upon a time, I've known a beautiful young girl with a broken smile. Nobody knows why she cries or even why she has those scars upon her wrist.

s [HE] be [LIE] ve [D]

She used to dream of a true love and found it on him. Then one day, destiny greedily changed its mind.


I've been there for her, through her painful battle of saving her shattered heart; picking up all the pieces and finding a way to make it whole again.

And everytime I asked her "How are you?"

She will just laugh, then smile to hide the pain and say, "I'm alright, it only hurts when I breathe."

It's funny how fake a smile can be... and no one would notice the pain that lies beneath it all.


I’m tired to love him
He just let me bleed to death
Silence speaks it all.


I’m tired to fake a smile
A laugh and a cry
For I’m no longer me.


I am no one
A meaningless form of memory
Cradled on the dark.


I’d like to stay as a secret
I’m tired to be seen
He’ll just hurt me again.


I’m tired of his promises
Broken dreams and lies
Void of color.


I’m tired to be hurt
Tears that are endless
Pains that overflow.


I am unloved
In silence I fought it all
No one really knew it.


I’m tired to be visible.


If only...


"Sometimes I wish that I had never met you, so I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there."



"There are some hurts that you never completely get over. And you think that time will diminish their presence and to a degree it does, but it still hurts because well, hurt hurts. And as we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe. It's not that we don't want to, but too much has happened that we just can't."


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snowdrops 4 years ago from The Second Star to the Right

Amazing..amazing poem!! the hurts and pain are really visible on those lines.


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland

=( The pain of a broken heart is a pain like no other. Your friend will start to feel better over time and she will move on and find happiness with someone else when the time is right. You're a great friend to be there and offer your support.


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yaswanthk 4 years ago

Don't loose hope buddy....Remember your born to live. Don't live because you are born!.....Don't go the way life takes you...Take the life the way you go....


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FixingBreakup 4 years ago

WOW...Great poem. A broken heart is the most tramatic thing to go thru...I have found the only cure is time!


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prettynutjob30 4 years ago from From the land of Chocolate Chips,and all other things sweet.

This is very sad and beautiful great hub voted up.


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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

We all hide behind walls, not showing others how much we hurt....you have captured this beautifully!


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tammyswallow 4 years ago from North Carolina

This is beautiful. "Silence speaks it all..." This poem shows us that so much can be said in silence. Sad, but stunning.


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CrazedNovelist 4 years ago from Hampton, GA

I relate to this completely. You lose hope because of past disappointments. It happens, ya know. Sometimes it's nearly impossible to bounce back.. *sigh*


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tobusiness 4 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

Love the proverbial double edged sword, pain and ecstasy. Beautifully done.


Janhorner 4 years ago

Love is a peculiar thing. A truly broken heart can make a person so ill and depressed. Time heals. A helping hand and good friend can piece that broken heart back together again. Lovely poem Unknown Spy your words spell this out very clearly.

Always good hubs from you.

Jan


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josh3418 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

M,

This was an excellent portrayal of the sad truth about how we oftentimes hide our hurt. Thanks for this powerful and emotional peace M.


azlan7 4 years ago

Please dont worry,one day very soon,he's going come and give you a big hug,an make sure the promises and dreams come true..:)god bless..you are an excellent writer..hats off to you:).


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bravewarrior 4 years ago from Central Florida

Another great poem, Spy. I especially like the creative way you re-state the title.

I agree, sometimes emotional pain is so devastating, it physically hurts, we feel ashamed and just want to hide. But we do heal. We're amazingly resilient.


Larry Wall 4 years ago

The poem is beautiful and full of meaning. The message I get that for love, there must be mutual attraction, trust and respect. It takes all of that and more. If only one part of the couple is willing to make that commitment, then the relationship will never succeed. It may hurt, but at some point, you just have to move on and try to find new distractions or a new companion who is willing to give as much as you are.


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writer20 4 years ago from Southern Nevada

I hide behind a smile; like today when I'm feeling so low.

Voted up and awesome, Joyce.


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Ryem 4 years ago from Maryland

There is so much power in your words, I just felt my heart break. This poem is too good.


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ESP1983 4 years ago from Tampa, Florida

I have to say that some people just can't see how to get over a sentimental issue such as ending a relationship if it is not replacing that person with another. I understand that people may have to deal with a time of healing after a split from a relationship, but "finding someone else" is not the cure, because then it means your value of life depends on other people, and that, in my opinion, is not having a healthy self-esteem. It's hard but the solution to such issue is to find happiness in the value that oneself can have. As long as people continue to adapt the mindset that a broken heart is only cured with love with someone else, the person will never discover the true cure to not suffering for the sake of romantic love.


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kashmir56 4 years ago from Massachusetts

Hi my friend M. a very awesome poem, the sad thing is there are many people walking around with broken smiles .

Vote up and more !!!


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TToombs08 4 years ago from Somewhere between Heaven and Hell without a road map.

Nicely done, Spy. You captured the heart and soul of these feelings exceptionally well. I think, however, if more young girls practiced the art of self-love, they wouldn't fall into this trap. Then they would be strong enough to move on and find the one that is perfect for them and not make them feel unloved. It took me more years than I care to share to figure this one out. VUM. :)


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aviannovice 4 years ago from Stillwater, OK

Love seems to be one of those things that we must try to attain. Sometimes we fail, but sometimes others are lucky on the first try. Giving up is not a good thing to do. It is better to allow time to heal in any way possible.


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Pamela99 4 years ago from United States

This is so sad and beautifully written, spelling out those painful feelings that happen in that type of situation. We all have to find a way to move on from those major hurts that happen in life, but it's not easy. Up and beautiful.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

thank you snowdrops.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

hi ardie.. thank you for the message.. she's already moved on and happy now.. :)


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Yas, thanks for the comment :)...Take the life the way you go.... Cheers to that!


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Fixingbreakup, thanks..time can heal heartaches!


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

hi Pretty! thank you for stopping by.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Billy, thank you sire for the great comment.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Tammy..you're so kind.thank you for the message.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Aubrey..thank you.. well, we need to bounce back everytime we are thrown away by disapointments :)


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Thank you Jo for reading.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Hi Jan./.thank you for reading. and for appreciating my hubs :)


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

J, thank youmuch for the support! as always!

Azlan, thanky ou for reading!!! and glad you came back at the site.

Bravewarrior, i always smile when i read your messages here. hehehe amkes my day.

Larry, as always, thank you for reading. and your right, love must not be a one sided love affair :)

Joyce..ohh dont feel so low..

"sometimes, its better to fake a smile than to explain why i cry."

Ryem..thanks pal!

ESP1983.. thank you for stopping by. maybe some people find it much comforting moving on with the help of a new love..i dont know..mybe for some, it will only take time before the hurts will be healed..

Kashmir, thank you much friend!

TT, great to see you..love just happens..hehehe

Deb, thank you..when we get hurt, its better to allow time to heal the pain..

Pamela..thanks you my dear..it happens everyday..love and hurt..


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Mhatter99 4 years ago from San Francisco

A 60 year old man says you are right. if it is any consolation... though I got better, I remember every heart I broke.


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rajan jolly 4 years ago from From Mumbai, presently in Jalandhar,INDIA.

There is so much pathos in your poem. Life is a vehicle that moves on and these incidents are just stops on the way, not full stops. We might linger for little or more time at these stops but will move on.

Up, beautiful and shared.


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Jenna Pope 4 years ago from Southern California

Some hurts never go away. Beautiful poem. Voted up.


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old albion 4 years ago from Lancashire. England.

Hi US. Another lovely poem, life can be such a trauma.

Graham.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Mhatter99, heheh you're funny..

Rajan, thank you friend!

Jenna, nice meeting you, thanks for stopping by and for the votes

Graham, hi friend..thank you much :)


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

Time is a wonderful healer. May she find true love and happiness. Lovely write.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Hi Ruby! thank you for stopping by!


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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

My heart is breaking just reading your poem! I don't even know what to say. You are right in a way - the hurt never goes completely away - but she must never give up. Life has a way of handing her good surprises, too. I can only tell her from experience that we do get our hearts broken along the way, and yes some people will lie to us, butI hope she does not to get too jaded toward life. I just know there is happiness on its way to her. It may take a while, but it will come. In the meantime by writing this poem you are bringing joy and beauty to us through your words, and perhaps it will help her heal a bit to read this. Thanks so much for sharing!


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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

My heart is breaking just reading your poem! I don't even know what to say. You are right in a way - the hurt never goes completely away - but she must never give up. Life has a way of handing her good surprises, too. I can only tell her from experience that we do get our hearts broken along the way, and yes some people will lie to us, butI hope she does not to get too jaded toward life. I just know there is happiness on its way to her. It may take a while, but it will come. In the meantime by writing this poem you are bringing joy and beauty to us through your words, and perhaps it will help her heal a bit to read this. Thanks so much for sharing!


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Julie DeNeen 4 years ago from Clinton CT

A broken heart is such a common trauma among humanity, but each time it happens- it is excruciating. Beautiful.


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teaches12345 4 years ago

Very touching poem. It is so painful to have loved and lost, only time heals the broken heart. Beautifully expressed.


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Cracknutcase 4 years ago from India,bangalore

Sad and touching! I could feel the pain through your words. With time all wounds heal. Believe me I've bin there. But until time runs its course a broken heart has to endure the excruciating pain.

Take care


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thelyricwriter 4 years ago from West Virginia

US, another great example of your talents my friend. Love the beginning:) Great poem and many times true. Love can bring the greatest joy and it can also bring the greatest pain. It is amazing how people change over time. This was very heartfelt as I have walked those shoes before. Voted up, awesome, and beautiful. Shared on twitter. Hope all is well and good, take care.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

@Suzette, Julie, Teaches, Cracknutcase, Lyricwriter,

thank you all for the votes and shared and all the wonderful messages. God bless.


micblue 4 years ago

love and pain are partners. when you love, expect pain to follow. nice poem unknown spy.. voted up!


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tsarnaudova 4 years ago from Sofia, Bulgaria

There is no cure for a broken heart. Time passes by and the pain is still there. It might be blunt but is there and the heart always remembers.

That was beautiful and desperate poem, unknown spy.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

hello tsarnaudova! how are you? thank you for reading and for the message.


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shiningirisheyes 4 years ago from Upstate, New York

I so appreciate the honest in this work. I get tired of people stating that time heals all wounds. No - it does not. Not all wounds. Some pain and loss are just too deep.


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Movie Master 4 years ago from United Kingdom

Yes hurt 'hurts' I so hope she finds love again without the pain....

Beautifully written, voted up and shared


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Hi Beckie.. thank you.. i think you're right..some wounds are too deep that everytime you let time heal it, it bleeds once more. Thanks for the message.

Lesley, your wonderful. thank you for the nice comment, for the votes and shared.


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Midnight Lights 4 years ago from USA

Great write but seems incomplete. From the comments she's happy now? Maybe add that to this so we can all get a "whole" picture, and maybe tell how she finally broke free?

My favorite part was: "Sometimes I wish that I had never met you, so I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there." So many times I myself have had that same thought. But when I do get to that point, the terror walks back into my life.. he will NOT leave me alone.. (we have kids..) I can't wait for the day they are grown so I CAN do this forever!


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Thank you Midnight Lights. yes, she's happy now..i did not include this part because its another story and another life for her.. i just pen the part of the past sadness with a man she used to love..

Thanks, and may God bless your family.


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dwachira 4 years ago from Nairobi, Kenya

Awesome, touching and very true, voted up and shared


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mary615 4 years ago from Florida

What a heartbreaking poem! It's beautiful, but so sad. I've had a broken heart, and I know the real pain it causes.

I voted this UP, and beautiful and will share.


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prettydarkhorse 4 years ago from US

its beautiful!


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Dwachira

Mary

Prettydarkhorse

~all my thanks to you friend for reading and the votes and shared :)) thank you much!


Ghaelach 4 years ago

Hi M.

I think it has all been said in the comments before mine, so I'll just say you've written a beautiful poem.

LOL Ghaelach


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Thanks Ghaelach.. You're so kind.


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kj force 4 years ago from Florida

unknown spy...sad, but the truth being the raw pain in life is that of turmoil which seperates living vs existing....this negative experience must exist in order to move forward, making us stronger and able to survive this world....Very well written and obviously from the heart....


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Hi there KJ, it's always a pleasure seeing you stopped by on my hubs. you always have the wonderful messages full of insights.


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Made 4 years ago from Finland

I love this. I can so relate. Beautiful poetry, beautiful layout and photos. You are a true artist.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Made, thank you so much!


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CarlySullens 4 years ago from St. Louis, Missouri

The emptiness and void is being pushed and pushed beyond it's limits. Sometimes people get so pushed back on the inside they forget how to reach back out or let other's reach in.

Sadly, beautiful.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

hi again Carly..oh you're so kind to stopped by. You're very right Carly.


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Maria Cecilia 4 years ago from Philippines

whoa, I feel so jealous reading your works really.... you seem to have power in your words..... well about your friend it will pass....LOL even if without a replacement yet, it will pass...I believe even if he is the last man that you fell in love with, it does not mean he is your greatest love.. LOL I sound defensive.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Hello Maricel. Your message is flaterring.hehehe thanks much. and yes, you're sooo defensive.hehehe, i smell something fishy. lol


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Cathleena Beams 4 years ago from Lascassas, Tennessee

Time heals such wounds, but I do remember feeling this kind of pain before. Very well written. Voting up and sharing this one!


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

thanks cathleena for the read, shared and votes!

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