I Had Dreams

 

Standing together, we got the look

A passing glance turns into a stare

Ordinary no, not by the book

I had dreams you’d always be there

 

Sitting together, little time we took

You asked me to show you I care

Caution my way, your hands shook

I had dreams you’d always be there

 

Laying together in our private nook

Now in the present is what we share

Pleasure a contract that I mistook

I had dreams you’d always be there

 

Endowments unearned held the hook

Our bodies joined, mistaking a pair

Silent stealth, your leave you partook

I had dreams you’d always be there

 

Moved by you,  powerful Chinook

Cold days now, your silence I bear

All is quiet, but for you I still look

I had dreams you’d always be there

 

 

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epigramman 5 years ago

...well I've had dreams that I'd meet someone like you - and the reality, they say, is poetic miracles do happen ..... at Hubpages!!!!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Back at ya, Epigramman. I love this community! It is so supportive and generous.


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epigramman 5 years ago

.....and Amy you certainly have a masterful command and poetic grasp of your very own unique language.

There always seem be an underlying tension to all of your work which causes a cerebral ripple in my mind to think a little deeper - just go a little farther and be able to understand just what is going on in the complexity of your work - and I always come away with the immense satisfaction that I did!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

You are a brilliant man, Mr. C. I like to keep my pieces minimalist as far as the message, but I am very tickled and extremely happy that your comments tell me you feel the tension and what lays beneath is more than strictly surface value. I don't believe any less would keep you interested. So, you inspire me. Thank you for that.


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drbj 5 years ago from south Florida

I wouldn't dare get in the middle of this fascinating and adoring back and forth repartee. But I will add my voice - you rock, amy.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

drbj, and I adore your voice. I look forward to your comments, not only on my site, but all that I see. The comments are sometimes as entertaining as the hubs they speak to. They are very telling. I always appreciate yours.


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Just knowing "they" would be there is comforting- even when they aren't. Pretty piece Amy! Thank you Dear!


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BobbiRant 5 years ago from New York

Yes, maybe 'they' aren't always there, but we sure are. How could any of your fans here walk away from such a delightful person as you are? Impossible for us to ever do. One door closes, another opens in life. Lovely, lovely poem, this brought a tear to me. So sweet.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Really good observation, Mickey Dee. For a time, I "denied being in denial"; searching for reasons, thinking of all the possibilities for excuses, when the bottom line is we make time for those want to see.

Since he was aware of upheaval in my life, I think the word "man" is being generous. Thank you for visiting. Great comment!

Dear BobbiRant, I think I got so accustomed to so little in a relationship and I was at such a low point in every aspect of my life, that the physical attraction and admiration he had for me was enough. I was so grateful for his attention I was willing to accept what he could offer with no demands. I trusted his words and believed he really cared for me. His silent disappearance, truthfully, during the most personally traumatic time in my life, which he witnessed, is almost too much to bear. It is difficult for me to believe so many "bad thing" can happen to me circumstantially and not feel there is something inherently wrong with me. Honestly, there are times I look at my sweet companion, my pup, MacGregor and say, "You poor little guy, I bet you'd leave if you could"." This is just self pity as my dog is well loved by me, but I do have to talk myself out of being overwhelmed by negativity some days. Thank you, BobbiRant, for being so kind. I always look forward to hearing from you as you have such great compassion and insight. When I say that the friends I have made at the hub are my lifeline, I truly, truly mean it.


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A.A. Zavala 5 years ago from Texas

A beautiful lament to shallow love. Thanks again for sharing.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Augustine. Beautifully put. Now, I need to put it to bed, as I've given it an undue amount of attention already. Thanks for your insightful input.


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vietnamvet68 5 years ago from New York State

Amy my dear try not to dwell on those bad times of the past, look forward be happy and enjoy life as it has so much to offer, sometimes it takes us a couple times around the block to find the one that is meant for us. God Bless my dear friend I hope you find the Peace and Happiness you deserve in life.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you vietnamvet68 for your good advice. Sometimes when I least expect it, something will remind me and I'll have a bad day. For the most part, I'm A OK. Life is a cycle and we all get doses of the good with the bad. Thank you for your good wishes and Merry Christmas to you!


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Bel Marshall 5 years ago from Michigan

Sometimes just saying the words and recognizing that something or someone is not as they had seemed is the beginning of moving on.

Wonderful piece Amy.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Bel. Your words are true. It is a process. I appreciate your understanding and your kind words.


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pennyofheaven 5 years ago from New Zealand

Wow this is excellent! A dream unfulfilled is a lesson learned well. Loss is not always the nicest way to learn lessons but it is certainly the most powerful way to remember. Love your poetic voice!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Well said, pennyofheaven. You are 100% on the mark in saying, although unpleasant, I will forever remember it. Definitely a more painful and powerful lesson than the sum total of the man (and I use that term loosely in this case)! And with that said, I'm fine. Thank you very much for your excellent commentary.


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Christopher Price 5 years ago from Vermont, USA

It's almost unbelievable when someone you trusted with your love tears the heart out of your chest, drops it to the earth at your feel, wipes their hands on your shirt and walks away without a backwards glance.

Been there.

Hurts like hell, but sure makes good fodder for fine poetry.

I like this one very much Amy. If you want to compare notes on surviving cardio-castration you know where I live!

CP


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

You give me way too much credit, Christopher, because my gut never fully allowed me trust him, but my heart galloped ahead, out of control, hard to reign in and ultimately, if blame is the name of the game, it's mine. In retrospect, if I had walked away when I thought about it, I would have been left with self respect and honoring myself, rather than giving the power to a shit bum. Live and learn. I've forgiven myself and will move on...carefully conscious. I will take you up on your invitation. Thank you


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tonymac04 5 years ago from South Africa

How we let ourselves and others down so often, and leave great big gaping wounds. I trust you are going well with your "carefully conscious" way!

Love and peace

Tony


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

tonymac04, that's the exciting part of life...no matter how old I get, I've still have a lot to learn, meaning I'm still alive and kicking. A wise friend told me "it's a process". I didn't look at it that way and beat myself up over every mistake, but that is defeatist. Now, I look at each error of my ways as one step closer to getting it right! Thanks for reading and peace and love to you, tonymac04.


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sligobay 5 years ago from east of the equator

Expectations often lead to disappointment Amy. I'm glad that you've found that life is a journey; not a destination.

Great poem and perfect form. "Partook" was a challenging and interesting rhyme. Gerry


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Gerry, you never miss a thing, my friend, and are the greatest of observers. You always make me think. Thank you for not allowing my brain to go stagnant.

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