I Found My Fire in Hawaii

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It was my place of love

Of freedom and laughter

A special place

Where things become

Forever after

Orchids in the morning

Laid down on the pillows

Smells of tropical flowers

In the breezes by the ocean

Blazing torches filled the night sky

Everything was so beautiful

It woke up a spirit in me

Black volcanic rocks glistened

In the sun

A conch at sunset released a streak

Through the air

The sun's rays brought light

To the world around me

A goddess was awakened

And sprang to the air

Filled with fire and passion

And an intense love

Out of my sadness

Disillusion and pain

Came a strength I've

Never seen before

Pele watching out for me

From a gorgeous paradise


When I was eighteen, I was struggling with a lot of things. I was in a two year relationship with my first boyfriend, my first love, and it was ending. I was devastated. I was really in love and he became a drug addict at the end of senior year. He turned into a different person - a monster. I was struggling with what to do. He was my best friend and I didn't know how to handle everything that was going on around me. I thought we were going to get married and instead everything was falling down on top of me.

It was supposed to be the best time of my life. I was graduating from high school. I got into a great college and was going to start in the fall. He hurt me and my spirit so much during that time. I ended up graduating and that summer went on a two week trip to Hawaii which saved me. Something spiritual happened there. It's like I woke up from a nightmare and saw everything clearly. Something there showed me I was worth more and to leave him and save myself. I had no idea how spiritual Hawaii was before I went there. The beauty of the place and the people just made me feel alive and full of passion and it gave me strength. When I came back I left him.

Later on I found out about a Hawaiian goddess named Pele. She's the goddess of the ocean, volcanoes, wind, lightning, fire, and passion. She's supposed to help you bring out your own spirit, passion, fire, and ambition. After that trip I have always wondered if she might have been watching over me.

It's also funny that when I turned eighteen I got a tattoo of an orchid on my ankle. It was an instinctual thing. I just knew when I saw it, I had to have it. In Hawaii orchids are everywhere. They even put them on your pillows in the hotels. It's the only tattoo I ever got.


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mathira 4 years ago from chennai

You really brought about the mood of Hawaii right before our eyes carolinemd21.


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Sky9106 4 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

This is what it's all about Caroline .

It is all well and good to speak about the sorrows of life , because they are there waiting to possess , but the truth and the secret of real life and living, are the triumphs over those adversaries and depressing feelings that are simply waiting for wary souls to possess, and sink into despair.

The hairs on my body, whatever's left of them , rose , when I heard you celebrate your victory.

That you came back and left him . It did not raise for for the act act of leaving, but for the courage to come to the source and preform the act.

Had you been face to face with that entity, the evil spirits would have been too over whelming for you to break free from ,you would have only more questions . But you were placed in clarity for that reason.

Sometimes all it takes is a change of venue , a friend , a look to the sky , a true thought, A belief in ones self.

It's a beautiful revealing poem and also a very inspirational.

Great work Caroline

Bless.


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WD Curry 111 4 years ago from Space Coast

The poem didn't need the explanation, but it was a welcome addition. You have courage to bare your soul. That is a good way to set such pain firmly in the past where it belongs.

You learned a good lesson about the spirit realm. I will not dissuade you with my doctrine. I will say . . . there is Holy ground, and we have lost our awareness in this world of concrete, steel and glass that we have made.


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Mathira- Thank you for reading.


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Sky thank you for your caring words as always. I am glad it struck something in you. It is sometimes really hard to save ourselves from the darkest situations and we need a little help. I am glad you liked reading this.


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

WD thank you for your kind words. I have learned that writing about all my experiences has helped me get past the pain. " there is Holy ground, and we have lost our awareness in this world of concrete, steel and glass that we have made." Wow. I like that a lot and totally believe it.


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Cara.R 4 years ago from New York

I enjoyed your hub very much. I think it is wonderful you had the chance to go and have such a powerfully moving moment and at such a young age. Your experience was definitely life altering. Beautiful story.


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Cara thank you for reading and your comments. I am happy you liked it. :)


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SJKSJK 4 years ago from delray beach, florida

Having visited Hawaii several times, this really brought back that feeling.


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

SJKSJK I'm so glad you liked it. Thank you for reading and sharing. :)


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Beata Stasak 4 years ago from Western Australia

A beautiful and moving story outlined in a blue cloud with a human face...what a wonderful start:)


Ghaelach 4 years ago

Hi Caroline.

Your Ex had no idea what a wonderful woman he had or he was to busy with his business to care about you.

Your trip to Hawaii opened your eyes and your heart and helped you take the correct route.

LOL Ghaelach


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Beata - thank you for stopping by and commenting. :)

Ghaelach - thank you for your sweet comment and for reading. :)


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The original Eman 4 years ago from london

Carolinemd21 this is deep . I'm so happy you was able to get out of such a difficult situation. I felt that you needed to spend time solely with yourself and understand your value as a person and i'm really glad you did.


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Eman thanks for taking out time and reading.


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tom hellert 4 years ago from home

C21,

ahhh, young love ya never know at the time its happening what the right thing to do is. it never ceases to amaze me how that sort of scinerio replays itself throughout a persons life cycle-

Hindsight truly is 20/20 boy oh boy-I gotta say- I was in the same type situation- my gf changed who she was and cheated on me if we didnt ave a daghter together=it would have been easy,,,,I am glad you escaped without any major issues or residual problems but I digress-as for Pele- she seems to have an interesting way of growing ang growing making "the islands" that much more special

TH


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Tom you're back! lol. Missed seeing you around. Thanks for stopping by and leaving your nice thought out comment. I guess everybody goes through there own problems which makes us grow. It made me depressed afterward and I had problems with school and relationships afterward. But I did get over it. That's horrible that she cheated when you guys had a daughter, but the good part is that you did get a daughter out of that situation. Another person is always special, even if they aren't in your life at the time. Thanks!


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tom hellert 4 years ago from home

c21,

mt daughter has recently turned against me - her mind clouded and poisoned by her stepfather and her mom-the one who changed/// now she has changed my daughter against me... I am trying to mend things while still defending my actions that were in comparison very simple and logical- I was ccused of only caring about money but-where did she get that from???? how did she know what I pay- how did she know when I was out of work in the hospital we got the payments removed but then she wasnt told when I restarted work I started paying again-or when I went back to work for less she was told that I was going to court to lower my payments-yet not told when her mom got 83% of my check...until I just told her- they lie to her to support their lies....

Its quite frustrating

well thanks for listening...

TH


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Tom I'm sorry that you have to deal with those hardships with your family and don't get the chance to have a quality relationship with your daughter. That is so sad. All I can say is that maybe for right now this is meant to be. That everything happens for some crazy reason or another and that all will work itself out in the end. Maybe you need to figure out some way to overcome this with her so that you can have a relationship again. Don't give up hope. Thanks for sharing.


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tom hellert 4 years ago from home

C21,

thanks...

"there is always hope"


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Thank you Tom for that. I need some hope today.


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tom hellert 4 years ago from home

C21,

why today?

TH


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Tom just was feeling a bit down earlier. I'm good though. When am I going to read your next hub?


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales

An up up and away here and here's to so many more to share on here.

Take care and enjoy your day.

Eddy.

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