I didn't choose love


I didn’t choose to love you

I didn’t choose to love you

I just did

I didn’t know

In which way

My heart

Would break

But I knew it would.

I know Fate doesn’t have a heart.

She is the sister to Justice

Wearing a blindfold and scales in her hand

 In long velvet robes of blood red

Wielding a long golden arrow in her other hand

So love strikes where you would least expect it

In the places you think it would never grow

That first kind of love, the beginning love

The kind of love that one person can have for another

The cruel love that burns unreciprocated

Unappreciated, tormenting and destroying

Just one

But we make it through, we make it out

We wait it out, and do the things we must

Until Aphrodite shows us the path to self-love again

And if we look for it, it comes.

The Goddess eventually shines through.

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Nell Rose 6 years ago from England

Hi, Erin, Ooh this is great! lol just up my street, as we say over here! and the pictures were perfect with it, I don't know if you have heard of p.c. cast, she writes the House of Night vampire books for teens, but she has also written some fantastic books for older people, called the Goddess series. There is Goddess of Spring which I am reading now, Goddess of the Rose, which I have read, and it's great, and another one, which I can't remember the name of, I think you will love them!

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epigramman 6 years ago

..well I came, I saw and I conquered - and I certainly chose the love of your writing ......

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Erin LeFey 6 years ago from Maryland Author

Nell, I'm so glad you liked this. I would love to incorporate more of goddess imagery and magic into my poems, I may try that next - as soon as I wrap up the short story in the next chapter. I feel them individually all the more powerful with the coming of spring - my writing does tend to lean more toward the magickal and spiritual in this season...I will have to look up those books. Thanks for the heads up on the Goddess series!

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Erin LeFey 6 years ago from Maryland Author

Epi, veni, vedi, vici - isn't that it? I am so glad you chose to love my writing...its mutual!

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b. Malin 6 years ago

Lovely words, lovely pictures, both seems to express all these feelings so well.

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Doug Turner Jr. 6 years ago

Sad but also uplifting; you paint a sparkling picture of the different emotional phases of love. Great pics to go along. You speak the truth: love chooses to manifest itself in strange ways that we can't control; we can only hold for the ride. Cheers.

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Erin LeFey 6 years ago from Maryland Author

b, thanks so much, my friend.

Doug, that seems to be my trademark - I can be sad but I can't end on a sad note. I'm honest to a fault and too much of ME shows through - and I'm an incurable optimist even at my worst times. Thanks for your genuine comments. I think I've seen love too many times from too many sides not to know its patterns and phases...I hope that doesn't make me jaded...namaste my friend.

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always exploring 6 years ago from Southern Illinois

Very deep... Self-love is so important. This is poetry at it's best.


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acaetnna 6 years ago from Guildford

Oh simply beautiful Erin. The pictures are wonderful too.

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Erin LeFey 6 years ago from Maryland Author

Thanks so much Ruby, it seems after a break up or after losing any type of relationship even with friends, that self-love is the one that is so hard to get back. Namaste my friend.

Acaetnna, thanks so much, I was going through your page again today too, just revisiting :) beautiful

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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS

Loving another broadens us but loving ourselves deepens and centers us. The deeper, more centered we become, the more genuinely we can expand to love others without needing to possess or demand of them.

This is a lovely poem, Erin.

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Erin LeFey 6 years ago from Maryland Author

Thank you Nelllieanna, your words are true. Its hard when you can look down at a situation and know that its not the right love for either one of you - it hurts - but when you have two people reaching in two opposing directions, I know that love will not be enough to hold them together. The temptation is to try anyway, but better to stop before you both damage the friendship beyond repair... Its a hard lesson. Better to go on loving yourself and the other, from a distance and find that which is better suited for you. I believe that love is everywhere :)

Namaste my friend.

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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS

Well, I spent 18 years trying in an untenable situation. I had reasons which I really thought I could salvage, but it turned out that was not the case anyway. But second-guessing is futile, though taking firm responsibility for the choices and decisions one has made - however they turned out -is what saves a person. But it doesn't change some of the consequences, so it is wise to do the calculating of risks and probabilities before the damage is done or has become more severe. You are wise to realize that. Hugs.

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poetvix 6 years ago from Gone from Texas but still in the south. Surrounded by God's country.

You have shown the achingly lovely layers of love in such a beautiful way. I have to wonder if there is any greater or more powerful human condition. I don't think so. Thank you for sharing this.

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Erin LeFey 6 years ago from Maryland Author

Nellieanna, It may be wise, but it feels so cold. You only get to that point after being hurt too many times. Then how do you know if the real thing comes along when you are too busy doing damage assesments in your head? Oh how I wish I wasn't this way sometimes. Thank you for your hugs, I needed that!

poetvix, i agree with you, and i think it is the most powerful human condition especially when you figure in the layers and all the different kinds of love you can have for the different people in your life. Thank you for sharing yours as well, you write some pretty powerful verse yourself!

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prasetio30 6 years ago from malang-indonesia

I didn't choose love, but I hope love will find me. Actually, I really surprise to read the title for the first time, but inside this hub so beautiful. I hope Goddess share the love to the people on the earth. Vote up. Cheers....

Love and peace,

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Erin LeFey 6 years ago from Maryland Author

Prasetio, Love will find you, my friend. It finds us all when we least expect it. The Goddess is the Earth and she keeps all things in balance, love, life, peace, - everything - both good and bad. I'm sure if we honor her, she will bring love and bright blessings to the people of the Earth. Thanks for the vote, and blessings to you my friend.

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