Just not good enough

The story of my life

Do you ever feel that you are 'just not good enough' or is it only me.  My whole life I've always felt as if I am almost good enough but just not quite there.  It's never made me depressed or anything, just accepting.  Accepting of the fact that I'm just not good enough to make it.  There is always one essential ingredient lacking to prevent me from being a success.  I guess, that when it's happened to you your whole entire life at absolutely everything you've tried, then being just not good enough is a part of you.  Everytime it happens to me, I just say to myself, "Okay, you're not quite up to scratch, let's see what else we can try."  As a result, I have experienced so many things and tried so many things, that I'm a jack of all trades and master of none.  There's nothing I can do really well, to be able to make a living from it, yet all my life I've heard how talented I am.  So I guess, I'm still searching for that elusive ingredient that'll make me good enough.

Therapists and psychologists will tell you that the essential ingredient is self-belief.  Yeah, I can see that but here's the rub.  I do have self-belief.  I believe that I am good enough.  What pisses me off, is that other people, not family and friends, but the other people whom you need to recognise your talents, don't.  For some reason or other, I don't quite make the grade.  I look at other's efforts and wonder, "How the hell did they manage to make it?"

In elementary school, I was told I had real talent playing netball, but I never made the team.  Everybody said I was funny, kind and caring, but nobody wanted to be my best friend, or invited me to their house to play.

In secondary school I was the one everybody came to when they had problems.  They appreciated my advice, but they never invited me to their parties.  The boys used to pay me to write their love letters and love poems for them.  But none of them ever asked me out.  I was told I was an excellent hockey player, but never made the first team. 

In teacher's training college I was told that I was very bright, but I never won any awards.  Although I was everybody's best friend and very popular, no boy wanted a serious relationship with me.  I was always almost there, but not quite good enough to be the chosen one.

I paint and have been told by many that I'm a good artist, but I'm just not quite good enough to make it into the big time.  I am an excellent cook and baker, but just not quite good enough to turn it into a business.

I am every man's best friend, the person they turn to in times of trouble and stress, the person they confide in who gives up her time to help.  But yet, even after that, I'm not the one they'll choose when they are ready for a serious relationship.

Over the years, I've gone into every kind of craft-making business possible to try to make extra money.  Although I had a few sales, it was never really good enough to persist with and always ended up costing me more money in the long run.

Now I write.  I tried to publish my books the old-fashioned conventional way.  But I was just not good enough for them to even be considered by a literary agent.  I believe in my books.  I believe in my writing, so I've self-published, which some look on as an admission of failure.  For me, I am putting my money where my mouth is.  I believe I can do it and for once in my life, I am not going to be accepting and think I'm not good enough.  I'm going to frigging do it and show those literary agents who wouldn't even read my manuscript that I am good enough.

But now, I look at my three lovely children who I raised single-handed through a mess of broken relationships and I feel so proud.  When they achieve, I feel that I was good enough.  When people complement me on my children, I think my heart is going to burst with pride.  My children are stable and balanced, something unbelievable after the journey we went through together.  They've had excellent education in international schools.  They've seen the world.  They never see me as someone not quite good enough, They always brag about me to their friends.  They are proud of my many talents.  Okay, so they probably have rose-tinted glasses and think they'll get more pocket money if it's reported to me that they've said nice things.  As their mother, I was good enough.  And I guess in the end, that's all that matters.

The kids and I
The kids and I

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Eldritch Elegy profile image

Eldritch Elegy 7 years ago

I relate to every word you say. My life's story is summed up in the Lamb of God lyric, "Just enough to keep it together / never enough to make it work."

Your family is absolutely beautiful, and I'm glad they appreciate everything you've done for them. I hope I have the same success with my own child.

I believe I will make a point of bookmarking your book until I can purchase it.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Eldritch! Yeah, I feel overcome with love for my kids at the moment, until I walk down to the kitchen and see what mess they've left it in lol


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Teresa McGurk 7 years ago from The Other Bangor

What a terrific photo of you and your kids! I never had any kids for several reasons, so I very much admire someone who can raise THREE! As for your writing, Cindy: just remember that many many many many (i.e. lots of) writers don't get recognition they deserve immediately. And the 21st century is full of thousands of us all trying to compete for agents and publishers -- it's a very hit and miss profession. All we can do is support each others' efforts and hang in there.


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Rochelle Frank 7 years ago from California Gold Country

Look like you "done good"., and that is a fantastic family portrait. You have some very rare talents, maybe not the ones they give tropies for, but if people confide in you and seek your advice-- that, in itself says you are some sort of special person.

Keep up the good work.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Teresa and Rochelle. This is why I just love being a part of the Hubpages Community, as everybody here makes you feel good enough. (Except those nasty nitwits we've been collecting on the doggy doo list!) I do like that family portrait as it wasn't the sitting still and staring at the camera type.


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Tom Cornett 7 years ago from Ohio

I love this hub because I can relate to it so well. I began writing songs at the age of 14. 40 years later I have yet to produce a single hit song. I've had many, many close calls and it seemed as if fate axed my chances away.

A while back, a friend of mine, Lawren Lelko, called from Nashville and told me that he put a song that I co-wrote with him on his new album. The song is called,"Sailing to the Port of Heaven. Lawren told me that an Army Colonel friend of his listened to our song every day after work. He told Lawren that the song gave him peace and relieved the tremendous stress of his days.

The Colonel was in charge of treating wounded soldiers coming home from Iraq. A Grammy Award seemed so insignificant at that moment and still does. I realized then....the lives we touch with our writing is the real reason we should write. What you have written here has touched my life. Your honesty, effort and accomplishments make you shine far brighter than a Praise Light of Fame.

You have a beautiful family...write within your own light....then, you have arrived as a great writer. You arrived many times years ago....you just didn't see it.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Tom, you've made me cry and I'm not even depressed! I've been thinking about writing this hub for a while, and as today is Tomb Sweeping Day in China, thought I'd put it out there.


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Silver Freak 7 years ago from The state of confusion

You've been reading my diary! What can I say, been there, done that, got the T shirt but it shrank in the wash. If you look at my jewelry on www.silverwearable.com , you can see that other people seem to think it's great and beautiful and blah blah blah, but I'm looking at having to go out of business, either that or sell it for what it cist me in materials.

I think almost is the nastiest word in the English language.

Good hub!


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Silver Freak, I made jewellery, candles, wire fairies, t-shirts, ceramic stuff...but you're always lucky to just cover the costs of setting it all up. How do the others make it successful when their jewellery is not as good as yours? Maybe, we're just too good and that's the problem.


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Feline Prophet 7 years ago from India

Hey Cindy, don't knock yourself! There are plenty of us who probably feel that way. I think a good way to view life is not to compare oneself with anyone else...you do the best you can and that's great...and they do their best...what's to say they don't think it's good enough either?


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

True FP, but if you're wanting to do something to be able to make a living from it, like Silver Freak and many others, it's soul destroying if you believe that you're good enough and others say you're good enough, but somehow your market just doesn't take off, or you feel like you're on the fringe and not quite good enough to be in the group. It's nothing about really comparing yourself to others. You just want to be someplace you're not and don't seem able to get to.


C. C. Riter 7 years ago

cindy girl, you are good enough, and what a great looking family. good looking kids and all sem happy and healthy too. You hooked me upon my first discovery of you. I love your style of writing. You'll make it, I know you will. Your good. I also see your fan base grwoing like crazy, that should tell ya something.

I used to feell ilke that too, then after working in the Oil Field I learned thee is no such word as can't. it's now can't hardly. Just keep plugging away


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Yeah, but sometimes plugging is tiring....I getting old now, lol


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Mighty Mom 7 years ago from Where Left is Right, CA

You are a wonderful, strong person and a fabulous hubber! You've really enriched the community here with your hubs and comments. All the best, MM


C. C. Riter 7 years ago

I'm getting there too, 59 in june


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks MM, I'm having so much fun here. I put the kettle on an hour ago and still haven't gone downstairs to make my coffee!


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Feline Prophet 7 years ago from India

I hear you Cindy...just hang in there! :)


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Jeez CC, 59 isn't old! It's younger than my mum!


C. C. Riter 7 years ago

Well, younger than my wife too. haha


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Yeah, sometimes I feel that time is running out for me. I just want to write full time and give up teaching, but have my son starting university in July and my youngest still has 4 more years of school, just have to keep working and it's so frustrating


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The Captain 7 years ago from The Carribean

Cindy: It seems like everyone here can relate and I am no exception. It is a great looking family photo..You all look awesome. Hope you get everything you want and more!


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mayhmong 7 years ago from North Carolina

At least you get recognize for your talent! I'm barely noticeable?! Like you, I went through school and didn't have any close friends or relationship. But now I've became somewhat a little more assertive and started to invite others to join me. We may not feel appreciated, but there are already so many praise spoken of by our talent and gifts we offer. Some people like my boss acts like such a jerk in front of me, but he really appreciates my hard work and putting 110% to keeping everything cleaned and organized. I guess some people have a strange way of showing that they like you and find it hard to admit it. Just so you know, we love you too! (((HUGS)))


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Captain and May! I do think there's many of us who feel the same way, maybe that's why we're all attracted to the HP Community! Thanks for the hugs!


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gjcody 7 years ago

cindyvine ....most people can relate to your hub.  I am sure you have succeeded in a lot more ways than you give yourself credit. 

I too have to say that you have a beautiful family.  Looks like you all have a lot of fun.  All we ever have is what we leave behind.  And it looks like you have greatness in your hands.

Just a thought.  Sometimes we stop short of our goals and we move onto something else only to leave just short of the gold. Like the story of  "Bear Claw Mining" ....Biggest gold strike ever at that time.....The first owners got tired of digging,digging and digging...so they sold it...the new owner dug three feet and the rest is history.

We always use this in our training for business.  I hope it can be of some help ...but keep on mining ...I know you have the talent. 

My best to you health and success!!


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Shalini Kagal 7 years ago from India

What a lovely picture cindyvine! Finally, like you said, that's all that matters - if someone you've imparted something to thinks you're more than good enough, that's the ultimate test! You've probably seen more places, lived more, experienced more than most!


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Jewels 7 years ago from Australia

There's a fair amount of character analysis around this one. The "I'm not good enough" character. I have one as well and been working to change it and it's working. But every now and then there are a few steps back after a few forward.

The wise say "It's not the end result that counts, but the journey toward it." So imagine what you've gained by being a jack of all trades. That makes you a master in itself.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

gjcody I think you are right, when we don't see quick results we move onto something else

Shalini, yeah, I have definitely lived, that's for sure lol

Jewels, I have been on so many journeys. Every now and then, you just get tired of yet another journey


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Cris A 7 years ago from Manila, Philippines

Didn't I just say that I hate hate hate personal dramas and "all about me" hubs? What about me (Cris)?! Oh wait, come to think of it, this is about me, too! Okay then, this hub is good enough! :D

btw, cool pic :D


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Cris! I would try and get up to bow to you but my butt is stuck! lol


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Lisa HW 7 years ago from Massachusetts

Cindyvine, the couple who started Zaggat's Guides could not get a publisher, so they published their books themselves. Later, at least one big publisher wanted to publish the guides after they had become hugely successful, and the wife of the husband/wife team said they said, "no thanks". :)

I tend to think that a lot of times, it is not that we are not good enough (or could not be good enough if we wanted to). It can be more that we don't care enough about one thing or another to become even better at it. People can be blessed with several "flairs" for something, or even talent; but if it isn't what they truly, truly, care enough about, they're often willing to just happily let those talents "come in handy" in day-to-day life, without following through and making a giant success in that one area.

I don't think people should think of those things as "not being good enough" - but, again, not being passionate enough about to do what it takes. I think, too, someone like you should enjoy those many talents/skills and see them as "pretty good for a non-record-breaker/non-medal-winner"; and see yourself as someone who has many falirs for things - and maybe more than than some others have. A jack-of-all-trades is still better than being a "jack-of-no-trades". :)

When all is said and done, an awful lot of parents really only care about their children/families. Many times when someone is willing to "do what it takes" to become a "prize winner" at something else, their children actually do suffer in some way. Good luck with the book, and keep believing in yourself.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks for your comments, Lisa, I think you're right. This is one reason why I joined hubpages and am so into it because just like a marathon runner has to practice running and a foot ball player has to train and practice football, I'm using hubpages to do my writing training. I think the more I write, the better I'll get. I don't even have adsense or any of those other money making things as that is not what interests me and what I'm doing here. Hubpages is my track I'm training on.


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Hawkesdream 7 years ago from Cornwall

Relating to this hub is the easy part , I think it must be the generation, do you remember the school reports, 'Good work,Could do better' think these words ring in our ears all our lives, They say if you hear something enough times the feeling sticks and we believe it.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Exactly, Hawkesdream, I always got 'Good work, could do better,' whether I got a 19 out of twenty or a 15 out of twenty!


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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

Oh Cindy you got it going on.That photo is just gorgeous.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Blondepoet, it is a good family photo!


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Jerilee Wei 7 years ago from United States

I could certainly relate to never feeling like you are good enough, especially when I was younger and it seemed like no matter how good I did, it just wasn't enough.  I think the message that we aren't good enough often comes from childhood -- I was always the last to be picked for the team, had a lot of lonely lunches with just me and the teacher or me and the lunchbox. 

Then, I think for many women, the men you choose (or choose you) often come with a bent for letting you know how much you fall short (when in reality it's them who have the problem).  It took me a long time to get that one.

Certainly struggled with the literary agents and publishers who even if interested made great promises and nothing every materialized. 

Now that I'm a cool sixty years old, I finally realized that I am "enough" and what I do is "enough" -- so all of that's good.  As I went through a diagnosis of invasive breast cancer last year -- I wrote and wrote -- and the supportive community of hubpages made me realize that I was afterall these years, indeed good enough all along.

Very thought provoking hub!


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks jerilee, appreciate your input as for me you are one of the stars here


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pkoson 7 years ago

Just not good enough


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Mmm, pkoson is stalking me now


J Mockridge 7 years ago

The opening paragraph says it all. Its like reading about myself.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

I must say, never knew so many others felt like I did until I wrote and published this!


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marisuewrites 7 years ago from USA

cindyvine, I taught school - elementary - for 6 years, and let me assure you, one of the best things I learned and became aware of in college (many professors even said this...) is that the average American on the ground runs the nation.  Nothing wrong with being almost....

I almost had a 5 Google ranking until I blew it.  LOL

almost having a flat tire, almost having a car wreck, almost getting fired, almost losing your lover, almost losing someone you love...almost is a good place to be when you compare it to crossing over into disaster.  It's the "almost" won the lottery moments that hurt....but still...I'm very comfortable with almost.

I almost make money on Hub Pages.  Now THAT I'd like to correct.   =)))


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

lol Am not even trying to make money on Hubpages as I think that might take the fun out of what I'm doing - writing for the fun of it. I just love writing!


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marisuewrites 7 years ago from USA

yep, I hear that, but it sure would be nice to make a buck here and there. =))) you'll get there too I bet.


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sixtyorso 7 years ago from South Africa

Cindy you are plenty good enough just look at the comments on this hub. Btw as you get older you get better at everything . Believe me sixtyorso says it all and enventually it all starts to work. It just a question of when not if. So stop cleaning the tomb and concentrate hard on when it's going to happen for you, because it will!! 

Hub pages give great love and support.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

lol Thanks for the support and comments, Sixty!


C. C. Riter 7 years ago

SOS, does that apply to sex too. I only wish it were true. haha


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

You don't have a one-track mind, do you CC? she asks batting her eyelashes


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Tatjana-Mihaela 7 years ago from Zadar, CROATIA

Well, Cindy if is up to my point of view - you are excellent!!! You have done SO MUCH in your life, much more then many, many others!!!

Good writer and successful writer is not the same. You just need to learn one thing more - how to become successful saleswoman of your own products. When you learn that, your book will become hit. Selling more depends of marketing strategies, then about quality of your writing...

Success is desire and passion. Only people who have strong desire to become successful, achieve that. It does not go overnight.

Do not forgett, you are more then good enough. Only thing you should learn is - marketing.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Hi Tatjana, and there in lies the problem I am no good at marketing. But, I'm working on it as I need to get better to succeed, right?


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Tatjana-Mihaela 7 years ago from Zadar, CROATIA

Yes Cindy, you are not good at marketing, but you will become good or even excellent in marketing...That is only choice you have in order to sell your book. I also used to have the same problem as you, and I am still learning (marketing and full self-confidence )...

Some tips: instead of "failure" pis, put the one with word "success"... Overall vibration of the article will be changed. You are more then GOOD ENOUGH!


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks for the encouraging words, Tatjana!


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Isome 7 years ago

I thought you were talking about ME!! I've only raised one child but I know the joy and pride that comes from having been GREAT enough to do that. You're obviously great to the third power.

Thanks for an excellent read!


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Isome!


C. C. Riter 7 years ago

OOO cindy, this is too weird. coincedental?


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Mmmm CC, no such thing as a coincidence I fear!


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Pest 7 years ago from A Couch, Lake Odessa, MI

I have no words of encouragement, of course, but I have always felt the same way as you...I have raised my son since he was six months old. He is now 14 years old. In the end I was, and always will be good enough for him.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Pest. Wrote a quick hub earlier today especially for you as you'd inspired me!


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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

Let me tell you Cindy you are not only good enough you are better.(hugs)


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

thanks blonde hugs back


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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

Seriously you are one of a kind, even though you have corrupted my innocence LMAO


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

me corrupt you, never! You with your talk of pearl necklaces have corrupted me


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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

hahaha I know the truth, you know the truth, what they don't know does not hurt them hahah.


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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

Cindy do you know where this interview is they are talking about?


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

What interview???????????


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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

The interview with CrisA the one that everyone is talking about lol


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

It was in the hub newsletter we were sent yesterday


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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

Thanks Cindy I haven't checked my email for three days no wonder I never saw it.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Hey blonde, you need to check your email regularly


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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

ohhhhh I have been slack forgive me for I have sinned I will go do it

Just checked there is nothing there from you. Was it a cheque for a million dollars??


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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

Forget that comment I made Cindy I just concluded you were replying to my comment here


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

I did send you a funny pic the old man with the big fish!


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Pest 7 years ago from A Couch, Lake Odessa, MI

That was some fish!


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Yeah Pest, didn't know old men could catch a fish of that size! I did wonder if he was a relative of yours and it runs in the family


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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

hey cindy what you up to this weekend


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

packing, packing, packing, but just sat for a coupla hours and di another hub, I am so baaaaad, don't have time to do hubs


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blondepoet 7 years ago from australia

woo hoo passing through


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

You are soooooo funny Blonde! You should be making happy juice enemas!


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sixtyorso 7 years ago from South Africa

Just following Blondie, here's my twopenyworth Whoo whoo too!

BTW re-read this hub and the comments. Man, you are world's away from that Cindy and you have grown heaps!


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Sixty, that's good to hear. I do try so hard and then sometimes you wonder, is it worth it?


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sixtyorso 7 years ago from South Africa

In your case absolutely. go girl go!!!


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Sixty! Hey am working on two hubs you might be interested in, one about the extermination of the Bushmen and the other about the Boer War. Might as well educate these good folks about our part of the world, eh?


\Brenda Scully 7 years ago

Brilliant hub, beautiful picture..... wish I wasn't good enough if you ae not....


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Brenda, you know you sometimes get those times when you question your self-worth? This hub was one of those times.


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sixtyorso 7 years ago from South Africa

Cindy looking forward to those hubs and I finally gave in and responded (late) to the cars thing.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

What cars thing, Sixty?


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sixtyorso 7 years ago from South Africa

The hubmob thing.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Yeah, I finally saw what you were talking about and visited it. Did you see I left you a comment? Hey Sixty, you going to be able to watch any of the games?


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sixtyorso 7 years ago from South Africa

I am hoping to get tickets for Loftus and Ellis Park but they are fairly scarce and pretty expensive. I did get some for the Super 14 semi's and finals and both were great games.

Otherwise I'll watch on telly. Tonights game against the Emerging Boks will be a good one.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Yeah Sixty, that'll be good! I leave for SA tomorrow!


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sixtyorso 7 years ago from South Africa

Well welcome home then. Where will you be living? I think you mentioned Cape town somewhere?.


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Will be between Hermanus and Cape Town, then leave end of July


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stricktlydating 7 years ago from Australia

Just from reading your Hub, you seem pretty good to me!


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cindyvine 7 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Thanks Strictlydating! Sometimes when we feel a bit down, we do start to doubt ourselves and our own abilities


LyteWeaver 6 years ago

hi there, i agree with every word you wrote to the point it bought back so many memories it made me cry. the only thing is that you have a happpy ending...my children still dont think i am good enough and it rips my heart out. thankyou so much for sharing your story.

love 'n' light,

x


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cindyvine 6 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Lyte, sometimes our kids think we're good enough, but they take us for granted so much, or are so caught up in their own little world that they don't show it.


Bill 5 years ago

You know, I can relate 100% to this article. When I read it I thought that it was about me. In my life it is exactly the same story. From my father who was never happy with anything I did, through schools where teachers said that we will not amount to anything, through work were my boss is always on my case that nothing is ever good enough, sometimes even through my wife I hear that I am not good enough. Just wanted to say that I hear you loud and clear and sympathize with You. You are not the only one who feels that way. Actually I thought that I was the only one who felt this way.

I also did a lot of things in my life, but was never able to make a living out of any of them. From playing piano when I was 6, to playing table tennis, to playing guitar, to bodybuilding, to studying different things, nothing ever turned out great. I also feel like Jack of all trades but master of none. I was only able to barely survive, but everything was always up the hill. Now, I am 46 and still not know where I am going, or why I am here. The only great person that keeps me going is my daughter who is 6. If it wasn't for her I don't know how I would be able to survive.

Anyway, just wanted to say that I understand You very well.

Good Luck

Bill


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cindyvine 5 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

You know Bill I am beginning to think there are a lot more of us out there than we think.


Lianne22 4 years ago

Hello. I haven't read all the posts. I agree w/ cindyvine's original post. My life has been quite similar. Now I'm going to write something that may be disagreeable. I think most of the people who experience these experiences are just - (unfortunately? / fortunately?) not good looking enough in today's world - and that is why we all became "just not good enough". If we were all just a pinch cuter - we probably all would have been good enough and better accepted. The reason no one got picked for the netball or field hockey team was because you / me were not cute enough. The reason no one married you / me and you had to raise the kids on your own was because you / me were not cute enough - and /or not rich enough to cover you lack of looks. You / me just didn't have that extra something - and so you were just normaland not cute enough to excel.


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cindyvine 4 years ago from Kyiv, Ukraine Author

Liane you are probably right!

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