Letter to a Cheating Lover
Letter to a Cheating Lover
You can't even look me in the face. When I try to talk to you about it you just look away and say I didn't do anything. It would be a lot easier to believe you if you hadn't lied to me so many times before. I'm not one to just believe anything anyone tells me but considering this source... its one I can't ignore and the fact that you admitted to being in the place of your dalience, a place where you swore to me you would never go, let's just say the scales are not tipped in your favor.
Maybe it's easy for you to think you are innocent or that it doesn't matter because you didn't have actual sex. You just put your hand inside her top and down her bikini. What is the famous line???"Define Sex!! To me cheating is cheating if you are in a relationship, I don't care if it's a "accident" or if you don't remember" or "if you were drunk" there is no excuse. You say I shouldn't be mad at you because it was two years ago. Does that change things in your mind, does that make it alright? To me it could have been 50 years ago. The fact remains that you betrayed me, that you shattered the trust that I gave you when you promised to never hurt me. The saddest part of all is that you threw away the love that I entrusted to you just to cop a feel from some little bimbo who walks around in the street in a bikini selling beer, and letting men like you without scruples play touchy, feely with her so she can get a bigger tip. I can't blame her, that's her job and considering everything else amybe she doesn't know how to do anything else. Another point to note she is not the one who had a relationship with me...it was you...it was your responsibility.
You hurt me and broke my heart. I spent all day listening to sad love songs and crying, wondering how you could do that to me. THEN "It hit me" . I was listening to a song called "Woman to Woman" by Shirley Brown where the wronged woman calls the other woman to fight for "her man". It suddenly became crystal clear. What the hell am I crying for? its not like she is getting a prize or anything great. If you would do it to me, you will do it to her sooner or later...its just a matter of time. What makes me really nad as hell and turns my stomach is that you have touched me with those same hands, looked me in the face and lied straight up. So I think my best bet is to just find some new songs. So I did. Here are a few.
"I got a new way of wearing my hair, got a smile on my face and you didn't put it there" "I done found myself a new friend" "You been stepping out now someone else is stepping in".
Amazing how fast my attitude changed, how much better I feel and I know that the biggest loss was yours ...not mine. I couldn't lose you because you can't lose what you never had. Maybe you can take a trip through the drive-through and see your pal...oops it's raining today, I don't think she'll be wearing her little bikini today. SORRRY!!! SO LONG!!
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